(:
School was alright.
Hah. He was late this morning.
I thought he wouldn't be in school.
I was disappointed I guess.
Then I pretending to enjoy the dancers performing
when suddenly I was like saying to myself,
luuuucky he's absent muahahhahahha.
I mean, no way I'm going to let him
watch those disgusting dancers up there(:

Just as I said that,
dang he arrived and joined his class.
Bullshhh.

Hahhaha.
Can you believe me?
We have totally nothing to do with each other
and I'm already so-called controlling him...

This is bad.

Mr Wong is so cute(:
Singing and dancing along to All American Rejects.
I was reminded of yesterday;
Meisy, Theodore and I in the Student Council Room
(How funny.. I could have just typed SC)
and that song came on air.
Theodore went like, "Eh. I know this song."
"Do not sing!" I was saying.
But we all sang anyway(:
Thank God I know the words to this song(:

"Swing swing swing from the tangles of
my heart is crushed by a former love~
Can you help me find a way
to carry on agaaain.."

Back to today 31st August TEacher's Day Eve(:

The whole celebration was pretty nice(:
Mr Nasim's was... entertaining;)
We had Pe after that.
Stayed behind.

Walking past this erm,
couple of ahermm.. sec 1a2 guys.
They were, I don't know, chasing one another?
And suddenly heard of them going like,
"I've got body odour, go away!"
or something equally cute/lame/cute la, definitely cute.

Very.. cool.

Surprised Miss Khai
with this really huge Winnie the Pooh
in Piglet's .. outfit..?
Yeh. Pink. Miss K loves pink.
Whyyyy!?
Orange is so much better.
(:
And we made Miss K go, 'awwww!'
because we got a cake for her as well.
Well.
Just a small cake.
Not really a cake actually.
A cookie....?
A biggie cookie.
No. Not a cookie.
It's a cake la.

You know what?
Who cares?
:p

Yeh. And on it, with icings, it said:
"Miss Khai loves us."

I don't get it la, seriously.
Hehhhe. xP
But it was sweet. I guess?

Took a class picture(:
It was terrible!
Hahhahah.
Cuz we all StAnK.
Hahhahaha.
And we had to squeeze
in order to get evryone in frame..?
Yeh.
We were all holding our breaths.
WOn't be surprised
if we all turned out looking like...
retardies.

Don't look at me.
I have no idea where that came from.
It just jumped into my head(:
Retardies.
Hehe. Kind of like that.
Hahhahah.
"Hey retardies. Whadupp?"

Okay.

Sakura and I pissed Sriee off...?
Yeh. It was creepy.
She didn't speak to neither of us
for.... I don't know.
Long enough.
):

But we're fine now(:
I was like, "Sri. You mad at us?"
And she just shrugged and said,
"Abeh.. Syahirah always bully me."

She didn't mention me.
I was delighted and relieved?
I was saying to myself,
"HAH. Nothing to do with me."
And then I almost hated myself for feeling so.
How could I be so selfish?
))))):

Went back home.
Did I tell you I sting?
Eh no.
I meant 'STINK'.
Hah.
Yes.
Go away.

But I smell ermm fine now.
COme back.

OKay,lame.

I took a shower(:
All freshened up.
Blogged a little.
Hahha.
Then Twins called up.
Went Mayflower.

I guess I was anticipating at first.
But the minute I laid eyes on that school,
I wanted to go home already.

"Oh gosh what am I doing? What have you guys done to me?!"
Then I told myself to don't panic.
I tried a different approach.
"Alright. School's fine. Can I go home now?"

Surreptitously, I slowed down.
Twins was way in front.
I was hoping that maybe they would all of a sudden
forget I was there with them....
I was hoping that maybe they wouldn't notice
I was walking backwards..
"I think I left something .. erm, somewhere. Got to go get it. Bye!"

But no matter what,
I still found myself walkinng
walking towards that bloody school.
It's like from that song by Aguilera
which goes like,
"My body's saying let's go
but my heart's saying no."
Alah. Genie in the Bottle la.
Haha yehh.

Yeh. So we stepped into Mayflower Primary.
Saw Amir Kecik(:
And. HARRIS! AHHH!
Hhahahahhahahhahahahha.
Who is Harris?
I blogged about him before.....

02.10.2003
i saw harris!! naw, actually i saw him yesterday but ive forgotten to blog abt it. too nuts abt summie :p Neeway... yarhz i saw summie! damn. i mean harris! SHer, remember harris? *wink* He's so big already! and whn i saw him, i was lyk, is this da same guy i usedta noe 2 yrs ago? da same guy hu got me pissed so many times i felt lyk commiting suicide??? Harris is this chinese-mly guy back in my old skool. he was p4 and i was p6 whn we got to noe each other. i was kindaf drunk this one day and started larfin fer no reason at all and i was in da bus wit my other drunken fren whn harris boarded da bus wit his othe fren. tht time, he was rather nerdyish-cute lookin, wit his ugly glasses. so i started teasing him and criticizing him lyk $#!T and stuff and he got real annoyed he dropped off at da bus stop b4 his stop. I was bitching in malay. i did not tot he wud understand. he really looked chinese! but that's not the point. the thing was i was criticizing him and that's... not nice. WAhAHhahAz... i guesh im kindaf creepy and nasty whn im drunk... n da next day i saw him, i apologized tho i nvr planned of duin so. it was lyk so abrupt. guesh my conscience got da betta of me :)

I didn't think he recognised me.
Maybe he's shy...?
Maybe I got the wrong guy.
Or maybe he just forgotten that I exist?
That's sad.
He's really a funky guy.
..
Yeh. Actually he is. Was.
I never really realized that until now.
-reminiscing.
..(:
Can say he was the closest mly guyfren i had
The only actually.
Considering he's 2 years younger
and I didn't have to worry anything
because I would always be more superior then he was.
Yes.
I was like that last time.

I should have said hi!
But I guess I was feeling too.. IRGh!
UHhuh.
IRGH!
Because we kanna shoo-ed by this fucked up.. gUY.

We were just chilling out
when this guy came up to us and told us to leave.
First thing when I saw him...
Reminded me of Mr Nasim.
Hah. Don't ask(:
Yeh so he got us to leave.
Okay fine we hear ya.
We wanted to leave THaT way.
But he reckoned we leave the otHEr way.
We refused because we wanted to leave thAt way.
So we kind of ignored that asshole
and left tHaT way.
Guess that pissed the shit off of him.
He practically pulled us back.
And was like, "The OThER way please!"
And started making a bloody scene.

What I don't get it is
why us?
I mean, there was still others.
Yiting was there as well,
how come she did not get kicked out?
(Not that I wanted her to.
Just want to make a point. Hahha.)

And why was he making such a fuss?
SHeesh.
Like I wanted to stay in that bloody school anyway.

Ahwells.

After that whole thing,
called up momma.
Went out with momma.
I love my mommma(:
Made me feel so much better.

Going out tomorrow with
beloved Nana and Aspho.
Let's hope I can wake up.
Let's hope Aspho is punctual tomorrow!!
Hehhehehehhehe.
Peace.

Spare me this terrible pain I'm suffering of now.
Someone. Please. Just.
Plunge a knife through my temple or something.
Or shoot me with a freaking gun.
Right. In. The. Middle.
Of my freaking head.
Irgh.

I haate migraines. Duhh.
Who enjoys them?
Tell me who.
If you do, which is unlikely,
unless you're some freaki weirdo,
then DON'T tell me.

Going off to visit old Mayflower.
I hope I don't see anyone I know.
I only want to see one and one of them
is Ameliaaaa.

But she's in down under.
So.
I can dream on.

Then meeting my mommma.
Going out with my momma.
I love my momma.

I love yall too(:
Don't miss me.
It's bad for your health.
I've said that before, haven't I?
See how much I care?

Yayyy i can blog agaain!
Life's great.
I'm great(:

Don't want to brag,
but i figured all these by myself.
Are you proud of me yet?
Please be(:

My migraine's gone(:
Miraclously.

Okie. It's back agaaain):

I love Emy's nick!
She comes up with spunky nicks(:
I love Emy.
Emy, will you marry me?
LMFAO.

I'd like an order of fries. A Quarter pounder with cheese. I love de light in ur eyes. Will u go out with me pls?

-deep breath.

Hans is officially my personal publisher.
Thank you, Hans(:

Don't know what's up with my account.
I can't seem to publish my blog.
I can't seem to type anything actually.
This is depressing.
I can't rely on Hans all the time.
Can I?
-smiles sweetly at Hans Bhans.

Don't want to keep my publisher waiting.
So what's up today?
Same old same old.
Mr Tan physics teacher was absent.
Mrs J was absent as well.
Hannan and Eldwen made themselves absent
during Miss Khor's last lesson(:

After school helped my fellow secretariats
with teacher's day stuffs.
Arisa had to go off early because she had stuffs.
She was so in a hurry, she took my physics book by mistake.

Theodore was our.. food delivery man(:
Because his mother was.. erm, i don't know.
Some very important lady...?
So we got him to get us food from the atrium(:
Hahhaa big sin. But yeh.
Don't expect us to do work without filling our stomach.
(Filling our stomach with food not meant for urs..
Seriously, it tastes better.)
Hehhe. Tasty.
Spicy though.
Too spicy.
Gulped down Meisy's pink dolphin.
Sardine jer(:

Flowers arrived.
The fun begun. Or began.
..

Hate roses.
Hate hate hate roses.
Hate the thorns actually.
Got pricked thousands of times.
My thumb actually bled.
A little(:
So I'm okay.
Hahhaa.

After all those,
I might consider being a florist.
Or Just the helper(:
I don't want to do roses, though.
Hahhaha.
If you're not careful,
you can bleeed to death!
Hahh.

Lynette cam pro gitu(:
She's good.
Hhahha.
And Ginny sucks((:
Oh.
Xinying too.
She and her 'mucus'.
Hahha.
Though I started it.
Ahhh.

Atiqah brought home a white rose.
Meishie too.
I brought home an orange petal.
It's gorgeous.
It's red underneath(:
I cut it later to micro bits pieces.

Went home with a stupid migraine.
Still am having.
If this continues, I might not come school tomorrow):
And my account's not working right.
Stupid account.
Or it could be my computer.
Stupid computer.
Just my luck.

ps.
Thanks again, Hans(:


testing testing muahahhahahhas.

hiiiiii!!! hehhehe.
new laaaayout!!
jangan maraaah!
michelle braaanch(:

apparently i changed the original picture(:
it was a picture of this lady looking like a moron
standing in a middle of the sea.

okay fine. not really in the middle hahhaha.
she'd be drowning if she really was.
she's just standing along the shore in a sandy beach.
kinda boring if you asked me(:
so i changed it to michelle branch.

shut up it's my blog my say my way.
ah-thank-you.

but i'm open to your comments(:
i guess.
hahahhaha.

no michelle's not nude.
... -frowns at michelle.
michelle, you're not nude are you?

hahhah leave it to me to make an ass out of myself.
hahahhahah fancy asking a question to a picture.

anyway.
i just might change the layout again.
or i might not.
cuz i'm a busy person.
-looks at asila.
really.

what have i done today?
instead of just editting my blog..
ermm. i did my amaths(:
are you proud of me?
please be.

i practised my immortal on my geetar.
considering how terrible my fingerings are,
i don't think i can go very far ):

but because i bloody rhymed those spontaneously,
i don't feel very depressed or sad already.

do i rock
or what? (:


I totally forgot it was cousin Elly's __th birthday today!! Omigosh. I should be kick in the guts and shot in the .. err. Let's not go to shooting, alright? I didn't mean to forget(: And I cannnot believe I don't know her age. Ow man. Now shoot me.


Hahahhaha I'm so flattered~ (This has nothing to do with the previous paragraph(: Haha..) You guys missed my craps. ...Well. At least Asskandar does. Hahahha. And Hans Bhans. Hahhah. I assume. I bet Asila misses them too. Hahhaha.. That's good. But don't miss la, yerh? A bit bit can. But not till crazy going insane.. It's not good for your health(: I don't want anything to happen to my loyal readers. -ernest earnest look.


Sakura absent. Eh I meant, Sakura was absent. (Proper English from now on.) But I guess I should start and try to adapt to it. As in, get use to it. Because they are going to transfer school. Somewhere in Tampines...? I don't know. Or maybe they're just pulling my legs. I hope so. Because I don't want them to transfer!! ):


Miss Teo wasn't happy with us this morning. She wasn't happy with our Amaths results): So she gave us oh-so-many bloody maths questions and made us complete them all in a period. Which was very cruel of her because.. because.. I don't know. It's just cruel. But I know she did that because.. she was pissed off at us. Okay la. Fine. She did that because she wanted to help us get better marks for Amaths(: And that's nice. Though she could have been nicer if she hadn't rush us. And then give us oh-so-many bloody maths questions to do during the weekend. And I really mean, alot. But I'm sure it'll pay off(:


Hell. What's happening to me? Why do I sound so sensible?


Mrs O is nice. But she just nags alot. She nagged for more than half a period. She nagged about our recent reader's digest test, about how we did very well for it. Yup, you didn't read wrong. She had came to the conclusion that we cheated. Got answers from other classes.. Well. Not me. I didn't. Bet i failed for that section because I didn't really read the articles given. So it had nothing to do with me... Sigh. Most of what she said was true. I felt so deep and philosophical after listening. Hahha. But that lasted for a short while. It was Geography.


I was almost exhilarated when I found out Suhandy was present today(: Nothing personal though. Actually.. it is. And personally speaking, I swear I would have get Hannan to kick him in the nuts. You see, Suhandy had my workbook. My workbook which was what held me back from getting one more bloody mark. One more bloody mark to A1 for Geography. .. Guess what? He was absent yesterday. I nearly cried there in front of Miss Tan when it hit me; my freaken workbook is with that freaken Suhandy, whom I heard was in Athens, Greece to catch the closing of the Olympics. Hah. Okay.


But I don't know. Suhandy was in school today. And I forgiven him because he was nice to me. Barely.. Hahhaha but I'm not the type to bear grudges. If your lucky, that is. Hahhaha. And Suhandy's one lucky ass. Anyway, he has too many 'enemies' already. -nodds. Yup.


Recess.. Boring.


Emaths. I switched places with Songzhi because apparently Winnie likes her better than she likes me. Something I'm so grateful of(: Hahhaha. So the whole 2 periods, I was sitting by myself at that dark corner of the room, amusing myself with Tabi's letter. I was writing her a reply when halfway, the paper got blown off the table and got underneath the teacher's desk. Oh wow. How convenient.


Dennie offered to pick it up. But I feared he would 'check' it, thinking it was my maths stuff. So I was practically pleading him, "It's okay, Mr Goh. It's okay! Leave it. Leave it~" Hahha. He looked at me like I was a moron for the rest of the period.


I didn't retrieve it back because then I would have to crawl underneath the teacher's desk. I mean, no way.. You don't know what's underneath that desk....... HHahahha. Yeh. Forced myself to focus. Ended up drawing little triquetras, which I purposely made it look like venn diagrams so Mr Goh wouldn't suspect. Hahha. I thought it was very smart of me. But we were doing Trigonometry...... So then I drew stars intead.


Saw Mr Goh giving Eldwen and Hannan and pep talk outside the class. Mr Goh seemed really .. depressed, dare I say? Disappointed, yehh. Where am I getting depressed from? If there's one person who's depressed, it should be me. Depressed from hunger yeh.


Then the next thing I knew, Hannan was sitting beside me 'as a punishment by Mr Goh'. He seemed reluctant. Probably he was scared too. I mean, scared of whatever that might crawl from beneath the teacher's desk. HAHAHHA. Nahhh, kidding(:


Mr Goh had to tell him four times to move his butt. I pretended to not care, and do my work. Hannan shy ar. Because he knows I've always think he's 'nice'. I still do. And he thinks that's nice even though both of us know he's really not. Hahha. Is this complicated? Hahaha. Anyway yeh. He's shy.. Hehhe. Because it's unpleasant when someone thinks you're great, and then it frighteningly turns out you're not as great as that someone thinks....


Hannan was smiling sweetly at me. I could read him; he was screaming, "Don't ask. It's embarrassing." But i asked anyway(: "What happened?!" Hahhaa. And he was like, "Punished. For making too much noise." And he gave a little wave at Indon friend, Eldwen, who was at the other corner.


I don't think they make noise. I think they're pretty .. low profile...? I mean, I can name others who make more noise but Mr Goh doesn't do anything about it. Maybe because the both of them are sitting right smack in the front right under the teacher's nose so it's easier for the teacher to pick of them. ): That's not faaair. I know how they feel. .. Because I myself, am trying to figure out how and why I ended up riiight in the front and beside Winnie!?! Well. Okay. Maybe because of my height la. But next to Winnie!?!?!?


Talked to Hannan for a while. He asked why I was sitting alone. Hated the way he said that; as if I'm this saaad little isolated loner...... So rather defensively I said, "Id rather sit alone. Winnie takes too much space." Really. She uses half of my table for her elbow(: .. We were talking about Singapore Idol when suddenly Winnie went like, "Eh? Hannan? How come you're there? Accompany Lela?" And she giggled her irritating giggle. Honestly, we couldn't be bothered(: I'm kind of used to it already. Though I wish she hadn't said that. Because things got a little.. okay, a lot awkward after that.


Stayed back to do a little Amaths after school in the canteen while Nurul J and Sriee had band meeting. Broke Nurul J's orangey band. Hah. Whoops. Anyway. Saw `him made a few rounds... like, what's he doing here. Shouldn't he be at the mosque? Not that I mind. Eh. Actually I do. Yeh, I did mind. Because it was windy and stuff, and my hair was in a mess. Ugh, go away~ Don't see me like this~


LMFBO.


My sister is swearing..... : Hahha. Poor thing. For starters, she doesn't have a wide range of vulgarities.... It's always the same thing over and over ahain. This is almost humiliating. I mean, after all the stuffs I taught her?!?! Hhahaha.


Talking about sister, it's my bloody sister 14th birthday tomorrow. Yeh. That sister. That sister who lost my Dicsman. Hahha. But Ive forgiven her (I think) because she brought home a burnt Maroon 5 CD for me. I was pleased at first. But it just reminded me of my beloved Dicsman): Anyway, I'm not getting her anything this year. I leave it to my momma. I'll just sign 'lotsa love, ela' on the wrapping(:


Ouhhhhh haven't I always done that?


Oh. Hahhaa. Elly's 22. Oooohh she's old~ Hahhahaha. And i thought 15 is bad~ Hahhahahha. Well. 15 *is* bad. So I guess I'm not spared :p


That's enough crap for today(: Hahhahaha. Happy now?!?! Hahhahaha..

Hello, world. Unfortunately, I'm still alive and kicking(: Ehheh. Thanks so much for your concern. Of course, I meant that to be sarcastic. Just for your information. Haha I just rhymed those~ ..well.


I didn't blog for 2 days straight. Wow, must have been enjoyable for you guys huh? Ehehhehe. Two days without having to read my crap. Two lela-less days. Haha shit that sounded so weird. lela-less. Hahhaa. You know what this means.. Never ever put less after lela. It just doesn't go right. In fact, i think it should be a crime. There's always plenty of lela to go around.


Strike off that previous paragraph please. That was such a dick thing to say... Hahah.


What happened to me? I'm not busy or anything. Hahaha me?! Busy?! What can I possibly be busy with?! Hahahha. Well depends la actually. I have been busy... Like right now. Busy. So I guess I'll just blog another time, yeh? Aww come on, don't pout like that. It makes you look stupid than you already are.


Only kidddinng(: You know I love you~

My Monday started out terrible.. that I cannot deny. Due to last night massive late night smses which you don't really need to know who (assuming you are dying to know hurhurr..), I didn't really get a good sleep. Not that's I'm complaining (much) because I really enjoy my friends' company(: Hehhehe. Damn. Is it obvious that I'm trying very hard to sound nice? Hahahhaahha. And what's with the proper English and punctuation and capital letters? Enough already!!!!~


i woke up looking like a totally lost racoon. (i refuse to describe me a panda cuz racoon is cuter and panda is not. somemore, pandas frm china. yes. im racist(: today is racist day. muahhahahhahahahhaha.. only kiddding(((((((: peace~). But not only did i woke up looking like a racoon wit a possum on its head (meaning my hair), theres tis blaaardy annoying freakken ugly looking zit right smack on my forehead.


things couldn't get any worst. well. boom behbee i was wrong cuz it did get worst. i wasn just a racoon wit a bad hair day, i was also a racoon wit a mouth so vulgar and foul that.. that... i dno. i was just a speaking racoon wit mouth splurging wit vulgarities and curses(: "Ohhhh f***ing a**holic sh** its monday today. m*****f***ing monday. f*** it today's phototaking. bloody hell. and there's a f**king sh**a** zit and ive got f**king eye bags~ why must phototaking b todaayyy~"


thn again im glad it was today. ehehe. cuz met tis hot .. prollie a volunteer helper.. guy during the photo taking. muahahhaha. yeh. the one in black? the one wit awesome hair and gorgeous eyes. .. haha i dno. tho i cant really recall how he looks like. only tat hes got cool hair(: and hes soooo .. sooooo. small la. ahaha. yeh. saw him again whn sriee and i were rushing for the loo. even in the midst of tat, sriee managed to note down the name of the photography company thingie and the address. whOooa sriee rawqks(: EHhe.


tat pretty photographer-helper guy. -droools a f**king river.

tat was really embarrassing.. -weeps. i made a bloody fool outtarf myself.


hes a fren of my sister's fren. they were on the phone, still are as a matter of fact... and i was singing very lamely. yes was. now im not. haha. i was trying very hard to imitate amy lee. aherm. bet i sounded more like tat mrs lee from fifth storeyy.. heh but tats not it...


yeh so i was singing immortal. did i say, singing very loudly? yes i was. nothing beats the saturday evening wailing ur lungs out along wit ur all time favourite song(: so yeh. thn i overheard my sis talking abt me on the phone and giggling away. i was like, "eh. whats ur problem?" and she was like, "my fren says ur singing very good." ohh how flattering... pfft. "And she asks why din audition for singapore idol."


nothing pisses me off thn pri4 kids trying to b funny wimme esp while im in a middle of a chorus. cudn she waaait till im done wit the song? "you tell your fren, being sarcastic is not gonna take her anywhere."


"being sarcastic is not taking you anywhere," my brilliant sister told her fren. "it's okay. she's just 13 yrs old, she darsen know what shes saying."


i swear i felt like going up there and giving her a smack. and prollie her fren too. but bcuz she was on my bed and i was too lazy to climb up, i chose to ignore her. "im fifteen la dey~" wuzzap wit my fam anyway, getting my aaage wrong?


my sis was still talking abt me. ... i heard, "peirce sec" and "sec 3" and "got ic alr" and "gotta guitar but darsen know howta play". tats it. tat was the last straw. i was abt to yell for momma whn suddenly my sis said to me, "ela. my fren's bro knows how to play guitar." "SO?!" she scrambled down and practically smacked the phone against my ear. i heard someone playing the guitar at the background. immortal by evanescence.


thn i heard a male's voice going, "happy now?" and the sister going, "more la. my fren's sister listening." .. whadda?! i poked my sister wit the phone's anthena. or whatver u call it... musbat nyer budak. malukan maruah org. cehh. the bro played summore. so i listened. this time a different tune. thn suddenly he said "hello? syakila's sister?" into the phone. eh!?


"yeh?" i stuttered.
"i hope u enjoyed tat."
"yeh." biiig gulp.
"alamak. maloo ar."
he referring to me? or himself?
"btw, this is helmi."


i swear i din ask.. instead i said 'okie-dokie. bbyee~' and tossed the phone back to my sis like a grenade how wishing it really was one. tat was reaaally embarrassing. fjdsa s aajsfja jhsjaoiewf. i was rude huh? no. im just shy. so i got my sister to apologize for me. im sucha ass. i can nvr face another helmi. well. i dno how he looks like so i gues phew. remind me to ask which school hes frm. so tat i can run whn i see any mly guy frm tat school(:


it was just me. and my momma. and her momma (my granmom la tat is.) and my sis, who was having a migraine. i hope it was bcuz she had been figuring out how to get me a dicsman.. hehhe. and she was singing derek mcdonald's song, "cuz it huuuurts so baaad.."


seriously, her singing made mine seem like beyonce knowles.. i was like, omg she is so sad): evryone din have the heart to shut her up. xcept me. i told her to go hit the pillow. as in, go sleep la. so she did. literally. hitting her head against the cushion. thn she started talking. talking buulshitt. weird thing was, she knew she was talking buulshitt. therefore, she apologised. said she just have to talk or else the migraine just gets worst. omg she is so sad.


wher me getting sad frm?


momma suggests curling up in bed wit layers on pillows (?) on ur head. grandmom suggests watching tv. i rmbd the movie i watched ytd wit aspho and nana and suggest drilling a screwdriver thru the temples of ur head. i stopped laughing whn i realized no one was laughing. thn seriously i said, "if i have a migraine, id blast some music." and i *just* hadta add, "but sad ar, cuz someone bloody lost my dicsman~" i left my sister moaning with guilt and pain, and my momma trying to console her and my grandmom rubbing her temples.


Im a terrible person. Apparently its genetically inherited ;)

aaahhh im so tired. so sleepyyyy.. snooore. i can sleep right tis moment if i wanna but i wont(: i cant leave yall, my readers, wit nothing to ermm.. read...? ehehe. assume yall wanna know. ehhe. ego, lelaaaa. ego. muahahhaha.


nabila best ar. hahah. shes like something u must have early in the morning; an essential to kick start the day. can say that my mood towards that particular day lies on the hands of nabila huda or valensi as she pays me to call her. hahahah narr. hheheh. no payment whatsoever is made in this ermm process...? hahha.. ..?


where did i stop? oh yes. first thing we saw when we got to the parade square was fshjs. "is he the one?" she asked and i was like, "yeh behbee. he's the di**." and she went on abt sayinng how she would bash him up if he dares to 'ka-ciao' me again(: Eheh. i know it wont be true because just in case some cute guys are reading this and would wanna get to know nabila, she is adorably harmless. ehehhe. anyway it is my fault la, cause i initiated it. hahha. big sin, but yeh(: But it was nice to hear she said those. hahah. makes you go like, aaawww how sweet ants are all over.


slept during amaths period. snore.. dunno what happened to miss teo. haha. i dont mind. she should do it more often. .... no lela, dammit. we've gone thru this before!! correct me if im wrong but ur maths is deteriorating~ cant help it if im dumb. ur not dumb, u dumbass. ur just plaaain lazy. lazy it is thn.


damn i love talking to myself. i can talk shit and not get upset abt it. much.


i really couldn't remember what happened after that. ... oh. we had cca photo taking. after recess. yeh. sriee tagged along cuz she loves me. hehehehe. and she loathes emaths wit dennie. hehhe. photo taking was .. so fast. sat next to louisa. hahha she rocks. informal evryone just went ahhhh!!!!! and rushed forward. i have tis hot feeling its gonna come out... hot. the photo tat is. i dno xD


after school crapped at the atrium.. bullied arisa. muahahha. the female version of wenhao(((: damn we're nasty. goodnaturedly tho. arisa darsen mind cuz she rocks.


hong sui told me kay on had beaten up some kid. and the kids' frens beat him up back. .... instead of going all sympathetic abt it, i simply said, "oh. so is he dead yet?" sighhh. pretty mean but yehh. i surprised myself. i swear i would have kicked myself if i cud.


i really wished we had tutored pri 1s intead. so much cuter(: and managable. and bulliable...? hahha. made frens with these 2 pri1s. esther and sarahhh. they were doing some.. art-sy shmart-sy stuf. i kept eyeing them and smiling.. damn i used to b as cute as them. hahahhahahhahahhhahahha.. .sheesh. -hits head. ahha. thn suddenly one of them offered to give us one of their masterpieces.


knowing me, i took one. heart. orange the colour. cudn resist it. ehhehe. but it hadn dried yet. ehhe. (((((: i was holding tat piece of heart like it was some holy thing. hahhaha. but it waaaas. i mean, given by a pri 1 kid and all. but fu**er me, i lost it on the wayyy)))): Kick me, everybody.


kay on approached my table. he and his .. fat fren..? haha. but his fat fren din share his same 'interests' in me. he decided to move to the back. kay on wasn pleased. guess what? his fat fren din care. he got a chair and f***** off. i encouraged kay on to follow him(: and he did. wahh lao. what happened to toughh sick lil bas**** loh kay on i knew? ehhe. all these while, hong sui was screaming and giving out books. hah i can see him 20 yrs down the road: an auctioneer..??


asked hongsui some stuf abt kay on. he has a pri 6 bro who hongsui kept sayinng, "hair smells like malay boys' hair." huhh?? and tat he mixes wit bad kids. -sighh. tat explains alot.


have u seen arisa gone mad? as in, really really angry mad? i had. just now. it was scary. i gues it was my fault? her tutee and my tutee were copying. i was trying to stop them. arisa was smsing away. and i was like, "arisaa a lil help here.." so she tried to get them to stop. but her tutee snapped at her and she got all red... she was silent for a while and thn, "is tat how ur parents teach you to talk to people like that?" and looking at me she said, "that is like so chinese."


whoooa arisa, racist.... suddenly i felt bad for teasing her earlier that day.. and she just snatched the piece of paper from her tutee who looked like as if someone just ripped his arm off his socket. but evrything was fine after tat. arisa still rocks(:


was texting asila cuz i was bored outta my tail (?) whn i heard kay on calling for hong sui. thn they startin communicating in cheena frm one corner of the class to another. i heard they mentioned, 'baboon'. asked hong sui what he wanted and he said, "he wants you to go there. said he got some maths qn he dnno howta do."


HAH. riiiight~ i wasnt booorrrrn yesterday aite. anyway, syarifah and lyna were there wit him whaard. pfft.


was raining dawgs and dolls. cold~ wanted the uncle to open the gate cuz it was nearer to the busstop. uncle din. so we hadta waaaaaalk. whn we got to the busstop, all drenched and cold, turned out some auntie had opened the gate to let some kids inn.. talk abt unfair.


took 167 to cine. bought movie tix. secret window. honestly, nvr heard of it. stephen king creation so, it shld b something good. anyway, i trust aspho's taste in movies. ehheh. i tink. walked arnd. lost. i was. even tho i was following them. heh. saw fatin and aisyah. old skoolmates. weird. i mean, they called out my name and.. tats tat. no smile, no wave. well. it was like as if, they din mean to call me out loud. prollie bitching between themselves, "omg whos tat familiar lookign su****? ohhhhh!! lela!!" evrybody hated me back thn(:


ate kfc. ohh yeh. aspho bought shoes. and i had to b the one carrying them. hebat skali. i cant carry stuf. i dno howta. esp biggie stuf. finaaaally we were in the theater..... lerh. we thot it wud b some horror stuf. nah. nth scary. seriously. ehhe.. (shuddup, aspho. im not spooked. or freaked. or whatever.. a wee bit suspensed. tats all.. esp the screwdriver part. and the poor dogg.. yeh. but im not scaaared~XP)


went baack hme. 15 mins b4 8. mom sounded cool on the phone but whn i got home she was nagging non stop(:

hi(:


to H****Q who kinda tagged my comment box ytd((((: no actually it was today... yeh. hahha. i have no idea who you are.. i think... so i cant tell u if it was you i was referring to la, in ytd's entry(: Maybe you could like, you know, tell me your name. hahah. so i can reconfirm. ceh. hahha. yeh(: -sings to the tune Dance For Me by SisQo. said whats your name? come on come on. say your name. let me whisk you awaaayy. better yet some fries and a shake.. cmon gurl now dun be laaaaaaaate... just kiddding.


aw damn i miss sisqo. (hahah riiight. but hellz his songs rock.) heh still remember 2 yrs ago, whn nana pestered me to sisqo's lyrics. and on the way to some excursion in the bus, the both of us were singinnng and all. well. tryinng to. ehehhe. cuz we got the tune all wrong. xD


school was alright. and im sucha klutz(: and one clumsyazz. my reaction to stuf today is outstandingly slow. okie what else is new. hah. but reaaally~ its like whn someone tells me a joke, ill b laughing at it only 15 minutes later, heh if im lucky.


what am i sayin? ill tell u. yes. just as soon as i replay evrything back.... tis may take a while so.. yeh(: just bear wimme people. love yall. mwah.


mrs o was absent. ther goes 2 periods of eng down the draain(: not tat im complaining. i gues. bio... all i rmbd abt bio was mrs jeya screaming. tis is normal. so i shldn elaborate. hahha. amaths. wahsehh... reeeaaaly admire miss teo, munz. heh how abt a brain exchange, aye, 'cher? hahha. i promise ill return it to you(: ill put it in your shelf as soon as im done with it. hahAHhaHAHahhHAhah.


dang.. can i get any lamer?? (: You can bet your tight ass i can.


did i tell you twins was absent? again? no? alright. twins absent again. they had better come up wit something funny. i mean, reason why they were absent. like maybe their school shoes were stolen or something ........... had better. hahha. cuz i tink tats kinda funny(((:


phy test was scaryyy!!!!! mr chaaaan how cud u?! actually.. it shld be: lelaaaa how cud u?! u m**********r.. i swear im gonna kick u wher the sun darsen shine. ur soooo busted, b****. ur gonna faaaail and ur momma gonna nail ur stinkinn a**. ): feel for me. no, not cuz im prollie gonna fail physics. feel for me cuz im talking to myself again.


geog. miss tan rocks. hahah she so cute. anyway yeh. we marked our frens' test papers today. it was helluva 'fun'. at first i was marking suhandy's. thn ryan's. thn chengxi's. damn his handwrittiing sucks(: anypOoP! i keept goinn outtarf track here. somebody slap me. yeh. wokie.... marking was hell(: i wonder how teachers can stand it; spending their afternoons and evenings marking sheets and sheets of paper. if i were them..... id prollie on the verge of burning those papers to ashes and resigning the very next morning.


ehheh. 3 cheers for teachers.... kind teachers tat is. HAHAHHAHAHAHHA. ..just kidding(:


it was after geog whn things started to go all..... i dno. like as if evrything was put on fast forward. on the way from the ava for mt. saw emy who went ballistic whn she saw me. "lelaaaaa!!!!!!" u know how emy is. ehhe. gave me one of her flirty attitude. i was abt to blow her a kiss whn nabila started charging towards me. ...


"lela lela!!! omg. i askedd and" babble babble babble she was talking very fast. all i heard was, "hes a poser!" And at the background emy was lela-ing me. she was pissed off cuz i din 'entertained' her... i was pissed off cuz nabila wasnt making any sense. my brain was.. yes, milkshake. and so was my cheeks. cuz suddenly emy was squeezing them, tryin to get my attention. no, more like pressing her palms against them. ehhe even tat din help. cuz the only thing goinn on in my head tat time was, "hes a poser?????????"


only nana cud bring me back down to earth. said thers mly test today. was like, oh bull****. and tat was whn i felt the pain. on my cheeks. my jaw, actually. hehh scu u, emy. ur hands made of steel issit. hellz i know someone else's hands made of steel. asila~ hahha. my flowergirl slash gundu. nak tickle tu, tickle properly la. cehh hahha.


mly test was not nice.. ): Thn after tat rushed back to class cuz we had maths remedial. well. got back tests. how i score? remarkably bad. lela, u faygit u. told u to practise, nvr practise. u tink u so good in maths? even my grandmomma can do better thn u!! ..heh. ur granmomma, my granmomma. ..good im talkin to myself again.


had el after schoool. umeya not in the mood today. cheers, ghurl(:


home. as soon as i got home, my sis went like, "ela, im so so so so so so so so...." i disappeared into the toilet to do my business and whn i got out, she was still goinn , "so so so so so...." it lasted for 3 more mins and thn eventually.. she dropped a bombshell at me.


uh huh. she lost my dicsman. my hard-earned-money dicsman. u dno how long i took to save my money for tat piece of sh**y dicsman. ahwells. i knew she lost it all along. i was just waiting for her to tell me. lets see... it had been ... a week? no, 2. yeh. 2.


whn she told me tat, even tho i knew it, i was really really.. i gues sad? not mad. just sad. my dicsman is my fren. was my fren. hahha. yeh. had been wimme thru thick and thin. losing it is like losing a limb. okie la. mayb just a finger. ahha yehh.


at first i made up my mind. not gonna talk to her until she gets me a new dicsman. but its hard. its not easy. i cannot not talk to her. i mean, shes my sister aite. no matter how much i hate her, i gues i still love her. i hate her as a fren. i love her as a sister. does tat make any sense? i hope not. cuz it sounds very gay. hahha.


maybe we can do a little cha-cha.. we can do a little ah-ah... gotta go. but before i gotta go you gotta know you got a body like whoa~~~or maybe we can do a little ah-ah.. right before we do the cha-cha... lemme know. but before you let me know i gotta make this last forever~~~ tis time im sure i got it right(:

heh. cant wait for maghrib! i waanna eaaaat. abt half an hr more...? yeh. hehhe. wonder what sriee's doinng right now. hahaha. prollie snoring. xD Anypoop. yeh. twinz din come today. figured. they're always absent on wednesdays. they gonna diiiiiee tmr. hahahha. i mean, wit all those stufs they missed out today. yeh. theyre sooo busted. hah cant wait.


can u belieeve my family!? theyre calling the new cat: Mac. mac. MAC? wwhhhhyyy!?


assembly was nice. personal hygiene stuf. ehhe. hahaha i like tat guyyy! so coool. hahahha. i like it whn he went sumfink like, "wet, dirty shoes are coool whaard. swosh swosh swoshh." sooo cute~~ ahhhh!! hahhahahhah. pfft.


got another dejavu~ was in the office to get my ic. exaaactly like ive seen it before; mr bala was ther wit tis sec4 academic. xin fang was ther as well. and also tat erm clerk personn. i was hysterical. was sayinn to sriee, "ahhh!! srieee!! omgsh. tis happened b4 riiight? but it cant b whaaard. im only gettin my ic today so whats happening??? sri? u listeninng or not? sriee! oei sriee, wher u going?!" ..


apparently she din wann anythinn to do wit tis crazy lunanic maniac, which is me if u havent noticed, and was tryin to open the door but had difficulty cuz of the books she was carryinng.. and mine which i told her to carry ...


hahha. nobody cares huh? shld have known.


soooomeone~~ was walkinn home whn we were goin home as well. ... sebok jer. like as if thers no other time to go home liddat. must go home whn we wanna go home. sheesh. darsen he has maths remedial wit miss teo or sumfink? or go play ball wit his stickass fren.


i got home and watched honey. twinz'. which salmiah passed it to me to pass it back to them. but wth. since i have it, why not watch it. hahah. hehhe. awesome. really cool. i felt so inspired after watching it. spunkyy makes me wanna groooove wit them. i waaanna daaaance. makes me wanna go back primary school. cuz ther we had greater opportunities to.. u know. perform...? yeh. ehhe. we had our own choreographer, rahila!! ehheh. naurah, amyyy and me. tat was funnn(:


mayb they shld have such stuf in peirce. eherm. yeh. ehhehe. i hope teachers are reading tis... hehehheh. teachers' day coming riiight? mayb we shld have like.. a concert put up by the students (us!!!) and just us. u know, u show them our gratitude and love. i bet we'll get plenty of promising responses frm the students cuz itll b a once of a lifetime chance for them to go up ther and do their thang. but must rmb la, the main purpose. ehheh yeh. daamn tatll b cool.


its seven alr!!!! ehehheheh. woohooos.


im dreading tis fridaayy. i dun wanna go back aitonnng!!!!! takmaooo!


chaarmed toniite!! i tink. shld b.. haha. ehehhe. mom's jealous cuz i get to watch it and she darsen. ehhe yeh she loves charmed too(: she worships alyssa milano. i tink its the hair. hahha. she wants a hair like phoebe. pfft.


darn it. still havent pay for el shirt. ehhehe. some treasurer i am. heh. miss lim gonna kill me(:


nannie nannie poo poo! i finally bought my deeee-striiing. lalala la la laaa~ im a happy happy happy girl. hahhaha. can u imagine how part of my happiness lies on a pathetic but very useful piece of nylon string?! muahahhahahs. gotta thank aunty aspho who accompanied me to get it. wanna expect my sis...? pi ahh! hahhaha. ehhe. heheh(:


but ar. tat wud b the last time(hopefully) i set foot ther. at tat .. place. i mean, all those guitaars ther on displaay.... maaaaaannn~ thers tis guitar, instead of strings, it has like buttons. easier to plaayy. u dun hafta use so much strength holding down the strings wit ur fingerrs. sometimes even if u do, ull get the sound all wrong. me at least ehhe. and tats depressing. tats why id rather pluck thn strum. ahha yeh. but u dun really go far wit plucking.... ahwells. slowlyyyy ehhehe. i can do it. muahahha.


oh. yeh. Nabilaaa!!! ahhh!!! i love u, munnnz!!!!!! (((: She soooo rocks, i tell u. ehhehe. shes like soooo cool! ehehe. most ppl, whn i told them abt it, theyd go like, "lela this" or "lela tat" and gimme all their unnecessary comments and.. sometimes tend to put me down. but nabila... hahahHAHhHAha. maan im hysterical. ehheh. thankiew nabz (valensi)!! hehhe. my hired assassin. ehehhehehhe. plus sidekick, salmiahh. muahhahah. wheee, cant wait.


today is a weeeiird tueday. uh huh uh uhhuh. i mean okie. dejavus are common. but its too straange. first it was at the parade square wher i nearly knocked clari's head clear off her shoulders whn i swung my bag round. din know she was near so yehh. i rmbd it happened b4.... the 2nd time was during pe. while they were playinn netball. i rmbd the ball bouncing off court and nearly hitting norine. thn lastly during mt. we were doing correction for bina ayat. i rmbd aspho askinng nana sumfinkk, i rmbd copyinng the corrections frm aspho's paper, i rmbd cikkgu goinn to me to check my paper.. damn and i was like, "shit dejavu. i thot tis happened b4????"


anypoop. pe was fun. played netball. at first it was draggggyyy.. pfft. cuz evryone was complaaining. din wanna play and all. ehhe. me on the other hand, was like waiting impatiently for chia to pick me. hahaha. some of the boys played soccer wit the netball ball and lol, sometimes while the others were playinn netball, they would sardinely kicked the ball into the court. lol so it was like netball cum soccer. hahahahhahahahhahahahhahh~~ ..hah okie.


later tat period, most of the girls decided to hang out at the multipurpose court. most of the boys disappeared as well. but i still wanted to plaayy. ehheh. played WD. blue team. wit sakura, lolenzo, xianyao, weijie/suhandy, hannan, linus and justinn. yes sakura and i were like xtras. only girls in the team..... ahhh wth(:


sakura got asthma attack :\ poor thing, know.. she din bring her inhaler. so sriee and i came into the rescue. whamped into 2 ppl on the wayy. one was tis tamil girl. wahhhsehh. i bet i bounced off her. and thn this basketball guy. daaamn hes like so tall, lor!! hahha. cancel tat 'lor'. hahaha. but yeh, he was so bloody tall~~ i bet i reached his waist. heh. i bet he felt it but din see what hit him. prollie goin, 'eh? must b a fly.' hahhah.


heard ther was handphone spot check. i was like, of all the fucking dayyys, why shld ther b a spot check today!? and of all the fucking days, why shld I be bringing my phone today!??! u see, i dun really bring my phone to school. at all. unless im goinn sumwher after school. which i was todayy. so it seemed like the school's out ther to get me or sumfinkkk.....


3e2 kanna. aspho escaped. stuffed her phone in her bra. wahhahh! i salute her, man!!! eehhehhe. i passed my phone to her. u know, just in case. ahhah. but we had chem after recess in the lab.. so ther.


after school, waited for aspho. in the meanwhile, i was wit sriee in the ava for band. played my aspho's phone. ehehhe. took pics of my handsome shoes. ehhe. thn sriee kicked me out. hhahahhahhahAHHA. cuz i was pissing her off. i was like kept asking her to take a pic of me wit her trumpet to show it off to aspho (aspho wants to learn the trumpet!!!! pfffft~ heheheh). but she was like, "alahh. malas ar!!! sebok ar, lelaaa~~"


so i went downstairs. he was ther. rugby.. duh. wanted to make my way upstairs again but saw norine, liling and yuwen. so i chilled out wit thm. norine was more sporting. ehehhe. i was like, "take a pic of my shoe." and she went, "okie!" thn, "my socks!" a short hesitation but hahahha.


went tp wit aspho. ehehhe. went ther wit chia. ahahhahha. hes so cute. ahhahhahahhaha. got my string. wheee, so happy. went to have lunch at pizzahut. damn u have no idea how long we took to decide(((: Qahh, if ur not careful, ull grow fat u knoow!!! hahha i mean, she had briyani for recess. and thn ate spaghetti, nachos and mushroom soup for lunch. she din even left me some~~ hahahhaha..


pepsi and coke whats the diff? i asked whether it was pepsi or coke we just drank. dumbass aspho went to sniff her drink. and got poked in the eye by the straw. lmao u shld have seen her faaace. i was ther right across her i saw everythinnng. damn i wish it was in slow mo. muahahahhahahas~~~ hehe we are a bunch of dumbass. cuz right on the glass emblazed the word and the unmistakable slogan, pepsi. (:


had a hard time putting the string. ahhhh it was so embarrasssinnng~ my 10 yr old sister was the one who helped me out.. and now i feel so.. inferior wit her all of a sudden.


Goodies! i love tat sooooonngggg~~~~~

monday blues. monday shitty sucky sicky bluuues. haha i dno. evrybody was either shitty, sucky or sicky. however! hehh. im glaad monday's over(: one down and plenty more other mondays to go. can we handle it? mission (not) impossible. -hums to mission impossible theme song.


oh. gotta thank asila's friend(((((: hidayah, issit? or ashlee? cuz the name ashlee is like written on the calculator and stuf. ehhe. ahwells. me, the all time klutz of the century, din bring my calculator and ther was emaths common test today and she sweetly lent hers(the calculator tat is) to meeeee!!! my savior!!!!!! or else i wud have died ther, not knowing what to do. eheh. thankiew asila's frennnn!! ..yeh. hahha.


aaaaaahh so bored. ive nth else to blog todayy. yeh. and im dreading tmr.. two periods of chem. in the lab. whyyyyyyee.


oh i tink my hair's grown longer alr. wow. fast. ehehhe. i can get used to tis(:

this prollie the laaaaziest weekend ever~ ((: din touch my book at all. as a matter of fact, i din even touch my bagg. its still in the living room wher i last left it tat friday. muahahhahas. din even blog last night. i mean, not like i was busy or anything... waaahhh im so lazzzzzyyeee, whee.


oh its a he, not a she. hahahhaha. referrinn to new kitty. yup. cudn see the balls. ehehe. still small. so yeh. thank god its a male. cuz evrybody thot it was a female and wanted to call it Kitkat. like whadda. a cat wit a name of a chocolate bar? of my all time favourite chocolate bar?! tats like suicide for tat lil feline.


ive lost my touch. in writing tat is. im like experiencing a brain block. brain block? whats tat. i dno. my brain is milkshake. dno what im talkinn abt.


we have a chauffeur(: yes. hahahhahah. well. mom, granddad and me went to visit dad's grave tis morninnng. we took a cab. damn the driver is soooo nice((((: He offered to b our personal driver person. hahhaha. gave us his number and said if we wanna take a ride anywher, give him a call. mom was excruciatingly exhilarated.


at first i din trust him.. why shld i? he's nice yes. thn again, bcuz hes nice la, we shld b wary. hahahha. can u believe me? eheh. stop thinking everybody is nice cuz everybody is not. yes, yes. tats what i learnt. and summore his name is adrian. i mean, what kinda naaame is adrian!? i hate tat name. gives me the creeps. ..


but actually hes not tat bad la. i tink. cuz hes pretty outgoingg and i find it funny whn he always says, "i know one person very funny one.." and goes on talkinn and talkinn but in the end, mom and i wud go like, 'huh. whats so funny abt tat..'


he showed us his 1o-yr-old son, who he reckons is 'very handsome'. rmbring tat i almost got 'raped' by one, i looked at the photo and just shrugged. the driver saw tis and i immediately felt bad. thn quickly mom said, "wahh. handsome like u also la.." i swear i wud have slap her(: i mean, i know she tryna sort of cover me up or sumfinkk but .. hahhahha..


he asked mom how old i am. i bet hes scared of me. hahahha. and mom said, 13. mom said thirteeeeeennnnnnn. i wanted to just break down and cry. or mayb just open the cab door and jump out. as solemnly as ever i told them, "im fifteen.. sec3. im taking my o levels next yr. i dno whats gonna into my mother but im not 13. im 15. im gettinn my ic very soon. i can show it to u if u dun believe me. im fifteeeeeeeeenn."


aite hahah i din say tat out loud. i just mumbled it to myself.. i was too depressed.. ):


poor nabila, still stressed out wit her blogg.. cudn help much. sorry, nabz. (: I know someone who cann tho.


poor imprunt(: He sent me an sos sayinn, "lela. find me a galfren." i told him arent i his galfren? "im so bored. i wanna release tis boredom. thn i let her go. ahhahhah. of course ur my galfren." thn ther was a moment of silence..... "oh. *taaaaat* kinda galfrenn....." "yehhhh i wudn wanna do tat to u.. -sinister look." -shuddders.


actually i wanted to go get some guitar stuf. i was all readyy to rock and roll. had my ezlink card in my pocket and all. but thn i ended up sleeping. how? go figure(:


whose free on the 20th aug!? band's having concert in schoool. tickets selling at 5 bucks. pls go to any band member (particularly sriee ehehheh) or miss khai. so yeh. pleeeeeaaase go watch em!!!! ((((((: id love u till eternity. ..lol wait. okie i shld b helping to sell the tickets and not the other way round hahahhah.

friday the 13th marked the day tat i kanna sexually harrassed by a 10 yr old faggot. gee, keep ur pants on, guyys. ahhahh. no puns intended. nyehehe. hold ur horses ppl. im not kidding tho. uhhuh uh huh uh uhhuh. -shudderss..

today also marked the day tat i got a new kitty! meow. hahaha. so fun! i went back hme, i heard purring and it wasnt chingy. chingy darsen purrs. he .. chings...? hahhah. well, he just has a very unpleasant voice, tat feline. ahwells. wher was i? yeh new kitty. ehehhe. no name yet tho. but shes sooo cute!!!!! ahhhH!! hahhaha. weee!!

nasim gonna observe us during emaths. figured. tis means being as busybody as he is, he has prollie heard the complaints we .. complained abt dennie and how he teaches and stuf. ahwells.

today im very proud of myself(: ehhhe. like i pretended to b attentive during dennie's lesson and nodded my head once a while at him whn he asked if i understood the craps he just.. crapped, i tink i did a marvellous job pretending to ignore `his presence. read my lips erm i mean, mark my words: preeetendiiiing to ignore. yehhhhah. i was waiting for miss teo outside her office and he was ther as well.. but i din wanna torture myself any longer. so i just left. if i kanna punished by teo next week cuz i din hand in my work, well, dun blame me. blame tat monitor of urs.

dang on 2nd thot, i shld have gave him my work and get him to help me hand in to miss teo. .. nahh.

i replied tabii's letter during 2 periods of emaths. cuz i needed something i keep me awake. staring at the board and pretending to understand was totally out of the topic. but as soon as i got dismissed, tabii was prollie in the bus on the way hme.

ahha i bet all were present for the aitong shit. (its not aitong thing now. its aitong shit.. muahahhahs.) we even had umairah. so can someone tell me again, why on earth Kay On .. irgh nvm. i wasn expecting him. he just got a table and sat bhind hongsui, who wasn as pleased.

the teacher asked why i had two tutees. she saw umeya sitting at the back ther w/o any, and wanted one of them to go ther. but nobody moved. i understand(((: e'eh. hahhahah. so i joked wit the teacher, "he likes me la, cher." LOL u shld have seen kay on's faace! ehhe. he was seriously blushing and suddenly his voice got all soft, "wher got like.." ehhehh. told the cher can handle the two of them(((: turned out i cudnt.

ahha i tink i know why kay on chose me. cuz he knows i cudn b bothered wit him. i dun give 2 hoots whether or not he does his work(: anyway, like our p said, the maain reason why we even have tis ai tong shit is to.. to. uhh.. well, i dno. but i noe tutoring is not it. muahahha. so. ther.

i was pretending to teach them math, whn suddenly kay on made a grab for my. for my letter for tabii. it happened to b red and he thot it was a love letter. whatever kay on. i played along wit him. told him it was for my boyfriend. he fall for it(((: tats what i like abt him. he is so pathetically gullible. which makes him so cuuute and nice to kid around wit.

until he started pestering me. who i love. whos the guy. knowing me, u know i cudn b stuffed(: and thn ther were these 2 indian workers who got in to put the clock up. yeh. and u know what tat moron did? kay on, tat is. he called out to one of them and said, "uncle uncle.. she says she likes you." he pointed a finger at me. hongsui was enjoyng evry blardy second and i? i was petrified.

irgh i wanted to murder tat bastaaard!!!!!!!~

i freaked out whn hongsui told me tat one of the indian guy was checking me out frm outside the window. JDJfhshd jsha ghjKJHE sfhkajhs E shjdHD . ... u have no idea how kf jshkah ihjgded i was feeling tat very moment.

i kickedd kay on in the butt. now he had my shoe print on it. he was proud of it i reckoned... cuz he was wiggling his ass and showing off. i din have the top button of my shirt buttoned and i noticed kay on staring. suddenly he asked, "u want to have sex issit?" i moved back a safe distance away frm him and stayed put.

yeh. rmbd tat letter? it was still wit him. i asked for it back. nicely. but he wudn. he started babbling in cheena. hongsui got evryting translated for me. said kay on wanted me to kneel and beg. i did. anything for a lil peace. he still wudn! he babbled summore. tn hongsui started laughiing. "what he sayyyin!?" i criiied.

"lela! he wants u to touch his cock."

"ur lyinng," i laughed out loud wit him. nervously. thn kay on spread his legs and unzipped his shorts. fuck. i went like, "omg ur not lying." to "Kay On! u perv! im not touchinng u!" i was spooked out, honestly. thn kay on started talking summore and hongsui started laughing summore. "what nooow.. no wait dun tell me. i dun wanna knoow. u bunch of sickos."

thn he made another deal. which im not sayinng cuz its totally stooopit. and humiliating. and gross. fuck, hes just pri4! imagine him in sec4. maaannn.. whats happening?

i showed him my finger to tell him no way ho say im gonna let him do it to me. neither am i gonna do it to him. he seemed impressed. thn he showed me his. hahah his middle finger tat is. both hands. which was totally unnecessary. and stupid cuz thn he wasn holding my letter in his hands so as quick as a flash, i snatched it back and stuffed it in my breast pocket. thot better of it. i stuffed it in my shoe. .. ahhaha. poor tabii.....

i told them im not coming next week. i hate tat disappointed look on their faces. whn asked why i told them cuz "kay on always bully me". and he was like in denial. which was fun to see. muahahhahs. he went like, "okie okie i wunt bully u. come next week arh." pfft. well, im not coming cuz ive got el stuf. ..tat is if miss lim manages to talk to nasim abt it la. but yeh.

tats not all. i was tryna zip my bag which got stuck somehow whn suddenly i noticed kay on standing bside me. like, what u want u ass. not enuff harrassing me issit. thn .. thn.. -weeps. tat asshole. he leant forward and brushed his .. package .. against my leg. what the fuck. i was traumatized. and the nerves he got. called me the pervert.

mom almost called up the cops whn i told her abt it. she was like, "are you okay? did he touch u? are u hurt anywher?" and it was molto embarrassanto. look, im not gonna b so stupid as to let a pri4 guy or any guy, touch me anywher. sheesh. anyway, i know he din mean it. hes just being a kid. childish, immature and.. chidish. im sure he'll grow up to b more.. respectful and erm irgh who am i kidding. well, i do hope he'll change tho. ill make him. ..ill try. but i mite need arisa for support. ahhahha. or tat Lyna girl cuz i tink kay on is scared of her. hhahahAHhahHAh.

what a day.

so i went to school tat wed. reluctantly. my sister had to threaten to kiss me to get me outtarf bed. was so.. blur. like, huh what time issit now? how to get to school?? which is my baag? whers my toaaaastt!?! and instead of bringing asila's red shirt, i brought my hawk hse shirt. ..what, its red too! lucky din return it to her yet. ahah. tatll b embarrassing(:


i love tat song by tat.. lewis person. yeh. the one tat goes like this: i never felt like tis before.. .. .okie apparently i dunno the words to tat songs. hah. sheesh. hehh. oh. and another song, the one sang by tat jay sean guy. eyes on me. eh i meant, eyes on you. ahha yeh. ur so beautiful tonight anything is possible.. u know i just cant get enuff.. of ur love.. .. -hums to the remaining of the song.


thurs. today. i was almost late. and i tripped and almost ended up wit my front teeth missing in the parade square. ahha and i was like holding on tis dull looking .. parcel in my hand all along. ehhehe yeh. frm twinz. as a blated present. it's a pair of slippers. orange slippers. ahhaha. neeatt. XD


im not gonna talk abt school cuz it was basically _____ (go figure). the only fun bit was during amaths remedial at the t-hub. wahhhhahhhah. panda teo actually not bad ar(((: yupp. i mean, now tat ive seen mr goh. ahha. nahh. they're incomparable. both totally diff teachers.


poor jocelyn. ehhe. stayed back to find out ther aint el today. muahahahhas.


ah! hahha. i just had to go talk to him. i was at the canteen and he was ther as well. walkin pretty fast. i ran up to him and went, "hi hey how u been? can i talk to you? wait. are u busy right now?" damn hes like.. so big now. and have i told u tat he was walking really really fast. i tink i annoyed him cuz he was like, "er. no. actually yes, very. but its okay. im goinn for rugby. what issit?" whOops. but i was determined. well. barely. but pfft. i suggested we talked and walked. but immediately he said, "im goin to the gents to change. so.."


yikes. okie okie. i get the hint. i hear yaa. pfft. like, since when the gents is at the field?


do u know how much i hate changes? yes, i hate it. right not hate la. just.. dun like it. changes make me all depressed. like for example the traffic whn it changes frm red to green. ill take like a couple of sec agonising abt it and another couple more to get over it. and erm given the remaining 5 secs to runnn across b4 it turns red all over again.


hah right. i made tat one up((: ehheh. ironic. cuz ill b like the first to dash right across the road as soon as it goes green(:


anypoop! yes. changes. depressed. im depressed right now. cuz i had a haircut and i hate it.


i went to our usual hairdresser wit my sis. ahha i love that lady who "dreses my hair". hehe i tink she loves me too. cuz i bet i just saved her life. she was looking bored, prollie on the verge of cutting her own hair and paying herself for it and thn i walked in.


"wah. so big already," she was sayinng. i din thot she was referring to me. cuz it was impossible. the last time i went ther was .. 3 months ago...? yeh. no way ive grown during those short 3 months. have i? ..wow((: jumping over anggun's swishyy tail really pays off.


"sec 4?" the lady asked again. hahhahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhaha. i was grinning so widely, frm my head down to my ass. finally!! i mean, all these while evryone thinks im sec1. getting tired of it, honestly. ehhhe. thn my sis had to sspoil it all by laughing her evil laugh and making me feel.. so... small. well, just for a split second. tat i said something nasty to her and she threatened to leave...


nooooo! i needed her! i mean, well, bsides the fact tat she's got the money. hehh. just in case my hair got all wrong (which it has....), i mite need her to blame and vent my frustration on while on the way hme. now, i dun wanna b seen ranting it all to tat old guy who sells fruits outside the shop.


yes. my hair got all wrong. its too short. and now im depressed. im tryin to tink of someone who has a hair worst thn mine. you know, to cheer myself up. but cudn tink of anyone. .. bummer. now i cant wait for my hair to grow back. i hope it grows a lot by tmr morning. by the meantime, im not gettng out of my room. yeh. im too depressed(:

i wanna go school tmr! i cant wait to go school tmr!!! ouhh hurry hurryyy. holidays are so boring, nth to dooo. i wanna go school~ i wanna learn something new evryday. im hungry for knowlegde. knowlegde is power. and also lunch.


i lied.


i DUn wanna g0 schoooOoL! pleeeeeease. dun maaake me.. :'( teachers ther are meeeaaann. the kids ther? worst!! pls save me! yeh, u. take me aawwaaayyyyyy. anywher. no. make tat gareth gates doorsteps. whatever take me anywher wit no blardy mean ppl, paticularly teachers and vps, running wild. mean ppl suck.


ther. tis is what happens whn u have a long weekend whn u really shldnt. no matter how much break u need, it shld nvr be right after the weekend.. er. yupp. i had a hard time gettin up today. and its the public holiday. imagine on a school day! curses..


moving on.


ive been goinn thru 8 chpts of phy(: practised my e and a maths. read a mly novel. did 2 chpts of bio. and did not even touch the comp. yeh tats why i din blog last night(: im proud of myself. so proud i bought myself 3 kitkat chunkys to celebrate.


you buying any of those crap?


hahha. okie la. but i did go thru 8 chpts of phy(: setakat go thru jer. darsen mean i understand anything. hahha. and i did did 2 chpts of bio. but ended up sleeping. yeh. tat was the real reason why i din blog last night. HAHAHHA. mann. bio sucks. reading bio is like reading tamil.


my cute but very irritating sister slept over my aunt's hse last night. whats up wit tis sleeping over and stuf?? i mean, dun u feel awkward masturbating in someone else's room? well i know i do. (hahahahhahahhahahahhahahahahhahahahahhahah. ha.)


Anyway yeh. so hse was pretty quiet ytd. we were watching the ndp. bored.. same old stuff. dun get me wrong, we love singapore(: but i feel tis yr's ndp kinda borinnng. and thn suddenly mom said accusingly, "u guys happy huh, tat ur sister not here." i was like, "do we looook happy?"


whn i found out my sis staying over at aunt's hse, i was exhilarated. but thn again, it darsen really make any difference. all these while, ive been ignoring my sister. so whether or not shes here, its really the same.....


and my mom studied our faces one by one and "u dun actually look sad." so the both of us pretended to look totally devastated, and even tat din make mom happy. she got angry at us cuz we werent being serious. .. sad, or serious? make up ur mom, dear mother..


ehhe. singapore idol was entertaining((: Tat christopher michael lee guy really got our attention. mom has the hots for him. and so have her daughters.. i pity tat shanghai guy. ahwells. but he shld have known better. singapore ppl are mean, rmb. haha okie la. not all(: majority are nice. me, in particular. (hahahahhahahhahhahhahaha.)


okie la. tink i better go.. yeh.


not goinn to school tmr.. lalallaa.


anon, iv nthg to say to tat. hahahha. cuz i dun understand half to things u said. but i know ur intentions are good. i mean, ur just tryinn to look out for ur lil brother(: yeh. so. yeh. ahwells. but i still tink hes a lil fyyyyne guy. -blush blushhh.


im so glad tis is gonna b a long weekend(: I need all the time i can get to think abt stuf. (wahhseh.. ahhhhahah.) hey. its not easyy okaaayye. but dunt worry abt me. i can manage. ive always have.


instead of buyinng me kitkat chunky (yes. im goinn thru tat kitkat phase...), mom bought me crunch. was kinda frustrated. i havent had my kitkat for quite some time now, and i desperately need tat piece of choco kitkat bar in my system or else.. or else... tis yr's national day eve will b the most memorable for my family.


haha. well done. cudn have expressed tat better myself..


din go for the bbq thingie cuz conveniently, ytd someone came to pay us a visit. rmb my sister's fren who came to stay wit us? yeh. her mother came over. apparently she was wondering what happened to her daughter. she knew she was stayinn over but dinno it wud b 2 days straight... damn the mother sounded like we kidnapped her daughter, and not plannning to release her no matter how much ransom paid. poor mom. she was badly agitated. poor me. i did most of the talkinng.


look what happened whn ur tryinn to b nice? lesson learnt: dont b nice.


if tis happens again; mom pretends to b a nice, caring person ends up humiliatingly accused, causing me to miss my frens' bbq party, thn ive gotta say byebye to my social life.


but evrything's fine now.. im fine. bet evryone had fun ytd w/o me. -sniff sniff. yeh. and my sis' fren prollie at hme right now (they just came back frm their camp today). hope things work out between her and her mother(: hey, of course things will work out.


but i dno abt me and mine... i mean, how can someone confuse kitkat chunky wit nestle crunch!? its like confusing the broom wit the remote... mayb i shld do just it. lets see what mom has to say to tat.


heyloo(: good morninng peepo. i din really get the chance to tell yall what happenned these past few dayys cuz of some.. misunderstandings tat happened and stuff..? yeh. but we'r cool now. arent we, anon? yehh(: tat and also cuz hse been pretty.. crowded lately, affectingg me. yup. how come? cuz .. jengjengjengg. thers an added member into this looney family of mine.


no my mom din give birth. neither did my granmom.. hhurhur. or me even. HAHAHHA. erm. yeh. my sister's fren came over to stay overnight. two days. uh huhh. well. lets just say she has some problems back at hme and, kindness runs in my family(HA HA HA), my sister offered to let her stay. of course, we did discussed it as a family first before hand. and we agreed... well. not like we had a choice. HAHHAhaHHA. mom reckoned we shld help her, and tats tat. no one else dare to oppose(:


she came over on thursday. at first it was awkward. cuz..imagine 3 teenage girls plus one annoyinng 10-yr-old sister, all cramped in a tiny totally messy room. yes yes! tak buey tahan loh! hahhahhas. so i kicked myself outtarf the room. temporarily i used mom's room to do my stuf; my hmwk, and my blackheads-picking marathon and etc. mom wasnn happy durh. but she gotta bare wimme. afterall, i am her daughter(:


my sis slept on my bed while her fren slept on hers. i, on the other hand, slept on the floor. it was fine at first but anggun and chingy kept running across the room, back and forth back and forth. a stampede~ haha. evry now and thn i was woken up by them and had to b refrained frm murdering my own cats.


fridayy morning. practically fought over the toilet(: well. we fought over evrything; breakfast, the mirror, handphone recharger, the fan remote, and yes, the computer(: Lucky my sis' fren aint the die-die-must-watch-tv kind. hahahhha. comb i can share, but the tv? hellz no.


i studied in mom's room. thn she kicked me out to the living room. cudn study ther cuz granddad was watching wrestling. so i ended up watching it wit him(: Slept on the couch. woke up wit a terrible backache. oww.


saturday morning. mom bought pancakes. mom nvr buy pancakes. see how nice she is to other mom's daughter, but not to her own? yes. sick, isnt it? thn at 10, my sis and her frn were off to tis ermm ncc farewell camp in changi. so they wunt b home till tmr evening(: Now i have all the room, all the mirror, all the food, all the eveything to myself. yeh. life's good.


goinn off to Twinz bbq thngie later at 4.. at the meantime, im tryin to come up wit some nifty excuse to not go. hahahhaha. nahh kiddding la. i must go. i must go or die not goin..? haha okie erm.


anon, consider apology accepted((: I hope u dun mind me sayin tis but Asila did asked you in her blog, what if your bro asks a gurll to b his own 'special' fren? issit the gurl's fault? and u said smthg abt everyone makes mistakes and ull advise him not to. well, i tink its really great tat u advise ur brother and all (unlike me, i cudn b bothered wit my sibs haha but tats not the point..) but uve gotta let him stand on his own. yeh, everyone makes mistakes. but thn thru mistakes la, we all learn. in a long run, we become a better person(:


Sorry dun mean to preach. ehhe. but all those tat i said, its really goinn out to myself, rather than to u, anon. i admit im a coward in certain situation. im scared id make mistakes im scared of failure, tats why i nvr try. and bcuz of tat, i almost lost a fren. almost? mayb ive alr lost her.


ah wells...(: Anon, thank you. cuz uve got me thinking.


im fiine(: i was a lil hurt. felt so smaaaall. but nah. hes not worth my dignityy. nuh uh. he may b his bro(or not, god knows..?), or his sis, or his fren, or whatever.. okie. mayb i am la, a lil 'off'. trust me to fall for a guyy like `him. hahhaha. hellz im not a lil off, im so off. ehhehehe.. -blush blushh.


oh.



nurool!! welcome back, sishh. (: tho its only temparory): but heck. misssed ya~ how u been and all?? fill me in, yerhs? well. okie hahah u are filling me in as i type tis((: ahh wells(((: shit i missssed yaaaaa. we shld hang out someday all of usss. hahha. u, me, sfo(aspho hahhahahah), nana, umeyyaa, syid, srieeeeeee, etc and just crap till we drop. wahsehh. hahhhas. -biiiig huuugggg. -wetttt kisss `mwaaah.. ahhaha okie stop being gross, lela. hhhahha.


asilaaa~ thnx for the shirt, yerh? oh and sorry u had to b the one searchinn for me. buat susah payah jer. hahhaha. will return it to ya on wed. (ur class tee rocks. black rulz. but of korsh. orange nicer. ehheh.)


asskandar! thankiew thankiew thankiew thankiew thankiew!! thankiew thankiew thankiew. thank you. thnx. thank youuu. hahhaha. thankiew. u know why. haha. thnnx((: demon partner. muahahhahhs. long live iskandar and asma(((:


asphodel (atiqah ali): hahhahha. amek kau. real name lagi tu. ceh(: sforawcks! aspho rocks la. yeh. erm what else ar. oh yeh. thnx for stickinng up to me and standinn up for me like frenz shld beeee.. (: hahaha. ermm. got tat frm a song. but seriously yeh. ahhaha.. support me in whatever crap i do, even tho its stupid hahhahahha. always correct me whn im wrong, mockingly hahahhaha. thnx alot for being ther to lend me a listening ear, even whn its durinng flag raisinng in the parade square whn chew is talkinn and stuf..((: hhahhhah. okie what was tat u told me to write? what angel thing? huh? -checks list. nuh uh forget it. nth else. i tink. hahha.(: wudn ask for a better fren. aiseyhh. pals for life, no matter what. promise kaaae?!


anon. dude. sorry i was malicious in my comments. i gues i was crushhed..? yeh. and whn im crushhhed my brain turns to milkshake. u know? so i tend to say thinggs which i regret now. i shld have ignore u at the first place hahahhahahha. erm okie. someone gotta play the nice one so honestly and sincerely off, just wanna say tat im sorry i bothered ur bro. well indirectly. ill stop bothering him which, trust me, is gonna b a piece of cake since ive nvr been even bothering him. ahwells. once again, i apologize. and i wud appreciate it if u can accept my seemed-fake-but-actually-sincere apologyy. (: Peace.


hah no wonder i always fail my letter writing. hahhahahhha. im so off. hAHhhah.

nuh uh dunt tink blogger is safe. heck blogger is nvr safe. whatever shit u write, u gotta b careful i gues? cuz u mite nvr know whos gonna read it. yup yup. so. gotta keep it low. shhh.


no fair, mun. tis stinkks. dang. not gonna b fun. whats the point of havinng a blog if u cant bitch innit.. right? right! so i dun care. well. mayb i wunt elaborate la. but pfft. it is my blog. im the bugger behind the blogger(?). i write what i wanna. ur my reader. period. u have a prob wit what i write/do, thn im sorry.


Hello Lela, I understand you're 'lovesick' now. I'm the cure. Please do not bother him. So keep off please. You go to school for education, not for other reasons. If you get fresh with him, you'll meet me in the school office. I'm his bro, by the way. -Anon.


hello anon(:
so what if im lovesick? its normal isnt it. i believe it is. we'r humaaan for cryinn out loud(: u shld know, anon. anyway...education shmeducation.. sheesh. i know we go school for educationn. and heck, i enjoy schooling really. i wonder wher u were whn ur teachers were givinng talks abt teenagers and stufs like hormones and growing upp yadayada.. prollie at the loo? yeh.


u dun go to school just for education.. tho its the main thingg i understand. u go to school to interact and make friends, yo. pls do not bother him u say? dood. is making friends bothering? i tink its u whos bothering right now. haha sorryy but really.


u know what u said got me thinkinng. it got me freaked out as well, trust me u have no idea how im feeling. LOL.. meet u in the school office? erm.. i go to school for education and not to go meet anyone in the school office.. .... hahha okie lame i know but stiil. hahah.


so i assume ur someone frm my school? peirce? haha. peirce rocks. not a brand definitely. but rocks anyway.. not being sarcastic here tho. hahha. okie. so ur someone frm school, thn i suggest u take a break get a new hobby mayb? cuz tis matter as nth to do wit school. its my life now. u cant tell me what to do. no one can. xcept for my mom but tats a diff thing altogether. hhahhahah. man, i rock.


ur his bro? oh. hahha. okie. damn lemme tell u something. ur bro is fyyne!! hhahha. im not gonna get fresh wit him la yerh dun worry. hahah. ill pass. like i said, a girl w/o a guy is like a fish w/o a skateboard. dno what i mean? ..no surprise.


sighh leave it to me to fall for the wrong guy. again.


now. uve spoilt my thurday, anon. congrats(:

currently pissed off at my sish. irgh. nah im not mad at her. im sad. i swear thers no one else more low and inconsiderate. and narrow minded and insensitive. sighh. i feel so sad for her. sucha sad lil kid, nvr experience happiness before and thinks its only fair tat she makes evryone around her like her as well.


im alrite(: thnx for asking. my day aint tat bad.. well. i was early. at least i thot i was. it seemed tat i was. well. earlier thn i always used to be. but thn just as i got ther, evryone was told to stand up and get ready for flag raising.. whadda.


i hope he wunt cut his hair(: i like tat messy hair of his. well. unless it gets too long. thn trim it. yeh. just trim it. dun do anything else to it. yehh! tatll b cool. ..hhah right who am i to tell him what to do to his hair? hahahah who am i? im `lelaaa. and im his lil silly crushie. ..but stiiiiiill. ehhe nah. cant blame a girl for her lil silly fantasiees. a girl gotta feel what a girl gotta feel.


sorry i just say what i feel like sayinn. and tat sometimes(always actually) includes crap and shit and nonsense. which i dun understand sometimes(always) either. so just bare wimme ppl. b strong. for me? yeh? -demure(((: thank youu((((:


what the fuck am i talking abt!?!? i tink im lovesick.. no wait. too strong a word. crush-sick. yeh. not bad huhh. i like it.


but really felt lousy the whole of todayy. chan wasnt feelinn too well. sick arh. so were we. slept during his lessonn.. snore. he was too sick to start kicking tables and stuf. thn emaths lesson wit dennie.. worst. glad to leave class to go have early lunch cuz had chem thingie after tis at science centre.


slept on the way ther. snore.. thot it wud a dragg cuz sakura was absent and no one to bully me. ahahahh. yeh. bully me. hhahhaha. but thn it turned out pretty cool(: kinda funn((: heehh. the experiments were awesumm. we were wowed. hahha. in awe. yeh. thn we got to hang around check out the exhibits ther. lovely(:


sriee and i went to tis thingie.. erm. got to sniff different type of.. stuff.. hahha yeh. the first one was yuccckyy. almond oil. but europlaytus jdsfh hssk whatever hahah was niiice((:


thn norine dragged me to tis lil shadow thingie. wher they will capture ur shadow and leave it ther for sometime.. er how to explain. hahaha im terrible at explaining hahahhah. but it was spunkyy!! hahha. norine pretended to punch me and i pretended to duck. and thn this special camera will get our shadow and wow it was so cool and i seriously dunoo if ur gettin what im sayinn. hahahhah.


we left so soon.. hahha. but it washh sho fun. ther was tis lil quiz and i gott it all right. ahermm. hahahha. i was rewarded tis.. minnie mouse pen. okie.. erm. minnie mouse? chem? i dun see any relation at all. they shld gimme some special chemical x or whatever to bring hme. or mayb some of those dried ice. yehhh.. and tat lil substance tat changes color evry 15 seconds. and tat acid liquid tat dissolves styrofoame. irggh geramnyer!! hahahha.


went to have lunch at macs wit srieeyol. hahha nah kd. ehhe. sheesh ahhahah. okie. we bitched abt weijie and his cousin alvin. LOL. and ther was tis grp of indian jc guy and they were makinn so much noooiiise!! well. they were talkinn really loudly. and tats common i tink. hahha cuz.. okie im not say it cuz its pretty racist. hahahha. damnn im pickinn up racism syndrome frm tat racist cindyy irgh. hahha.


thn se'ah and his princess walked inn. bought ice cream and left.. okie. we left as well.. thn on the way hme, summie and his queeen elizabeth boarded the same bus like fuck. oookkkiee. in my head i was plotting an evil master plann of some sort (ytd aspho wanted to.. purposely hit queen elizabeth but it seemed tat mission failed hhahahha..) thn i realized tis peace sign i drew on my hand using winnie's stupid marker which just wudn go off.. and .. sighhys. peace huh. dang. haha i guess peace is easy to say but not easy to do..? well we can if we try. haha. i nearly died ther in the bus.


wudn have lunch if i knew my granddad was makinng roti kiraaai!!! aaaahhH!!! i love roti kiraaaaaaaai!!!!! yummy yummmmmyy!! hahhahah.


hm ill sign out for now.. (:


to dearlest cousin: norshafiq bin sallehh .. haaappy 18th/19th/57th? birthdaaay!!!! ehhe((: See, i rmbd ur bdae. u din rmb mine. and i hate u for tat. therfore dun expect any pressie frm me. ceh..(: nahh see first. hhaha. anypoop. thnx for evrything tat uve done. yeh. helped me and nyai out wit stufs in the hse. hahha. esp whn it comes to buyinng cats litter. hehehs. hope ur doingg fine in poly. ehhe. right. but nth beats secondary school aite? hahha. i know. hhah ur 18. hahha so old alr. HAHHA. ..wokie doo. aite, pikk. all the best in evrythingg u do!! god bless ya(: (ps. i dno if u know tis but i broke ur d-string guitaar.. but dun worry, leave tat to me. yehh. heesh sorry. pss. too bad ur not here todayy. yai buat roti kiraai!!!:D)

-siiinggs along wit Natasha Beddingfield. Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't.. I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't.. and hellz i know someone who does;) ehhe. ohhhh lelaaa. ahhaha. whatever.. yeh. so yall can tell how my day went huhhs. yup yup(: horrifying, yes. i nearly ended up in cage tis morninng.


panda teo fed up wit us.. how ironic. shes always bringing the class down. bleargh. ugh to hell to her. wonder how her form class stands her. 1a2, my heart bleeds for u. ..i can take over her neetime. ehhehe just tell me the time and day, monitor. muahahhaha.


played netball during pe. woohoos. fun. at first the girls din wanna play. except the usual valencia-sharon-meiyee-claire. plus the 3 netballs girls in our class. they all formed a grp. the rest of the girls all.. hesitatingg. chia fedup. thn sakura and i tried to suck up to him:D we formed another team wit the both of us, lolo, suhandy, justinn, roystonn, xingwai. ahhah. i was WD. din do much. ahhaha. pfft.


2nd round was nicer(: girls din wanna play cuz 'got guys' and they all 'very shy'. hahhaha. so we kicked the boys out. tis time i played GS. tho i cant shoot. hahha. cudn get the chance la. cuz the GK was ryan and she is so goddamned tall.. no, im the short one. hahah same thingg. irgh. hahhahah. but it was fun screaming for ppl(: ehhhe.


switced placed wit sriee. played GA. nicer. got to run abt. yehh! hahhaha. i was havinn so much fun i din noticed he walked byyy. it was their recess u sheee.. yeh. hahha. sriee told me but thn it was already too late. hhaha. daaamn. why must he be ther? bet my hair was all stickinn out in weird angles(like they always do.. hahhaha) and was sweating and prollie stank too. hhaha. alermaak.. hahha. malooo.


2nd time was whn i was blowwing my nose in the canteeen. aspho was like, "lelaaa." turned round ahhh. shocked. shit. what he doinng here now?! i blew in instead of out. get what im sayinn? cud taste my .. inside my mouth. irghh. thn excused myself to give myself a kick in the butt. im sucha klutz.. X /


2 more periods of chem. purposely din bring my book(: ther was a test but it was so simply it was a joke. magnesium and hydrochloric acids give out magnesium chloride and hydrogen. chicken dodol arr! (ehhe iskaandaar, rmb 'chicken dodol'? hhahhaha..). insulting my intelligence.... aik? since whn am i 'intelligent' in chem seh? hhaha. i dno. beginning to understand chem. yeh hahha. it helps sitting next to k.en in the lab. yeh. more attentive. dno why. hahha.


mt was draggy todayy. dear fren wrote letter.. .sigh. ruined my day completely. well. i dun wanna say what she wrote was crap. it was partially true.. we are drifting. but fuck tat. cuz u guys are the world to me. no matter what. shes not the only one miserable ..


no fair. sakura sardinely said hi to hiiimm! what the fudge!?


went hme straight after school. wanted to stay wit sriee. shes got 'independant' band practice and its a tue. but totally no mood liao. was bored sitting at the busstop. thn meiyee came and accompanied me for a while.. thn sadako appeared out of nowher.. wahhahs. lucky. cuz i was debating whether or not i shld go back to school. yerh.


walkinn hme and ther was tis auntyy wit 2 kidds. aunty was caryyinng bags and only a dumbass cudn tell she was struggling. so i tossed my phy and ss textbks to sadako to help the auntyy wit her stufs((:


i dno why im so nice to strangers. but not to ppl i know.. i duno how to put tis. im not nice to my sisters, im not nice to my mom sometimes.. SOMETIMES hahhaha.. erm. im not nice to panda teo. not nice to dennie.. not nice to my frens. ..shrugs.


i bought myself kitkat chunky to cheer myself up. ehhe tat was whn i saw tis really cute guy. until i realized it was rasheedi. heck how am i supposed to recognize him? he was wearingg red shirt and really baggy jeeans. he darsen look like rasheedi-org-afrika. hahha. HAHAhh. maan, been sucha loong time since i last hear tat sonng hannan composed abt his 'african' fren. oooh. hahha. creepy. guys are creepy these days.


evryon'es creepy. even ur dear frens beginninn to give u the creeps.

hie. me again. ehhehs. yerh i know.. sebokk jer. hahha. im just bored. cant help it riiites. i cant find anyone to buggg. waiting for sriee to call thn imma go blame her for what happened today. what happened today? nothing. yeh. nothing fun at least. nothing worth discussing abt. yupps.

waait a min. ive blogged havent i. ohh(groanning) lela..

im very sleepy. but ive got many stufs to do. rewrite back the interview. erm. replyy tabii's letter. ermm. hey. actually now tat ive told u guys, it darsen seem to alot. ha ha.

i hope it rains like crazy tmr. pleeease raain(: heck, usually whn i want something to happen, the opposite happens instead. right. so i tink i shld b sayinn; i hope it darsen rain tmr. pls dont raaain(:

yes. im being ridiculous. rain or no rain, zoo hellz wizzit. wunt change the fact tat we'll b having 2 more periods of practical chemm tmr.. -weeeps. anypoop. tink i shld go now la. sigh. ahha. i mite blog later. yes. agaain. i dno. hahah. im gettinn those writer's block nowadays(: ..actually evryday. ahh. u guys dunt give 2 hoots how many entries i make a day. aite? :D

whoopdy-doo. ill write againn. seeya.


i din see him at all today. i dno. am i glad? i gues.. i dno. im tink im havinn 2nd thots guilt. i found myselff lookin out for himm. and whn i saw his stickass fren, i was hopinn he wud b ther as well. he wasnt. and i nearly bash sriee up in frustration(:

talkinn abt bash.. hahah.. we were in class.. i dinno hannan was bhind. so i was stretchinnn my arms abt and arhh^bishh. i hit him. i made an impact(: cuz he he was like whoa. ahhha. if i had my arms higher a lil bit, i wud have hit something else. i was sittinng you see. hahha. hHahHAHHAHha. hah. okie.dirtyy ar, lelaa. hahhahha.

i love mt. hahha. love the lesson. but sadly, not the subject. yehh): but heck. i thot my mly is terrible, but u shld have heard rasheedi((: Oh. cikkgu majidah confiscated tis mag hannan was readinng. gues what was it. hahhahah. porn. hahhahah. it was suhandy's. hhahha. i dno la. ehhe. but it wudn b the first time. hhhahhhah.

chan no need today arh. monday bluuues, huhh. cindy nearly ended up wit blue face and blue hair. cuz she was talkinn whn chan was teachinn and chan aint happy and he got tis blue spray frm hellz know wher and started spraynn.

emaths test was crazy. evryone was like complaining. and they got all depressed, esp ryan(: evrybody curses dennie. poor dennie. mayb yall shld give him a break, munz. hes tryinn so bloody hard to adapt to us. and here we are makinng life difficult for him.

we rock;)

lent my phy text to the 4e2s. ehhe. great. lightened my burden a bit. hhahhahha. but dang tmr must bring back cuz theres no phy tmr... ah hecks. who has my phy text huhhs? im regrettin lending it. cuz thers like so many humiliating shiets innit.. -blush blussh. his name evrywherr. shit. and i tink i slipp my test paper innit. aiseyhh. i dun mind if i got full marks.. but i barely paaassed. hhahah. haaishh.

practical chem till 3. thn after tat winnie and i got to the staff room and interview miss tan lee choo((((: funnn!! hhahahha. miss poon was ther too to add in the fun. were laughinn and stuf. mannn, the teachers are like a whole new person ther! hahhaha. u can hear mr tan laaughin his head off, u can hear miss noor swearing etc. yehh!!

miss poon was like, "we're fun ppl after 3." miss tan goes, "yeh. we're not hantu (ghost in mly)." and poon added sneakily, "we'r cheeky hantu's." and we all startted laughinn all over againn. maaann. ((: Trust me, the teachers staff room is the place uve just gotta b. but must have a purpose la. hhahhah.

hey guess whats tis. >> s2

its a blaaardy heart, daaammit! hhahahhaha. cool, huhh? i thot so toooo!!! i s2 uuuu!! ehhehe. no? still cant see it? ..sighh.

Single by Natasha Beddingfield is plaayinn in my head over and over again like a recorder. ehhe. erm. talkin abt recorder, neeone has one? cuz i may need it. to record the interview instead of painstakinglyy catching up and writing evry single word they sayy.. ahha yeh. thanks:D
-siiinggs. tis is my current single statuss my declaration of independence.. thers no way im trading places right now a star's in the ascendants.. im siiiingllee.. right now. tats how i wanna beee. im siiiigggleeee. riiight now. tats how i wanna bee..

erm yeh. i tink u get it alr. hhaha.


so much for tryna 'forget' him. -frusstt.. irgh. i was havinn my afternoon nap just now. and i dreamt. i dreamt of `himm. tat asshole. why?!! what does tis mean, mother goose? ..what, i shldn 'forget' `him? ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.
 
-shrieeeks. ahhhhhhhhhh... ive got a magic stickk.. but thn ar. the dream.. kinda cool. hhahah. no. kinda creepy cool. cuz he wasn him in the dream. well. he was him la. but he wasn ermm. well. he was younger. yeh. okie. he was very very young. 4, 5 yrs old? yeh. and i was carryinn him.

again, what does it meeeaaan, mother goose? what does it represent?! nuh uh shh. dun wanna know. it cant b good can it.

tats not all. thers more to the dream. but it din concern him neemore. next thing i knew i was dancing wit tis .. mime. hhah yeh. stop laughinn alr. yes thankiew. yeh. tis mime. tis slow dance.. and he was tossing me..? i dno. it was creepy. in the end, i ran away. yeh. like cinderella. but a mime instead of a prince..? -noddds.

its not funny anymore. its ugleyh. cuz ther were after-effects..... -freakkks. anyhoos. i tink i need to sort out my priorities. cuz ive been studyinng for the past couple of hrs. thn i realized.. crap, ive got hmwk. hmm. but i cudn b bothered. i dno. i was tellinn myself, "one more last chptr to cover, thn ill start wit my hmwk.." and here i am(: blogging.

yeh. like cookieass arisa says: im weird. (im, as in me. not arisa. hhhahahhhhahhhhaa.) boohoo.