A lil prayer for a lil fren, Zhi hao. May you rest in peace. God bless ur soul. To his parents, hell i noe how it feels lyk to lose sumone u loved.. indeed, his death has made us stronger.. I received news frm my gramps. SHe told me my other gramps, as in my gramps nyer sista, passed away yestie. Inna lillahi Wa inna-ilahi rajiun... "Ya Allah, anugerahkanlah kematian kami dengan kematian ya baik lagi mulia, lancarkanlah lidah kami mengucapkan kalimah Laailahaillallah... semasa Sakaratul Maut menghampiri kami... amin... amin... amin... ya rabbal aa'lamin... "
This whole thing abt death and stuff, kindarf reminded me abt wad happened 2 yrs ago. I was 12. No wrong, i hadn reach 12 yet. I was still a freaken 11, young and innocent. Ive nvr tot of death in the family b4. Sure, i noe wad death is. But it nvr crossed my mind tht it actually happened on me, my family, my dad. Until 5th of March 2001, da day he left us.. It was scary. He died of high blood pressure. ANd he died rite ther in front of my eyes, our eyes, sistas, gramps and my mom. my mom, she was goddamned devastated. distraught. u shld haf seen da state she was in.. It was scary. It was the eve of hari raya haji, and peepo were havin kenduri jus downstairs.. So my siblings, they just ran da heck and called for help. cuz we were helpless.. totally.. sighh, why am i tokin abt this..?? He was buried the very next day. damn, i cud nvr forget da stufs i did wit my dad. I still laugh whn i remember those times we played monopoly together.. i was da banker and he kept on stealing money frm the so-called bank. wahahhaa..~ thn in the end, we weren' playin monopoly but this game 'hu gets to steal the most money wins' X) Dad always perked us up. He was always the one with the wild ideas. He took me out nearly evry fri after skool, to TP, to J8 and all those places.. Wahhahaa.. i still remember he bought me my very first Game Boy at j8.. I got lost in j8 and hell i cried my eyes out!! Ever since thn i got scared whneva he wanted to take me ther.. But i was young, arNd 8?? I dunno.. Wahahha, imma daddy's lil gurl.. at least i was.. Dad made me the person i am now. He was an artist and i heard he had this own band.. neat. he was the vocalist and guitarist. Wahahhaaha.. my dad was a rockstar~!! mom still keeps his electric guitar sumwher.. if only he were alive rite now, ill haf my own guitar wit my own signature on it... shawty rulz!! And dad too.. X)) Below is a song by S Club 'Let me Sleep'.. dedicated to my dad.. cuz this song kindarf describes how im feelin rite now =)) Rest in peace dad.. May Allah bless ur soul. Love u..

Shadows on the wall
Forming outlines of your face
I reach out to touch you
Through time and through space

In my dreams I'm always with you

So let me sleep
Ooo-oo-ooh Ooo-oo-ooh Ooo-oo-ooh
In my dreams I'm with you
Ooo-oo-ooh Ooo-oo-ooh Ooo-oo-ooh
I'll always be with you

Oh oh
Ohh
Baby

I dream that your here with me
Lying by my side
This wont last forever
Let's catch the sands of time

I don't want ever to end

So let me sleep
Ooo-oo-ooh Ooo-oo-ooh Ooo-oo-ooh
In my dreams I'm with you
Ooo-oo-ooh Ooo-oo-ooh Ooo-oo-ooh
I'll always be with you

Let me sleep
Let me sleep
Let me sleep
Just let me sleep

Oh yeah

So let me sleep (oh)
Ooo-oo-ooh Ooo-oo-ooh Ooo-oo-ooh
In my dreams I'm with you
Ooo-oo-ooh Ooo-oo-ooh Ooo-oo-ooh
I'll always be with you

Let me sleep for a while let me dream of your smile
In my dreams I'm with you
Let me sleep for a while let me dream of your smile
I'll always be with you

[Repeat until fade]