i just got back from school and i am soo tired. pouts-. long day today. it seemed long. taps fingers on keyboard, not knowing what else to say-. anyways. yeh..

irghhhh!!!

i just haaad to be there when he went off with his gf, hm!? no wait. lets turn the table shall me? *they* just haaad to be there when i was about to go home, hm!?!

so instead i stayed in the canteen and waited for meyaa to finish her f&n stuff.. doddled.... and then poof. salmia and nabila appeared.

ha. never attend it media huh. orh horh. haha. they were in school all along, just hanging out in the library.. hah. wait till i tell them we had pizza for it media!!!!!

yeh. we did(((: sooooo full(: thank gawd atiqah was absent and syid went home. hahah. ginny and i had one of the biggeeest share. muahahahhahahah.

nabila was going though my dandy doddly book. she came across this sketch of harry potter and she frigging thought it was ridwan!?

was like, who the hell is ridwan............. feigns innocence and ignorance-. "its harry potter. see the wand?"

salmia and i went off first. and we took 855 home. haha go figure(: and i got home and momma and lina was just about to step out of the house..

said they were going to have pizza..? i told them i had 4 slices and they thought i was making it up because they didn't allow me to tag along. .. puh lease. honestly i cant face another slice, thank you.

okie people let me recall what happened this morning. run for your life while you still can. yawn-.

i was late ooh yeh. thanks to hannan. i had to scram between ryan and joan s. thank gawd im small(: thank you momma and dad. your genes at least.

oh which reminds me. i gotta do family tree for geography due tomorrow. yeh i don't see the relation too but what the heck. kinda fun so.. ill do that first thing tomorrow morning.

where was iiiii.. first period was english.. read straits tiime. nothing interesting except for the IN. yeh that rocks(:

i adore mrs ong. beams-.

history.... then geographyy.. mr kelwin k is baaack!!!!! somebody pop the champaige please! hahha. everyone was so happy. im back to loving that subject(: for now..

cme.. mrs ong talks alot(:

i adore mrs ong.

you know, mr kelwin k was telling us that mrs ong was offered to be the hod but she didn't want to(: because 'then she knows she won't be able to be with us'. ain't that sweeeeet!?!?!??!?!?!?!!

i adore mrs ong. she doesn't know it. she can't even get my name right. haha. but it's okiee.

what the hell am i talking about!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

off for emaths. after greeting mrs ong, like half of the class took the other route and the other half went off the other. hahahha. hannan and i were like in the middle, going, huh...........

i felt bad for mr goh): seriously. everyone was doing their own thing and noone was listening to himm. poor him.

OH!!!! did i tell you, 4e1 ordered a class jersey?? wait. adidas class jersey. and its ORANGE!!! omigawd. ill have my name emblazed on it and my index number, also my favourite number.. fourteeeen!!!! soo cool!!!!!

that was the best bit today(: sriee was demolished. muahaha. she loathes orange(:

demolished..? ..whatever that meaning is. it just sounds fun(:

the whole emaths period, i was like going, 'should i put 'lela' on my jersey or 'lelaa'?' sriee put hers as 'sriee' and i mean, shit thats really cool(:

after emaths had chem test.. boohoo. mole concept. (: hope to pass!!

after that, helped out meya and nana at the printing room thingie.... then nana went off to meet her sister, who had to wait for her almost for half an hour!!!!!!!! evil.

then...... chilled out with ginny(: pizza guy came. 6 boxes.. omigawd. hahaha. ate and then yeh(:

ryan was showing me off her muscle on her upper arm. so i showed her mine. and she went like, "ugh. forget it.." and continued mumbling to herself, "high body resistance la.. high muscle cells la.. sheesh."

one point for me. big fat zero for ryan(:

haha right..

but really. this is like an ego booster of some sort.. this what you get when you carry bags and bags of cat litter for almost every week.

salmia and i we were walking to stop when these mats drove past. we were too engrossed in our convo we didn't noticed them. then they went, "hey!"

we looked up, they were waving. one of them were frigging topless.. ohkaaaye. so the weather is pretty humid and stuff..

so we waved back.. wahhaha smangett.. and as soon as they were gone, we looked at each other and went 'bleargh!!'
hahah.. she brings out the spontaneity in me(: yehh right. more like stupidity. hehh.

i have nothing else to say now.. xP


momma can be unreasonable at most times, but i love her to microbits.
my sisters can drive me insane but i still do love them. even if i don't show it AT ALL. hahahaha.
my gmum can be really irritating and i am always teasing her, but she knows i love her.

sriee can be seriously scary sometimes with her sarcastic and crude remarks but i love her all the same.

nana tend to be too straightforward. she speaks her mind and she doesn't care whether it affects anyone or not, but that's just nanawaty rais and she means the world to me(:

atiqah doesn't think before she talks and bullshit comes out of her mouth everytime she does. but that's the way she is and strangely, she means the world to me too. c(:

and there's just someting about hannan that when you look at him you just want you punch him. or maybe that's just me. but he's really awright and i enjoy his company..

you love that person no matter how 'ugly' he or she may be.

and that swings both ways because no matter how 'ugly' you are, there is someone that loves you(:


i pissed off the guy who almost wanted to get me a guitar. so it seemed at first..

he was like, "what's your budget?" and "what type?" and "im not selling you mine but i can get you good offers."
so i was really exhilarated .. at some point there.. so he asked for my contact and i gave him my number and all of a sudden..

"you can go to peninsula plaza and check it out yourself."

i was like.... dude. if you would have told me that at the first place then we wouldn't have wasted so much time, right? i missed 7/8 of charmed because of that.

you see the thing is, i asked if anyone out there wanted to sell his/her guitar. i didn't ask howwww or wheeerrre to get one. of course i knoooww where to get one. jeeez.

the reason why getting a new guitar is not really one of my option: i know it would be pretty expensive. so im thinking of looking for second hand ones, preferably one my size. hopefully from someone i know.. for convenience sake(: and i can easily ask for a lower price without having to feel so awkward.

its all selfish pleasure(: haha. gotta please myself once in a while, right?

daniel took a while to reply back.. he was like, "whatever. okay. i don't really care."

this is not the first time i pissed him off(: im bad. i was a little guilty after that. so i apologized but i know daniel. he hates that 5 letter word.. so there.

he has probably blocked me in his msn contacts(:

wonder what momma thinks of me getting a new g.. my old one, or actually shafiq's old one, is really in a bad state. and its designed for.. bigger built people. explains why i cant do a g without sounding like crap.

not that shafiq's big. he's small for his age (it runs in our family generation, i guess?). but its different because he's a boy. it really isn't his anyway. it was paassed down from his dad. i bet if he wanted to, he would get a smaller guitar for himself(:

he doesn't because he knows id be the first to lay my hands on it.. and break a string or two(: happens lots of time.

troubled times, you know i cannot liee. im off the wagon and im hitchin a riiide. such an old bob-your-head-along kind of song. haha. i liike ar.

there's a drought at the fountain of youthh.. and now im dehydraating. my tongue is swelling up i say.. shiet!


soo tiring. tiring than yesterday and i didn't do anything today. in fact i got straight home after school. i haven't done that for ages(:

im like in a whirlpool of emotions.. ]:

this morning, hannan texted me at around 6, continuing where we left off last night. was like, whaada??.. i mean, i wasn't even up yet. and he was already trying to ruin my morning.

our 'argument' went on till i reached school.....

then something happened): but everything was back to normal after that.

you may think you're being nice when you sympathise, or show your sympathy. you're wrong because it really only makes things worst. for the person, that is. you're rubbing it in instead of making that person feel better. be in their shoes. who would want to be reminded by that certain incident, right?

unless you just trying to be nasty.. then you're evil. evil!

ignorance is bliss.

sitting waaay front in amaths really does have the advantage..(: ..so what if miss tan's speaking tone is equivalent to screeching? (shes worst than jeya, im telling you!!!)

saaaving moneyyyyyyy..(:

physics after recess.. i wasn't sleepy or anything. in fact i was wide awake. but i chose not to pay attention to chan in front. even the crazy ruler he had in his hand didn't do much to intimidate me or anything..

i started sketching hannan and noviani. nothing personal. they just happened to be in front of me.

don't leave me with a pencil or pen or marker or whatever that leaves markings on any surface of any material(:

hannan was simple to sketch. he didn't move about much so it was easy to do him. novi was a little harder. because she's got long hair and stuff..

my hannan looked retarded(:

my doodle book is filled with lots of lame sketches.. i drew weijie while he was slowly drifting to weijie-euthopia during bio, i drew sriee's shoes, i drew my hand drawing my hand(go figure) and i drew mrs j(: hahha. she's easy. haha. if you know what i mean;)

i was doodling away when suddenly chan managed to grab my attention.. it was this.. machine thingie which calculates your body resistance to current. or something like that.

eldwen got the honour to try it out first.. then chan got him to call out a name. he called hannan. ooh that guy has got a high body resistance.. everyone was like, waaahhh!

i continued with my doodlingg and that was when i heard my name.. i looked up and hannan was pointing at me.

chan the bugger was like, "come on. i promise it won't hurt." so i had those.. thingies in my fingertips and watched the digits in the machine thingie increase. i beat hannan's hands down.

o.9m. try beating that!! muahaha.

wait.. is that a good or bad thing..?

cme was last period.. dreams and aspirations(: ive got loads.. im very ambitious.... you have nooo idea. haha fyi, when i was young i seriously wanted to be a zookeeper(:

haha its silly apologizing to a girl after you've picked on her during physics. it's wrong. you shouldn't picked on her at the first place.

momma's in love with that newscaster.. timothy goh(: big LOL.

i better cruise. ive got malay karangan not yet touched!!! not that i am planning to do it anytime soon.. and it was due.. last week? even amir handed his up. forget amir, ginny did too! i mean, seriously, ginny! GiNNy!!

c(:

im taking things pretty cool. i mean, after what i saw yesterday with my two own fucking eyes..(: ooh yeh. i said it. you heard me, baby. i saw him so many times today, i didn't even cringe or blush or flinch.. i wish hannan could see that. hahahha.

i was on cloud nine and what i saw yesterday brought me down crashing. but i bounced back and i bounce hard.


sucky day. but glad it happened(: what hurts you make you stronger, yes?

thanks sriee. hahah. for sticking with me the whole nightmare, instead of being pissed off with me for dragging you into it. hahahha. shhht. glad that happened when i was with you(:

thanks asila. feels better after sharing with you. hope things will be awright on your side(:

thanks hans! ((: so sweet, you. hahah. wonder how someone so sweet can turn a malay textbook until like -*thaaat*. hahah.

summie.. nah. he won't read this. but id thank him too. haha. he doesn't know anything. but he made my day with his.. cuteness..? hahha. and singlish convo. summie brings out the singlish in me!!

hannan, screw you. haha. instead of making me feel better, you make me feel worse. thank you very much please come again. irgh. so you're pissed off i liked that guy? doesn't mean you can mock me..

sucks to all the lelas who fall for the ridwans.

there.


time really flies huh.

i wish it would do the same for bio with mrs j. somehow her lesson seems to take ages.. you look at the clock. it's 1.00pm. half an hour later you look up again but the clock insists its only 1.03. doesnt that make you wanna scream?

there's bio first period tomorrow. but thank god there's sriee.

once in a while, it's pretty nice reaching school before the bell(: sucky thing is, i was the only one today.

that's it for now. peace out. a'town. ..hahha.. dont look at me.


haha momma bought blessings. taufik's album. hahah. this is like wowness. never in a million years i thought she would actually buy a music cd(:

where's the track that's what friends are for, hm!?

went window shopping with cousin lili after lunch at banquet in compass point.. and she came across this funky-looking purple dress. she was crossed there wasn't any for her size.

i was like, not like you're actually gonna buy it, right? i mean, purple? ewk? and it's prom-ish.

and i went on and on and suddenly she asked me when's my prom.

"end of this year.. obviously." and i plunged on some more about when would be a better timing if not the end of the year, right? and then i realized something..

shht.

the next thing i knew, i was in the fitting room, trying the stupid purple thing on. i refused to get out of the fitting room, even though she was begging me to parade it out for her.

"its too low.."
"what's too low?"
"around the chest area.."
"it's supposed to......."
"well. i don't like it."
"fine... what do you think of the colour maroon?"

lili kept bringing in more prom-ish dresses for me to try on. she almost got into trouble with the people working there.

then she brought in this floral dress.. which is really pretty and sweet and i bet in price too but, hey, isn't it too early to think about prom!?

she said something about 'not necessary to wear it for that occasion'.. hah. right. wouldn't want to see me wearing a frigging dress walking down orchard road.

then as i was trying to squeeze out of the dress, i heard that dreadful sound of fabric.. torn.. shoot. i checked the price. yup. shot.

but we managed to get away with it. heh. heheh. hahahahha. we were like ever so innocently, "is this dress supposed to be like this?" (meaning a little ripped).

but if you think that should stop her from taking another risk of making me try out more dresses, you're wrong.. we went to another fitting room. she draagged me, more like.

however i liked what she picked out this time. a white super super short dress but she made me wear this pair of funky jeans with it.

"i like this! i don't mind wearing this."
"not very prom-ish."
"wedding-ish?"
"well.."
"your wedding."
"..hey it's late. we should get going. your mom is going to kill me."

ha. haha. hahahh.

xD

wonder what noratiah is doing now. heh. stuffing her face with fast food, i guess? and buying fake branded stuffs for her friends back home. hah. hahha. where's my b-gum?

(:

dont say giving up. say moving on..(:

he's moving on. happy for him. haha. hahah.

maybe i should move on as well. how many more mistakes before i go insane?


i had good charlotte chronicles of life and death blasting in my stereo while trying to study my chem.. but instead of getting the factors(affecting the rate of reaction) into my head, i was getting something else instead.

the songs in the albums make me think about stuffs alot. which is a good thing. i mean, thinking is good. but not when you've got so much assignments to do and you are merely just starting.

the reason why i'm blogging at such a wrong timing.. i need to get stuffs out of my system once and for all so i can concentrate on (my attempt to try to) study.

turn on channel 7 at a quarter to eight.
you see the same damn thing its just a different day.
no one really knows why this is happening.
but its happening.

everywhere you go its just a different place.
youve got the same dark feelings
see the same sad faces.
and no one really cares that this is happening.

we come into this world
and we are all the same.
in that moment there's no one to blame.

living in this place
it's always been this way.
no one's doing nothing,
so there's nothing changes.

and i cant live
when this world keeps dying.. its dying.
people always tell me
that this is part of the plan.
that god got everybody in his hands.
but i can only pray that god is listening.
is he listening?

living in this world
growing colder everyday.
nothing can stay perfect now i see.

and the world is black.
and hearts are cold.
and there's no hope
thats what we're told.
we cant go back
it wont be the same
forever changed
by the things we've seen.

i can understand why this friend of mine dislike good charlotte.. their songs are like propaganda. but hey. they are just making a point.

but i still do think there's more to life(:

i especially like track 14.. first time listening to the words, i went like ouch.. reality bites in the ass and it bites deep.

in this world all of our sins are simple. we choose death over innocent life. and in this world it's not our money that's evil. its the ones who choose it over life.

no matter how hard they try no matter how high they climb up the ladder. they won't reach up into heaven. no matter how hard they try no matter how loud they cry. they won't buy they way into heaven.


the eve of hari raya haji on the year of 2001.. marks the event that has changed my life. it hurts thinking about it still. but at the same time, i feel somewhat grateful that it happened...? may sound cruel but hey, what hurt you makes you stronger. unless you got killed in the process or something. hurhur.

(:

school was .. uh. stuck... you know what? forget it. my vocab is limited. its a thursday night and the long weekend is almost here. give me a break, wokie?

but that won't stop me from blogging. because like good charlotte sang; "today could be the last day of your life.." so. for all you know, i might end up like my dad tonight. haha. touch wood, touch wood. heh.

tsk tsk. lelaa, what's up!?!?!

i'll tell you what's up.. noratiah larry is practically getting ready and on the way here to sunny singapore (okie so it's night but you get what i mean..) as i'm typing this. i think?? haha. i'm sooo excited!!! ahhaa(:

sriee was sweet to me this morning. as she has always been.. -sarcastic tone-. we were walking and the next second, she was wayy ahead of me.

she reckoned if there were ever an earthquake, i would be the first to die. she waited for me to catch up and then said, "lela, promise me you'll run when there's a bomb or earthquake or something."

right. ill try.

come on what's the ruush!?

during malay lesson just now, i accidentally ter-ripped off my textbook back cover(hanif's actually), the one ginny painstakingly scotchtaped for me. and cikku seemed pretty amused.

"it's a friend's," i told her before she might get the wrong impression; that i'm such a klutz. and she was like, "tsk tsk.." and said something about how untidy the friend was, considering how tattered the book is.

wait till i tell her it's hanif's. hah.

the rest of the day was .. uh. right. there i go again.

had 2 solid periods of physics.. first period of it was.. shit. uh. no not that i forgot i just can't find the right words to describe. hah. my bad.

before the 2 periods, chan gave us 10 minutes break before he started his crappy lesson. sriee and i rushed to the loo but it was paaacked, i tell you. by the time we waited, it was almost 10 minutes. so we went back to the lab, legs twisted to fight the urge to pee right along the coridor.

do not imagine.

i rushed through my report, a little jumpy and fidgety. but you should have seen sriee. she was antsy and wouldn't shut up.

and weijie was just soo cute lorh!! he was trying to get his paper but it slipped and started fluttering about in the air. yes. flutter. like leaves in the autumn. haha.

first try: he tried to snatch it off the air, but missed. second time, he missed too. and then the paper landed on my shoe.

i almost lost it. my control that is. my bladder almost burst because i was trying so hard not to laugh.

i don't know. it wasn't even funny actually. but when you're feeling antsy and your bladder is full, evrything and anything is. you'll look at the branches on the trees outside the lab and you'll find yourself laughing. i know i did.

i retrieved his paper for him and handed it to him.. and he was like thanking me and i went like, 'thanks? i almost crush your paper trying not to relax my bladder muscle.'

?

my vocabulary is getting weirder..

2.30pm. aaaahh. relieved myself. aahh. i cartwheeled out of the toilet(:

our dates came pick us up from school.

hah right. haha. it was just weijie and alvin and we joked that they were waiting for us..come on, we had been to the toilet, chilled out for a while in the canteen with nabila, salmia and nj and all those while they were just at the gate?

took 163 with asilaa. silly girl.. eh, the next time you want to stay back in school for some occasion or something, come tell me la. ill stay back with you if there's nothing on. ha.hahaha. heh. hinthint.

ahh. hah.a

sigh.

im worried. why ain't he speaking to me? he's been avoiding me it seems. fargh arh. sometimes people just tend to confuse shyness with proudness, and kindness with slyness (?).

people just tend to confuse me la.


whadup.. i'm awriight. despite the fact that i probably bring bad luck to this ol' flame of mine.. hah. sad, you know. the first time i knew him, and i talked to him, he just broke up. that was pretty long ago. and then i talked to him quite recently, and boom baby..:

"broke up with gf le. like tt lorhs. lol."

orh. lyk tat horh?

haha but my first reaction was, awriiight!! hah! and then i got lina to slap me. she was more than welcome to do just that.. so she slapped me.. it hurt. but i deserved it.

i'm such a bitch some times. but hey, that was a reflective reaction. and there's always a bitch in all of us. boys included. hah. heck. boys especially!!

boys are bitches when they take away girls' chairs for emaths period(:

hahhahha ignore that(: i'm crazy.

yesterday i was almost late. today, i was officially late. does that make sense? hm.

yesterday, was fun. i don't know why but it just was.. haha i don't know. today was draggy. let me try to recall. hm.

you know what makes my day? hahah. meisy. and asila. hahaha. beats me. i think it's the way they holler at me.

meisy, from far, was already screaming my name. and i really meant far. i don't know if she was calling me to beckon me to hurry up. so i didn't really holler back.. anyway, it was embarrassing having people to call you and everyone else is looking around to check out who they're calling. in this case, me. unless there's another lela out there.

then i got closer to school, another one hollered at me. asilaa gundu babe! haha. we had sciences for first period(: but she's got mr yee and ive got boring mrs j. yawn!

after bio with mrs j we had malay.. thanks loads hans, for giving me your malay textbook. haha. it was in a really bad state. now, it's worst(:

had amaths test. it was a no-can-do. boohoohoo. miss tan dismissed us 15 minutes late for recess. sriee and i weren't very happy about that. in fact, we were pretty raged. period.

physics practical after recess. meaning no test. meaning it'll be tomorrow. meaning i shouldn't be doing this now and go revise but i am ignoring my conscience and i'm pretty good at it so yeh.

i am grateful to poh hong. haha. he's the bestest lab partner ever. he does almost everything. not that i left everything to him. i tried but i just couldn't get it right.. he tried to explain but i catch no ball, baby.

while poh hong made himself busy with the experiment, i kept looking back at sriee and couldn't help laughing. she seemed to be having alot of 'fun'.(:

we were late for social studies for 20 bloody minutes. miss k was very pissed off. but lesson continued as per normal. with frequent screamings from next door homeroom. aherm. 2a2 was having their humanities. with mr j. god bless them(:

chem after that. last period too. i told you mrs j is officially taking over chem lesson now. but yesterday, she was away for some workshop. so miss khor took over.

the whole class was trying to suck up to her((: everyone was responsive. with a hidden intention.. hoping miss khor would continue teaching us chem. we have enough of mrs j and her crappy slides which even colours do not help. serious.

went home straightaway after that.. i slept. all the way till 7. i had plenty of coffee. i love caffaine(: caffaine stayed in me till 1 in the morning. what was i doing? revising my humanities.

history is very interesting((: did you know that, hm?

the next day, i woke up at 6.30. next day meaning today. yeh. and i was late to school. stupid farghing bus. haha. evil driver. even more evil passangers.....

hannan is quite these days..? or is it just me? i think it's me la. i'm a terrible person..

i couldn't believe i stayed up so long last night and i forgot i had a malay karangan to be done!!! and i wasn't being a lazyass that i am. i innocently forgot.. i should be doing it right now.... but i'm ignoring my conscience. and i'm very good at that.

baad stomachache during cikku's class. and was it me or was it my stomachache.. i don't know. but it seemed that i seem to bore noviani.. we played a pathetic bit of softball/baseball during pe and i was with her and she kept giving excuses so as not to play with me! serious!! omigawd..(:

english.. i got a copy of monday's straits time from mrs o. haha. she gave me the whole newspaper when all i wanted was just the articles on the tiger cup.

emaths... hah. sriee and i were on time. yes!! but winnie ain't so lucky. hahha. daamn. we practically pushed our way in the crowd. bet kids in class think we've got a screw lost(not loose) in our heads.. suddenly and frighteningly very enthu for goh's lesson(:

and it's just chairs(: chairs are dangerous things. i remember saying that.. hah.

winnie, sriee and i bullied our own emaths teacher(: we're so mean. omigawd. hahahha..(: i wouldn't be surprised if we ended up getting sued by him one of these days for making his life oh so miserable.

what goes around comes around, lelaa.. shh.

history after that.. finished up our presentation.. and then that's all.

had lunch with nj and sriee at long john's. naturally it was the usual normal laugh-out-loud-don't-care-what-people-think thang.. hahha.

i am soo getting that pencil case. gonna fill it with goh tat chuan's pictures.. sorry wifey vanessa. haha. but your hubby's just super fit.

right and that's super weird.

meyaa. if you're reading this, i doubt.. but yeh.. just want to remind you to cry a river tonight with your eyeballs floating like coconuts washed away into the sea(:

i am not being gross, awright? like me, some people find comfort through tears! ..okie fine. maybe coconuts are too big to use as metaphors for the eyes. but you get my drift!!!

peace out V(^-^) a town.


monday was peeachy! (: what a day to kick start the busy week. you know what i mean.. tests and stuff. boo. anyway, scroll doown to see my entry on the tiger cup.. yeh.

just had emaths test and it wasn't friendly. so what if i almost laughed my tonsil out 3 minutes straight before the test? i laughed all my statistic prior knowlegde out the window.

haha damn i hadn't laugh that hard since.. just last week emaths period. and i really mean hard. ironically, i'm looking forward to emaths now(:

scary, people. the world is ending soon. haha makes me guilty of that evil plan i plotted against--ah. forget it(:

strangely, i had no problem waking up today(: i went home late last night. it was 11 and we were having our super late dinner at prata house instead of going straight home from the stadium. i reached home almost midnight and i couldn't sleep after that because i was so excited lions won and

moving on.

english was fine(: history was crazy. i almost freeze to death inside. then we had geography and i did freeze to death. if it weren't for wilson. hah. nothing personal though. Hhahahha.

cme was nice(: i love mrs o. even though she still couldn't get my name right. it's okie. i couldn't get hers right too. mrs ong lai what? haha(: anyway yeh.. for cme we did this 'get to know yourself' thing..

lela means dark as night in arabic. what was going through my dad's mind!? go figure.. mrs o was like asking me profusely whyy i was named that but hey, don't you think i'd like to know why too?? what, ask my momma? ha ha. biig joke.

anywaysm. she got us to write down our two strengths and two weaknesses. weaknesses are easy peasy. i can name a dozen(: okie.. half a dozen. hahahhahh. joke(:

strengths are a little tricky. come on, it's not like me to brag.. and then feel comfortable about it. my strengths are my weaknesses.

under weaknesses, i say that i make bad first impressions. when mrs o saw it she was in agreement. at first i thought she too thought of me as someone proud and stuck-up.. i was like omigosh im thaat bad?

haha of course not. ceh. hahhaha. mrs o meant that she too makes bad first impressions. lerhh. but okie that was a huuge relief, you know(:

after cme was emaths. remember how i say going to emaths is like a race.. okie i didn't say that.. haha. but i mentioned that it's like the survival of the fastest and how it's like musical chair without music??

sriee and i tried to squeeze our way to the front, but our class got into a minor jam with the sec1s. when we eventually got to class,.. jeng jeng jeng.

sriee's chair was missing. she had lost.

and i was laughing like it was the funniest thing on earth. it was!!! sriee was in a middle of breaking down in frustration and also, well, because she couldn't tahan liao.. even she found it hilarious. somewhat.

she slammed her books on her table and cursed so loud, i laughed even louder.

daaamn..(:

after emaths, we blah-ed. we were the first i guess? then we realized something.. we were supposed to have chem remedial afterwards!! and then salmia had to pick this time to drag me away and yeh..

she was talking so fast, nabz was interrupting, sriee was cutting in every chance she got.. in the end i was like, "salmia! i have chem remedial like, now!"

we went up and hannan and eldwen went down.. hey hey wait a minute... ah what the heck. there was chem remedial and it was just a short one because teachers had some meeting going on and stuff. yayness.

right, my first it media club.. lesson/practice/meeting. hahaha.. mr chan caught me outside the computer lab with sriee, using nj's phone trying to call nabila.. he went like, 'ah!!' and i went, 'maak!!' this is it.

"welcome to the family," he said.

- -

made friends with jean. haha.. and learnt a couple of things which i think can come pretty handy.. haha. it was awright(: i'm still considering library, though..

went home after that. almost! haha.

asilaa, asila. do you hear me? i'm here if you need to talk it out awright? roger and over. -makes walkie-talkie sounds-

i asked salmia what's up with her bandaged left hand.. then she was like, "shit. the hook!!" and the both of us and nabila walked back to school to try to look for it.

found it. hah.

salmia and nabla made me laugh all the way to the bustop. they should really consider being comedians(: okie i should give them more credit than that but really, it's not easy to make people laugh without trying. all they do is just be themselves(:

and then yada yada.. in the bus the 3 of us had some grrl talk. okie. we were bitching. healthy bitching, mind you. we bitch, because we care.

haha new way of putting it, people!!! couldn't say that any better myself. 11 claps for lelaa.

talk about bitch. lina called me a bitch(: this is new. i don't know where she's getting 'bitch' from. i'm definitely nothing like her.

lela's tiger cup finals special.. ceh.
the game was syiok ar(:

the players are, present tense, amazing. the fans were unbelievable. everybody was dressed in red, even me and i don't do red.. haha. but yeh.

it was spectacular. every now and then the fans would break into cheers and they.. i mean, we, would do the kallang wave. you guys who watched it on tv probably didn't catch us do the wave. it was so. neat.

even when the match was over, people were still cheering!! and that really made my heart soar. haha ceh. made me all warm and fuzzy inside, even though it was chilly and i was exhausted.

our car was parked miiiles away from the stadium and we had to walk. stroll, actually because it was really crowded.

you know that 11 claps cheer? there was once when we were walking, this car drove by and the driver honked his car 11 times and those people walking there, including us, screamed, "singapore!!"

the atmosphere was super crazy. i love it. talk about enthu(: and people say enthu like it's something humiliating. what do they know, hm? hehh.


i'm going to the finals. yayness (: nabz hates me now. syid will kill me. twinz are trying their best to make me change my mind. but nothing is ever gonna.

not even my own mother. well.. she did give me that sarcastic 'do-whatever-makes-you-happy-you-ungrateful-little-vermin' face when i asked her for the n-th time whether she really really really do allow me to go.

so in response, i gave her my 'thank-you-you're-the-best-mother-an-ungrateful-little-vermin-would-ever-have' sheepish smile.

goh tat chuan and lionel lewis, here i come. hahaha.

i wonder if i can see the field from where i will be standing. lina has promised to lend me her binoculous but unless i can get it to stick to my face during the whole game, then yeh. so what if i look retarded? i bet i wouldn't be the only one!

can't wait can't wait can't wait can't wait! (:


i got drunk today.. okie. drunk a little too strong. i just got a little hiiigh. high on mocha..

i dropped off the bus at my stop, walked the usual route.. and straight past my flat. i went to the nearest cheers, which is actually quite far but if you like to walk and you love the breeze and you're dying of thirst, you would go miiiles.

i was like in a trance..... i kept walking and walking, my mind like totally nothing, enjoying the wind and laughing at my reflection on the glass at the shops i passed because my hair was sticking out in weird angles.

i got into cheers. i bought a couple of goodies and this mocha fizz drink. i brought it to the counter and took out my wallet. peeped in and i don't need a be a whiz in math to instantly know i hadn't enough cash. so i smiled nervously at the lady at the counter and put back all of my chocolates.

i walked out and started to walk back home. and i was stopped. by this striking orange wrapping paper. i bought it. don't know why but i just did. if i came across an old cardboard painted in lovely orange, i would bring it home too.

it ain't kidding when it said fizz. because i wasn't even halfway through and i was already fizzing. .. freezing, i mean. yeh. was enjoying it at first, the cold liquid down my throat... until my fingers holding it got all numb and i seriously wanted to pee and when i licked my lips, my tongue couldn't feel anything but my lips could feel my tongue. you get what i'm saying?

it was weird. my heart was screaming no stop or my oesophagus would freeze! i think that killed my brain cells somehow because my brain wasn't working very right.. so i continued drinking. that was when i got high.

i told you it was windy. and the straw, it was like the leaves in the trees; swaying. and i had a hard time trying to get it between my lips. and i actually laughed. not to myself. but out loud.

when i finally got the straw in my mouth, i chewed the tip of it till it was beyond recognition.... and usefulness. (?). so i threw away the straw and gulped the remaining mocha down. ahh. mocha had never taste so good.

i got home.. my house weirdly smelled of paint and i almost puked.

i took a nap. unsuccessful. so i took out my scrap book and doodled in. and then i started to reflect..... and picked my nose.

the weekend comes too soon!! tooo soon. i don't liiike..):

i don't have anything on this weekend.. but i'm looking forward to the tiger cup finals. nabz going to watch it liive at the stadium!!! no faair! nabz, take me with youu.

i dug out all dad's old soccer jerseys and tried it out.. it was big but i like it that way(:

i especially like the arsenal one! it's especially the biggest it's almost like a super mini dress. but it's longer at the back so it's covering the butt area and on it has the word arsenal. so cool. i don't have to wear anything but just my boxers(:

i think i sprained my left hand index finger. haha funny..

cousin elly bought me this hot blue top. i pretended to be overwhelmed with excitement to try it on.. was like, "wow!! i must try it on now!!!" and she was like, "relax.. that can wait. tell me how school went?" and i was like, "okay!! school was awright--" babble babble babble.

duude. i wouldn't be caught dead wearing it. i'd rather wear that red arsenal jersey(: and i know momma wouldn't be caught dead while out with me wearing that(:

it's cca orientation today.. right now.. in school. and i wonder what they are doing. must be pretty exciting. ha ha.

actually right about now, we should be going round with miss lim's witch's brew pot thingie filled with sweets and trying to recruit little sec1s to join our cca. but most of the time, we would be the one finishing all the sweets and get miss lim all pissed off. haha.

i missed thaat!!!

i want to go cca orientation!! just for the kick of it.. i mean, since i'm currently cca-less, i won't be doing anything. so. would it kill to check it out? this is my last year anyway.

but i couldn't get anyone to come tag along with me. everyone has their own thing. sriee has her band. salmiah has 'stuffs' at home. nabz going out with her mom. and.. yeh.

here i am.. grimacing because my index finger hurts soo much. what a blast on a lovely friday afternoon(:


i've missed blogging, baby(: i intended to blog last night but i was 'a prisoner of my own brain', as quoted by noratiah larry who owes me bubble gums and when the heck are you coming to singapore?

okie i've got loads to blog about but all the stuffs are like at different corners of my mind and i'm not sure which event happened first. so.. i'm going to just type whatever that comes to mind first la, okie? don't hate me if i end up not making sense(:

before i start ar, i'd like to tell you that this entry is going to supa dupa long. hahaha.. yeh. so. patience is virtue(: and sense of humour is the key to understand my booshit. you can divide my entry into as many parts as you like and you can read each part on different days for all i care(: just as long as you read. and tag la, please..

i should just.. yea yea i know. lela, lela.. tsk.

emaths lesson now is like, the survival of the fastest. because if you're slow, you end up with no chairs(: it's like musical chair but no music.. just lots of selfish, mean players(:

unfortunately, if you're the last one standing, you have to find someone who would willingly let you shift your filthy butt in their chair with them while bearing with boring mr goh and his lesson.

it can kill, i'm telling you. i'm speaking from experience! if you're laughing, i hope you're laughing with me and not at me.... sucks to that idiot who took my chair.. haha.

yesterday i accompanied nana to the computer lab. ended up helping her. not that i mind. it was fun. nana + lela = fun(: but weird.. the whole time in the lab, i kept hearing voices.... rasheedi's voice. it was scary because he wasn't in school. and nana was saying like, "i think there's a chance between you and rasheedi. because you keep hearing his voice."

baby, you should be hit in the head for even thinking about it..... just that other day i dreamt of him and me.. freak out.

and then it happened again. rasheedi's voice. this time even nana heard it. she was like, it cant be he wasnt in class!! and we stood up and looked around and there he was!!!! using the computer just the one behind us. we were laughing so hard it's not funny.

ever since that crazy dream of him and me i had, i laugh whenever i see him. now, i will always remember that computer lab incident and i'll laugh even harder.

and today during malay class which he finally attended, he took sriee's seat, which is next to mine.. i was like, this cannot be.. i will never be able to pay attention to cikku now. i will be laughing myself to death.

thank gawd nana saved the day. hahaha.. she was like, "sheedi!! that's sriee's place la!!" and hannan joined in. and rasheedi was like, "alahh. couldn't she sit behind?" and when sriee heard that, she put on her death-will-come-upon-you look.

if i could, you know i would pat myself on the back and congratulating myself for being able to hold my laughter that whole time((:

i am so going to miss all this(:

i don't remember what else happened today! i just remembered bio lesson with mrs j. poor thing.. she is having a really bad sorethroat. yet she was determined to finish her getting-more-colourful slides.. so you think the least we all could do was shut the fuck up and pretend to listen.

but noo.. i don't know about the rest, they were probably worst off than me. but there i was, doodling on my scrap book instead of paying attention. i didn't even know what chapter she was in.

haha i love my scrap book..(: where i can doodle in my heart's desire. no more doodling in my textbooks and worksheets, which once got me in trouble with miss k and mrs o.... ahh that was dumb of me. haha.

after school.. decided to have lunch with nj and sriee wee. we ate at this hawker centre place.... you should know, where there's hawker centres, there's ought to be leftover food. and when there's leftover food, there are stray cats around.. and yeh, nj and sriee are terrified of cats.

we were eating and then this cat, after doing his business at the nearby patch of grass and almost made me puke all over my mamak fried rice, started to make his grand way towards our table....

the next thing i knew, i was eating at the table all alone.

dust ball rolled by.. cricket criketed. a fly landed on sriee's fork that she dropped on the table in horror as soon as she saw the cat.

yea, seriously. nj and sriee had made a remarkable escape that took only 3 seconds and they were out of my sight. it was unbelievable. they were unbelievable.

about maybe half an hour later, they came back and were like, "that bastard feline!" both of them exclaimed that the cat literally followed them! so they just kept on walking and walking and walking and walking until the cat finally gave up.

have i said they were unbelievable!??!?! oh my gawd..

i looked like an asshole, laughing alone at the table with a plate of mamak fried rice, trying to imagine the both of them almost reaching at the other side of ang mo kio with the cat right behind them.

tsk tsk.

that day, ginny was like, when is malay period going to end? and i said, soon.. and she went like, "time is not flying." and then just as she said that, the bell rang and the both of us practically screamed, "time flew!" (:

happy 16th birthday, my ginns bhansali! (: i love those sec1 and 2 malay classes moments with her.. my lame jokes she appreciated.. and vice versa. haha.. if you loathe a certain subject in class, grab a seat next to her(:

hey talk about weird.. i thought momma would nag at me for coming home late and not buying her fries and burger on the way home. but no. she welcomed me with open arms. literally.

so i thought she wanted to give me a hand with my books. so i handed her my books while i struggled to take off my socks. but she was like, "tsk. i wanted to give you a hug la.." and she hugged me.

..huh. "what is wrong with youu!!?!" i yelled for the whole universe to hear. maybe she's guilty because she didn't let me to go watch the tiger cup finals with my cousins. i hope so. that's the only reason i'd accept.

i really want to see goh tat chuan face to face!!!! or at least not on the flat telly screen.

"what? can't your mother hug her daughter?" she was yelling equally loud. so i was like, awww sorry.. and i wanted to hug her proper but she shoved me away.

pms gets worst when you get older, huh.


ohkay. besides the fact that i almost died twice today on tender age of 15-going-16-on-the-5th-of-july-which-is-soon-but-long-enough-for-you-to-think-of-a-present-to-get-me, i think my monday has been pretty awright((:

haha try beating that.

ryan thought i'm going out with hannan!? when i told her no she said i should. and she used the word 'compatible'..

compatible!? in what way? on second thought, spare me(:

and i don't wear contact lenses. i don't curl my lashes. they are not fake even. and i don't wear eyeliner. ermm..specifically going out to cindy: im not racist! haha.

norine fell in love with my hair. okiee. that's something new.. and i don't think i like the sound of it..

sriee wee was severely pissed off. thanks to mrs. strawberry tan and master yang. hahahhahahh~ damn she was hilarious. when she hates somebody, she is determined to make his/her/that poor sucker life as miserable as shit(: beware.

i was supposed to meet lina after school but.. sigh! ncc shmncc.. bulls. ended up getting my stuffs with ol' salmiahh.

salmiah and i almost joined it media today(: hahhahahahah~ she wants to quit track or something. at first she was considering library.. and she made it sound like library is the coolest cca to join!! hahahahhaha..(:

but at around 3.30, we said bye bye to shahina, and we went to get my stuff. yeh. my stuff..

haha so secretive.. i just wanted to get this blank book la.. haha. hahahhaha. a little suspense there.. huh? no? whatever:p

salmiah borrowed my phone and went snap snap snap. hahahha.. she took her long nail. she took her shoes. and she took mine. and a lot more of herself. hahha.a so cute.

plus she's obsessed with powerpuff girls and she ain't shy about it!!!! hahahhahah.. she was going through this whole box of powerpuff files, choosing which she liked best. she even has a powerpuff pencil case!!! rock on, salmiah! hahahha.

when we got out, we were stopped by this.. cheena guy just a couple of years older than us.. about 17-18? and we thought we got caught or something(we did something illegal..).. then the guy held out this coupon thingie.. salmiah just went like.. whadda??

then i was like, "sorry gotta go.. byee!!!" i was about to drag salmiah away. then two three more guys approached us.. ooh companyy.....

they were like, just one minute onlyyy.. then salmiah was like, tired la.. then one cheena went like, "bedek.." that's like bluff in malay.

he is cute in a beng-ish kind of way. or maybe i find chinese guys with nice hair who speak malay slang very attractive. note: nice hair. so i do not mean jeremy. no offence. i meant someone like sly siim!!! when he went like, "gua rock, beb!!" sooo cute. hahah

slept in the bus.. niiice la.

i've got.. malay holiday assignment still not yet done. hahah. define holiday assignment. hahha.. :p

oh oh.. i think it was yesterday's entry..? i mentioned something about summie..? well, before he went off, i did kind of said to him, "oh bulls, ernest. i bore ya.." and then today....

confused,blured says:
heyz
not so little you and i, hm? (: says:
hiii
confused,blured says:
haha the other day right...
confused,blured says:
is not u bored me
confused,blured says:
is i so tired so i wanted to slee[
not so little you and i, hm? (: says:
haha i know
confused,blured says:
haha
confused,blured says:
who u noe when i didnt say it?
not so little you and i, hm? (: says:
so obvious..
not so little you and i, hm? (: says:
hahah
not so little you and i, hm? (: says:
i don't bore people..
not so little you and i, hm? (: says:
haha okie kidding..
not so little you and i, hm? (: says:
ur just too nice to admit i bore u
confused,blured says:
haha
confused,blured says:
really la
confused,blured says:
i really went to sleep
confused,blured says:
sunday is my sleeping day...

and we started talking.. it was all fun and games until i asked him what's with his nick. i just haaaaad to ask him and spoil everythiiiing!!!!! irgh.

then i think i pissed him off.. because he told me to shut up. indirectly. hahahhaha he was like, "you make me lose concentration on my show. see you in 16 mins."

hahhaa.. i won't be surprised if i don't 'see' him for the next 16 weeks or something.. hahhahhahahah.. i don't bore him, i piss him (off). hahah.. i rock. come on. say it(:


uncle aip asked if i wanted to go watch the finals indonesia versus singapore next sunday at the stadium.. i screamed hell yeh!

the last time i went to watch soccer liive was effing ages ago, baby.. anyway, i was draagged by my dad and i wasn't at all interested.

it was at night and i was scared because everyone there was screaming their heads off and it seemed like i was at the wrong place at the wrong time.. i hated dad for taking me there. momma hated him for sneaking me in there too.

my dad was always dragging me to weird places. there was once he took me to watch him jam with his friends. but that, i enjoyed.

explains my love for music(:

hans! hhie!(:
hannan! you're alive! hahaha. yeh, i've updated your link.

i think syak has lost a screw or something.. with the pages i've torn off the calender each day, she wanted to colour-in the characters...

hahah i like how she thinks. but, nah. i'm going to get her a barbie notebook where she can colour in her heart's content.

how do you tell your sister that you're fine with whatever she does and you're not going to judge her but support her all the way because you love her and so she doesn't have to hide things and keep everything to herself?

and even though maybe she likes it that way but i feel like as if it's my fault she thinks it's better that way. you get my drift!?

i may not look very approachable but what you see is not necessarily what you get, right?

please tell me if the words are too tiny for you.. i think it's tiny but i like it that it's tiny.

i bought new shooes. but it's like big.. i was like telling the whole universe that it's big. but it looked small in the shop!

of course i tried it. i tried 6. it's like tight! so i got a 7. it was okay. so i bought it, showed my gmum and she was like, it's big! and then i stared at it and.. it's big!

haha i'm crazy. i'm crazy and i have big shoes. hahahhaha..

what i need now is a bag. orange one, preferably. but before i get a bag, i need money. haha yeh.

summie chatted me up! (: but he was like, "how's the sec 1s?" and i was like, hel-lo? that's a new way of asking 'how are you'.

but i'm fine with it. really.. i didn't even beat myself up because he 'had to go' so soon and i realized actually i bored him. so i guess i am over him for good. hahaha. i thought absence makes the heart grow fonder?

i bore him. hahaha. oh no i've lost my wit. ooh.

saw daphne the other time. and i thought if there was a daphne, there should be an ethan. but no ethans in sight. good. because it was raining. the water soaked through my cap and my hair was all weirded out. not a sight.

shit happens and it may hurt no matter how you try. screw everything and everybody else, baby. it's okay to cry.


wahhahah.. early in the morning khor's already looking for trouble with me.

hello!
and it's a friday!
finally!!
hahahha.
i've been waiting for friday since monday.
seemed to be taking its bloody time.

moving on, ar.

lela ismail chemistry illiterate..
full stop.

i heard mrs j might be taking over miss k for chem.
pii ah!
i can hardly understand her bio class
and she wants to teach chem??

sciences are on to me.

just yesterday chan kept us all up till 3.
sigh!
but hey, at least for the first time, i got what he was teaching(:
but still..
150 solid minutes of pure physics crap is.. pure crap la.

then after that had to finish up my geog..
i waant miss tan lee choo!!
even miss khai said it's a pity she left.
mr koh was away for reservist and.. what the heck..??
i want proper lesson.
not finish-4-pages-of-geog-workbook marathon.

mr dennis goh is like super blur lorh..
he thought it was our recess immediately after his class.
and some of our boys really almost went for recess.
but in fact we were supposed to have english after that..

hahaha..
goh, goh.
nobody listens to him in class.
most of the time he doesn't make sense.
we all gave up on him long tiime ago.
we're bad.

figuratively speaking,
his teaching is like an animal suffering from some fatal disease.
it should be put to sleep asap.

hahahahhaha..
that's a new way of putting it, don't you thiink???
damn do i rock or what.

but even he deserves more credit than that...
i would like to thank him because he gives us something to bitch about when we're waiting for our bus(:

hahaha shiit.
i'm nastyy.
nah.
i'm just excited.
it's the weeekend!!

sriee had a baad tummyache during amaths.
if you think this should shut her up for good,
you're wrong(:
she was even noisier and lame-r than ever.

i'm hungry for more binomial theorem questions.

after school, instead of going home, nj, jocelyn, her friend and i went macs to have lunch.

oh anyway.
jocelyn is this new friend i made.
she's just super funny.
and she doesn't even have to try.
or crack a joke even..

her friend however, is a different type of funny.
haaaaaaaaahahaha.

jocelyn and i have one thing in common.
we love to irritate the fuck outtarf nj(:
that. is. so. nice.

hm. i'm shweepy.

my heart bleeds for those assholes who have to stay back till 4.30 today with mrs. v tan(:

lina did her brows.
oooh.
first she got a toe ring.
that's nothing, fine..
then she pierced her ears.
and then she threaded her brows.
without momma's consent or anything.

she's probably gonna have a tattoo written in japanese on her arm next week.
and then her belly button pierced.

but momma was frighteningly calm about her brows.
my gmum was a little.. out of control.

i pretended i didn't know anything.
ignorance, baby.
but does not mean i don't care.

gmum accused me of being 'a terrible sister'.
somewhat.
what the hell did i do?

what she does to her brows, ears, hair, etc,
is no concern of mine.
she could shave the whole thing for all i care(:
see how (silently) supportive i am?

can't blame her to want to look pretty, right?
a girl gotta do what a girl gotta do.

but between me and you,
i think she needs to do better than that.
hahahahahhahahha!!!!!

i am a terrible sister.
aren't you glad i'm not yours???


so for the first time since i don't know when.. i trim my nails. and i really mean trim.

not that all these while i hadn't! gosh.. i have a way in cutting my nails la.. yeh. and that way always gets me into trouble with mrs vivian tan. even though i cut them, it's still considered long. hm. go figure.

i wouldn't cut it if it weren't for my g(: i play better now!! i can play michelle's till i get over you. except for the chorus because my fingers aren't long enough to reach those frets!!!!!!!!!!!!

sucks to my fingers.

and my height. haha. hahahha. xinfang may look super innocent but she's mean! evil! i almost slapped her like valencia told me to.

val's on my side because she feels for me and can relate to me. if you know what i mean.. heh.

it was hard for me to be comfortable with my own fucking height. and when i did, most people out there are always so discriminating.

remember i mentioned about my life being a series of lost opportunities? today was another example.

saw arisa and she was like, "are you going home?"

i thought for about 3 seconds. "yeh why not?" i told her i was taking 163 and she was like, okie i'll take 163 with you.

that is why i just adore her. she's spontaneous. i would go like, hey i'm bored lets go zoo and she would be the first to tag along with me there. no questioning whatsoever. she so rocks.

..she so free ar? hahha.

now, this is where the 'lost opportunity' comes in..

remember that guy who stepped on my shoes the last time i took 163 to toa payoh? he was there with his friend. i was behind. waay behind so i couldn't step on his shoes.

not that i was planning to.

vanessa once said.. actually twice.. to 'go for it'. it here does not mean step on his shoes.. this is my last year. now or never. but did i 'go for it'? no.

i went to arisa's house instead. hahahahha.

i just didn't want to be in the same bus..

i called momma and told her i couldn't come fetch her.. (i was supposed to wait for her at the stop where he stops!! not that i note down where he drops off or anything.. i was in the same bus before and i wouldn't even recall where he drops off if i hadn't recorgize that that is the stop momma drops of to work! -out of breath-)

momma couldnt use the phone right for nuts! everytime i called her, she would take so long to answer. and usually pressed the wrong button, i assumed.

she was glad i couldn't make it because we were supposed to buy me a pair of shoes right after she finished her half day shift (all these should be done during hols before school but even my own mother procrastinates! haha..).

so.. i dropped off with arisa. out of the bus away from him and his feet that steps on shoes.

sorry i just can not and will not forget about that shoe incident.

i almost went to her house for real. but nahh. i had to reach home before momma or she would suspect i went somewhere else.. not that she cared much. in a good wayy!!

we bought drinks and chocolates from this mart and she accompanied me till my bus arrived. and not just any bus. but a decker 166 bus. hahha.

arisa is kind of like me. usually i'm the accompanyer. would be like, ill walk with you till your stop. now im the accompanyee.

haha. new words~

ahh. a lost opportunity.. but then at the same time, i just had to do what i did. he was with a friend anyway.

3rd day down and--ahh what the fudge. who's counting?? who reads anyway???

however shing, if you're reading this, here's a biiig faaat wet kiss from me to you. mmmmwahhhhhhh!!! ((: blogging keeps me saane.


2nd day of school was so much more relaxed..? hahahha. especially chemistry lesson.

miss khor was super cute today(: hannan almost made her roll on the floor laughing.

alright now do i get your attention?

nah. i don't think anybody reads anybody's blog anymore. beats me.

hey i'm cool with it. but they sure don't know what they are missing here!!! :p

i think i kind of pissed lina off? because we went out at the same time to school, and she didn't even breathe a word. she didn't even look at me. she didn't even want to walk with me.

i was left behind trying to be cool while carrying my dusty physics textbook(haven't opened it since first week of hols!!) and freshly wrapped amaths textbook(the plastic earlier on came off).

i am beginning to loathe tuesdays odd weeks. or odd weeks tuesdays. whatever.. i have all 3 sciences plus amaths. boohoo.

but guess what? there wasn't any biology because miss khai took over first period to complete some admin stuff.

yay don't have to see mrs j's face.
boohoo.. bio textbook may not be the heaviest, but it still contributes to the weight of my bag.

to the weight of my bag which is a little funny in colour and almost torn.

buy me a new bag((: oh and please.

haha couldn't find cikku majida's class. hahahaha.. hannan, eldwen, sriee wee and i were at the wrong class.

just because the door was open, we thought we were at the right class. but then a young chinese teacher got in, saw us outside the class and was like, you all sure don't look chinese!

see? we need syahira!!!!

eldds is.. closed down! ooh wahh oww. whyy!? i enjoyed el. we did absolutely nothing almost every week.

i need help with my malaaay!! ): i don't even know what's 'swimming' in malay is anymore!!

it was amaths after that. with mrs vivian tan!! yay! no more miss teo lee loo!! can finally pass amaths! can see hope!! ((: i can smell at least a b4. at least.

hey i'm always failing that fucking subject. so a b4 is really something!!!

chengz kept walking past the class(: and sriee and i happened to be at the row nearest the window and we would always go aaah-ooh-weee when we saw him(:

i think mrs v. tan is the only teacher who allows us to sit anywhere we bloody like(:

ooh sriee blurted out out of the blue that she misses syahira!! that, is something. sriee never misses anyone, or anything. at least she doesn't admit it. or show it even. the only thing you can tell by looking at her is pure sarcasm.

it was recess and then we had physics at the lab with ezzy chan.

why am i not glad to see him? he was soo full of crap, i'm telling you.. i mean, relax dude.. it's just a sitting arrangement in a frigging lab. don't have to be so dramatic, right?

hahha i love chan.

since syahira transfered and she no longer exists in the physics lab or the school even, i took her place in the lab. next bench was sriee! and beside me was dearest hannan.

when we found out we were going to be lab partners, we were like, heheh.. physics practical can never be the same..?

or so we thought.

i didn't realized that if i moved, everybody else would have to follow up. i mean, like duh, right?? but they didn't because they didn't realized.. ended up chengxi had no seats.

chan was like, 'eh? i thought one tranferred? should be left 40 what..'

we spent like almost 20 minutes figuring where it went wrong. when we did, nobody wanted to move. they were complaining and stuf..

and chan started crapping about us 'ruining his lateral arrangement' or something equally chan-nish.

so everybody gave in. hannan had to move up and i got my old lab partner back; reliable poh hong.

i pretened to be cool with it. but hannan was like, 'oh damn'. he really 'oh damn'ed! he should be counting his blessings he didn't end up with me. or he would be the one doing most of the work(:

as usual, chan introduction was super long-winded.. one period with him was enough to bore me to dust. what's going to happen this thursday? we have two solid period with him, man!

we didn't learn anything during social studies.. miss khai gave out worksheets and just talked to the class about some stuff.. i think she talked to us too much..

there are just some things you really shouldn't be telling us about other people, miss k. i mean, really. even if you want us to know for our benefits or something..

maybe that's one of the reasons why my cousin lily hates her guts? hm could be. must be.

guess what class is having humanities next to us during that time? hahah. no prizes for correct answers.

why am i so scared to look at him? not scared ar. just don't want to risk it. ooohh. it. what it?

confession time. i miss looking out for summiee and laughing. i miss bumping into shing. i miss.... i hate being sec4!!

i don't feel sec4. especially during recess. those sec3 boys who used to be almost as short--okie fine.. taller!--than me, are now serious taller than me. ..what i'm trying to say is, they bloody shot up!

yeh i know. puberty and stuff. but that's not the point, alright?

last period was chemistry with khor. 4e1 rocks la. haha. we took the longest route to the lab, taking our tiime(:

turned out lab was closed. and we had to go to khor's homeroom which is.. just not at the lab. haha duh.

khor arranged our seats according to our register number..kind of like social studies. so that means we are stuck with almost the same kids.. agaaain.

hannan was super noisy during her class. and i don't know why. suddenly he just couldn't shut his mouth..

there was once khor went like "what did i teach you during the last lesson?" and hannan the bitch said, "hm. not much." and when khor looked at him, he tried to hide behind poh hong.

and everytime khor said something, he would reply back with something witty.. and khor was trying her best not to laugh or smile even.

it was a change. haha really.. usually she was always frowning and all stern.. but today we simply rocked her socks.

just today. that is if she wore any. haha nah i doubt.

im terrified of looking at him(not talking about hannan here) but i can at his picture till i go sane. yeh you read that right. sane(:

2nd day of school down. many many many more to go.


if i hadn't dropped my phone from my decker bed,
i wouldn't jump down to retrieve it.
yes, understandable..

and if i hadn't jump down to get it back,
i wouldn't have noticed my gdad watching tv.

curious, i went out to check him out.

it was a couple of minutes past 11.

he was watching soccer.
myanmar versus singapore.

ooh how could i forget!?!?

i woke lina up..
(she has the hots for player number 8.)
and the both of us with our gdad sat in front of the tv, and, well, watched.

did alot of swearing we did.
ugly myanmar players.
and i don't mean their appearances..

we screamed when the lions got the ball.
we tend to mix up their names though...
but at least i know all their names and numbers!
not their phone numbers.
but jersey numbers. yeh.
and that was like my 2nd time actually watching soccer..
i'm good or what.

we cheered when the lions scored goals.
wot wot.
suddenly felt very patriotic(:
haha.

we were still awake at around 1,
talking very loudly
and disturbing the peace.
excited, i think.

"alam shah is so good."
"i like chuan tat goh."
"goh tat chuan la."
"same thing."

but when we heard our mother yelling from the other room to go to sleep,
we could tell she didn't share our rosy view of those awesome soccer players..

she reminded us we had school the next day
(actually it was already monday..)
and our high spirits were deflated like a balloon blown up to the point of bursting and then released round the room squeaking and shrieking until all that was left was a shrivelled scrap of rubber.

-out of breath-

first day of school was weird.
like i was in a dream.
a nightmare, more like.
of a neverending sleep.

haha.
i know i know.
shut up.

what's with the two timetables, dude?
and the new system going round...
classrooms belong to teachers now and we have to switch classrooms every period.

very confusing..
and wouldn't that cause some major jam among the classes?

haha yay!

still trying to get use to school.
gonna miss my late nights.
and even late mornings.
ouff.
bitch.

4e1 really thought syahira was absent from school..

the nice thing today was when sriee and i talked about those funny moments we had with syahira((:

instead of fetching cousin elly from the aiport,
i followed nana and aspho have lunch..
nana's treat.

it's her 16th birthday!!!(:

i could not face another pizza.
or lasagne..
or chicken.
i don't mind the mushroom soup(:

we were sooooo fucking full,
and i seriously mean full, that we
______________.
(fill in the blanks.
no prizes for correct answers.)

walked to borders.
i almost wanted to craaawl, i'm telling you.

bought nana her present.
a book she saw at first sight.
haha.
err.
like, love at first sight.
but this is book, instead of love.
oh. forget it.

walked somemore.
aspho bought her file.
then went home.

i bought momma her burger.
she and her burger-phase.
tsk tsk.

i went to this pet shop to get some cat food.
there was this cute little chihuahua some what guarding the door from inside.

so i was like, err..
i opened the door slightly,
thinking it would budge and shift to let me in.
it didn't. or wouldn't.

the shop owner from inside was beckoning me.
i pointed at the chihuahua and shook my head.
she shook hers, as if to say never mind it's okay it won't bite you scardy cat.

so i went in.
the chihuahua barely moved a muscle.
oh. goody.

then another dog appeared from behind those shelves of cans of food.
oh hello..
ohh make that two..
no, threee!!!!

bloody hell.
there's alot of dogs here..
i'm trapped and i smell of tuna (don't ask).
what's gonna happen to me?

one dog sniffed my shoe,
and made a run of his life(:

okie see, that wasn't so bad.

'run' there is a figure of speech.
hahaha.
but i bet he would, if he had proper human legs(:
that's how bad my shoes are.

i pretended to act cool, walking down the aisle, picking out catfood.
but i was racking like mad all over.

i paid and got the hell out of there.

then i thought.
so what if i smell of tuna?
dogs dont eat fish.
haha.
i laughed at myself all the way home.

first day of school down.
and many more more to go.


2005. oohh.
sure doesn't feel like 2005.

how do you feel 2005, anyway?

i haven't pack my school stuffs, yet.
in case you're wondering.
it's still early la, anyway.

saying that on the behalf of all procrastinators of the world(:

there's nothing to pack actually.
nothing to anticipate about in fact.
i'm talking about school here!!!!

daamn i used to be optimistic about depressing stuffs like school and exams.
and daaarn proud of it.
what's happening to me?

i think i lost my groove, baby.

this must be bad,
you must be thinking.
whatever 'this' is.

i don't have any resolutions.
i never had any..?
no serious ones.
resolutions are cliched.
not like i stick to them anyway.
haha.
it's a waste of time.

i guess this year i just wanna focus of studies.
to hell with potter guy.
or any other potter lookalikes.
hannan included (sorry dude..).
i really gotta stop talking to him so much..

cousin lili promised me an mp3 if i do well in my prelims.
correction: when i do well.
hahha.

ohhkayye that was somethinng......

i'm supposed to lose my groove!!
i must picture someone without any groovitude.
hmm.
oh yeh.
lina, my sister.

..
awhh come on!
even my situation is not thaat critical.

happy new year, guys.