that sunday, Cousin Lily, Syak and I went Borders at Wheelock Place..

I wish I lived there or something.

I bought a calender..
Hahhaahahhahha.
it's the sort where you tear off the days..
50% off.
It would be a waste if I don't buy.
hehehh.

Initially i want to get the 365 cats.
then i got to the counter,
and i saw 'Get Fuzzy 365 days comic strip'.
i got that instead.

I love 'get fuzzy'!!!
punch yourself in the gut if you don't know what 'get fuzzy' is.
Or who.. hah.

it's a comic featuring this siamese cat (fuzzy) who hates monkeys, and.. practically everything else except himself.. and a dog (satchel) who wears a wrist watch though he can't read the time.. together with their human friend (Rob).

It's hiilarious!!!
Long live, Fuzzy.

After that, we had lunch at Sakae Sushi..
Ate sooo much, was so full.
I couldn't face another sushi.
recommendation: soft shell crab.
and dip it with mayo.
ooohh yeh.

Then we walked to Toys R us..
and got a couple of games..
we bought baseball, a frisbee and 2 kites.

And we drove to Ccab.
It's near smu on bukit timah.

The most slenger-est driver..
He didn't put on his brakes.
So when I pushed open the door and was about to put my foot out to the pavement,
I bloody hell couldn't.
The car was still moving.
It was a hill some more.
Cousin Lily was like "Err. Hi? You kind of forgot your brakes."

craap that was so funny.

Back to Ccab.
We weren't the only one there.
Of course.
There was some kids practising basketball, playing hockey and some were running on the tracks..

3 of us virgins tried to fly the kites.
But hey. Live and learn.

Finally we got the hang of it.
I did. Hahah. I rock.

Cousin Lily couldn't fly it for nuts.
We had no idea what Syak was doing...
but she seemed to have fun running with the kite like that.
as long as she didn't hurt anybody in the process, it should be fine.

The both of them got bored watching me have fun
(it was pretty windy anyways).
Then they grabbed the baseball bat and ball
(fake.. styrafoam. hahha..)
and played while I flew.

Cousin Lily pitched and Syak tried to bat.
She missed at first. Terrible miss.
Or maybe Cousin Lily just couldn't give a good throw.
But the second time she got it.
And Syak swung it hard, she did.
The ball almost made a hole on the field where it landed.

And I was challenged by Cousin Lily..
"If you can't hit better than your little sister, I don't know what to say.."

So i tried.
And I kind of missed.
Haha.

Then this white guy got to the field,
and he watched the both of us played for a while..
He has a nice pair of comfortable looking shorts
and.. oh, topless.

"Eyes on the baall, lelaa!" cousin said.
Huh? Which ball?

..

Missed the ball agaain.
And again.

The white guy was like saying to Cousin Lily, "You're not coaching her, are you? because you're wasting your time."
Love his accent and those--
hey. wait a minute.
what wasting time???

raciiist.
hahha.
nah.

racist white guy started giving tips a little.
I've got my own super tip.
Why don't you get lost?
And put a shirt on, for crying out loud.

After more misses..
I hit one!!
wot wot.
Not really a nice one.
But i hit!

and racist white guy.. has got a son.
ooh.
6-7 year old son.
there.
superr shyyy.
unlike the father.
hees.

Then we played frisbee..
syak's throws were super sharp, it will slice you into half.
or paralyse you from waist down if you missed.
Or if you did catch it, you might lose your fingers..
hehh.
damn she's so fit.

played our own version of softball.
Hahhaha.
it was just the 3 of us anyway.
we borrowed the balls from racist white guy and shy son to mark the bases.

They said i should stick to pitching..
because i "can't hit very marvellously like my 11 year old little sister."
very well then..
urmph.

finally decided to go home..
said bye to new found friends; racist white guy and shy son on kick scooter.
but we kept bumping into them again and again
and then saying goodbye over and over.

reached home at 8.30pm.

momma was pissed off that we didn't get her any burgers.
the hell i was going to!
if i did, it would be the 4th time this week she ate fast food!!
and not including the time she ordered pizza..

not normal for mothers to eat at fast foods so often.
shouldn't that be my job??

just as i was about to take my shower,
sriee called and pulled me back down to cruel world.

"you going to school tomorrow?"
"oh fuck. 3rd january already!?!"
"amaths test la."
"..i knew that."

Instead of revising, I watched tv.
channel i 6 weeks.. adrian pang.
sighh!
we need more of this kind of local tv series!
unlike archar..
i don't get archar..

That night i couldn't sleep.
hahah serious.
i kept thinking of amaths..
gosh..

so i stayed up instead and did some revision.
it was almost midnight.

hannan texted, found out i was revising and i found out he was in a movie.
talk about injustice.

Nah.
i had my fair share of fun today anyway..

"you're serious about this test, aren't you lela?"
"i am. i need this, man. i have to pass. pray for me, okie?"
"i have a gut feeling you will. you really are something. i mean compared to what i am, what i'm doing now, you really are."

and the already-fucked bugger (which is me) went like.. "fuuckk.. so sweet."
it's the sort of sweet where you must put a fuck right in front..

hannan, my ego booster(:
muahahhahahah.
when he said that, it was so.. poignant?
hahahhah.

if i still fail (touch wood!),
it would really be super embarrassing.
here someone thinks i'm 'something'
and then i end up.. 'something else.'

hannan was fucking sweet enough (there I go again) to ask how it went so i told him..
it was craaaazyyyyyyyyyy!!
but at least i could do most of the sums.
just not sure if the final answers are right..
hahh.a.
big duh.
it has always been that way hasn't it??

sly sim sang belaian jiwa!
my hair stood on end, i tell you.
in a good way(:
soo soo soooo cool
sly rocks.

before i go, i want to saay that racist white guy is no racist la.
i was just crapping and playing round..
and i'm not really thaat bad on softball, okie!!

lastly.. my heart goes to the victims of the tsunami.
it was devastating to watch the news and the aftermath of the whole thingg..
lots of dead bodies..
houses damaged and belongings and possesions wiped off..
they had nothing left.
we're lucky, aren't we?
we should count our blessings and not take this for granted.
at least tourists have something to go home to.
what about the locals?

think twice before you get that new pair of shoes.


I had a somewhat blast weekend.
hurhur.

Saturday.
We went over my relative's house at Tampines.
I. Love. Their. House.
So. Cool.

I don't really love their house.
Haha yeh correct.
"Make up your mind la."

I love the way it's located.
It's on the ground floor
and just behind.. is a frigging park.
Park complete with playground and stuff.

if i live there,
i would eat and eat like a pig,
and not worry about ending like one.
because there's a frigging park
just behind the wall of my bedroom
and i can exercise away the calories.

very convenient!

I don't mind the playground too.
despite the fact that it might get pretty noisy
in the evening.. you know, little kids and stuf.
I can dump my sister there
and pretend to look out for her
when I'm actually looking out
for, obviously, not her.

Of course i will still keep an eye on her la.
Anyway, she's turning 11 so there.
I've stopped playing in playgrounds when i was 11.
well that's because momma refused to take me to one!!!!!!!!!!

anywaysm.

we had dinner at kfc after that..
we found a table we sat down
and i went like, "why we here? I'm not hungry."
"i am!" momma exclaimed like a little tod offered a lolli.

I swear
i don't know what's gotten into her lately.
just two days ago,
she ordered pizza.
she had 5 slices.

i. am. worriied.

and pissed off.

guess what.
i called lina through her phone.
and her phone rang.
i answered it and went like,
"hello?"

don't get me?

you see. and listen!
(read, actually..)

lina supposed to be back from burger king by now..
(i got her to get me something to eat.)
but she isn't!
so i tried calling her phone.
i didn't know her left her phone at home.
right in front of me.
well.
right in front of me underneath those piles of cds.
totally out of my sight.
so the bloody phone rang.
duh, because i called.
and i answered it.
and i said hello.

there was a moment of silence as i composed myself.
didn't want to make the situation worst by doing what i do best;
____ __ ___ __ _______.

Then i shared it with hannan
(he was online anyways, too bad.)
believe it or not, when you share, it won't feel as bad!
try!

i found out that hannan's more of an ass himself than i am.
(See? you'll even get to know the other person better!)
it happened to him once.. where he called his bro
and then kept on shouting, "can someone get the bloody phone!"

craap that was so funny.

Sunday!!!!!!!
..

Nah.
I'll blog Sunday tomorrow.
Then I'll blog Monday the day after tomorrow.

Long entries are such a turn off.

yeh I just realized it.
..says the bugger who once blogged novel ish long entries.

later.



syahira called. "lelaa. we've got into east spring."

you have noo idea how fucked up upset i was! but that was really selfish of me. i should be happy for them that they got into a school..

i tried sounding cool and calm but i fucked up.

"Whyy!!!" i screamed into the phone. Then i rephrased myself.. "i mean, where?"

"Tampines."
"of course..am i the first to know?"
"second actually."
"whyy!..'s that so?"
"nurool unity was first."
"oh that's rich."
"she's been in our shoes before per."
"right."

and then she asked the million dollar question.. "you're gonna be okay, kan?"

The hell I'm gonna be okay.

"I'm cool, I'm cool," i lied. "I've still got Sriee."

Now thinking about it, I've only got Sriee. Very depressing.

Another reason why I won't be looking forward to 2005.

-deep breath-

twins got into east spring secondary. irgh. hate them, hate them. hate the school too, for accepting them.

):

confession time.

all these while i've taken them for granted. and now they're gone, it's like losing someone from your family. make that two people from your family.

Okie they're not really gone.. but they might as well be.

who's gonna stand up by me, and for me when i'm in need? who's gonna look out for me now?

(even though they're, like 10 years younger than me, they're like my big sisters.. how creepy..)

screw you, twiins! you've been there for me since kindergarten and have been sticking up by me ever since. for crying out loud, at least finish secondary school first~

you guys been there for me. i haven't got the change to be there for you.

actually i have la.. yeh, i have. but it's not enough!

you know? this is probably the what's-his-face vp's fault that got them dying to transfer out of peirce.

jkfsh gkjghksgh dsj agl!

sigh!

Merry christmas, by the way..


i have nooo idea this bullshit comes with a song!!
Sooooo sweet. So not me.
At least not the way I want to convey myself.
Not this time.
I mean, look at the picture.
And study my tone.
What do you get?

I will do the picture later.
When I come across a better one..

But I did those words. Yup.
I've changed the previous cheesy,
disgusting, lovey-dovey, cliche-ish stuffs.

I do not like cliches.
Getting bored of it, more like.
I especially do not like people who use cliches.

Unless they mean it.

Like when they say,
"I'll be there for you"
or "love will come when you least expect it".

Love can not come, for all I care.
at least not anytime soon la, please.
I've been a baad girl.

im having 2005 crisis.


I said stuff that might offend him.
Like when I insulted mel.
but i apologized to him after that..
even though i know he's cool about it.
i mean, it's not him to take jokes seriously.
i haaad to apologize
because its my nature to.
or else i won't sleep that night.

so i said sorry the next day.
he didn't even know i had offended him.
maybe i hadn't.
not that harsh that i thought i might have been.

but this time it was different.
because i didn't apologize.
because he ticked me off.
he didn't know it, maybe.
but hell he did.
so i showed him some attitude.
or maybe i didn't.
by that, i meant i didnt really 'entertain' to his stuff.
must have bored him.
and he logged off without saying 'later..'

this is not like him.
if he happened to get disconnected,
he would text me like he always does,
and apologized,
even though initially i found it silly.

am i a bore?
do i bitch too much?
maybe i don't bitch too much.
which brings back to square one:
am i a bore?

its alright.
ill figure me out.

gonna put up the convo i had with him
the night of the picnic..
i had planned to put it up
that day itself but nahh..
i'm perky and pacy, by the wayy.

promise me you will be there says:
how would you handle with an annoying BOY
perky and pacy says:
you mean you?
promise me you will be there says:
no
promise me you will be there says:
if any
promise me you will be there says:
so how/
promise me you will be there says:
what will you do
promise me you will be there says:
forget it..
promise me you will be there says:
anyways... how's riduan?
promise me you will be there says:
you love him dont you
perky and pacy says:
riduan? i dont love riduan.
perky and pacy says:
you meant ridwan?
perky and pacy says:
not that i love ridwan or anything.
perky and pacy says:
im just saying. anyway.
perky and pacy says:
if i like that annoying boy, or if i know he's more than just an annoying person, id b glad to b friends with him.
promise me you will be there says:
okay
promise me you will be there says:
what about...
promise me you will be there says:
riduan
perky and pacy says:
which riduan..
promise me you will be there says:
tha same one
perky and pacy says:
i dont like any riduans
promise me you will be there says:
okay.. guess next year's all about the O LEVELS
perky and pacy says:
yes it is.
perky and pacy says:
screw everything and everyone else who 'hate' you.
promise me you will be there says:
hahaha
promise me you will be there says:
yea
perky and pacy says:
yehh
promise me you will be there says:
guess next year wont be about being glamourous... or egoistic... or whatever
promise me you will be there says:
it'll just be about the studies
perky and pacy says:
but dont forget to have fun.
perky and pacy says:
all studying and no fun makes one (fill in the blanks.)
promise me you will be there says:
BURN?
perky and pacy says:
cudn think of any word better
promise me you will be there sends:
my_chemical_romance-i'm_not_okay
promise me you will be there says:
listen to this
promise me you will be there says:
you might like it
promise me you will be there says:
okay
promise me you will be there says:
im going off as it finished
promise me you will be there says:
finishes
promise me you will be there says:
later...
you make me fed up this year i won't get you anything ar.. says:
sso soon?

You have successfully received \my_chemical_romance-i'm_not_okay.mp3 from promise me you will be there.

promise me you will be there says:
i'll be fasting tmr
promise me you will be there says:
hahaha
you make me fed up this year i won't get you anything ar.. says:
hahahahhah
promise me you will be there says:
:)
now that that reminded me,
i haven't really listen to that song he sent.
so.
imma go listen to that song he sent.
later.

but what about that whole riduan thingie?

i go figure.
or not.


Paige: Are you hormonal or just plain crazy?
Piper: One woman can only take so much.
Paige: Okay, if these people walk out of their offices, what do you think they're gonna see?
Piper: Well, I think they won't be touching my stomach anymore, that's what I think.
Paige: Piper, that is not a good enough reason to freeze people.
Piper: I think it is.
(The elevator doors open. Piper unfreezes the people and walks in it. A lady that was standing behind Piper stumbles forward. Paige catches her.)
Paige: It's okay, it's okay, we all just get a little vertigo sometimes. (Paige gets in the elevator with Piper.) No wonder Chris grows up to be such a neurotic little freak. (The elevator doors close.) So you excited?
Piper: About what?
Paige: About what the doctor said. That it's gonna be a healthy baby.
Piper: Well, I know he's healthy. I've seen him twenty-two and walking around.
Paige: Well, you never know, something could happen.
Piper: Oh, don't be such a worry wart. Now you're starting to sound like...
(Chris orbs in.)
Chris: Hey.
Piper: Chris.
Paige: Okay, if this is about demons, I don't wanna hear it, 'cause I am on my lunch break.
Chris: No, no, no, I just wanted to know how it went with the doctor.
Piper: Well, you'll be happy to know that you're a boy.
(Piper holds up an ultrasound picture.)
Chris: That's not what I meant.
Paige: I don't see it.
Piper: Oh, see, it's this little thing right here.
Chris: Whoa! (He snatches the picture off her.) Excuse me. Do you mind?
Charmed Season 6, Episode 18: Spin City.

So much happened, so little time to blog about(:
I'll just say, that I've changed my layout. You guys can tell, can't you?

I kind of fancy this whole new blog concept thingie.
But hate the picture, hate the cheesy words..
Happy the comment thingie is awright.
Not really happy with those ugly AAA thingie..

These days, I've been away.
Maid in Sin Ming Avenue(:

Cousin Elly family went KL for 4 days
since Saturday. They just came back
yesterday. I did the math..

And while they were away, me and sister went over
their house to clean up and in an actual fact,
to feed their family (fat) cat, Knight.
But since we were there,
and the house was a terrible state,
we decided to be maids.

Actually, Momma had decided for us,
to be really good nieces and help
clean up while they were away((((:

When I say terrible, I really mean it.
Knight's vomit and everything.
It was disgusting. And the amount of cat poo..
And it was just one cat. Thank god.

Knight is heee-uge.
Just want to stress you that.
Heeee-uge!

Oh way to go. I can't put capital letters in this blog.
Apparently it must have something to do
with the htmls.. what the heck. it's kind of cute anyway(:

Where was I?

We got there, greeted by Knight's vomit.
I did the dirty work because Lina reckons I'm good at it
and I don't think it's something to be proud of.. really.

I was told that there were some dirty clothes to be washed.
I didn't know which were the dirty ones.
I scooped every clothes I found
on the beds and tossed it in the washing machine.
Lina suggested I should sniff.
Naturally if they stank,
then those were the dirty clothes.
Huh. The hell I was gonna sniff them.

Something wrong with the washing machine.
Or maybe I just didn't know to do..work it.
The clothes came out all wrinkly and stuff.
Lina kept saying it shrunk.
I said, why not you jump right in,
and I turn it on and see if you're right?

I was pissed off la. Who wasn't seh?
Having to go and clean after someone else's
when you can't even be bothered with your own?

You have no idea what I found on the stove.
Decomposing kentang rebus.
Ugh the flies and stuff.

If you think I was gonna touch it, you're wrong.
I know what you're thinking,
"lela can handle cat poo but not a couple of flies?"
You know what? You're right. I can't.
It was really gross!

I left it.

Lina swept the floor. So so so dusty.
And I thought my house was dirty.
Hah.

She watered the plants too.
She tidied everything up.
Like pushed in the chairs..
-rolls eyes-.
put the magazines in a corner,
the vases an everything.
Like I said, I did all the dirty work.

I never do any dirty work at home,
well not all the time I don't.
Because I have my gmum..
You think I'm being nasty.
But I'm always screwing things up.
I've screwed up the washing..
That's why gmum would rather do the housework herself.
Doing chores is a form of exercise.
I'm helping her, indirectly((:

After working, we didn't go home straight.
You kidding? We chilled over. Blast some R.Kelly
(Cousin Lily has like stacks of CDs!!)
watched DVDs: Harry Potter, all 3 movies in a row.
Serious!!! They've got 7Eleven downstairs some more!!
Like, hell yeh!! We went down,
(I think I recognized the guy
working there. Probably an ex Peircean.
He was staring at me like he knew me.
Or maybe because he was secretly
laughing at me and the state that I was in..
Don't ask!)
bought some snacks with our own money,
not stolen from the house, mind you!!

Momma called up and she was like,
when are you coming home???
"Not when you're screaming and all mad at us, no."
So she promised she wouldn't nag,
and then we went home.

She didn't nag(:

The next day, she wouldn't let us go there anymore though.
She got Gmum and Gdad to go over instead.
Now, I say that is nasty. Hehh.

Today Cousin Elly came over
and she bought us Famous Amous
Chocolate Chip with Pecans.
Oh, make they double choco chips.
She also brought over Harry Potter DVD,
the latest one.. the Azkaban, to watch
together.. (she's going off to Jakarta
tomorrow and will be back 3rd January!!)

So we watched it
and pretended to enjoy it
like we did the first time.
Didn't have to pretend actually.
I did enjoy it the second time.
Didn't really catch it the first time anyway..

Hannan is gonna end up in a coma
if he knows I say this;
Harry Potter is deliciously cute.
Hahha.


Saturday morningg.
I prepared chili tuna sandwiches.
20 super small slices..
I fed one to my cats,
and then 2 for myself.

Later..
Twins and I met up with Umeya.
Then we got her cake,
took a cab to East Coast
to wait for dearests(?) at Macs.

I was carrying Umeya's portable radio
and I have itchy hands
which no matter how much I scratch,
won't do any good.
You know what itchy here means right.

So I turned on the radio.
Soldier by Destiny's Child.
Current fave.
It got pretty noisy after that.
because Twins started singing along.
You think that's bad?
They sang it on high pitchy voice
and words all wrong.
An insult to the song, I tell you.

They knew they were insulting the song,
so they decided to play some song
which they knew the words to.

They played TLC, Waterfall.
I used to dig TLC((:
Lisa Left eye.
Until she was dead.
I stopped listening to it.
Because it's just wasn't the same.

...
AnYPoopSiee!!
The only words Twins know
to the song is the title itself:
"Waterfall".
I was trying not to wet myself
as I laugh my tonsil sore at them.
So I helped myself
with another sandwich.

We reached Macs.
We waited for less than 30 seconds
before we decided to take off first.
We looked for a spot.
Settled down.
And then it started to rain.
Ran for shelter.

7Eleven..
Nana and Atiqah were there
to get the drinks..
Rain stopped, a little drizzle..
Got our spot.
Settled down.

Had munchies..

Then the next thing I knew,
Nana, Qah and Twins
were splashing about having fun
in the water
while me and Umeya just watched.

Initially I planned not to get myself wet.
Because I hadn't swim for aaages
and I didn't want to make an ass of myself,
like those four were doing.
Hehehheheheh.

But as I watched them, I thought,
heck la. I would rather be an ass
and have fun, than a loser ass
looking like a professional one.

Nana bought extra shorts.
Just what I needed.
I changed,
with the aid of her tiny towel
and I was all hyped and psyhed
to.. to.. uh.
Make an ass of myself!
Which I'm pretty good at(:

Before that!
We potong cake!
Cut cake.
No candles, bummerrr.
But the cake was niice.
I had a biig share.
But not the biggest..
-stares at Atiqah-.
Nevermind la.
Organiser whaard.
Cehh.

Still having seconds thoughts,
whether to go in or not.
Was having the fifty-seventh,
when Syahira grabbed me by the arm
and swung me into the salty water seaa
(which at first seemed pretty welcoming.)

Then I realized,
I didn't have extra clothes.
But hey, now would be too late,
wouldn't it?
I was already in the water,
might as well stay.

Actually I could
get my ass out of there,
get myself dry up
and stay away
from the the view of the sea!

But did I?
Nooo.

So there(:

Paddle paddle.
Laugh laugh.
Paddle paddle.
Fun fun.
Float float.
Yell yell.
Spit spit. (spat alot..)
Paddle paddle.

The waves were amazing la.
Nothing can beat the waves,
like how the waves 'beat' you.
I was soo light,
when the waves hit me,
I was practically thrown
back to shore(:

Then we got back to dry land
and we played poker.
Taught them Stress.
Super fun!
When you're beginners..
Then after that, got bored.
Trust me, it's boring.
Try playing that game again
for the next 5 consecutive years.
Torture.

Twins went off to change
because they had to go off
to some silat stuff.

Thenn..

It kept drizzling a little.
Stopped. Drizzled.
And stopped again.
At first the 3 of us panicked.
We got our stuffs all ready
(Umeya had ran off impressively
fast, leaving us with the belongings,
including hers!)
then the drizzle stopped..
Big lerhh.
Hahha.
Big lerh?
Hahahahahhah!!!!!!!!!!

Anypoopsh.
We chilled...
Drizzled again..
Didn't budge.
Qah was like, "Just a passsing cloud!"
And we just went, yehh itll pass..
But it got frigging heavier!
Some cloud.
Sheesh.
But we were stubborn.
We stayed put,
shivering..
I say.. brr.
It's so cold in hrr.

But later it cooled down.

Had roti kirai.
Hahha.
Roti Anipp!
Hahhahaha.
With curry ayam.
Cooked by Atiqah's gmum.

Oh. I just rhymed those.
Pity qah's gmum.
Kanna rhymed by of all words,
ayam.

Ayam is chicken, by the way.

People kept approaching Twins
and taking their picture!!!!
From afar, I could see this group
following them from behind.
Then one white lady was like,
"Omg. Are you both twins??"
Flashed out a cam and
took their pic.
Something about game thingie.
Next, another two groups
approched them for the same thing.
Somehow, Twins ain't happy
with the attention given to them.
They'll only be happy
if they get to humiliate me.

Gonna miss them loads.

They went off.. bbyee.
We played some more cards..
It rained again.
Umeya's ex and his friend
dropped byy.
His friend's got a thing
for our dear organiserr..
But he can go dig his ass la.
:D

We watched some skimmers(?)
do their thiing.
..babat boyy!
Hahha.

Then the 3 of us
played in the sea somemore.
Sea.. lots of bubbles.
"bubbles".
We spat alot, you see.

We pissed in there too(:

We tried to do a somersault
in the water but faailed.
We tried to help each other
to do the somersault,
you know like,
pulled the legs up and over,
but people might think
we were drowning each other.

In attempt of doing a somersault,
I had gone partially deaf.
You know how irritating it is..
to get water in your ear.
I bet there's fish in it.

Must have swallowed
too much salt water..
Because we took
off our shorts
and waved it all about.
and we did the hokey pokey
and we turned ourselves around..
that's all it's all about.
Heyy!

Umeya kept an eye on
the stuffs.. I felt bad la,
now thinking about it.
Hahhah.
It was supposed to be
*her* day.
And she had to be the one
by the belongings.
Hehh(:

Heh.
I swam,
I mean, paddled,
faster than Qahhh.
But she just wouldn't
accept it, would she?
Hehhehehhe.

Relax.
She may not swim
as cool as I do,
but she can make a V
with her legs when she dives.
That, is something.

Nana?
She's funny.
Hahahha.

In the end of the day,
it doesn't matter
how ass ish we all are.
The point is
we had fun..(:

Fun, is not what
you can get very easily,
you know?
Especially now,
when school is
gonna reopen in,
like, what,
about 2 weeks time???

Boohoohoo.

I got home exactly 8.
Took a bath.
No tan, whatsoever.
Thank goodness!!
I don't want Momma
to know I went swimming.
I wasn't supposed to, remember?

I tuned on to Power98
and guess what song was playing..
Waterfall by TLC..(:


Ever since she watched Charmed,
she's been dying to have a Phoebe Halliwell's haircut.

I'm talking about my mother here..

So that's what I gave her.
A Phoebe Halliwell haircut.
Of course I brought her to the hairdresser la..
I didn't cut her hair for her..
I'm not scissors-friendly(:
No. Make that hair-friendly.
I'm always messing up my hair,
let alone others. Especially Momma's.
Geez.. an insect can get lost in there.

So I sat on that swivel chair,
watching the hairdresser do her thing
with my mother's hair in awe.

How could she stand the smell of her hair?
.. kidding.

She got the young hairdresser.
Lucky her.
I got the old one.

Not that I planned to cut my hair.
Not anytime soon.
I mean, by the time school reopens,
my hair's gonna grow.
Take it from me,
my hair grows at an admirable rate.
So I thought of cutting it later on...

And that old lady with her scissors and comb
appraoched me and smiiiiiled.
I was like, nooooo..
And she showed me this Jennifer Aniston hair
(who knows what century hair..
but it looks really neat..)
and then I went like, why not?

In the end..
my hair is not anywhere near Aniston's.
Big duh! Hahahha.
What you expecting!? I've curls.
Not soft silky straight hair like hers.
Nah, I'm cool. It'll grow.

That old hairdresser reckoned
I should rebond my hair and she was shocked
because I was all against it.

Just because every girls into it,
doesn't mean I have to like it.

And I don't have anything against
those who rebonded (NJ did hers!!).
It is their hair.
What they do to their hair
is none of my concern:D

Back to my mother's..

Move over, Phoebe Halliwell.
Because my Momma's in the house..

(note the sarcasm)

But she likes it. Hahha.
I like it because she likes it.
Everyone else in the house
like it too because
now they won't hear Momma
complaining about how tough it is
to comb down her hair every morning.

This also should shut her up.
Because every week when watching Charmed,
she would always talk about
how nice if she would have a hair
like Phoebe's. Now she has it,
she's happy.
More importantly,
everyone is happier.

Believe it or not,
only after she got her hair cut
then I realized my mother's got freckles
and brown eyes!
Not like those brown you get
when you scrunitize your own eyes
in the mirror real close no.
Just brown. Real brown.

Lina is away for her ncc camp tomorrow.
Three days two nights.

Yes! Can borrow her shades for picnic!

I miss staying late at night with her.
Even though we don't really do stuff
together or anything in particular.
It's simply her presence.

I 'borrowed' her Dicsman. (pfft.)
It's horrible!!
Using it is pure agonyy.
You can't sing along proper
because that thing keeps skipping.

I told her before
(before is when I thought
she might want to get me one
after she fuckingly lost it for me.)
"either you get a reliable Dicsman
or don't get it at all!!"
What a waaste of money.

I couldn't bear the sight of my Bio.
So I did more Amaths.
Yeh. Just thought of telling you that..

Cousin Lily's back from Thailand.
She called and was like,
"Hi lelaaa! I'm back!"
(She's the only relative
who doesn't call me 'ela'.)
And I was, "Ooh! Hi! Welcome baack!"
And we chatted for a while,
she talking about Thailand,
and then after that I gave the phone
to my Gmum, going like,
"Damn I didn't even know she was away."

I'm an ignorant little sucker.

Talk about ignorant..
please do ignore yesterday's entry.
(:


Been hiding this for too long.
Gotta get it out of my system.
I have a sick feeling
that something wrong's gonna happen.
I don't know! I hate it!
I wish it would go away!
But the more I try to push
the nasty thought out of my head,
the more sick I feel.

I think maybe it's my conscience.
Been ignoring it.
Been neglecting my revision.
And it's coming to bite me in the ass.
I should do something about it.

Like what?

Anyone?
I'm open to suggestions.

Maybe I'm anxious.
That 2005 is less than 3 weeks away.
School scares me.
Now that I'm gonna sit for my Os next year.

This brings back to square one.

But I don't care if this
'something wrong'
is gonna happen to me.
Don't really mind alot.
It beats it happening to my family.

Okie.
If anything were to happen,
I want you guys to know
I love every single one of you.

Awright?(:


The zit is getting smaller.
And redder, somewhat.
Haha.
But I know better
than to let such stuff
bring me down.

It's just zits, anyway.

-weeps-.
It's just zits..

Anypoops.
Back to the tit.
Title.

Yes
my life
equavalent to
many many lost opportunities.

It all started when I didn't swapped
my sisters 'mysteriously' at KK Hospital
when they were born.

Sigh.
I was still little anyway.
And I really thought they were cute.

What's cute is you guys reading this(:
and agreeing with me
that sisters suck.

I wish I had a brother instead.
Older one, please.
So he could bring over
his friends around sometime((:
And I could.. kpo-kpo.

I
keep
getting
out
of
point.

Hahha.
Just making my entry lela ish.
You know?
It's working!
It's working!!!!
-does cartwheels-.

Where was I
before my brain was
temporarily in lame mode.

Lost opportunites.

I can name a few(:
But I'd rather not.
-looks around suspiciously-.

Did you know Gmum bought Lina
a frigging Dicsman!?!?!

Favouritism sehh!!!
I should get it, instead.
I lost mine, remember,
because of my stupid sister.

(I'm not gonna go
'ooh that rhymes!'
because that's just
gonna spoil the whole
'ooh lela's got issues'
atmosphere..which I'm
kind of enjoying right now..)

I'm not jealous.
I'm furious.
And curious like,what
did she put in Gmum's drink
to make Gmum get her ass
out of the house
and buy her a
frigging Discman!?

Right now as I'm typing,
I can see
that Dicsman peeping at me.
I can feeel it.
The intensity of the stare.
Though it has no eyes.
Lucky that thing has no eyes.
I'd love to dig them out.

Nah.
If that thing has got eyes,
I'd fucking make sure
I'm not anywhere near it!!!

Do you think
if someone talks alot,
others might hate them?
Like, "Geez, you've got mouth
as big as an elephant's butthole."

Do you think
if someone doesn't talk much,
others might hate them?
like, "Geez, am I talking to
the tombstone here?"

Do you think
I might get any answers for that?
Or am I blogging
to tombstones as well?
Hm?
Hah.
Whatcha gonna have to say to that?
Hehh.

Oh.
Guess who called.
Guess who called and asked me out.

Of course I didn't say yes.
Who would want to go out
with a guy who
wants to know you
just because you and the ex
has the same name.

Anyway, like Momma would allow me
to go to some chalet at night
with a guy who
wants to know me
just because I and his ex
has the same name.

..
Shit.
Another lost opportunity.
Ugh.

When I say queen,
I don't mean me.
I meant this
stupid stupid stupid
fucking zit
right on my forehead.

It's not really on my forehead.
It's just closer to my brow.

But who cares!?
It's there bulging.
It's visible.
You see it before you see me.
It's ruining my social life,
I'm telling you.

And here I am complaining
about it in my blog
where David Yeo
would be reading
for all I know.

How is this helping?

It isn't.

It isn't helping too,
when my mother went like,
"ooh.. sexy pimple"
when she saw me this morning.

(i prefer the word 'zit'
because pimple is 2 syllable
and saying it kills
rather when you use the term
'zit', it's shorter and
it spares you the agony a little.)

I don't know about you
but sexy and pimple
is a weird combi.

Anypoops.
Yesterday was crazy ):

Emy texted me the news
that Miss Ho passed away..
I was like, sighh.. shit happens.

And then Twins called.
And they told me the whole thing
that she and her husband died
in a car crash in New Zealand
while away for her honeymoon.

I was really really bumped.
Even though I don't really fancy her..
I mean, she was young, fit,
and just married and then boom.
(No puns intended.)
It's the end.

Then Hannan texted me.
And he was pretty bumped himself.
The soft side of him I've never known.

To make it worst,
I was so ill yesterday and
I couldn't (didnt want to)
get out of bed.
Stupid migraine.
I felt like
ramming my head
against the wall.
I would, you know.

Instead I buried my head
under piles and piles of pillows
and curled underneath my blankie.
with Delfy too.

I love my Delfy.

I love Mackie too(:

And David Yeo.
And Sly.

Er.

You know what
makes my heart soar?
When my cats purr.
Just makes me go all soft inside.

And also when my cats
curl up next to me at night
and waking up the next day
and they still there!

That was what Mac did.
And I felt so much better today.

Until I saw this stupid stupid zit.
And I'm feeling sick all over again.

I think I'd rather go back to bed.

It's Bio week now.
I hate Biology.
It's interesting and all
but the amount of information
you must pretend to understand
is stressing me out.
Hence this stupid zit.

I'm outta here.


-} your hair began to fall out?
Its not like its gonna fall out all at the same time, rights? See a strand of hair and go fuck.

-} your best friend died in a car crash?
Cry my eyeballs out. But that won't happen anytime soon or anything because Delfy can't walk.

-} your most loathed teacher kissed you?
Ewk? For one thing, I'm not gonna be anywhere near him. Distance must be >3-m of radius. So. Explain to me again the possibilities of getting kissed by him?

-} you wet the bed?
Anything but tell Momma. I'd even drag the mattress out to clean it myself! Or just leave it as it is.. The smell can't be that bad.

-} you were slapped across the face by your mother?
She wouldn't lay a finger on me. Hehh. I'm not saying I'm more superior than my own mother. I'm just saying that I'm not someone who would rebel against her. If I don't rebel, I won't get slapped. Nothing more nothing less. [says the girl who punches her own mother.]

-} everyone forgot your birthday?
What, if I'm dead? Because no way they could forget. I'm always around to remind them(: Unless they do it purposely then.. I'd be really really hurt. .. heh..

-} you became a vampire?
Hunt for my potential Prince Vampire and we both can rule the world.

-} someone tried to rape you?
I'll turn myself into a bat and fly awayy. Not after I bite him, that is. What? You say I was a vampire.

-} your mother caught you 'doing something'?
'Doing something'? Oh. You mean like sex? She'd probably make fun of my partner's bare naked butt.

-} your father saw you naked by mistake?
Cover up. Duh. Hehh. Very awkward, huh? Sooo embarrassed I'd probably run away from home. Hahh. But. I wouldn't have to worry about that, do I?

-} your jeans fell down in school?
Prayed I had a cute underwear on.

-} were asked out by someone you'd always felt sorry for?
I'd feel sorry for him even more.

-} accidentally killed a cat/dog/horse/beaver while cycling?
Whoa. I'd like to see anyone try kill a horse with a bike.

-} you suddenly found you had the power of telekinesis?'
Very handy for a lazy moron like me(: Life's great.

-} you got a letter in the mail from your new stalker?
Time to buy new clothes. Make sure I stop wearing that ugly faded imitation adidas shorts when I go out.

-} you were told your family had just been murdered?
Don't you fucking dare curse me and my family.

-} you found yourself attracted to the same sex?
Yeh. Myself.

-} you sent an anonymous Valentines card and that person found out it was you?
I'm not a coward who sends anonymous cards. I'm brave enough to put my name there. I mean, I'm not the only Lela in this world.

-} your parents told you they wanted you to go to therapy.
"Look who's talking."

-} you accidentally sat on your little brother's hamster and killed it?
Flush it down the toilet. Who would want hamster carcass in the house?

-} you got asked to donate a kidney to your hated half-cousin?
"I'm not allowing you anywhere near my body!!!!"

-} you got an anonymous love letter?
Probably someone else's. Or maybe it's Syahida playing a prank on me.

-} you saw Spider-Man swinging by?
Nahh. That would probably be Hans.

-} some evil old man grasped your behind?
"Bastard." Punch him. Arh-bish!


Ewk. There's so many ants here..

Now. Before you go all ewwiesh and wondering what caused those ants here and thinking of the strangest of possibilities, let me tell you that this is absolutely positively normal.

Why?

Hold on while I stop for a mo. Ryan Cabrera's True on air!!!! -swoons-.

I've waited all my life.. to cross this line.. to the only thing that's true. So I will not hide.. it's time to try anything to be with youu. All my life I've waited. This is true..

Oh. And its true that I'm sweet. This fact explains why there's so many ants here..(:

Heaven knows I'm head over heels and it shows. I played every field I supposed. Well there's something about you. When you're around baby I have found I get lost.. in youu.

Lost In You by something something. This rendition is better than Westlife's.

Oh goodies. Two of my old time favourites in a row. Can my day get any better?

But ar.. Thing is, my day haven't even got as close as 'good'.

.. okie. That phrase sounded all wrong. If Mrs. O read this, she's gonna underlined that phrase with a really bright red pen. Twice.

I'm bored. I didn't do anything fun or interesting that I can blog about to boast my ego.

The only thing I did that's near interesting was watch my two loser sisters fight(: Now. That was really cool.

Glad to say Momma's feeling less foul today. Still foul. But lesser.

I reckon she loves Taufik.. she was smiling to herself when Taufik performed for this Malay charity show thingie..

It was nice to see she was feeling better. She looked better.. But after sometime, it got really scary.

The last time someone actually made her smile so madly was when she managed to pissed me off (and I punched her after that, remember?).

FYI, she didn't even smile in her wedding photos.

Okie. Everyone loves Taufik but hey, I'm talking about my mother here! Her standards are like super high, okie.

Damn these ants are getting on my nerves. Everytime I killed one, another three appeared. Almost very demonic.

I need to:
1. go out more often.
2. eat eat eat. (Sometimes I think I have worms in my stomach.. I don't seem to gain any fucking weight!)
3. buy school stufs.
4. do something about these ants' carcass.
5. stop waking up at 1 every morning.. afternoon, I mean.
6. learn how to make sandwiches by this Thursday.

Ah. Some picnic stuff Aspho and fatass Syid planned for Meya. I had sardinely invited Twins.

I don't think they'll mind. Hehh. Twins want to invite someone. If it's Firdaus, then I strongly think they should(:

If it's Luqman or anyone of his homiees, then I'm gonna poison those sandwiches.

Hahhaah on second thought, who needs poison? My sandwiches (or any food made by me, for that matter) is deadly enough to kill already.

Hahhahaha. I don't know why I loathe them so much(:

Aren't you lucky you're my friend and I love you? Zits and everything((: Mmmwah.


Mom's in a foul mood, behbee): Very very foul. Wonder what happened when I was gone.

Went Aspho's house yesterday to watch 2.. yummy movies. Muahahhahaha.

Samuel Rizaal. Whoo. A body to dieee for. He's the next [botak!] thing after Lex Luther. (..Lex is cute, okaye!!)

But what's with the kissing scenes, man!?

This was what happened last night... Hannan said to me, "Hi! Hehheh. I'm baaack!"

Yes you were. Like.. almost a week ago? But instead, I was like, "Welcome back! You've been missed!!"

"How are you, Lela?" "I'm fine." "Australia was a bomb. It was great--"

Hah. I didn't even have to ask(:

Listened as he bitched about this girl he met.. "She was as gorgeous as Mels. A bit better. Slightly better. And taller."

And I interrupted hastily, "Hahha. Yeh. Mels' a midget!" And he shut up. So I took this opportunity and asked him when exactly did he come back.

"Thursday night. Hehheh. Sorry I didn't call. Busy busy. So tired. It wasn't a big vacation.."

"At least you got out of Singapore," I said, still trying to figure out if I should forgive this moron.

Until he said, "Yea. Hahahha. And met some sexy devils..."

So maybe not. There was once I went like, "tsk tsk" and he went balls. I mean, ballistic.

"Of course we didn't think of sex at all! We are muslims. That'll be like a shameful thing to do."

"That.. wasn't what I meant."

"Oh. Okay. Whoops!"

"TSK TSK!"

"Everyone so friendly. Everyone just went like that [g'day mate!]. Endless greetings. So so beautiful. And then I came back. These singaporeans cutting queues.. they push, no apologies.. Sometimes I want to just scream."

Big pfft. Need I tell him he's a Singaporean too? As a friend, I kindly advised him to.. well, push them back. Duh? But he refused.

"So you'd rather scream and make an ass of yourself? You're boring."

"I'd rather be boring. Then be an ass."

"When you're boring, you look like one."

"No way. When you're boring, you look like Harry Potter!! A frigging nerd."

On the behalf of my moronic friend, I apologize to all Potter fans(:

"Hah. Yeh. Potter's a nerd!"(I apologize as well:P) "And everyone says you look like him!!"

"Yea. I don't get it though. Even my cousins."

"Your cousins don't get it?"

"My cousins say I look like Harry."

"Hohohohoho.. hey. I know someone who looks like him. Potter guy. Eh. I mean, Ridwan. Yeh."

"Oh. Sec 1 this year, right? Hahahha. 'Is he the darling from sec1?' Haha. You know.. girls. They somehow find some kinda darlings everytime amongst the freshmen."

"Hm!?" There he goes again. Mocking me.

"I mean, it's a compliment. I'm complimenting him. Dude, he's my friend."

I sort of perked up there. Hmmmm.

He started bitching about Suhandy. LMAO. He is so Mean with a capital M!! He is worst than a girl, I'm telling you. I was just sitting back and laughing.

You know? Forget diamonds. He is DA girl's bestfriend. You can fucking bitch about anything under the sun with him. On two conditions; you gotta have a powerful bladder so as to not piss in your pants. And..

you gotta have patience of a saint. Heh.

I know I don't. Couldn't tahan anymore. And I just went, "You're such a bitch, Hannan!" If I could, you know I would freaking draw the word 'bitch' on the wall all fanciful in bright colour and put up lovely lightings all over it.

Trust him to be talking about someone as 'interesting' as mould. Oh sorry. That was an insult to mould(:

"I'm sorry if I'm being annoying. But when some guy has no balls, it's wrong. Then you shouldn't talk about manhood."

Huh. "You've been bitching to me about him almost.. too long for my liking."

"Well. You didn't. So I started. Then, it's not a girl thing to talk about. So.. I will be stopping :D."

"I enjoyed your bitchings really. But too much also, not healthy la."

"Actually enough about him already. Even if he's a coward he doesn't deserved being puked at. Give him some pity, man."

"You give him some pity."

"No, you give him pity.. Omg."

"What!?"

"Guess who has a boyfriend!?"

And the bitchings continued.

Sorry not much of an entry.

Talk about boyfriend.. I think Lina has one! Okie. Maybe not la. But I think he likes her!!!!! Hehh. And she likes him too.

Because after she put down the phone, she was like, "Fuck off, Rohaizad. I'm not going out with youu!" Translation: Omg I can't believe this. Wait till my friends hear this!!

And then pounced on her phone and probably started smsing all her friends and telling them all about it.

Bits and pieces of what I heard she said to this guy.. "Going out? No need la. Lazy la!!" (Hey. Very very familiar phrase(:) "Come my house!? Come la. I'll make sure it'll be your last."

She sounds just like me, doesn't she(:

Omg. What have I done to her.

I wasn't eavesdropping. She was screaming. Anypoot. I think I might pissed off this Rohaizat guy.

He called home. And he asked to speak to my sis but, you know me, tone deaf.. When he said, "May I speak to Elena?" it sounded more like, "May I speak to Dayana?" So I told him, wrong number.

Minutes later the same guy called again. This time he was clearer. I, was in denial. A guy? Asking for No.1 Loser Sister!?

She was practically screaming on the phone(: But at the same time, she was smiling. Awwwwsh.

After she was done, I asked coolly, "Who's that guy again?"

"Rohaizad la," she said, as if his name was some kind of a disease that if mentioned out loud will cause you instant death. "You know that guy."

Ooh. "You mean, childhood sweetheart Rohaizad?"

I know that guy(: From Mayflo Pri.. I've seen him before. Lots of times. Being chased by my sister. Heh. Yeh. Ooooohh. He's cute la. He was, at least....

Hey, how come I don't have guys calling me? Maybe I should leave my number here.. Hehhe. Nar. Ewk.

The only guy I've spoken to on the phone is.. Theodore!!!! And Hannan. And Dart Fart. But that's different. They didn't ask me out!

Not that I want them to. Well. Erm.

Mom's in a foul mood, behbee. Very very foul mood. Wonder what she thinks of all this. Muahahah. Hm.


So my G is fixed. It's patched up just fine. Literally.

Like I said, it's got excess wood hammered to it; from the headstock to halfway down its neck. Haha.

Not in a good shape..

It's now standing in the corner of my mother's room secured between the bed and this cute little drawer desk which comes with the bed(haha), so that my G won't slide off.

(I thought of putting it flat down but afraid people might trip over it..)

I don't think I'm playing it anytime soon.. Wait till Momma gets her bonus, then probably I'll beg her for one proper G.

Hopefully red and black. Like Michelle B's. At least even though I can't play as well as she can, it'll look good in photographs. HAHA.

..

My Amaths textbook cover was ripped. Like, about time!! It had been in such a bad condition ever since the day Miss Teo Lee Loo introduced to us Logarithms.

So. I refused to continue with my revising after that. I mean, it's such a turn off! Makes practicing maths not a decent thing to do.

What am I saaaying..?! It has never been a decent thing.

But like I've said before, whn doing foolish things, do it with enthusiasm(o: <-fake clowny enthusiastic smile.

Yes, revising Amaths is foolish... when you're a pigg like me.

Oink back atcha.

I'm having Delifrance now. Comes with free Pepsi. Ooh the joyy of (free)pepsi..(:


I swear this is gonna be a short one. Hahhahahahahhahah.

Whoopie. Strike that(: Like I can ever keep my entries short.

Did you know!? Did you know!??! Asila saw my David Yeo last night.. err.. somewhere? MY David Yeo. MY cute-sy Davey Yeoy.

Strike that one too. I don't know what's gotten into me.

I think it's the Amaths formula, taking over my brain. Hey, Amaths formula! You doing a great job there! Woo.

Hannan's back from Brisbane. At least.. he's online. But I'm not speaking to him!! Considering I've been fabulously fiine the past week while he was away, I think I'll manage.

I punched my mother!!!! HAHA. Right on her shoulder. She was making fun of me first. So. There.

Then again it was supposed to be a gentle punch. But knowing me, lela(just in case you forgot), I don't need to trrryy to be gentle. I am already gentle.

Eh wrong. I'm not gentle and i'm not your little miss tough as well. I don't usually resort to violence.

Not against my mother, at least.. Yesterday was an exception apparently. But I swear I didn't mean to!!

Because somehow, she was crouched on the floor, groaning and rubbing her shoulder after that.

But she's fine!!!! So forget calling the cops to get me arrested.. Hah. Don't you think I don't know what you're thinking.

Convo with Is last night.. The ending at least. I find it super amusing.... I went like, "Have fun tomorrow. Floorball yay!" And he said, "You have fun tomorrow too okie?" And then I just stared blankly at the screen and.. "Me? Have fun doing what?"

Revising Amaths?

Okie la. It is a little bit fun. When (stress the word: WHEN) you know what you're doing.

I had fun sleeping though(: I dreamt of Farhan Kucing. LMAO. Pleasant one I must add.

It was practically raining the whole dayy. Wahh. So. Nice.

I've got a new stereo in my room. Blasted Nelly but it really didn't suit the whole atmosphere...

How do you hate your siblings!??!? I tried. I can't. No matter how much I loathe them..

Is said it probably because we "share the same DNA" and "seeing them" I can "see me".

Now that's just scary.

You know that song Taufik sang? The one that goes, "let's stay together.. loving you whether.. times are good and bad, happyy or sad.."

You know how high and whiny and shrilly his voice went singing that song. At least just that three words.. hahaha.

The 3 of us had a greaat time trying to sing that song and reach that high note... Actually no. It wasn't easy. Singing is never our forte.. Sad. But it was great laughing at each other trying to outdo Taufik.. LOL(:

I love David Yeoooo. I've designed a layout featuring him(: All I need is the html...... Or maybe I'll stick to Slyy..

Check out Vanessa's blog guyss. She's got a wicked Taufik layout. Pink, wicked Taufik layout, I must add.

Noratiah smuggling gums for meee~ Let us all pray she won't get caught(: .. amin.

Okie. Nothing more to add. For now. I'm outta here!!!


Right now as I doing this, my Gdad is fixing my G. I hope it's gonna work just fiine!! I really love my G!

Fuck my loser sisters. I can't believe they would do something like that.

Okie fine she was mad at me. Then say so. Pull my hair or gorge my eyes out or something. She didn't have to take it out on my things!!

My G, of all things. Just when I thought of trying out that new Cabrera song.

Actually she made my other sis do the dirty work. Which is the most stupid thing to do, trust me.

Okie we kind of had a small argument.. All I did was gave her some sisterly advice and to 'watch out that blooming attitude' and she said I was a nag and I said she was a sad idiot..

This is where she had her hands over her ears and she was going, "Lalalalala. I can't hear youu!!!"

Then minuted laters, I was in the living room when I heard an all too familiar noise coming from my room followed by a twriiingg~

I went in and saw my G on the floor. I didn't thought the damage would be that great. I mean, I dropped my G lots of times and its always hitting against the wall and stuff..

I picked it up and then the whole thing just came off.

I almost cried la, I'm telling you. My G is like my only possession after my Dicsman which my fucked up sister had misplaced it in school!!!!

Okie the thing didn't really came off. It was sort of dangling because the strings were still in place.

So silly me, I just haaad to doodle with it and the whole thing came off.

I think my sisters could see how disappointed and upset I was. That was when my other fucked up sister said to me, "She made me do it."

I ignored her and she thought I didn't hear her (she looked almost relieved) but I heard her loud and clear. I was just trying to let the words sink in.... or maybe I was not letting them.

I refused to believe she did it on purpose. I mean, hey, that's just mean!! ):

Forget it la.. my G's gonna be awright. I can hear Gdad hammering in the kitchen right now.. Hammering...?

I trust Gdad. He's good with these kind of stuff. He can fix aaaanything(:

Omigawd. Hammering??

Okie.

I should have bought my books yesterday insteaaad!!! Because 'that young thing' was there.. with the mother, some more..

I was reading Asila's blog and when she got to that part, I just went, Cheeee.. cheee.. chihuahua!!

Its okie!!!! It's no healthy anyways.

Oh. Asila daaarling. You're like telling the whole universe in your cute-sy bloggy that I like Ridwan.

Whoops. I did it myself too.

Hehh. This is sooo gonna start a controversy, you just waait and see(:

I don't think I'm blogging anytime soon. EHhehe. I know you heard me say this so many times. But this time, I'll try not to because I need to focus on my Amaths now.

So I'm going to leave you with this song by Cabrera, my next big thing. (I still love David Yeo, though.) Hey. Sly should sing this song. He has thaat kind of voice(: But work on the diction la. HaHA.

ANyway! It's not the whole song because I don't want to sound cheesy. Ehehhe. Just bits and pieces.

Oh. And this song goes to all the Ridwan of this world..

You might think I don't look.
But deep inside in the corner of my mind.
I'm attached to you.

I'm weak it's true.
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer.
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster.

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending.
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

Later(:


I gotta change my lifestyle man.
I'm living a life of a pig.
A muslim pig.
If that's ever possible.

I sleep at 2, 3 am in the morning.
Wake up to do my prayers.
Sleep again for at most 6 to 8 hours straight.

That makes me a nocturnal muslim pigg.
Oink oink.

Thank god I do not eat like one(:

Oh. I did my Emaths(:
It's almost done now.
Betcha didn't thought I would do.

Hehhe bonus bonus!

Piggy me wanna go out.
But so frigging lazy..
You know what?
I need something to look forward to.
I need something to psych me up.
Not sure of that spelling
but just leave it alone la.

Where's that something?
To know where,
I need to know what it is first.
Hahha.

Anyone?

Maybe I should take a bath first la......
Eehheehehhehehe..
Later.


What? What young thing? Eheheh.

Anyways. I've learnt one thing today. And that to keep it low and to only speak when I'm spoken to. In another harsher words, just shut the fuck up.

But then people will think I'm being hostile. And stuck-up. Well. Can't please everyone, can I.

Stop trying to, for crying out loud!!

Michelle Branch One of These Days in the background. "I tried being nice but that lead me nowhere.."

They think I'm nasty, let them be.

Britney Spears My Prerogative plays in the background. "They say I'm nasty. But I don't give a damn. Getting boys is how I live.."

Prevention is better than cure. I should just run away. Okie. No. Too dramatic. I should avoid eye contact.

I don't know la. Sigh!

You can punch me, slap me, pinch me, stab me whatever. But nothing hurts me more than the (negative) words you said to me.

I know you probably don't mean it. But apparently it won't make any difference now, would it?

I'm not mad. I'm just sad.

I cry too easily, man. And I also recover fast. So. You're lucky(:

Asilaa Number 1 gundu babe said 'that young thing' would be there!!! But he wasn't. Boohoohoo.

At least I've got Nelly Sweat CD(: Thanks, Asila!!!! For the n-th time. Haha(:

There was once a racist Chee-no-neh called Cindy Ang who called her fellow Malay friends, well, Malay.

I used to think that was pretty racist.. Every little thing that she does is racist. EHehhe.

But this morning when she went, "Hello Malayy!" I thought that was prettie cute la.

Shit. Hahha. I miss 3E1(:

Oh! I was on the way to school and there was this lorry of.. foreign workers. I think? And they were bloody calling me, "Adik. Adiikkk."

"Adik, adik. Bleh blah!"

I felt very superior after saying that out loud. Wah. I sounded very the bitchy and wicked and brave... Something I'm really not used to. Ceh. Hahahahahhah!!

Dah giler la tu, Lelaa..(:

And!! While I was waiting for Aspho at the busstop outside school, their lorry drove past!! I dived behind the big advertisement board thingie and lalala.

So much for the bitchy and wicked and brave..

Then there was Lolo(: And Tdo! Theodore I mean. Dricko too.

I miss school la!! Minus cranky teachers and sucky food and crappy classrooms.

Don't think I forget. David Yeooo!!!!!

Is! How could YOU say I'm crazy!? You're my demon partner, and demon partners don't call each other names. And what conspiracy you have agaisnt my David Yeo!?!? [sharpens claws-.

I got Syak to sing while I play Ain't No Sunshine. But she kept singing the first two phrases over and over again!! Made me play the first riff over and over again as well.. And I was like, when is this going to end? And then.. Oei! You're singing it wrong!!!

Pfft.

Then it was Lina. No hope. Gone case. I'd rather get Jerry to sing instead(:

She going to kill me if she reads this. Linaa, don't kill me yet!!! Read below!

She may not sing like a pro(standing next to her makes me feel like Beyonce Knowles, have I said that before?) but she's good at changing lyrics to songs and making it her own first single.

Single.. Reminds me of Nana. She's got many singles herself. EHehhe. It's a Qah-Na-La thingg. I miss Nanaaa!!!!

I'm out of here! Keep rocking, guys. [does that rocker sign and sticks tongue out-.

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...
....

HAha!! Just trying it out.
..
No?
Ohhkaaayye.

Outta here..


Couple of months back, Hannan once asked me, "Who do you like?" And I went crazy. "What kind of question is that?!! The hell I'm going to tell you who I like!!!!"

Turned out he was referring to the Singapore Idol. Duh(:

Back then, I wasn't really into it. And I know it was the 'in' thing. And I didn't want to embarrass myself further. So I just said out the name that popped out of my head.

"David. That beng guy," I added nonchalantly, to make the impression that I had watched the recent episode and that I was paaying attention. It was the top 30, I remembered.. I hadn't heard Taufik of Sly sang yet.

"Yeh he's good. But I like Jessea."

Of course you do, Hannan. Daamn I miss himmm!!

And as I tried to pay attention of Mr D. Goh babbled in front, I recalled that episode and went like, "Hey. I do like David.." I like him ever since(: even though after hearing Sly and Taufik.

And then he got booted off. I stopped watching Singapore Idol for a while. And also because after hearing Christopher sang that You Got Me Dancing song. Ew. Got me sick to my stomach. Yes, he's cute though.

I started watching it because everyone else in my family was watching it. Fell in lust with Sly because he's such a cute little thing. Did you hear him say "Thank you mama papa" just now!? SoOoo cute!

My liking Sly has nothing to do with his singing(I said this to Nurool). Well maybe part of it la. I like Sly because he's special(I said this to Pai). If I see him walking down the street(before he's all famous and stuff), I would give him a second glance(:

You know my taaaaste!!!!

But I heard Taufik sang Ain't No Sunshine and I just went liquified inside.. Don't imagine. Hurhur. Ever since then I couldn't make up my mind who I like. So bad, I didn't even vote.

Until now, I still can't make up my mind. Both are awesome!! I really don't mind who wins(:

And then!!! I saw David! And I went.. Ooooohh!! David! He loooooks gooooood. Ain't he, Vanessa!?

I knew I said I don't mind. But how I wish David was the idol!!!!!

But it's final. Hahhaha. Taufik B is our first idol!

Let my votes be annonymous, okie?

My whole family was screaming along with those crazy supportive fans.. Hahhaha. Except I was screaming "David" the whole time. I reallly really like him!

But I don't want to be a hypocrite and change My Sly pic to David.

At least not anytime soon. EHehhehehe. I can see myself ahead, still loving David(:

Lina said David "is ugly" and "Jerry looks better" and alot more mean remarks. After 3 minutes of going on and on about my "terrible taste", I squashed her with the tv remote.

It's midnight soon. I'm going to stop talking about Singapore Idol because it's going to be so yesterday..

Let me try to find something else to agonize about.

Oh yeh. Momma said I'm crazy! And right in my face! I was screaming "David!" very emotionally and dramatically, I had to admit, and she just stared in my face and went, "Gilerr."

Hey. Just a couple of minutes ago she was the one going, "I love you, Jerry!" and we almost called up the asylum. (She said she was being sarcastic. I said she was being crazy. And she did a bad imitation of Jerry's huge grin, which was not funny at all.)

We have made a deal. Lina's going to buy Taufik's album. And I'm going to buy Sly's(: If David makes one(prays hard-.), I'm going to buy it as well~

Or you can buy any of it for me as a gift(:

I'm suppose to be sleeping!!! I've got to wake up early tomorrow!! To get books.. Blearghh. But plus side? I'm going with Sriee, Aspho and hopefully Nana because I miss her!!!!!

We were supposed to go out that Tuesday but she was tired after working): And today we planned to see Umeya off at the airport but that was cancelled as well. Yup, she's flying to Europe!! Another lucky thing..(:

And oh. Hoping to see Potter Guy. If he's in school.. Ah. Fat hope ar. On second thought, it's okie. It's unhealthyy!!!

Daviiiiiid!!!!~

Cousin Elly met him once! She said he looks cuter face to face(She thinks he's cute too, apparently). Lucky thing. And she once skate with Taufikk!! In fact, they are skate-buddies. And she calls him Taufik Celak. Which is err.. eyeliner in malay. Because of, yehh, his eyes. Blooody hell. And she and Leandra are friends~

If you think I'm bragging, wait till you hear Elly herself. Ehehhehehehhe.

Oh! I've learnt Ain't No Sunshine! I can play Ain't No Sunshine on the friggin guitar!!!!!! But I don't have that soulful voice to sing it. But. Do I cARe!?!?!

Muahahahhahahahahahha.

Kay. I'm out of here..