29 april 2004 ' thursday

i was so tired yesterday, i slept at 9 all the way till the next morning. something i havent done for quite a long time. haishh. i miss sleeping... haha like i havent been sleeping. hehhe. yesterday was fun because we had pizza. hehe yupp! but at the same time, i kind of dreading it. because yesterday was the last. im not going to see crystal and zhao againn!!

okay everybody knows that's not true. because i'll still see them around in school. yeahhs. but its going to be different. i cannot sit down, chill out and talk crap with the both of them anymore!! eldds is going to be boring without them. seriously. i'm going to be very bored without them.

ill miss them. i miss them!!! -cries o'wellls. all the best for exams, yall. crystal is eager to get her butt outta school. hehe. i don't know about zhao though. nana and i didn't really get to, you know, talk to him yesterday. he had some maths remedial thingie going on.. and once in a while we had to drop by his class, psst-ing him to come out talk to us, and nearly got into trouble with v.tan aka strawberry. heh.

took lots of pictures! very stressing indeed. tsk tsk tsk. hahaha! hahha miss lim said im the 'sensible one' among dem all. ahahah!!! someone noticed!!! ahaha nahhh kidding. heheh. im goood. ohh nana, crystal, miss lim and i chilled out outside zhao's class, and we just.. talked. so nice -smiles and we poured out all our problems; uncertainty, doubts, confusions.. you know? just talk. and we felt so much better after that. we all did. -smiles

ahhh!! ive been wanting to just go up to hannan and stab him. yeahhh. but didn't quite get the chance. im sitting at one corner in the class, hes at the other end. he was running from me, during recess, on the way to mt all that. sheeshh! hannan's a wimp!! -evil laughter

Even in the canteen after school, i was standing right across him.. he positioned himself in such a way dicky was blocking me. hmmm. i was like, 'u cannot run away from death, dude. ill get you.' but i never really did thought i would see him again that day. but it looks like yesterday was 'meant to be'. because i was at the busstop after eldds, and he was there too. -smirkk

i was grinning away. hehe. but i didn't attack. he had got reinforcements. there was this 3e3 monitor or as ginny called him, the fishball guy. hahhaaa. i waited... i looked at him, but he didn't catch my eye. he refused to. wherever fishball guy went, he stayed right beside him. thats it, man. i called out to him, and told him to come over.

he was fumbling lamely, that irritating look in his face i felt like punching. but theodore, thinking he was being a good friend, was guiding hannan. he looked like he was ready to shield hannan just in case haha. thats good. he was scared. last night, on msn he asked me how my lunch was and i said, "mine was great. hows yours? hope it was good, because that was going to be your last..." and he just went, "oh no. got to go. william hung music video. bye." and logged off. ouhh a punk rock who listens to william hung? wow.

"time is running out, hannan! you want to die?" i asked. mann. is it so hard to just say sorry?! theodore's bus arrived. he yelled bye. hannan going noooo. i went, woohoo!! ahhahaha. no way out. but then his bus was right behind as well. that was when he said, "okayla. erm. we study during recess?"

grrr. no fun. i was about to have some fun tearing his limbs apart. i gave him that fine whatever look. looking like a dog who just found a bone, he was about to go when he stopped, looked at me again and said, "sorry?" now he looked like a dog whose bone suddenly vapourized into thin air.

ahh so sweet. but it wasnt acceptable. >.<

Today

Ermm. today was last day! ai tong thingie thingo i mean. haha yeahh. we ate there, as usual. bwahaha... got there, hongsui wasn't there. i was feeling kind of disappointed? yeahhh. so i 'tutored' ong yuxuan. haha yeahh. aspho's tutee's twinee. hahah. err yeahh.

i gave him the ribbon ketupats i was supposed to give hongsui. he took orange. -cries. but what the heck -smiles. anythng for them. heheh. and then guess who walked through that door. hongsui!!!!!

he saw me with yuxuan and he was like, got his hands on his hips, frowning at me. whoops. ahhaha. nana figured he got jealous. ahahahha!! he got a chair and sat next to me. initiative. -grins. that's my hongsui!!!!

he saw the ketupats but i hadn any left. he looked pretty bumped. hehe. then yuxuan gave up one of his to him. so sweet!!! i love him already. gahahhaa.. but he didnt have any clue what it was. hongsui was like, "this one... you put rice inside right?" smaart. i told him id make him another one. he didn't believe i could make ketupats.. sheeshh. so i untied the ribbons and startd working my fingers..

not easy. nuh uhh. but in the end, i managed.. hehehe. so proud! hongsui was proud too! she was telling this girl behind us, 'ehh. my tutor knows how to make this!" but it looked retarded tho..... kinda flat. haha. hongsui tried blowing it.... hahhaa. i adjusted something so then it was flat. and thin. u noe? hahhaa.

i taught him some mly words. yuxuan was busily during math... so hardworking. lalala. hahahaa. yehh. so i taught hongsui some mly words. he didn't believe half of th defination i told him. "my grandmother knows a little bit of malay. she talks mly to her mly friends at the coffee shop ther you know.." he said.. i was why suddenly about ur grandma? "ohkayyhe. interesting. your point is?"

"so don't you try to cheat me, hah!!"

ahhaha i love him!! ohh and he asked me when id be free... wow. a pri4 yr old kid, asking me out?! lmao!!!! hahh gonna miss him. heh.

after tat, went back to skool because ther was committee meeting. hahaha. arisa rawcks. heh. -winks. we got to the sc room. turned out meishh, xy, theodore and yvonne were playing scrabble?!! and carisa was mugging ther at one corner. wahahaa. and hilary duff come clean blasting frm the radio.. wow.

in the middle of the meeting, this elmo song was playing on the radio. it started off pretty groovy move to the rythme kinda song. i was bobbing my head while writing minutes.. and thn carisa was like, 'uh ohh. this song.. a lil childish. but...' and thn...

la la la la! la la la la!! elmo's soonng!!!

we burst out laughinngg.. a little errr at first. hahaha.. so cute!!!!! meeting over. ehehe. went hme wit arisa and theodore. so funn 'bullying' him. i miss theodore!!! hes a naughty boy now.. hehh.

study during recess?? i tot he was kidding. he wasnt actually. before we got off for recess, he was asking and all. was like err.. next week? but thn studying during reces!??!?! he sure he wanna sacrifice thattT!!? hannan's a dumbass -winks.

nurrul j: heyys. im reeli sorry i wasn ther for u just now whn u reeli needed me... im reeli sorrie!!!! next time, flag me down or something. stuck a knife on my head to get my attention. cuz these days been reeli distracted, yehhs? i wish i cud do something about it. but.... ill try to talk to her yehhs? if she gets mad at me, then thats her problem. i cant believe theyd do tat to ya.. o'wells. u dun need them. u haf me and nurool!!! -smiles. huggies! im here for ya, u can count on tat.

nurool: heyy. they s-u-c-k. biiiig time, behbee. green eyed monsters. c'mon. evryone flirts. human nature, yehhs? tat bitch is just plain jealous. sheeshh. u noe i feel like grr -screams. but then, mayb u both cud sit down and talk it out like mature adults. yes? but if tat darsen work, its plan b. kill her huggies! im here for ya too. -smiles.

It was really annoying. All three buses in a row refused to stop. That was because they were full. yehh, man. nabz and i were seriously getting frustrated. so in the end we got to school 7.25 am. weird thing was: not a single double deck bus. uh huh uh huhh.

sakura got hit by a paper plane this morning during reading. at first we saw planes being thrown and all. and sakura was like, 'if that thing ever hit me....' and thn it did. hell yeahh. if you heard someone going, 'sial la!!', that was her.

hahahaa. hehh. kuo en said im cute!! Hahaha. okay laarh. she didn't really say it straight to my face.. as usual, they were teasing me because of my 'incredible' height. and then kuo en was like saying something to yuwen in mandarin. i heard my name being mentioned and the word, 'ke ai'.

ke ai means cute right? "Haha. did you say cute? me? i know.. heheh." and then she said, "Ya lorhh!!! remember sec 2 camp at labrador? we both same group right? yehh. everytime i stood beside you, i had to really look down lorhh! very short short one, very cute lehh!"

i was like... wow. -blushes- whooa wait. sec2 only? now lehh?

we played badminton during pe. so fun! sriee rawcks! all she did was just stand one corner of the court with that lazy look on her face. she refused to budge or move a muscle. "i only hit the cock when its coming my direction. i don't go to the cock, the cock come to me." hehh.

hahaha.. weijie damned cute. hes gooood. ouhh! xingwai was absent today.. shucks. hes got nice legs.

history was not fun at all. it was creppy in fact. the pictures.. gruesome. and at the end of it, sakura was saying, "prepare yourself, lela. you must get used to it." And i was like.. get used to what? "are you saying what i think you're saying?" "ya what, it could happen. hari nak kiamat. cant you tell? nicoll highway collapsed, that was a sign." "okay. shhush it."

>.<

ohh nurool wants me to tell you all: she aint blogging today because she is tired!! yeahh. give her a break!! hehhs.

i spent whole of recess with nana. -sighs- miss her! we talked about... us. where we stand and all. i don't like the subject at all. but i cant run away from the fact that nana is right.

"I don't know what is happening to our friendship, la."
"nothing has happened, okay? our friendship is not gone or anything. it's still here."
"but for how long??"

ouch. but i was safe by the bell and bala's unmistakable voice through the infamous loudspeaker.

miss khai wants us to empty our desks by friday. sharkks. my bag was darn heavy!! i couldn't wait to go home! that was when suddenly sakura reminded me. group study??? ahhhh. might as well cancel it. sakura couldn't come anyway. shes got sc meeting or something. im not studying with hannan alone.

so i went around school looking for him. okay. i didn't really look for him. couldn't be stuffed. then he smsed saying he wasnt going. so yehh cool. phew. i don't like wednesdays.

"where are you anyway?"
"hehe. on the bus."
"you didn't even bother to tell me first?!"
"i did."
"well, must you get on the bus and then tell me?"
"i tried looking for you."
"*fuming*"
"so sorry."
"... okay so what now?"
"how about do it during recess?"
"no. what i meant was, how you wanna die?"

i think i might have freaked him out. because he didn't reply back. hehhe. hannan, uve always said atiqah is scary. well, i can be scarier.

stayed at the canteen with nana, waiting for aspho. nana was so bored, she started playing with her coins. i was too cheesed off; i was plotting a massive evil plan on hannan. yehh. i want to turn him into a scratch post for my demon kats..

next thing i knew, i was heloing nana looked for her 10cent coin. like a total idiot. hahha. we peeped under the benches and tables, between people's legs too and sherri was like, "lela! rosnah!! what are you doing?" nana was hysterical. "my 10cents!!!" and then everyone was like.. okayyyyee. i suggested she just forget about it. "noo!! that's my bus fare!!!!"

she found it, without much of my help anyway. it was nearly 4. we left. we said a silent goodbye to aspho and went j8 to have lunch.

nana ordered combo meal 1. but somehow she ended up with 3 fish. she was like, "ehhh?! wrong order!" but i went, "no nevermindd!!" i was about to help myself when the girl by the counter got up to us and took it away. darn it. should have taken some of the fries first.

hahaha. just this morning i read up about honesty.

yesterday norine taught me how to make a popping sound using straws. i got like six straws, and tried it. i did it like how norine did it, and then got nana to flick it. nahh didn't work. then suddenly we heard a loud pop coming from the table beside us. this buncha guys were tightening the straws at the edges and flicking it. nana was impressed. "like that issit?" I nodded my head vigorously. "yess! like that!!!"

we talked while we ate. mann. she asked me if i thought she had changed. again, i was saved. hannan smsed. his reply: i don't want to die young. i want to feel what its like to make love.

congrats. youve made me lose my appetite.

"well, uve got until tomorrow to do that."
"whhhyyyyy!!"
"do you mind, im having lunch right now. by the mean time, you go prepare a will or a death wish or something..."

i was smirking away. heheh. too bad that didn't last long. "so u think ive changed?" i thought for a while and then, "things happen. they cannot stay the same forever. they change. and people change too." i don't think she likes what i had to sayy....

as i made my way back home, i recalled what nana asked:

how long our friendship will last? well it depends on you. and me. and .. yehh. developing a friendship and keeping it, holding on to it, is never easy. it takes a hell lot of effort. this whole 2 years ive known you guys, are the best years ive ever lived. we've had soooo much fun together! the staying back after school back when we were secondary one, the very first pic we took in secondary two and those funny bits that happened during pe and music last year.... i still laugh just thinking about it.

we all may seem very distant nowadays. but that doesn't mean i've forgotten you guys. that is lame, okay? doesn't mean im never around you guys now means im not your friend. i still am, very proudly. but its really about you. do you still consider me your friend?

i don't want our friendship to end. there's just too much to lose. think about it.

if ive hurt you in any way, im sorry. but please, i beg you, please if you are not happy with me, or hurt because of me, come forward and tell it to my face. tell me what i did was wrong, tell me if there is any way to make it up. it hurts me to see you mad at me. and it hurts a lot more not knowing why.

Hey! Hi. Hellu. Heheh... What's up with tagboard.com? Facing some problems? I hope minor ones. My fingers are itchy. I want to tag. Hahaha...

First thing in the morning, i went off searching for emy. I couldn't find her anywhere. Wow. Okay. That made my stomach feel a little sick. hans will know what i mean. i don't intend to explain, though.

too bad we had to miss english. hahha. i wanted to miss mt... oh yeahh. the nurse said i've got backbone problem. and she was pretty pissed off because i didn't go checkup. i told her profusely, i didn't know anything about my having to go checkup. the nurse last year told me i was fine, and didn't mention a thing .... *sighs* the creepy part was that i had to go behind the screen, take off my uniform, and my sports bra. oh yeah. and my shoes. and there were two nurses there, watching me as i took it off. what gives???! privacy, hello?!

hahaha. *shudders*

something is wrong with my msn!!!!!!! yeahh. go figure.

chemistry test was a can-do. hehhe. covalent bonding is sharing of electrons, hans!! ionic bonding is transfering of electrons!! heheh. so fun, drawing circles and dots and crosses.. and khor's looking good. *laughs out loud* as always!

maths was fun too. i love maths! wee woo wave us wanie wanie worksweets to pwacwis. i mean, lee loo gave us many many worksheets to practise. ohh. i asked eva to help me passed emy's towel to her. it turned out emy was absent.... ohh that sick feeling in my stomach again.

we had physics remedial without the physics expertist. what the heck? we did moments worksheets he gave us yesterday. which i left it at home, in my geography file because i only got the paper during geography period. so i had to do it in fullscap, where i copied down every single question.. and every single answer from sriee, who got it first hand from noviani, who also didn't bring her paper, and damn she's good at physics!! and then we handed it to xingwai. cutiee. hahHAa..

then went home with sriee, where we met norine and noviani on the way out. we ended up following them to thomson plaza. norine wanted to get something for her mother. so sweet.

but she ended up using her money for lunch........ what can i say? she was famished. so were we. even though, noviani and sriee were .. moneyless. i treated them. heheh. so each of them owed me five bucks.

im very generous with money. but that doesn't mean i'm rich la. because i'm not. i just love to treat others. especially friends like norine and noviani and sriee (i owed sriee 30 cents by the way......). because i love that look in their eyes that scream 'i love lelaa!!' and they go, "lela, you rock!" They say it with sincerity. but no la. it's just my nature to be nice. *demure*

and it's mine to be so-full-of-crap too.

we ate at kfc. we had fun. i love them. we went home full, and happy.

oh and this is for ernest sum kum hong (hah kauu. full name wa bagi sama lu..). i don't care if he reads this or not. i don't care if you guys get him to read this or whatever. because... ermm let me see. because i don't care anymore?

okay la. of course i still do care. he's still a friend of mine and i will not and can never forget those who had came into my life, those who had made a difference in me; big or small. even if they come, and leave as instant, ill forget them not.

yeahh. this is for you, you moronic piece of gay ass shit. or in another word; bachienn!!! nahh kidding. -smirkk.


you don't ever notice me
turning on my charm
or wonder why
i'm always where you are

ive made it obvious
done everything but sing it
(ive crushed on you so long,
but on and on you get me wrong)
i'm not so good with words
and since you never notice
the way that we belong
ill say it in a love song


i didn't come up with that. i simply cannot be stuffed anymore. *evil laugh* I got it from this westlife song. i thought the words kind of suit this whole 'thangg' i have -- i mean had -- for him. hahaha. especially the underlined one. yeahh.

ive never liked westlife. that song now makes me look at them/listen to them in a different way. They'll remind me of him, and as time flies by, im going to think back, will only remember a vague expression of him, smile and... shrug it off. but will always stay somewhere in my heart. yeah. that sounds like a plan i could follow.

*smiles*

Hi. I'm feeling better now. Teehees! I scare me, though! One minute im ready to cry my eyeballs out, the next im chilled.

Thanks, Hans, for listening! And Nurool too. But she had to go before I got to the dramatic part. Hahha. Anyway, Hans here. Like Nurool, he's a great listener. Yeahh! Don't know what i'd do without you guys.

Nabs! You too!!! As soon as i got online, she asked how my hand was. Her concern touches me. You see, it's those little things.......

I got to Ryan's blog. Wow. Haha. She's got a sweet dedication for me. I read it, and i got all dreamy sighy. Really sweet!

Nana smsed, how the run went. *smiles* A simple sms, made me feel better. slightly, but it did. I love you, Nana!!!!!

It pays to have friends. Good ones, that is. *smiles*

Twins, very nice of them to accompany me just at my flat void deck. I was trying to finish up my 2 bucks ice cream. Yeahh. I was feeling so shitty, i just need to eat. I gave uncle 2 bucks, he returned me one buck. And i was like, "No no noo. I want 2 buck worth ice cream. Yes. Double that size."

Couldn't finish it. So i shared it with twinz. How greedy of me. Hahaha. But sometimes food helps......

Emy, if you happen to read this, i want to apologize again yeahhs? And thanks for sticking with me the whole entire run. no matter how many times i told you to go ahead of me. stubbornn.. irgh. but really sweet. very rare. *smiles* I really appreciate it. But at the same time............... *sighs*

ill return your pinkie towel to you tomorrow, yeahh? \w/ west side is the best side. smirkk.

I have no idea where to start. Okay. Maybe I shouldn't even start. Itd get me all teary all over again. And I hate that. Because I don't like to cry. No matter how better Id feel immediately after that, I still hate it. Ive had enough of crying today.

Peace out.

Hi!!! Just feel like blogging. Hehehh. Anyway, I've mugged a little bit of biology, a lot of physics, practised a couple of logarithm sums and I'm nearly done with Tabitha's present!

Lina was doing her art. She got fed up, tore it, scrumpled it and threw it out the window. At least she tried to. It was an A3 paper, so she had to squeeze it through the window ermm grills? Haha yeahh.

"Oeik. Are you nuts?!!! You can never get it through the window. It's too big. And it's ridiculous to throw that." So I advised her, "You tear that paper into tiny pieces. And then you throw it out the window. Easier, right? Dumbass."

I was on the phone with sriee. She asked me about some biology stuff.. I seriously have no clue what she was talking about.... I teased her to call up ____ and asked him instead...

"Don't want la. He's too cute. I shy around cute people.."
"Don't liee.. then how come you're not shy around me?" *wink wink*

Ashraf's parents came over today. They are a bunch of weird people...... They drop by too much. It's not that I mind. Hahaha. I love them. They're crazy. Aight. One minute I said they're weird, the next I'm saying I love them...

I was in the room the whole evening... Then Aunt peeped in, and said she bought some roti prata and asked if I wanted some. I declined. I was famished. But I've got a test tomorrow.. Aunt kept insisting I'm on a diet... She was getting on my nerves (: So in the end, I ate.

I was in the kitchen, stuffing my mouth. I ate like a pig. I guess I was seriously hungry. Hahaha. I tore the prata, .. drowned it in curry, ... shoved it into my mouth. Oohh I hate to see me eat. Hahaha.

I turned my head, and noticed uncle looking at me.

Ahhh. So embarrassing. I had half of the prata dangling from my mouth. I pushed it in with my fingers. I chewed slowly and swallowed hard. Ow. Uncle smiled. But it was more of a smirk. I know what he was thinking: "Haper nyer anak dara? Makan cam tu.. Hehe." But instead he complimented how slim I am.

Okayyyy. I lost my appetite (:

Aunt said I've grown taller. She asked what I want to be when I grow up. "A writer slash journalist slash newspaper columnist slash gareth gates' wifey." Hehehhe... Aunt suggested modeling.

I felt the digested prata in my system did a little weird dance of some sort. "I'm short. How can i model???!" And I was like looking at mom, clearly terrified. Mom wasn't helping at all. Because she was laughing away..... What gives?

After they left, I confronted mom. "What have you been telling them!? Why are they so weird to me just now? You guys talked about meeeee!!!!!"

My 'tok was going, shhhhh because he was watching Senario and I was screaming like a crazy kid. .. Mom said something but I didn't quite catch because my attention shifted to Senario on television. Then she got to the kitchenn, where she helped herself with the leftover prata.

Mom's unbelievable. Oh! My sisters and I can't wait for mother's day!!!!! *smiles* Hehhe. It's getting late now. Ohhh. Good night you all.

Hello. *smiles* Sorry, this is a bad reminder but... Examinations are just around the corner. Freak out everyone!!! Haha. Hannan and I are probably staying back this Wednesday for a group study. But then again, it wouldn't be called a group study if it's just the two of us. So those who are free that day, join us. No stress; just plain fun.

How can studying be fun?? Well, it's possible. Trust me.. Hahahahha...

Oh!!! Yes! How could I forget...

Happy 15th Birthday, tabithaaaaaa!! mwachs!!

Ohh no. Mwachs not an english word. Haha... Oh well. (:

(: My smiley looks retarded. Anyhoos, heyloos!!! hahhaa.. beginning to love tat greeting. hahah. yupp my font changed. thnx dearie kuzzie!! ur da best! mwachs!! now get out of my room and stop touching my stuffs. esp my phy notes!!! ive painstakingly mugged; i dun wan ur filthy hands all over it!

hahh.

ohh nooo!!! okie. frm now onwards, imma write proper eng. (: Yeahh. since exams r coming. i dun wanna b too used to abbreviations shiets. hahha yeahhh. i dun wanna end up writing them in my essay. aaeshyy.. (:

on second tot, lets just start tmr la, ey? ;)

ouhh. another retarded looking smileyy. oh well.

ermmshh. Went skool for the alumni thingie usher business thingo dingo thingiee.. [??]

Was supposed to meet yall at 1.20pm... i left my house exactly at 1.19pm. hHAha. tot skool wud b empty or sumfink.. hahah hell no. lotsa ug peeps were ther.

and ther were this 2 muthafuckers, sweaty and smelly ncc muthafuckers, and ther were seriously tryna kick one another's butts. i dun mind, reeli. i tot they were pretty cute. until one started to run, and run right into me. eww..!!

i recognized him. christopher. grr. i was like grrr.. he din even say sorry?!!

and thn they started circling me, tryna dodge one anothers kick or sumfink.. i was grrr. so not in the mood. at least one of them was nice enuff to let me pass first... no actually no. he was sayin to me, 'move la! move!!' and i was, 'wharrdd?? ur the one blocking my wayy!!' grrr. felt like strangling him wit my sc tie.

but nahh im cool.

lyka idiert standing by the front gate. cuz thers nobody using tat gate!! mostly teachers.. hahah talkin abt teachers, saw chengz!!! he was wearing tat same jeans he wore evry saturday. HAhHAh!!

i was hiding bhind tis pot of plant big enuff to shield me frm prying eyes [i was smsing kuzzie].. thn happened to see chengz walking damn fast [no surprise.. haha]. so i kinda jumped out frm bhind going, 'mr chengg!!!'

hahaha. he was like, apocot!! hahha. thn he slowed down, tryna regain his composure prollie.. hahha. he waved at me. i waved backk.. and was in a dreamy state whn suddenly ginny and theodore came running, ginny holding .. flowers?

'lelaaa! will u marry me?!' she was asking. i made sure nasim or richard aint arNd. and i showed her my finger. theodore found it crazily hilarious and he laughed :\ So cute la theyy.. i dno wad id do w/o them... *demure smiles*

was admiring the flowers ginny gave me, whn suddenly tis buncha guys on motorbikes err vroomed in... my reaction: whhaardaa?? one whole biker ganggg!!! one of them asked wher to park their bikes. was like trembling sia. hhAha weird.. even xy was like, 'wahh. i tot they were gonna attack u or something...'

ohhh!! rmb sophia and eugene?? ex-eldds members. yeshh. haah. i reckoned they knew the way to the ava, cuz they were ex peirceans. so i was stood by the gate, holding flowers [wth..], smiled at them..

sophia was like, 'eh? usher us lehh!' so i did. till like at the GO. she asked if im still in el. asked how we all doingg. so sweet.. too bad Tobing aint wit them!!!!! hhAHah!! tobing rawcks!!!! .. i think... *smirks*

ther was tis lost biker guyy. kinda cute. hehh. he asked whers the weighing scale. huhh.. hahhaa.

had a lil fight wit linaa.. was like reeli pissed off at her this morningg. but we're cool now. we're sisters. and we rawck. thnx for droppin by, linaaa. hahah. she still thinks bloggs r crapp, tho.

tis is to sonia: soniaaa nonniaaa loonieeaaa popiahh [??].. u crazie cornie balonie piece of pure krap!! ... i still cannot tag ur taggiee! so either u change ur layout or i wun tag at all!!

hehh.

Hiii (:

My ankle hurts. My butt hurts. Yupp. I slipped and fell. on my butt. in the toilet. just now. having difficulties walking. and sitting.

sitting on cushion (: And thers another cushion to support my ankle. okie. actually its my pillow (: Sharing it wit anggun. so nice, her fur against my feet..

yeahh. so im missing sc. student council. not shannon ching. haha.. lame.

tot id go hme and shit, and thn goin back to skool wit twinz laterr. ahh bish* ermm yeahh. so meish, sorry! ((:

haha. so fun. walking around in crutches. nothing serious la. just wanna xtra siket (: try it out and all. hahhaa.. late dad's. dinno mom still has it. weee~ wow. dad was shorrt (:

nabz absent today. so went to skool wit zhao. AHHAha!! nahh. just sat next to him in the bus. so awkward.

how the heck did i tripped over sriee's chair, knocked against mine, and nearly hit my head against sakura's. almost break my neck.

'lela mabokkk.' haii. .. *rmbed the 'mabok dance'* LMAO!!!~

eng turned out to b some insect place or sumfink.. first ther was tis fly. thn this heeeuge white spider. hopping spider :\ so creepy.

it got on sri's bag. sriee was so cool. she was like, 'sibok jer tau...' and tried to smash it wit her adidas bottle. but spider hopped away. in my direction....

ahhh!!! dun like spiders!!!!!!

next was tis bee. a lil drunken fcuken bee (: Was flying over our heads, a lil outta control. mrs o was teaching but instantly stopped. and the whole class was silent [expect some lame shrieks frm the girls.... not me. i covered my face (:].

thn mrs o said, 'soon tis bee is gonna hit the fann and die a tragic death.'

and it reeli did!!! the bee flew right at the spinning fan, hit it, ... , and dropped. right in front of our eyes. creepy (:

too bad spiders dun fly...

oohh nooo. thank gawd spiders dun fly!!!~

walkin to the atrium wit sriee. droick was frm the loo and walkin our direction. frm far he was like sneeringg tat aldric sneer and sriee suddenly, 'lerh.'

lOL it was the way she said it tat made it soooo funny. yupp. i laugheddd.

droick said sumfink. din quite hear. dinno he was talkin to me. so just walked past. thn he called out, 'lela.' i turned round a lil too sudden, and the floor was slippery cuz uncle was watering the plants ther wit tis hose, yupp. and i nearly slipped. thank god for sriee (:

'killed him yet?' he asked.
'killed hu.. ouhh. ernest? nahh. cant bring myself to do it...' *sad face*
'so u still like him?'

din answer him. and we just looked as summie and his gang walked byy...... >.<

bachiennn!

(:

yeshh. went home after skool. din tend to stay till 2.30 for sc. neeway, i seriously wanted to shit. cant shit in skool. diff environment. reeli weird. i need the comfort of my own hse, my own toilet, to shit. and shit comfortably. [??]

and i shitted. dno how. i slipped. landed on my butt. sideways.. hows tat??? hahAHa. ouhhh. was like laughing and moaning at the same time. owwwahHAahaaoww.. ? HAhha. lucky ive worn my skivvies already... or else id b lying ther in the loo, wit a baring ass.

okie la. i wanna snooze. mwachs yall (:

Changed my layout. HahA. sandstarz rawcks!! all her layouts r cool. check it out, yearrhs? hAH. like uve got nothing else better to do ;) unlike me.

mass run only for sec3. kinda funn. weird. but fun. wasn at all tired, all tat running/jogging. but why do i feel so miserably exhausted during 2.4? nervous? haha yearhh. and ouhh. ive no timing :\ Now, isn tat weird. like as if i din run.

ohh wells. retest nxt mondayyy. shiet. nurool and i were like semanget planning to meet.. time all set. place all set. sighhh. sish, looks like we've gotta postpone it.. againnn~ x_x

hehh. ate again during geog. noviani brought pringles. liling brought pocky! tasty!! hhAHa. got very thirsty after tat (:

revised math at the atrium wit twinz and sriee. lol guess whard. we found a note frm sadako to sakura [or the other way round], which said: 'meet me at the burger stall kat canteen.. thn after tat we go study math together, okie tembam?' Tembam, meaning chubby (:

Cudn stop laughing.. hehh. freakii. theyve got weird mushy nicks for one another :\ HAhAH!! but its reeli sweet tho (:

thn tabi, claire and sherr came along.. and they were going, 'hi lela!!' one by one.. sherr's was the loudest :\ and also the weirdest. cuz thn she was like, 'whevner i say lela, it reminds me of this westlife song... I lay my love on youuu.. i LE my LA-ve on youuu!' and she was laughing all the wayy out of the atrium, leaving me dumbfounded..... i dun get it. wads so funny?

slept during eng.. felt very bad after tat. mrs o rawcks. i love her. and she was all begging us to sit up straight (: I LoVE her. haf i said tat? yeahhs. shes reeli understanding. she was like walked into class sayin, 'i know the weather's hot and ur feeling very tired. im tired too. so how abt we cooperate wit one another? okay? okay.. (:' ended up sleeping instead .. >.<

ouhh! its lolo's bdaee!!! hAHha. lolenzo's. yupps ((: Happy 15th!

dun like v. tan... (: dreading evry cme lesson.. i wan channn!!

emaths common test was a can-do (:

ouhh lee loo blew off her top :\ it was scary.. just bcuz she gave us 10 secs to pass the papers back to the frnt, but we took more thn tat like mayb a minute, and she started cursing us and all... started sayin stuffs like:

'thers a diff between me and u! im the teacher. UR the students. so whard if ur the 2nd best class? ur attitude... sux! sux, i tell u!!'

shes scary.. esp whn she started dissing hannan >.< Poor guyy. he was just standing up for his rights, and lee loo started screaming at him....

' u all are staying back not bcuz of me. bcuz of this man here!' she pointed her freaki fingers at hannan. 'i called him a man. not a gentleman. a gentleman is a man hu behaves. and he obviously darsenn!'

i wanted to like, 'hey tats unreasonable.. ur unreasonable!' haha and get my head detached by wee woo? i wunk wink wo. ended up singing tis lame song, diaa oranng bapokkk.. tak senonohh. rasanya geliii..

spent most of my time during eldds chilling out wit crystal and zhao (: theyre so funn!! hahaha... we shld do it more often. just sit and talk (: They dun talk abt... bitchy stuffs. which is reeli a great change (: AhHA.. not implying anything.. HAhAHha!!

if u can turn back time, wad is the thing ud change?

i was listening to crystal talk (: she said sumfink abt wishing she hadn slack last yr.. zhao said hed wished he hadn chosen peirce. hAhHAh!!! i was like, 'huhhh?!! so ur like regret it? seriously?' 'no la.. no choice whad..' '....' 'how abt u, lela?' 'me?? nahh. im happy (:'..

and thn the both of them started talkin very quickly in cheena. oO Tat cant b a good can it? thn they started clapping Oo HahahA. okie tat cant b a bad thing (:

'Ur very weird.. as in easy going weird...'
'unlike the both of us. always grumbling and complaining.. lousy.'
'hahha. i grumble and complain too. but must always rmb. look on the bright side!'
'haha. ur reeli something, lela.'
'good something?'
'yeah.'

okiee. i like talking to them not bcuz theyre always complimenting me and all. cheyy. HAhAh! its cuz by talkin to them, it makes me feel veryyy... wow! hHAha. they make me realize stuffs im not sure off. and they make me feel good abt myself (((: i feel good talking to them. listening to them talk. two mature and also lame ppl. AAHHAh!!

younger guys.. kindarf overheard what lim said to aspho.. yupp.. and zhoa was like, 'age does not matter.... but ill nvr go out wit younger women.' crystal was like, 'yes!! i prefer mature men. not those lousy childish boys..' *crystal look* hAHha! 'and nvr start a relationship until u start working. cuz its reeli abt moneyy. whod wanna go out wit u whn ur broke?' -zhao.

tats so wrong!! wads wrong wit starting a relationship now? i mean, no rush and all. but reeli. having relationship right now will prepare u for the big thingg. and ull haf more experience frm ur prev relationships and.. yeahh... rite? isn it?

'but its weird la. whn i see young couples, im not jealous la, but ill get goosebumps all over....'

ouhh tat ive gotta agree!!! 'yea, munz.. like tat classmate of urs and his girlfren...'

'yahh!! and somemore shes sitting in frnt of me. and he will always go to her and.. u know... thn ill hafta cover my face wit my book...' and thn realizing my expression totally changed, zhao immediately stopped.. 'sorry sorry.'

>.<"

crystal was talking abt how bad her eyesight was.. i told her to take it off. she refused, sayin shhe wudn b able to see a thing if she took it off....... and i was like, 'hehhehe... coool...~' at first she was, yeahh cool. and thn, 'wait, wad u tryna sayy?' and zhao was like, 'hahha. lela sadistic..' XD

ahhh.. miss poon rawcks. HAhAH! was wit her and nana and sddenly i felt like im 2 yrs back (((: 1e1'02. ahhh. AhAHha.. so carefree (: i think my g2 pen is wit her.....

laughed so hardd wit salmon, nabz and umeya in the bus.. we got up 165. but thn ther was tis double decker bus behind us.. so we dropped off 165 and got up 132..

double decker busss!! nak naekk!!
we stop kat the next busstop ah. whos wimme?
me!
...
...
one stop 45cents. u wanna pay for the fare?
alah. im not using stamp alsoo..
set ah.
dun leave meee!!!

so we pushed our wayy to the exit door, ready to sprint off (((: we were so cute, no doubt abt tat.

(:

fikir cuba fikirkann. kalau dia terlanjannggg. di rumahh luu.. dia orang bapokkk. tak senonohh. rasanya geliii..

Heyloos (: HahHA. so meishie-ish. Heheh.

had picnic during reading (: HHeh. And we threw paper planes. Yikes.

bio test was postponed. ughh. i stayed up late last nite for nothinng? and i risked being caught by sng, tryna revise bio during reading period and jeya senang jer postponed the test.. haishh.

bright side? more time to revise (: hHAHa. yarhh. life's good.

basketball test for pe. tats crap. HAhhA.. cudn do figures of 8. ball kept slipped off my fingers. look at the size of my palm and tat freaken ball?! hAHha.

ryan noticed i 'tattooed' my arm. fascinated. heh. so i impressed her further, 'its henna. got it in my wrist here.. and my ankle down ther.. evrywher la..' and suddenly she pulled my pe shirt back and tried to peek inside!! 'inside got???' she even asked. and chia was clearly stunned. pretended he din see neefink... hah.

chem test was easy (: I love korh. shes so cute. HAhAHa!

assembly was nice. eldds rawcks! u guys were grEaT!!!! and the talk on drugs was funn too. Hehhe. enjoyed it!!! ((((:

MT Oral. screw it big time :'( Can u believe ive forgotten wad swimming in mly is?! i guess i was too nervous?? ohhh nooo. she asked sumfink abt the popular sports among teens these days...

ive got lots to sayyy. but i cudn rmb wads swimming in mly is. i was snapping my fingers goin, 'ahhh. wads tat word? wads swimming in mly??' yes. i asked her. >.< WAD was i thinkING?

she din help a bit ther.. she just looked at me terribly disappointed and greatly amused. i looked back at her, clueless as always.. thn she scribbled something in her paper.. tragic..

chilled out wit sher and gin at the canteen while waiting for sriee. kindarf missed sherri! freaki huhs. hahhA.

accompanied sriee to j8. she wanted to buy graph papers and fullscap. in the bus, we even came up wit lame ways to say no to drugs. HAHha..

`no thankiew. cute ppl dun take drugs.
`drugs? ive got one whole cabinet full of 'em already.
`*rolls eyes*
`drugs huh. how abt one up ur nostrils?

met eva and her frenz at j8!!! hahhaa.. one of her frenz looked so much like ariff!! a cheena tho (: I was practically telling the whole world, 'omg he looks like ariff!!' the boy wasn pleased at all... hahaha.

reached popular. dumped our bags one corner and chilled out. we treated it like our home. HAHhA. she was at the other end, i was at the other end and we were screaming at each other..

'sriee! tis one is nice!!!' i waved tis orange writing pad in her direction.
'eee. orange sucks.'
'orange the best, okay!?!?'
'blue the best!!!!'
'summie the best~~'
'aiken the bestttest!!!! woohoo!!'

sriee was pissed cuz graph papers were sold out. so thn we went to sembawang wher she gazed at clayaiken while i gazed at gareth gates.. we went home happy girls (((:

was teasing sriee. 'haha! uve no graph papers!' and she was 'diam ah kau..... uve got xtra to lend me?' and thn dang! turned out i left mine under the desk. so i just kept my mouth shut as it was sriee's turn to tease me.. (:

finally got up 410. dropped off tabi;s stop. got up 132. ahhh fcuked tat driver. dunno how to drive the bus!! evrytime he came to a stop, evryone was thrown outta their seats and those standing [me~] were being swayed like coconut trees in the breeze.. [???!]

aightt. so the bus stopped at tis prata hse stop. haha yeahh. mental note to self: hug the pole thingie next time.

ouhh and guess who boarded the bus ther.. yes. him. irggh!! whyyye?!!!

so he stood next to me. wanted to, u noe, smile (((: and mayb wish him belated bdae or something but thn immediately my mood changed. felt shitty sucky sicky. ud feel shitty sucky sicky too if ur standing right next to the guy u fancy, and knowing very well u can nvr haf him.

not tat i wanna haf him too. HAHhA..

yarhh. did i tell u the driver suck? like he was unhappy, so he was driving the bus like cazy and was venting his anger on us, the passengers, who were gripping for dear lives.

the bus stopped, a couple of meters frm the busstop [haha get me?]. i was swayed to the right. nooo! swayed too gentle. i was thrown, i was tossed!! i din wanna end up on top of him. tempted. but no. tatll b awkward. but my grip was powderful. my arm brushed against his only (:

i muttered a sorry. wasn sure if he heard it, i din hear it myself [i swear i apologized tho (:] or if he said its ok or ur so cute cuz i wasn looking at him and i had b2k blasting in my stereo (:

She could claim and she play games
But I bet she couldnt hang (not wit me)
ooo she's a tease ooo
She be acting like she dont
but I know she really want (get wit me)
ooo she's a tease ooo

yeapp. hes a tease.. X(

he finally reached his stop. thank gawdd!! i cudn stand it already! he walked past. his arm was miserably vandalised. hAha. u know wad i mean. and he smelt of.. gel. *pukes*!!?

now as i replay it over and over again in my head, i kindarf regretted not... u know.... but does it even matter?

ive got emath common test tmr ((: ouhh and happy 18th bdae, imrann! lol i mean, imp runt!! hAHha. hes gonna kill me.. lols.

*hums* ooo hes a tease ooo

Hi (:

Norine freaked me out whn she told me shes got a tumor growing. 'wtf? wher!?!' And she pointed at her leg muscle. 'feel it, lela! its like disgusting.' 'tats ur muscle, u ass.'

and during mt, ginny was like reeli hushy hushy. told me shes got a secret and made me promise freaken lotsa times i wudn tell a soul...

'last nite, me and shaun... we were like... you know...' ginny was lookin out for cikgu majidahh and her voice was all whispery. she looked dead serious and kindarf reluctant. made me more curious and i was tempted to squeeze it outta her...

'u know!! i love shaunie alot. and he loves me alot too.. and last nite...' i held my breath. yeaaaa? 'the both of us... we were... very cute arhh!'

fcuk u, ginny (:

she was laughing her sickening but very contagious cute laughter and i was like - -||| ahhh shld haf seen tat one coming.

slept during bio (: Nice of sakura to keep nudging me every once 3 mins. i stayed awake for a couple of secs and zZzZzz.

went home wit meiyee. LMAO!! she sooo darsen look like hongsui!! wad u talkin abt, aspho!?! ahhh shes so sweet (: hHAha. but guess whard, her last name's wong too :\ but i asked if she has nee sibs studying in aitong. she said no... (:

phy remedial. clueless (: But funn!! hehhe. WE made CHAN Laugh ;) ehhHe. okie la. he NEARLY laughed. quoted tis off him, 'cmon la. my TOES r laughing!!!!' chan rawcks (: But he cant teach, tho.... serious. :/

thers bio and chem test tmr. WAHHAha!! and i can still sit by the freaken pc, typing away. hHEHe.

Life's gOod.

ouhH but it wun b if i flunk my tests tmr :\ so i guess i shld go now?

HAHhAHHAH!! PFFFFT.

shiet. ive got e/a maths ws to dooooo. lotsa. wha wup wit wee woo? err i mean, wha dup wit lee loo? what's up with lee loo? giving us so many ws and expecting us to complete it by tmr.

ahh dun blame her (: exams *ARE* coming. evryfink so rushy rushy. and bcuz she was absent ytd - -||| missed out so many things. whole class lagging bhind. chengz took over tho ytd (: Hehhes.. sriee and i were like droolieyh. drooly. u noe.. drool? yeahhs (:

lee loo was like, 'tonite, no tv, no computer, no games... babble babble' i was like, 'huhh. spare me those crap laa' a lil too loud and she was Looking at me. whoops. so immediately i pretended i was talkin to sriee. sriee was clueless :\ cuz i was like, 'u dun wanna go out lunch after skool, just say it. dun hafta come up wit lame excuses.. spare me those crap laa...'

i hope my acting was good (:

i love emy. thnx for ur shweeeet testi!!! Aku memang pantang kena puji.. lmao!!!

tmr mt oral. wish me all the best (: Ouhh and chem and bio tests too! yeaps. lurv yall. mwachs.

hahAHa heh. so i failed. sad thing was, i was the first to fail. as in, u noe.. hahHAHa!!

screw u, hannan. he was like, go lela! one more minute!! so i was like yes! i can still make it!!! so i admit i slowed down and thn valencia was ther was like lela hurry 6 more secs. dang! cant make it cant make it. but i told myself i will make it i will make it. ahha just tryna make myself feel better (: not working tho.

so i was like catching my breath. dehydrated. devastated. hell yea. but bright side? retest imma do better.

HAHhA. life's goOd (: i felt better after catching my breath, after leaning against good ol norine despite how tired she looked tat time.. and how smelly i was. HAHAHHA!! felt even better whn nana was like, '*grin* wanna piggy back?' so sweet (: but she cudn piggy back me. not even umeya :\ Cant believe im heavy?!

felt even even x1000 better whn FINALLY i got to gip nurool a beeeeeg hug!! hHAha. tot they were kidding whn they said they were gonna 'ignore' her.. lol they werent. but nana and i werent tat cruel ;) We were like, 'i miss her too much...' and we got all mushy. AHhAH..

ahh jaded (:

yupp and in case u havent notice..... im no more in my killer mood (((: isn tat greatt!!!? the demon in me, vanquished. im now ur eccentric lela bunny.... err.. lelachamp. AHhA yeaa.. dun like tat nick bunny already...... ~>.<~ dun like bunnies. or monkeys. hAHha..

yupp and i wanna make the record straight.... Just whad conspiracy u guys haf against summmieee!?

i meann... okieeee.. u guys call him bachieenn and all. i can take tat. ahhahaa... why i like him? wad i like abt him? i know hes not the hottest guy. sheeshh. but looks dun matter to meeee!! neeway, beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. hehehs. yuPP! stop bitching abt him, esp not whn im arNd. hAHhAA!! yeahh.

"eeew. hes not even cute..."
"tats why!! hes the bachien-est among them all..."
"he'll look better if he got his hair straightened...."
"and spiked it up!"

and i was like... keeping my cool but 'grr.. i reeli dun hafta listen to this rite now...'

neeway, i like him cuz hes very fun to talk to (: period. and hes cute. in a way. yeahh (:

wow. standing up for the one i like. bwAhAHhaa...

ahhh jaded (:

and im not crazy over him, thank u. cuz now everyone knows i like emy. LMAO..

Whats with you?
Your name:::	lela (:
Name you wish you had:::	elena. my sis' name!!!! i wanna name tat starts wit 'e'!!! ... okiee actually my pet name does starts wit e. but i dun reeli like my petname..... irggh.
Age:::	15 tis yr. gonna b 15 on the fifth of july.. ehhheh.
Age you wish you were:::	14!!! fourteen is sucha beautiful no!! and being 14 is not a tween and not yet a teen. u noe? kinda in a middle like tat. yesh.
Number of sibling:::	2.
Number of siblings you'd like:::	2 (: hehh. power of 3 gituu. cheyy.
Your Opinions
Is there anyone you're better than:::	lol dun even get me started...
What kind of person do you consider yourself:::	looney, crapp, weird, lame, happy (: LiFe'S GoOD.
What do you enjoy doing most during a regular day:::	sing and dance! eat and sleep (: zZzZzZ
Who do you find most beautiful:::	my mom (((: Im not sucking up or anything... wad *CAN* i get by sucking up to mom??? ...oouhh lotsa... hehh.
On a scale of 1 to 10, how sane are you, 1 being most sane:::	6 (:
How do you view the rest of the world:::	((((((:
How does the rest of the world view you:::	hahah. i wud like to know, too.
what controversal topic do you feel most strong about:::	nahh. im not tat type hu starts controversal shiets... i think (: PeAcE
What is heaven to you:::	heaven is u (:
This or That
Life or death:	its life *AND* death (:
Pain or ecstasy:	pain.
Tears or laughter:	tears of laughter n_n
Solitude or Company:	companyyyy~
Night or Day:	day. morninG!!!!
Storm or Sunshine:	sunshine.
Cuts or Bruises:	cuts!! bruises not pretty. at least cuts kinda cool. hehh.
Cloths or nudity:	clothes. unless ur bathing?
Honesty or secrets:	honesty is always the best policy. but wads wrong wit keeping secrets?
Humility or Criticism:	criticism. sometimes they can make u a better person (: criticism frm an experienced, mature person tat is. not those mean-ass morons...
Dark or light:	light. pls. dun like dark.
Frail or strong:	strong (:
Gentle or rough:	gentle.
Eccentric or normal:	eccentric. hehh. being normal is eccentric enuff.
Dreamer or realist:	both (:
Why not the random things
Where is your happy place:::	home (:
who makes you happiest:::	my demon cats!!!! and kittens. hehhhes.
Who makes you depressed:::	. . .
Worst moment in your life:::	the lost of my loved one.
Best moment in your life:::	also the lost of my loved one. cuz his death makes me realized stuffs and be a better person (((:
Most farfetched life goal:::	ahHhhHH... farfetched.. ermmm. a guitarist? mom dislikes the idea of me learning guitar. *ponders*
What do you try hardest to do:::	to understand chem. hAHha.
What bad habit do you catch yourself doing most often:::	procrastinating X|
What irritates you most:::	syak.. grr.
do you believe in true love?:	yeahh (: cud b true love for .. ur cat? n_n

Just to get you thinking... brought to you by BZOINK!

hii (:

Prev entry was crap. hHAhA. lovely.. a song frm *nsync. changed a bit here and ther. yupp. love the songg!! ever since aspho lent me tat celebrity album 2 yrs ago :\ hAHhAa. eventually downloaded the song. aite. guilty. will delete it as soon as i get bored of it larh..

tat mite take a while (:

oh yearrhs!!! attention yall!Nurool has changed her link [click on her name to find out her url..]. hhehh. update ur links ASAP, yarhhs?! yeahhhs. thnx (:

nurool* sorry its kinda late. din get wad u meant at first. whoopshie x_x

studied for bio just now.. wow. pretty interesting (: kindarf easy to catch... just wad haf i been doing during bio class?! dreaming. durhh... hehhs. gotta ace bio (: make jeya proud. hAHha.

sumfink happened last nite tat made me look at hannan in a diff wayy. so creepy. he asked me sumfink and i replied him sumfink cornie haha [u know meee..] and he was like, 'i did not hire u to laugh for me. and ur not good enuff...'

I was so taken aback. whaaard not good enuff?!

all of a sudden he said, 'nah tat was sarcastic... how's life?' A pause and thn, 'tats sarcastic too.' i was speechless. tis is just so wrong. hannan cud tell i was terribly whacked out lost [quoted tat off vanessa]. and he was, 'hey. im just kidding. sumtimes a guy hasta b sarcastic once a while. anyway ill nvr say anything to offend you.'

too late, buddy.

i said i gtg good nite dun do tat again u moron got me freaked. and thn logged out.

u may b gorgeous. but thers more thn wad meets the eye. i Dunno. mayb its just me...

ive got nothing else to say (:

Gotta rest. Tmr's gonna rise up early... nites yall. mwachs.

tat guy will never be mine
first time i saw him at the front door
tat guy, his face i cant get off my mind
hands down, you wont believe the way
he laid his eyes on me

six feet, i spot him frm a distance
so fly, we got into a small talk
too bad he hadta move along
one bye and he was GoNE

Cant explain
I nvr tot tat i was gonna lose my head
Call me insane
TheRs GoTTa Be A wAy~

How can i get next to him
Now tell me how its gonna b done
Will i win or lose this one?
Dun care abt the fact tat
Hes in a different league
They say its no use tat i try
Tat guy will never b mine

tat guy is frEaKEn me out
dun care abt the fact tat hes all tat
tat guy has blown out the doubt
thers no way for me to stop

tat guy tearin up the big thing
tat guy stealin every daydream
tough luck, he hadta b the one for me
He WILL b miNE (:
no matter wad they tryna say
thers gotta b a way

...

HAppY FriEnDsHiP DaYy!!! n_n

tis is so wrong. cuz frenship day is evryday.. hahAHa. its actually international frenship day. but wth (: hehhs. im like wishing evryone online, happy frenship day! how exciting! teehees! huggs!!!

sorry to disappoint u guys but i aint blogging much tonite (: dunno.. tired? i guesh.
*ducks whn sees a shoe flying in her direction* okie okie!! cut it out! fine! ill at least put it in point form!

sheeshh..

;)

`found tabi's letter.. under my desk (: LMAo..
`had so much fun during physics... miss ezzy chan so muchh. lmao!!
`the dentist i went!!

ouhh! the dentist!!!! they called out 6 of us at a time. sakura, me, ryan, sharon, joan and sriee. suffocating in tat lil dentist ermm.. van. hahha. we were all a lil nervous. until it was sakura's turn and the dentist pulled out 2 of her teeth. thn we were terrified.

and robbie williams was playing in the radio.... i just wanna feeel~.. real love.. i dun think i like williams or his songs. now, im sure i dun.

so it was my turn. got on tat chair.. so funnn whn the dentist lowered it down. wow. hahaha.. she, as in the dentist, told me to move up, cuz my head's on reeli resting properly. but whn i tried to move up, i slided down again.. slippery. but in at actual fact, im short. (:

okiee. i timed. not even a minute and it was done! she checked my teeth and said, 'good. keep it tat way, yea? u may go.' and i was like... wow?

kept up wit sakura. lOLs. poor thing. she was struggling to speak and i was struggling to understand. hahaha.. 'ahh ahh ah ahh ..' was all i heard. 'still dun get wad ur tryna tell me.. *flustered*' she looked like she was gonna punch me. so i got her to sit and all... 'okie. syahirah. tell me slowly. wad happened?'

cheyyy!!

so she told me. real stressing.. >.< but i managed to understand (: Dentist pulled out 2 of her teeth cuz ther were milk teeth. oww. and she wanted me to go look for her sister while she go buy herself vitasoy. hahha. i was getting good at reading her.

`the amaths 'quiz' was a can-do (:
`leeloo was nice today (:
`managed to reply tabi's letta.
`underwear was comfortable...

ouhh!! vernon has a son named ethan. and his bdae is tmr! or issit today. yerrhs wadeva (: and se'ah 's bdae tis sundayy. freaki.

`got nana, aspho, sriee and nurrul to sign on my bag (:
`u guys sign it too, yerrhs!?!? hehhs.
`borrowed hongsui's lil thingies and redesigned their signatures... err yea. ther isn orange, but yellow will do for me!! nana's was green. aspho's was pink. sriee's was blue and nurrul's was purple. woww (:
`ate in aitong wit twinz [a lil guilty cuz i left nana and aspho... X\]
`ginny owed me a buck. she paid me back (: but got me pissed cuz she returned me 20 five cents coins (._.'")
`got severely embarrassed by the twinz in the bus ..
`cip tmr. aint going. but.......

aite. tats all lar (: hehhs.

wow. and i tot i was tired.

lols hehh. emy so sweet (:

neewayy yea. i cried while doing amaths just now X'| and it was like really stressful! leeloo giving us a 'quiz' tmr [tho she insisted to call it a test, we told her to use 'quiz' instead cuz its less ermm horrifying..] and i hope ill ace it. i wish ill ace it.

ouhh wrong attitude.. I will ace it. (:

feeling so drowsy these dayys. even during mass run. ouff. hate thurs mass run. next week, do *NOT* run wit the jcrc. do *NOT* run wit mrs BIRD. yea, munz. im sorry but she just sucks. yeaaahh.

ryan wrote 'lela rawcks!' on my arm. not tat i mind. heh. but the thing was, she wrote it a lil too.. huge. wow. was like a stupid idiot standing by the sink in the canteen, tryna rubbed it off. (:

sumfink made me laugh so hard during recess... cudn rmb whard. well, everything makes me laugh so ther. yea. as i was sayin!! yupp. i laughed and i think i laughed my brain out cuz immediately after tat, i started rambling and pfft-ing. got saliva evrywher. hehh. sriee was, 'ishh lela. disgusting.' and i pfft-ed at her.. 'lelaaa. stop. or ill stab u wit the fork..' LMAO!!!

ouhh!! heyy good idea. ur a genius, sriee.

and the next thing i knew, i was distributing fork and spoon to evryone bhind me [was at the mly stall ther... yeahhh hahaha..]. yuPP! was like, 'hi. hey. for u.' and thn 'sorry. these r cleaner.. exchange.'

what was i thinking?!

okiee. nobody 'entertained' me. except for hannan. hahaa. the hero. heh. hows the knee doing, dude? ouhh he reeli does have a way wit girls. he suck-up and suck-up well (: lOLs.. he was thinking of putting up a performance for teacher's day but said 'no one is good here in peirce.. unlike u. why dun to go up stage and talk to the audience? tell them funny jokes..' and i was like woww teehees!! head fcuking swell. lOLs.

the makcik was reeli amused, i bet. she charged me a higher sum ....

talkin abt sum!! hHAHAH! he *IS* alive (: sooo relieved. and kindarf guilty. whard?! poisoning his curry?! how low.....

i think i mite haf dropped mumsy's letter... cuz i can not find it anywher!!! oh noOo!! wad if someone found it, read it, and omg. imagine nasim reading it!!!! or worst. shanie! cuz tabi mentioned sum stuffs abt him and she used his real name somemore. not tat im blaming her.... thank gawd she din used my real name innit!! i think.. she wrote shawty instead.

okie. frm now on, im not shawty. yea.

if u happened to find a brown envelope wit ShAwTy written on it, its not mine...

but return it to me anyway, yea? (:

lols. lolenzo became ronaldo. LMAO!! tat v. tan la!! hahhaa. she was like calling ronaldo and we were all oO cuz thers no ronaldo in 3e1. and she pointed at lolenzo. 'ur not ronaldo?' and we all chorused, 'its lolenzo!!!'

went to the archives to get some pics for speech day yada2. how funn (: Got to see all the photos and stuffs. how we've changed (((: cute. to cuter. yupp! esp droick!!! felt a lil amused cuz homies were like going, 'ehh slengerr!!' at evry pic. as much as i wanted to tell them off, i ended up joining them as well. yeahh, hadta admit. but i bit my tongue to stop myself. not nice to judge ppl, noe. heyy. we were usedta b like them too!! still am? hehh. dno (:

lina burnt her finger :\ dumbass. hAHha.

im officially shitbit's songwriter!!! nvr done songwriting b4.. i dunno. can poems b considered? how abt craps? hehh.

goin jogging wit twinz this sundayy. buuut mom wants to 'visit' dad.. been 2 months liao. its weird but i love the cemetery. its so peaceful..... we'll all end up ther anyway so mite as well live to love it while ur alive.. [??] HAHhaA..

i spilt coffee all over lina's proj work. poor thinng. she flashed me her [burnt] middle finger. whooa. the nail kinda retarded now. sorry lins.

ouhhh!! thers a pic of SaBriNa in the archives!!!! hehh. beloved cousin ;) so proud of her. shafiq is one lucky dude to have her as a sis. yupp. she bought him a phone. but of coursh its more thn just tat (: i can come up wit a list why she's great ;) but tat will take forever. o'wells, and im lucky to have shafiq as my cousin cuz he rawcks (: ..and bcuz hes the only person hu can shut syak up..

syak is my sis. syakila. irghh. what a name. i hate her (: i hate her more thn i hate him. hhHAha. but sisterly hate la. so its reeli normal. ader patot, i was minding my own business and she just crept up to me and tweaked my ear?! i pinched her back, it bruised. i saw it and was like, 'did i do tat?' felt so superior. but pretty cruel too. tat was childish.... but my ear reeli hurt!!!

tmr is a fridayyyy!!!!~ chicken chop, here i come ;)

Hiiieee :))) Feeling soooo lost. but its not abt him or anything. its more like... abt me? im lost in me? LoLS tat sounds very weird. hahHAha.. nahh. im just a lil confused. sighh..

not sure wher i stand. not shur wher we stand.

whats going on?

and turned out he's alive.. well. din see him at all in skool. sriee saw him, tho. and i think i pretty much got her pissed off.

HAHhaha!!~ cuz i was like, 'r u sure tat was himm?!!' 'yesss lela. i saw himmm.' 'but it cant be!!! hes supposed to b dead.' 'it was him.' 'thn how come u din tell me? u noe? gimme a sign or something... how was my hair?'

i cudn sleep during emaths just now. cuz was figuring out tis graphical shiet thingie and at the same time, sakura was humming... 'it's so hot. im gonna burn.... so hot. hot oh so hot. im gonna burnn. burn burrrnnn..' over and over and over and over again.....

and she was bugging me wad is something times sumthingg. frustrated, i told her off. thers such thing as calculators. turned out hers was malfunctioning [?] so i lent her mine. and she started humming agaaainn... my calculator is not working.. my calculator. not working. lela's calculator is. my calculator is not. lela's calculator is... sri's calculator? i do not know. but my calculator is not working. lela's calculator is..' and times a million more. over again. like a tape recorder. which i wud haf crushed it wit my wallet if i wasn laughin so badly.

OmG i CaNnOT beLiEVe iM AcTuALLy writIng tAt WHoLE lORd oF cRap hERE and UR reAdiNg iT.. hehs.

im crazyyyy..

haishh. i cried in the shower just now :\ isn tat weird? hAHhAa. just.. cried. and it's not, i repeat, *NOT* abt him [i even put '*' to emphasize to yall..]. cuz i dun cry over/cuz of/for any guy. i got out of the toilet, red eyed and lina was like looking at me like ive grown an extra head. whard? cant a girl cry?

hes alive, positive.. its time for plan b. but ive got other things to agonize abt. like wher is my squash racket!?!! imma let him off for now (: anyway, i still do like him. a teeny bit. but id like him more if hes dead.

ps// oeiii!! anyone knows how to play squash here?!?!!

i think hes dead.. yupp. shld b. cuz he aint online. hAhHA!! bonzai! err. banzai....? u noe, victory in japanese? huh? no? oh well.

heyy. hu knows how to play squash?? tagg me, yeahs?

ouhhhh i totally zonked out during maths. 3 periods of amaths. clueless. logarithms suuuuckkk. and lee loo just makes it worst. shes just... shes great. its just me. i just suck. big time. i must *STOP* sleeping in class, and pay attention!!

its hard, munz. ive got lotsa shits in my head.. like... how he's doing. no wrong. how the poison's doing. issit down his system yet, doing its thing. damn its taking sucha loong time. and tryna rmb wher i last saw my squash racket. and ouhhh cudn wait to get home. i miss gareth! evrytime i woke up frm a snooze, id go like, '*perks* oooh gareth..... ohhh ouhh ouhhhH!!'

tHAnk GAwD ezzy chan aint in skoOl. no physics remedial!!~ cudn stand it already. stomach was growling.

went macs wit sriee and germaine goldfish. germaine was supposed to go home wit emy. but she ditched her. bWAhAHaas. so meann. lOls. plenty of ppl ther at macs. haha wth. the auntie at the counter rawcks!!! still rmb tat time...... ahhhhh. hahhaaa. fuNnn.

... hes still not online ...

its so nice sleeping wit mah kitttiesss!! i lurv em i lurv em i lurv em!!!! *cuddles* dunno wad to call em. good thing, all 3 r male!!!!! wAHHAhAHhas!!!!~ ouhh cant give em names. we'r gonna give em awayy. shucks.

my fav is the black and white kitty!!!! hes like real small. smaller thn those other two. kinda retarded looking.. we reckon hes suffering frm FDS, Feline Downs Syndrome. but he has reeli unique feature.. he has two white patches and just around the tail, another white. WAhAHhaHs. .. hes very cool. dun ask me how i know. body language. yeaa. and hes already tryna bite!!! touchy. no teeth yet tho. SooO cute!!

lina says not to get too close wit em cuz itll b hard whn we watch em b given away later. whard? and miss out all the fun? i mean, they'r so cute!! so cute!!! so cute!!! she darsen know wad shes missing here.

hes not online!!~ he is dead! .... droick literally poisoned his curry?! ..

Hi :) Hehh. feeeeLin soooo murderous. its always like tis. a lil disappointment and a lil heartbroken will lead to .. a massive evil plan. toldja someone will pay. ill get even. revenge is sweet. a lil troublesome. but sweet.

talkin abt sweet. meishie!! thnx for the candles!!!



hehh yeaaa. did tat myself. got tat knife pic frm counterstrike.com. LOls. hehhs. put it as my display pic. pretty unexpected. it got plenty of attention. droick was fascinated, and pretty impressed and wanted the pic. wow. issit tat good? hehh.

skool today was draggy X| slept during first period of maths. and the next period, i was all wide awake, but not concentrating. in fact i was plotting my mAsSiVe EviL pLAn. ended up wit one brilliant idea: poison.

bwaHAhahas!

my partner in crime, droick, kinda volunteered to do the job. skeptical. i mean, will he do a clean job? why is he so eager to kill him as well? whard, did he break his heart too? ... okie tats just plain stupid. hehh.

'im as murderous as u'.. hehh. okieee. if he fails, he'll hafta die too. u hear tat, droick!? ugrrr..... oh 2nd tot, dun wanna risk it. i think hes a spy....

ezzy chan and jeya aint in skool. woww. hehhs. so funnn.

went j8 wit sri after skool [sri skipped band, yoohoo!~ hehhs] to get sumfink for sam ann, ethan and mumsy!! i mean, they'r bdae r cominggg!!!!~ hehhs.

listening to hafiz's version of tis redhot chilli pepper song. yoOhoO! another good guitarist!! cool thing is, hes using electric guitar and it sounds all so cool and neatt. yeaa!!! solo thing. too bad no drums. hehh. feesh, i can introduce u to one.

nurool* hope ull feel better abt it yea? hehs.

droick:Slash andGASh and cut a hole in his ass..Slit his balls of and play tennis with it
me:... i suck at tennis. can i use the balls and just play fetch wit my demon cats?

wow. we've got 'it'. chemistry. i can just see it. we'r the next evil thinng.

droick: ur crazy.
me: blame ur moronic piece of gay ass shit fren.
droick: His death is brought to him by himself..HE courted death by Pissing off the DEmon cat queen.
me: rwarr.
droick: rawww.

hah okie. imma go orff now. i needa make poison. a poison for him. a poision made for him. a poison made esp for him. esp made poison for him. esp made poison frm me for him thru droick the frog. froggie gonna poison drink using poision i made for him. him meaning him, not droick. cuz droick my partna and we both hate him. we hate him to the core cuz he sucks and i rock.

yOohoo i say lela u say rock!! lela...

.. yea. sorry. all those blood makes me all so wacky and not-thinking-straight.

hahha so wad else is new?

Heyy!! I feel better already. Hehhs. All thnx to u guys!!!!!! I feel so fortunate and very grateful to haf such caring, loving homies. Wow. Wow!!! Wowweeee!!!! *does cartwheels*

And who needs a summie or a se'ah or a shanie whn i haf my mumsy, shiing, nuRoOL, vanessa and the rest of u guys, of course!!! the list can go onnnN!!!

*u see i din not include summie cuz hes not only just a crushie, hes also my 'crap-partner' :) And i think frenz we'll b. heh. happy now tat he 'in love'.

DeDiCaTioNS...!!

Tabitha: hi. hehhs. mumsy!!! mwachs!!! ehhs. thnx alort for everything. uve been ther for me to listen me crap since day one!! reeli appreciate it. *hugs*

nurool: *smirk* my mice-detectors 'business-partner'. mwachs. thnx for perking me up. noe u may not realized it. but ur corniness reeli ermm corn-ed me up, making me laugh and all :)) hehhs. mannn. miss u >.<

Vanessa: heyyy!! yupp. we hadn been talkin lately X| but just wanna say thnx and all *referrin to ur msg in my tagg*. still rmb tat moment we had fun talkin abt our 'es'. yupp!!! they have the same initials tooooO!! wow. lol. hehhs. miss u loards, nessa :) mwachs.

Shinggg!!: *hugs*

drOick: ooga boooga. thnx for last nite. hehhs. u din seemed helpful at first.... in fact u made me feel pretty much worst. urmpph!! until u said: 'he suck... no used getting pissed over him SMILE for me babe'. oh well. heres a smile for u.

muhaimin: hehh. dun think ull b reading tis. but wth. thnx for listening last nite. lol it darsen matter if u din understand. i just need someone to LISTEN to me. and u did :) thnx.

lina!!: wahAHha. my 'beloved' sis. thnx for the carrot cake pic. errm i mean, gareth gates. AHhAHhas!! yeaa. all of a sudden she handed me his pic and said i cud haf it. how sweeeeet!!!! hehhs. erm. *quick hug* loLs!!!

aspho :): hi. nahh i did not forget u. how cud i?!?! i know uve been feeling like shit lately :( i think its kinda my fault too? haishhh. i apologized yo? and also on the behalf of nana. sorry we hurt u but reeli, we nvr meant to. tats like, the last thing we want to do. no wrong. tats the first thing we DUn WAnT to do. hope ull feel better soon, kaesh?! frenz forever :))))))

Ther!!! and uhh. okie. i cant do cartwheels. yea. but a girl can pretend, right? *does more cartwheels*

love u guysh :) Mwachs.

hie :) *waves*


heyys. how u? havnt been tagging here. hpe ure fine. missing u gerl. musht takkaire, kaes? and one more thing.. dun be too sadx. he will eventually ged the hell outtarf ur mind soon. *mwacks. cherios


nuroOL :)) hehs. im fine, reeli. missing ya, too. mwachs! *hugs* ThNx aLoT! ur tag makes me feel so much better. u noe? build up my confidence. i know tat ill soon get him off my mind la. but ur sayin it kinda confirm it all for me. now im sure tat he'll eventually ged the shiet outtarf my head. i dun think tat'll b soon. later. but not soon.

cuz we'r kinda chatting rite now.....

his msn nick is: ^^im in love^^

my current msn nick ish: i hate u cuz ur an idiotic moronic gay-ass faygot........ sad. i reeli did liKE u... even a dumass knows im referring to him.

he was like, haha y scold tt guy? and so. i told him. 'cuz hes in love'. 'wif who??' 'i haf no idea. tat bastard son of a gun wudn tell me.' 'same case as me ar?' i wanted to just type out in bold and underlined sayin: IT IS U, DAMMIT!!!!

but nahhh.

some ppl just dunno how to take hints.

hahhaa.

?

Ill forget him.

but tats the thing. i dun wanna.

If onE DaY u FeEL liKe cRyinG...

CaLL mE
I DuN ProMiSe tAt iLL mAke U LaUgh
bUt i Can cRy wiD u

iF oNe daY u WanNa rUn AwaY...

dUn B aFraiD tO cAll mE
nO ProMiseS tat Ill aSk u To SToP
bUt i CaN rUn wid U

iF onE daY u DuN waNNa liStEn tO AnyOne...

cAll mE
i pRomiSe tO b thEr FoR u
aNd i ProMisE tO b QuiEt

bUt iF oNe DaY u cAll

anD tHeR is nO AnsWeR
cOmE fAsT To SeE mE
pErHaPs i NeEd yOu...

hiieee yall :))

evryone in the whurl, fat, thin, tall, short, dark, fair etc, will haf someone to like them. no one will b left on the shelf. evryone will one day find their life's true love.

but i dun reeli believe tat. for me its more like--

evryone in tis whurl will find their life's true love, be it in marriage, carrier or way of life :) evrione has a different calling. ur bestue mite b travelling the whurl as an explorer while u care and love for ur family. but both of u r just as happy!!!

quoted tat off frm one of mumsy tabi's letta :)) and i was like, ... wow... how truuuu. and heres something tats equally tru too. mumsy reckons i haf 'a prodigy at writing skills' and a 'creative way of expressing myself PLUS great at gettin my ideas across'.
*tears of pride*

LMAO!!!

whaarrd. tats seriously wad she said! and shes offering me to bcome sh!tbit*© 's official song writer. well i dunnooo... thers other bands i must consider too. dun wanna break their hearts.

*sheepy smirk*

talkin abt breaking hearts, i think mine is X'(

haishhh..

but i dun wanna talk abt it. mayb later. not now. cuz i dun wanna ruin my nite by agonizing abt it.

wad am i sayin?!?! its already ruined!!!!!

omg. guess wad song in playin rite now. only hope by mandy moore. dun get me wrong, i reeli luv tis song. its sooo soothinngg. but soooo not the rite time. makes me go all sighy and saddy. i mean sad. and upset. and so dispapointed. and heartbroken.

but ill pass :))))

but thn again.

i reeeli reeeeeli did liked him!!!!!! but not tat 'i reeli like u ill kill myself for u' kinda like. sheeshh. hahaa. id only do tat for my behbee hunky nike. not some dumb guy... oeik. hes not dumb. nOooo. he is! [sorry, dick*, had to say tis if i wanna start to stop liking u. hHAhHA]

*real name not used to protect identity

haishhh. saaaaad.

ouhh didja noe tat chocolate is a veggie?!?!!!!!!!! it is it is!!

Chocolate is derived from cocoa beans. Bean = vegetable. Sugar is derived from either sugar cane or sugar BEETS. Both of them are plants, in the vegetable category. Thus, chocolate is a vegetable.

To go one step further, chocolate candy bars also contain milk, which is dairy. So candy bars are a health food. Chocolate-covered raisins, cherries, orange slices and strawberries all count as fruit, so eat as many as you want.

wheeeeeee~ cant wait to tell mom tis good news.

recess was shiett la. of all the places, why therr?! its like..... and summore i was sitting rte smack .. diagonally him. XD Yeaa. and this fren of him approached him. ouhh it was hans. yeaa. sumfink must had humored him abt hans or wad hans said, so he was like, :))))))) so sweeeeet. got me smiling as well. and it was stupid. cuz i had the spoon in my mouth and i just froze and *smiles*

yes. frm ytd's entry. HAHhAha!!! turned out hans found his neoprint. tat explains his wide grin on his face which i noticed, and which kept replaying in my head. lol if only i were the one who found it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol like hed hug me for tat huhs.

seems to me tat hans keeps finding neoprints. or issit neoprints keep finding their way to him. hahaa..

haishh.

:)

hiie :) Tagg's been getting quieter these dayyys. wha dup?! prollie cuz i havent done my usual taggiinn routine myself. not tat i tag u guys' taggies so ud tag miinne :)) tho itll b nice ;) hahhaa.

tmr is a holidayyy! i lurv public holidays on a fri. long weekend ;) Lookin forward to tmr. and the day after tmr. and the day after the day after tmr.. yupp :)) cuz today basically sucked. the morning, actually.

skool started out baaad. got to skool alone. nabila was absent... riiight. she's prollie on her way to KL as i type this ;) She wunt b back till tue. hahh. will miss her. hahhaa. shed better buy me souvenirs!!! XP

hate goin to skool alone. cuz i need to kick start my dayy wit a fren :) dun mind walking home alone tho. cuz tats the time i spend to reflect wad shit happened for the day... call me weird, call me lameass. tats just how i programme.

as soon as i got to the hall, nurrul was like teary eyed. turned out it happened again. poor nurrul!!!! feel for herrr. felt worst cuz i just stood ther, while she told me the whole story. just stared at her watching her fight back her tears. just dinno wad to do, or sayy. worried if itd make things worst.

sri saw me wit nurrul and i dunno.. she was pissed?? yup. so we din exchange nee words. tot she was mad at me. dunno!! sri's unpredictable. and if it werent for norine, i dunno wad id do. was sitting bhind me and whn turned to greet the teachers, norine went like, 'goooood morning, lela!' instead. reeli perked me up rite awayyyy!! thnx norine :)) Shes just so sweet!!!

kanna called out by sngg. kinda expected it. hahhhh. wth. told mom abt it. i practically told everyberdie. cuz everyberdie was ther. mom was cheesed off. and usually id go like, 'how am i supposed to kno?!!' and wud go to shafiq for support. but just now, i said i was sorry, told her it was my fault anyway. dumbass me. *nodds MOm was still cheesed off. but she cooled a lil ;) And elly was like, 'wow. tat took a lot of courage... awww. my cousin is all grown up and mature now!!!' nahhh. bet she was just being nice :) not tat i mind nice.

recess was shiett la. of all the places, why therr?! its like..... and summore i was sitting rte smack .. diagonally him. XD Yeaa. and this fren of him approached him. ouhh it was hans. yeaa. sumfink must had humored him abt hans or wad hans said, so he was like, :))))))) so sweeeeet. got me smiling as well. and it was stupid. cuz i had the spoon in my mouth and i just froze and *smiles*

ginny was quiet today.... 'ginny wads wrong? u okie?' 'yaa. just stressed..' she din even gimme tat infamous grin of hers whn she said tat. blues huh. ouhh she aint the only one.....

had a/e maths tests after skool which i missed tat tue. did it during amaths remedial. hahahaa. and picture this, doing amaths test while teacher is teaching amaths at the background.... hehehs. no fair. roystonn got lolenzo and xingwai to help him :\ ahahaa.

ouHhhh im sooo gonna miss crystal and zhaohannn!! eldds gonna b soooo quiet w/o them after they graduate X(

had fun during el. tho we did... nuffink. had to fill up tis feedback on the workshop. sat wit crystal and bedah zhao ;) They rawwwcqk!! :) they make a cool couple... both sickos. its so nice to see them talk. err i mean, to see crystal talk, and zhao listen.... they were talkin abt bio stuff. i listened. but cudn quite catch up. tried to ignore them at, until they started laughing and i cudn stand it any longer. sumfink tells me it wasn just abt bio....

'aite. u lost me.'
'ayy. shh. dun tell u.' crystal.
'tell!! wad issit abt superficial whaard?'
'dun pollute ur mind.'
'its already polluted.' zhao.
'.... yea. pretty tru. tell meeee!'

so they told me, sumfink abt putting a superficial 'thing' on the girls so they wud haf somethin in common wit the boys.. ehhe. u know wad im talkin abt. yeaa. 'but thn again, its superficial. so it wun make any diff. it cant produce tat 'substance'. and u cant build a superficial 'substance' cuz thers no such thing as a fake 'substance' .. ahhh. its the way she says it tats hilarious :)

melinda/belinda came over and was like inspecting and thn, 'crystal ur handwriting sux.' crystal: 'owhh tats bcuz the pen sux. so cheapskate! look look! i got it free, tats why. frm tis hotel. babble babble rumble rumble..'
me:'crystal, if u wanna borrow a pen, just say it. aight?'
'im too lazy to ask.'
'ur anything but lazy, crystal!'
'lazy is human nature, lela! ppl rather walk short cut thn take the longer route.'
'... i prefer longer route.'
'tats bcuz ur not human. ehhhe. kiddding laa.'
thnz ALOT, zhao.
'okie another example. lela, why u cut ur hair?'
*gawk* whn did i even cut it?
'zhao han why u cut ur hair?'
'cuz so troublesome, must shampoo it.'
*jaw dropped* *stared at his hair, horrified* 'wad's hair gotta do wit laziness?!'
'u cut ur hair cuz ur lazy to comb it. or in zhao han's case, to shampoo it. LAZY..'
'u cant b lazy abt tat!!!'
'zhao han is.'
*blink blink* good point.

thn she started complaining abt the pupil's diary. she was like 'the spaces r so little! blabble babble. the lines r so small! blabble blaaalalable. and wads tis? parents signature?? wads the use?! my parents cant b bothered!' and she tossed the book at zhao lyka grenade. he deserved it. hahah.. its his, anyway. tats for pissing crystal off. hahaha..

zhao was spinning his pen. 'its very simple.' crystal snatched my pen and spun it in slow motion. actually she just moved her pen la. .. 'not helpful, crystal..' zhao saved the day. 'just flick ur index finger. pen wil spin arNd thumb...' i tried. got it. 'fast learner..' 'thankiew zhao!' crystal interrupted, 'no, actually zhaohan and i good teachers..' and i was, 'zhaohan and U?'

last qn on the feedback form: wad r ur dreams and inspirations abt drama work wadeva shiet. c:'dreams? dun haf dreams la.' 'evryone has dreams, wad u sayin?' z:'not abt drama work, i dun. hahhaa.' ' i dun dream big. unlike someone here, who has dreams to bcome as actor..' zhao blushblush. i clapclap. asked wads crystal's dreams r. and she said, 'alot. but mostly nightmares....' cheyy tat kinda dreamm.. zhao asked, 'lela. wads ur dream?' i just smiled :))

norinnne!! on the way outta canteen. saw herrr wit homies. and i jumped in frnt of her and waved. was kinda *huhhh??* cuz she was like slumped against the pillar ther, looking stoned. stood ther for 3, 5 secs. seemed like she hadn noticed me. 'norine? u okie?' she shook her head. i looked at noviani and she gave me a blank look. 'u gonna b okayyy?' but norine just shrugged.

wahhhhhyee? first salmiah. thn nurrul. thn sri. and thn ginny. now norine. like wth? ouff. hope they r feelin better rite now X|

at the bussstop. been ther for half an hr :) stayed till aspho's bus arrived. even after she left, i was still ther. just din feel like goin home :) Norine and homies got ther. she was still stoned X|. she had a cup of ice cream. melted. offered to me. so sweet, even fed me :)) so nice whn she laughed cuz she got ice cream on my nose. hahhaa..

she left... waited wit yuwen :) And was my turn to stone. whn all of a sudden, whamm. hahaa. dunno hoowww. dicky just walked into the thingie thingiieee, the one wher raelie pole-danced ther. hahaha yeaa. he hurt his erm i mean, he hurt himself. yeaa. hes stupid to think no one saw it. i did. and i was, tsktsktsk. he looked at me like it nvr happened and waved bye. i showed him the loser sign. im meann!! he got on the bus, caught his eye and said a proper bye.

stayed a bit longer more :) had company. winnie and songzhi. yuppp. eventually i got up the bus home. and guess who i met inside ther. twinz - -||| Wher did they come frm?!! 'we din see u board the bus pon! ouhh. ur short, i forgot.' urmphh. sadako sux!!! hahhaa..

i knocked against tis mayflower girl in the bus... actually, my bag kinda whacked her. haaard. whOops. and sadako apologized for me and was like sayn out loud, 'sorry sorry. my fren a bit retarded...' i whammed my bag against her.

the 3 of us were walkin home. and ther was til lil small birdie hopping abt on the pavement... lameass sadako chased after it - -||| and ther was tis cyclist guy and he was O_O . and i shouted to him, or i mean practically to evryone present ther; 'sorry sorry!! my fren a bit retarded.' and sakura and i had a good laugh :)

`i kill u. thn i kill myself. i call it suicide by asshole...//

Whaaa duppp?! wanna thank julehhs for helpin me out wit the taggieeeeee!!!! yoOhooo! whoOtz.

as soon as i stepped into my classroom, i announced, 'who's kind nuff to lend me plasters?!!!' hehhs. see how i use the word 'lend'? Yupp :))

I painstakingly asked evry1, including those at the far end of the classroom. but nupp. and it turned out norine has some. and shes sitting rite behind me ... o'wells. lurv ya norine!! mwacks! my life saver! cuz ive got blisters frm ytd and it hurts so bad. yup. and her plasters have bugs bunny all over it!! how cute!!!!

had pe. chia aint ther yet. so we took the initiative and jogged 3 rounds :))) ermm not arNd the field la. kinda like just back and forth ;) Hehhes. I ran an extra round and dragged sakura and sri wimme. cuz u wudn gues hu was ther; sitting by the monkey bars waiting outside the dentist vehicle ther. YUpp!! summieeeee! valencia and sharon were ther tooo and they were like givin' me tat Look. grinz grinz. they knew?

guess evryone knows huh.

mom buys me Ritter sport chocs. my fav! wow XD. thnx mom.

rite after pe.. made our way to hist. ouhhh hist common test. i must ace it. cuz i mugged real hard for this :\ haha.

and yea. ouh ouhhh. i heard tis squeaky freaki voice goin, 'lelaaa. wad happened?' right bhind me. turned round. who said tat? the only guy bhind me was hannan. der. but wads wit tat voice? 'u din turn up for scrabble comp ytd...' normal voice, thank gawd. 'i had investiturrre.. how was it anyway?' 'we got in fourth. see? we need uuuu!' ouff, flattered :)) but nahhh. if i were ther, we'd prollie got in last? hAHhaa.. *being modest* XD

was enjoying a wonderful view of him whn aspho came charging right up at me frm bhind lyka bull[shit] ;) Hhehs. thnkx alot. reeli needed tat. cuz after wad happened 2 days ago, i think ermm ive been.. ouhh loOk!!! gungun just came in wit lil 'weird black spot' behbee kitty in her mouth!!! how cuteeee!!

o wait. wad is gungun doing wit lil 'weird black spot' behbee kitty in her mouth??!!!!!

ouhh think i must have ter grabbed lil 'weird black spot' behbee kitty a lil too hard and terswung it abt a lil too harsh. cuz suddenly his cries got out a lil higher and squeaker.. kinda reminds me of hannan :\ ouhh. oUHh!H! *ponders* nahhh. hannan's a stupid name for an adorable lil feline.

spent one whole period plotting this graph during emaths XD Sooo stressed... lols if the same thing happens during exam, im toast.

chem suckS!? poor korhh. she was like reeli seriously stressed up wit us!! went like 'eee~1!!' evry once in 5 mins! cuz we were all dozing offf ZzZzz. hey we were stressed too. kuo en was like, 'im chemistry literate.' but it seemed like she seemed proud abt it. lOls.. kuo en rawcks!!!!

whn korh got no response, she was like all sighy and lookin miserable 'im talkin to the walls', she said out loud, but rather meant for herself thn for us. and she was sayin some stuffs abt covelent bond shiet and wanted us to repeat after her. but we just ~>.<~ and she got this 'ohh gawd' look and simply sat back on the stool ther.. :| she was so relieved whn it was time for assembly. she kicked us out. and i mean, seriously. no kidding! she was like, 'i count to 3, all of u must go out line up! 1, 2 3!!' Korhh, korhh.

assembly was entertaining. hehehs. those girls were enthu :)) smanget. and trust me, to me tats a good thing. so nice to see them goin, 'WAHAHA! WAHAHA!' ;) And those sec2s were coOoL! reeli niiiiiice!!! sad thing is, it seemed i was the only one appreciating the whole thingg.

after skool, went off to see lee loo to take my emaths test [turned out sc meeting was cancelled AGAIN]. thn lee loo told me and roystonn [absent ytd] tat shell give us the test tmr instead - -|||. i wanna get it over and done wit!!!!

ouhh and didja know she has this new system, wher shed pick 6 [unfortunate] students evryday to meet her after skool, wher she'll give them each a sum to complete? yeaaa. it was sakura's day XD Hannan's too. so apparently they got stuck doing the sum, as the other 4 had already done theirs and left. WAHhAhAS.

stayed to wait for her. but refused to help. cuz not supposed to. hehhe. but thn dicky and akmal came alongg. ahh pfft. they helped him. tried to. but they cudn solve it either. thn rasheedi-org-afrika happened to b ther too, together wit tis cheena guyy. so u can see [or picture], they were like crowding over hannan.. which wasn reeli helpful....

ooohh akmal did a weird thing.. :\ He got up to sakura and offered to help her. hehhhs. he read the sum for wad seemed like an hr, but came up to no solution. lols. sakura was pissed off. i was humored. 'sheeeshh. u think amaths is like malayy???' hehhe.

o'well. it was gettin pretty late.. so i helped sakura out :) Sheeshh. logarithms suckkk. but we managed thru. hhahaa. wished hannan all the best and we left.

actually if id known the meeting and the test wud b tmr instead, right now, i wud b at mac wit nurrrul. cuz i kinda asked her if she wanted to talk 'it' out. cuz she was reeli reeli down ytd.

good friday tis friday. public holidayyy. :)

`YEeeaaaa im shorrrt. u got a prob wit tat? the last guy to haf a prob wit tat is still bleeding frm his scrotum...//

Heyyyalllll!!! beatty investiture was... :\ hahaa. makes me go back and think, wow peirce rawcks. hahaa. :)) borringggg but i had fun :)

Aight. we were late. hehe. it was like, we had to walk sucha loooong way. skool was, wad, under construction? renovation? wadeva. haha. but yea. ther was construction evrywher, sooo not the place for high heels.

made frenz wid this braddell westlake gals :))) like, they were so simple! unlike us. black heels, white blouse - -||| felt so weird.

ushered by tis ermm girl. and tis guy, named sanjit? sanjib? sanjid?!?! wth. ahahha.. all i know is tat he has a 'kumar' at the end ther :)) he was at our investiture tat time :) and he was like, 'peirce secondary...' *shake hands*.. 'noe valencia?' and i was like, 'hahh yeap! valencia. im wearing her shoes now...' *curses*

her shoes. omg. firstly, thnx for lending it to me, nu er! reeli nice reeli cool. but it kills.

the aherrm* lookalike guy ushered us to the hall. was like, he said, 'this way pls' and we, 'which wayyy!?' and aspho and i walked the other way :\ .. lOLS 'tis way. tis wayy. tis wayy!' so cute la he.

so happy we were late :)) we missed the speech. hAHHA!!! overall, the investiture sucks? sorryy! but reeli. the performance was like .... all the time i was 0_O . suddenly i felt like i was in kindergarten wearing an oversized blazer and a pair of shoes which din reeli fit.

'simple reception'.. simple is an understatement!!!! tot they were being modest. but whn we got to the canteen..... whoa okieeee. simple. the hell yea it was simple.

yea, we were mean.

got our food. chicken was good :) but it was frustrating. ther these 2 kua chuan presby gals sat wit us :) thnk gawd la. cuz we were like the only 2 sitting ther. kinda outkast. hahaa. was in a middle of fighting wit the chicken. finishing last mouthful of mee, and the girl was like introducing. so reached out my hand, said my name, and sputtered some ermm yeaa at her. she was like uhh and i was, 'ohhh sorry!!!!!!!!' SO EMBARRASsing.

was laughin wit aspho abt my stupid shit, and tis guy suddenly got us to join the 'tour'.... got the kumar guy and tis comel guy wit camera and tis other erm guy. thank god it aint girls. cuz tat wudn b fun ;)

HAHHh! *haiyak dush*

not tat the guys r cute la. but tats not the point :) din reeli bother me much. just ther to make frenz. too bad din ask for the guy's number. talkin abt numbers... asked summie if he know neeone frm beatty and he was like, 'no. y??? oh i know y. u like a guy frm beatty.' he knows me so well, it freaks. 'no la. not like la. just think hes cute.' 'din ask for his no?' 'shyyyy!!!!' 'i tot u pro one?' ... PRO ONE whard?!?! was like, 'wher u gettin at!?!!!'

tats not a good thing :
omg. he knows abt... shiet.

neeway yea. back to the investiture. he showed us the skool. too bad we din get the kumar guy to show us arNd. hahAH!! very cute sia.. and they were sayin sumfink abt, the waiting room. but it sounded more like the mating room. and i was, 'MATInG RoOM?!!!!!!!' waiting room lerrrhh. ouff. ther goes the funn. and the thing was during skool curriculum. unlike here, it was aftre skool. so it wasn as crowded .. and awkward......

tour over. the guy was like, 'u know the way out? wad bus to take?' all those stuffs. aspho was like, nodding her head. liar. we had no clue. at least i din. i dno. the shoes were killing me.

but yeaa. eventually got back to skooool. late for scrabble comp. turned out peiru had taken over me :)) coOl. hahaa. so got home. raining - -||| had my colored shit on. pfft.. but bcuz today's a tue, mass run, must wear proper comfortable shit. haha. yeaa. oh well :)

sumfink happened between them again.... poor nurruL. hey, b strong okie?! *hugs*

she said sumfink abt me being lucky cuz ive nvr face probs like hers wit nana and aspho. and i was like... i dno how to put this.

ive been speechless lotsa times today. it freaks.

nuff said.

kittens' eyes finally opened!!!!!!!!!!! yOOhoo!!! a week and 1 day old :)) but already hate. can tell they cant wait to claw my sis' eyes out. b patient, my babies. ur turn will come. wait till shes fast asleep, hide beneath the covers, whn she opens her eyes, pounce and sink ur fangs into her eyeballs.

my gawd, i hate her so much.

i did usmfink unthinkable last nite. but wth :)) better to regret things uve done, thn things u hadn. and yea. like shanie said, live life on the edge ;) so.. wad i did, beeeeg risk. cudn believe i did it. but i reeli did. i guess, u shld take risks in life and get into a serious roll. thn ull learn :) and ive learnt to trust my crazy ideas.. ahhaa.

im eating dried prunes :\ .. my sis is sniffing henna. wtf? im still not talkin to her, tho. so she can sniff all she wants.

sumtimes u reeli shld just stop. reflect. and pick yer nose. cuz sometimes it just needs a good pickin'.