rough day. hais.

met sriee at ang mo kio central. but kanna caught up in the rain. so i was at this bus stop, blowing bubble gum, and she was at the bus stop across mine. by the time i got there, it was about time and my face was covered with bits of gums. go figure.

caught up with norine, ken, they-all... watched the dance works thingie. then walked to the community centre to get the donation can and stickers. and then we were on our way.

but even before it all really started, i was already so tired and lethargic. it got so humid and hot after the rain and that didn't help at all.

we walked around toa payoh aimlessly. bought lots of lollies and chocos and junkies and all the small change, i put them into the donation can. ahah.

window shopped a little. hahahhaha. riight. we simply walked into buildings, shops etc with air-conditions and fans. hahha and music. was like, "hey i like this song!" and we walked in, grooved and walked out.

we were bored. ahha.

but saw my wedgiey!!! brightened up the gloomy day(: hahhahaha. but srieey didn't see her boogey. heyh.

nerr.. yea. hahhaha..

went popular. got some school stuffs. now i don't spend alot or often even. but when i do, i tend to go on a spending spree even on stuffs i don't really need.

then again, i miiight just need it in the future so why not cut to the chase?

went to the library to enjoy the air-condition.. slacked in a corner and talked and laughed and totally changed the atmosphere in the library(:

watched the dance works somemore. saw rahila dancing and grooving away on the stage, having a blast. was almost envious. almost wished i was up there with them haha. but ah wells.

i miss laughing at her chereographing. hahahha. and i miss complaining that she was going too fast and then making her all stressed up and having to re-chereograph over and over again.

shes probably delirious she doesn't have to work with people like me anymore. hahah.

we came across this guy standing outside shop and save and adults voluntarily got up to him and filled his can with change. i was like, damn it that guy is smaart!! his can's probably full!!

only then we realized, hey we forgot all about ours! it was in our bags all along and we just hung out and had fun till 1.30 before we got back to the community centre to return the.. might-as-well-be empty cans. we were on the verge of robbing that guy.

we practically crawled to macs, dying for some air-con and.. food. aahah. i didnt' have time for breakfast that morning so i was feeling so goddamned weak.

ate like little pigs(:

from where we were at sitting macs, we could see kids with cans crossing the road to the community centre to hand up their cans. we could see them weighing their friends' cans and probably going whoa you robbed the bank!?

roystonn and xianyao and a bunch of other kids walked into macs.. and gawdd.. xianyao looks different.. hes hott!! hahahahhahaha. sriee and i were like, dude did somebody switched off the air con!?!

we saw alvin in his home clothes with a trucker cap and we were like, O.O phweeeett! and then we laughed out loud going, no that cant be him. hahahhahahaha.

felt so much better.....(: walked to the stop to go home. we weren't alone.. weijie, lolenzo and couple more were there.. weijie enjoying ice cream.. happened to be *my* all tme favorite ice cream!!!!!

got home.. rested well. sneaked off with the pink cage with doughnut in it and chilled out at this windy spot, away from my naggy mother and her even naggier mother.....

don't know what the hell is wrong with them.. it's just a little cat not like it's a son i just gave birth to. and im just taking care of it temporarily, not like im going to keep it.

gmum was against me letting nana to keep the pink cage.... said she's probably not going to return it. i was like, pharq la.. stop thinking everybody is like that.

i kind of slammed the door behind me when i got out.

we hardly get into arguments, my family. but when we do right, usually over small stuffs, it gets real bad. we are a petty family. ahha.

so yea. hung out at this place.. just me and doughnut. haha. and a couple of old ladiiies. watched doughnut played with his bottle.. awwww so cute!!!(: he was probably thinking, "aik?? my sister turned into a bottle!?" haha.

took one last picture of him and then waited for nana to call before i headed for the stop.

finally she called and .. yea. nana was clearly excited. haha. but really, im gonna miss that feliine(:

instead of going home straight, i went somewhere else.hahhahah.. no i wasnt feeling like depressed or anything. hahahah.. just wanted to space out. yeaa. let my momma and her momma cool down..

browsed a couple of stores and then lastly went to this pet shop. i mentioned this place before.. where i got 'trapped' with 3 freaki dogs....

anyway yea. i wanted to check out how much a cage is. so.. i got in and this same black dog charged towards me. not really charge in full speed or anything.. but who cares?? it's big and it was barking and it didn't look like it liked me.

i was like O_O shit im gonna die momma i love youu even though you're such a bitch sometimes..... and please put my guitar in a save away from my sisters..

then i heard a voice going, "what do you want?" i turned around and saw this indian guy with lots of piercings. where the hell did he come from? probably because he is so black(except for the shiny stud on his brow), he camouflaged himself in the dark corner there.

so i asked how much is the cheapest cage..since i gave mine to nana, i need my own cage, well for my cats that is hahahha.. not me..

the guy was like, "hold on while i go check.." and he left me. he left me with his big black bad dog.. it barked some more and i hid behind this whole stack of cans of dog food. realized maybe that that wasn't really a good place, so i shifted to the other stack of cans of cat food instead and stayed there.

the longest 3 minutes of my life, i tell youu. suddenly i was just dying to get home. hahahahhaha. im such a scardy cat. haha.

took the bus home. haha yea, i wandered off that far.

nana kept calling me up every 15 minutes screaming, he's not drinking his milk!!!! tsk.. bugger off, nana. hes not drinking because hes not hungry!!

i wanna haircut..

rough day today. what a way to end a lovely week.. a lovely week of tests and.. more tests. ironic huh?

sigh! life's a wedgie.

wedgie.. reminds me of weijie. hahahhahahahhahha..

what? it sounds aliike!!! :p

doughnut/jayjay/ryan is sleeping((: aww.. like about tiime. he was shrieking his little lungs out for the past hour..

it's a kitten, by the way.. yeahh. his name's doughnut. while he was with asilaa. but nana wants to name him after her idol jay chou and ryan cabrera.

hahahha his little wet nose is like.. smacked against the box. soooo cute!! makes a damp spot on it. ehehhe..

i wish i can keep it..(: but i won't. because nana wants it(-prays hard- she had better!!). anyway ive got my king mackie already and i love him loads.. and yea. not forgetting anggun and baby z.

but he's just so cute!!!!!!!

aww.. hes like awake now and moving about the box.. oh oh!! he's curling up into a little ball and.. awwwww..... sigh((:

he's licking his paw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oooh im all liquified inside.. no guy on earth can make me feel like that.. like a little feline can(: ..gorgeous. ahah yea not even joel madden. not even ^my wedgie^.

ooooooohh.

cross country today. didn't run. ahha. regretting it lor. everybody seemed to be having a blast(ahha funny..). had IT duty anyway.

doughnut ar.. likes to sleep with his nose flat onto something. you get the picture!? ahha. doesn't it hurt!?!?

zhao han caame(: and alot more other ex-peirceans..

oh yea. there was fire drill during emaths.. 4e1 was probably the last class to arrive??? aaahhaha. if it were a real fire, we would be roasted.

you should have seen us.. and dennie. 2 minutes after the siren thingie, we were still in class trying to complete the last transformation question(: ^my wedgie^ especially. ehhe.

mrs sng was pissed off with the class.. "what class is this ar? laugh so much.. dennis, your class ar?" and dennie was like, "err.. miss khai's."

hahahahhahahhaha.

after school nana, qah and i had lunch at delifrance.. meya, nabLa and sriee had theirs at kfc. ahah. i got home at around 1.30 and ahhaha... i still had the time to turn on the computer and then played my guitar..(:

ahahah i think the run psyched sriee up or something. weird...... she was like all loud and perky and.. that weird pose. what's with that?!? hahahhah. and she kept going, "aaaahhah i smiled at him! aahaha!" so cute(:

umeya was exhilarated. ahhahah. she was like, "yay!! i beat winnie!!! she's like my source of motivation; i see her catching up behind me, i runn ar. yay!!" so cute(:

ahhaha.. ^my wedgie^ top 20 runners horh. hahhah.. aww. didn't get to see him get the trophy. i was stoning one cornerr.. im sucha lazyass.

have i mentioned that sriee was crazy today?

went over to asilaa's house to get doughnut.. the whole journey to her house i was like, is this the right thing to do??? i mean, i was risking my butt okiee.. maybe i should start from the beginning.

nana wants a kitten. asilaa has a kitten. make that two. nana seriously wants a kitten. nana not sure whether her parents want it too. asila's parents want the kittens out asap. lelaa is a sweet little girl with a kind heart. lela offers to bring home the kitten first. and then after nana gets permission from her parents, she will then come get the kitten from lela's house.

(: im so nice, it not funny.. it's weird.

i didn't tell my mother about this whole thing. that i was bringing home a little feline. temporarily.. and when i was on my way home with the box, i was like, shit what the hell did i put myself into!? mom will kill me!

which she almost did lor. thanks to my gmum!!!!! irgh. she can be a real pain in the neck most of the time.

asila's mother reckoned i should take a cab home. actually, she almost forced me. ahahahhaha. i was like, no its okie the bus is fine i love buses. but she was persistent and i was.. easily persisted.

but in the end i took the bus. ahahha. i love buses(:

it was sad separating doughnut from muffin(other kitten).. call me paranoid, but i wanted to cry. aahha. i almost brought home both..... but everytime i thought of it, my mother's horrific face appeared in my mind and her shrilly naggy voice echoed through my head. "you had better not, you hear me!?"

and i kindar lied to asila's mom, that momma loves cats. she does, really. but she just 'loves us more'. so she said.

in the bus with the box of doughnut(hahahhahahahhahahahhaha!!) was torture. he just wouldn't shut the hell up! his head came popping through the hole.

and get this.. the box is actually the freshmen elections voting box from school............. right smack in the front are the words: voting box. so yea. you can imagine the kind of confusion and bewilderment i stirred up among those passengers as i stepped up the bus.

the bus i took passed by the school. a couple of kids boarded the bus. and yea. this girl looked at me and the box.. i know what's going on through her head: "hey.. ive seen that box before...." -guffaws-.

i know.

doughnut started meowing really loudly.. zul and his other cute friend were like looking around going, "gee, what the hell is that!?" out loud. they turned around and saw me with the (voting) box.. they laughed.

they laughed!!! i was like, this is so not what im asking for....

zul peeped through the hole and he screamed lamely to his friend(actually to everyone in the bus), "it's a dinosaur!"

dude.. if it was a dinosaur, you'd be the first id feed it to...... look, i know this guy, awright? his elder brother is frigging gorgeous!

nerr yea as i was saying.. he asked

"you like cats ar?"
"hm mm."
"if id give you a million trillion cats, you wanna?"
O.o?
"i said if only.."
o.O!
"okie. what about two? would you keep them?"
"i say, bring it on." and my mother would say, go and die....
"sure ar. you said one ar. don't dump them into the drain at school ar.."
"...ha ha." the only thing i would dump now is youu and, well fine. your friend can stay(: ahaha make that your brother. ehehhe.

what the hell is wrong with me!?

i got home and everyone was like, "what's that!?" i told them: "a dinosaur." and they got pissed. they here meaning my grandpar.

i was too tired to explain to them the whole story. so i just shut up and went straight to the kitchen. i cleaned the box, prepared milk for doughnut (too diluted. ahahhahahahha.. i thuuuuck!!), and also rehearsed what to say when momma came back.

i just had my shower and was in my room.. momma came back...... and then i heard my gmum going, "your doting daughter brought home a cat. from who knows where...."

didn't get to see momma's reaction.... not that i was looking forward to it.

i dashed out of my room, still in my towel when momma started going berserk.

"3 cats not enough, huh, ar!?" and "you should have talked to us first!" and "who's gonna end up cleaning after it??"

definitely not you. you're hardly at home.

it's not fair lor. she wouldn't let me explain. so all i could do was just stand there looking half-nakedly dumb and stupid while she nag nag nag.

she thinks i was bullied into bringing the cat home. hello??? i did this to help a friend, okie? it was my idea. stupid idea, it seemed, but hey, ..it worked anyway.

heh. yupp. nana kindar called and said yes she is definitely getting the cat(: i am so happpyyyy.....((((:

so she's coming over to get doughnut after my cip tomorrow.. yea. cip. bor-ring. ahaha. but looking forward to it. ehehhe. hope to see ^my wedgie^. ahhahah. and probably catching constantine with sriee and ryan.

i hope to give away doughnut asap. dont' want to get too bonded because i know im going to give him away.

..actually, the more reason i should.

wanna hear something funny? ryan thinks i like xianyao!!? actually it's not funny lor. it was traumatizing to hear. for me, that is. becase it's not true..

ryan was like going, "let's say you were to marry him.. what would your name be?"
"nerr.. mrs han, i guess." and i was saying to myself, lelaa han.. hahahhahah. so doesn't have a ring to it lor.
"what about him?"
"well.. if he converts, which he must since he's gonna marry me, then he gets to change his chinese name to a malay name."
"like, saddam han?"
"nerr... yea. you get the picture.."

but it's not true lor.. -looks at nj-.

today was fine(: so was yesterday. this week has been supa fine in fact. well, so far. we've still got a thursday and a friday. yup.

but really, what can possibly go wrong?

oh. i know.

tests.

isn't that scary? as soon as i went, what can possibly go wrong? the next second i was like, tests....

amaths test was disastrous.. emaths too. at least physics was fine. uh huh i had 3 tests in a day.. killerr. i wanted to cry during amaths. i wanted to strangle dennie during emaths in a middle of constructing a locus.. without the proper instruments.

no wait. i wanted to strangle hannan, more like. still do. i wanna dislocate his other shoulder. he gets to miss 4 tests and that's preetie wikid if you ask me.

anywaysm. had health check. and free porn. hurhur. xinfang and j.chan damn gross lor. a disgrace to me.. we were from the same primary school.

browsed(and laughed out loud) through the yearbook. the first page i got to was.. shit, 1e1 '02. ahha. my class. ahah. brings back funky memoriiies(: .....

dicky and i getting punished by miss poon 2nd week of school.. just the second week, kay!?

(:just the 3 of us: nana(she was rosnah back then hahahhaha), atiqah(and her curls..-smiiiiles-) and me(..same old me, nothing's changed. heh..).

the staying back after school and chilling out at the library.... sitting at the parade square during recess and eating some.. biscuit bars thingies..(: we were so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyways yea.. hah. hm. ((((:

checked out ethan's! hahahhah.. damn. damn. ahaha. heh.

hais. cant imagine what he, vanessa, hans, all those waiting to get their results.. going through now. sigh! i can, actually. but you will never know how it really really really feels until it's your turn.

i feel so helpless. i know there's nothing i can do but i just wanna.. lighten their burden a wee bit.. you know? saying, "its okie.. you'll do fine" just doesn't seem approriate.

"im here, okie? if anything happens. ill come and play you a song" sounds equally absurb too.hahhahaha. actually, worst. but i think that kindar made him loosen up a bit.

asilaa surprised me with two kittens. i was like, ah! aaah!! kittens!! oooooh shoo cute! sriee was like, ohhh tidak.. i was, relax its just kittens.. then miss tan came and spoilt it all. she's always like that...

after recess was physics.. had test. ahha. not bad.. but the female teacher was.. i don't know who she was but i don't like her. ahahhaha. maybe it was our fault but hey, don't have to say we are dumb.

"can ya'll log in?" no response. "can ya'll log in?" still no response.. silence, in fact. just the soft clicks of the mouse. and then the teacher went like, "hello? is 4e1 dumb??!" norine(i think): "logging in la."

okie she didn't really call us dumb.. but she probably thought so(: every teacher thinks so.

got the class jersey too. no, it doesn't worth thirty-four bucks, no. hells no.. the colour's fine and all but the wordings kindar thuuuck. and yea, it's huge. i can never fit properly in it, even if id lived to a hundred. unless i shrink and am probably the size of a 5-year-old.

oh yea!! i was 109cm when i was primary 1!!! 109!! omigawd. beat that! hah!

it was an online test.. so i took the golden opportunity to check on my friendster. haven't done that for ages. wahha.

ethan wrote me a 'testicle'(as quoted from asilaa) and.. i was paranoid thinking he.. let's just say it's very misleading-ish. ahahha. then i realized, dang. it's from that song. duh..

after physics should be cme. but ezzy took over.. had physics instead. whoots. didn't turn out that bad anyways.. everyone was doing their own thing..... like moonwalking.

weijie and chengxi were like, on the far side of the room, trying to imitate usher/michael jackson.. i was minding my own business, copying off linus' when i noticed weijie 'walking' backwards.......

wahahhahahaha.. go figure.

dennie dropped by physics lab and the whole class was screaming, "gohh!!! 'ster goh!!!!!!!! postpone test!! gohhhh!!" but he was completely ignoring us!!! seriously!!!!! he turned his back on us!

don't turn your back on me. i wont be ignored!!

a-hole. ahahhahahahah.

had emaths test.. no hope lor.. then the malay workshop thingie.. waited for eldwen. he seemed in a hurry...... said he wanted to go to the canteen.. sriee and i were staring at each other going: "who's he kidding?"

the workshop was nice(: excuse the limited vocab. aaaahahah. but really. it was niice. i think it's the chocolates lor. aaahahhaha.

wham. the rest was a blurrrr..

check out hannan's blog, people.. damn hilarious. ahhaha. he's got a way of blogging i should try try some day. ehehhe.

"what goes around comes around. i believe that if youve been a good and kind person then the good things will come to you later eventually."

who buys that? anyone?

aaaahahah! i got my bubble-gums! finally! aaaaaaahahhaha.. heh. thanks, oreo t. can i call you oreo t? haha.

i was struggling with the gaseous exchange of man--okie fine, i was sleeping!!--when momma was like, "hey. there's something for you in the mail."

my eyes flashed. i would have jump up and down on my bed but then again, didn't want to make it look so suspicious.

inside i was screaming, aaah!! finally!! my b-gums!!!! since like when??? forever!?!??!

whistling, i got the package from her and tossed it aside like as if it's the most natural thing on earth. then my mother walked away, a little rushy than normal... then i noticed it. the package had already been opened.

hey.. this is called interfering with my privacy. no wonder she didn't asked me what was inside.

wheee bubble gums all the way from down under!! don't feel like eating(: feel like preserving it and putting it in a safe. aaaahahahhah. hey, i don't get these everyday okie..

school was peachy(:

time flies when you're having fun. one good example: during emaths with dennie. actually, no.. not with dennie. but with sriee and winnie.

and chengxi and poh hong.. hahahahha. instead of doing what dennie told them to do, they were playing tictactoe on the extra board teachers recently put up on every maths class.... and they used the broom as the duster to wipe the board......

lesson was sooo slacked and 'own time own target', that everyone was doing their own thing. winnie, sriee and i could even pass around sweets while dennie was trying to explain to us for the n-th time how to find shear factor.

confession: why i love 4e1. lots of eye candies. ehhe. every single one of us is so unique that it's hilarious. ..does that make sense?

chem, as usual, draggy as ever.. i was like, time had better fly. if not then run at least.. it did(:

had lunch at ph with the usual people... but salmia and nabLa went off first to get ice cream at macs. so it was just sriee, nj and i.

nj made me jealous by talking to shannon just now in the bus. i made her jealous by talking about 'angle xyz' and how he 'teased' me.

of course it was all a lie(: but she fell for it and i couldn't help but feel the rush of satisfaction.

im bad.

sriee got bored and started to play cook. ..she added sugar and tomato sauce to leftover curries and stirred them.. nj joined her, and started putting in whatever that she could lay her hands on. i was just lol-ing away.

then i noticed there was a camera right across us. still lol-ing, i pointed it out to sriee and nj. sriee was clearly horrified but nj had the guts to wave at the camera. sriee laughed so hard, i had to slam her head into the diluted curry to shut her up.

facing the camera, nj started babbling in tamil (it sounded like tamil but i bet it didn't mean anything) and adding more stuffs to our brand new recipe for curry as though she was in a cooking show on vasantham central.

sriee and i almost died there laughing. period.

for the finale, nj dipped her empty can of vanilla coke into the curry. sriee tried to put some into the can, but ended up making such a terrible mess. that was our cue.

we headed for 7eleven next. we picked out lots of snacks and lollies but ended up not buying them anyway..... we opened the fridge and checked out all the beers and stuffs..

what the hell were we thinking!??!?! high on curry, i guess.

tuesday: bio test.
wednesday: amaths test and malay workshop thingi.
thursday: chem and emaths test and awwa home(cip).
friday: x-country.

shucks..

we had a cruise to pulau semakau. the ideal answer to how it went: lots of fun yet educational and informative. the honest answer: tiring, exciting at first and draggy at the end.

waited so long for the frigging buses to arrive take us to the pier. we were already tired and lethargic even before it all started.

ahahah and then the buses finally arrived and our energy were all miraculously replenished. nana practically skipped her way to the bus(:

sriee brought along chocolate bars!! we took a huge risk eating them. winnie was in the seat just next to us. hahhaahahhaha..

we got thirsty after that. dang.

we reached the pier.. got onto the boat. it was cosier than i thought it would be((: and not that scary. i thought it would like.. rocked like crazy but no. it was pretty steady and the rocking was actually pretty calming... in a way..?

everyone was seated. but as soon as the boat started, everyone was up.

they got to the back of the boat and looked out.. because it was really windy it was nice. ahah. i was paranoid, thinking the boat might tipped over. ahahhaha.. that's why i stayed put....

sriee, novi, liling and ken went up to the 2nd storey of the boat.. yeaaa.. they came back down, their hair was all messy and sticking out in weird angles..

the journey to pulau semakau was really really long.... half the kids got bored and slept. ahahha it was interesting.. the positions and the posture....

chengxi and alvin's my favourite.. they had their heads on each other shoulders. how? they were sitting in such a way that their backs were facing each other... very comfortable. ahaha.

fiiiinally reached the island..

got up this bus which brought us around... that was the fun bit, i guess.. and we got out and roamed about. took pictures and more pictures....

its really pretty, how they made the island to be the way it is. ahha. doesn't look like a landfill at all. that is depending on where you are standing at on that island. ahhaha.

aww.. cindy plucked a little flower and gave it to me. she was like, "one flower for malay, one flower for chinese(herself). no more racial riots in the future, okay?" hahahahhahahahahhh~

our class guys damn lame lor. ahaha. played near the rocks and pretended to fall and drown into the sea.. or something equally childish. eheh. miss khai was not amused.

got back to the headquarters. watched a 20-minute video on the structuring of the pulau semakau landfill. ahahha. miss korh fell asleep!! ahhah!! now, we don't get to see this everyday, do we???

lost my G2 pen there. ahha. sriee was furious because the pen was hers initially. ahah shes funny.

got back to the boat.. joined nana, amir, farhan and miss khai. nana wanted to listen to the radio but we ended up sleeping.. actually, everyone of us did. amir was practically taking up the whole table, farhan had his head down, my leg was over nana's and nana was.. almost sliding off the chair.

i woke up to find my ex-chem teacher miss korh next to me, snoring a little. aaaaahahha. without the scowl, she looked different. almost nice. aahha(: drifted back to sleep.

and next i woke up all drenched. ahahha. really.. i don't know where the little splashes of water was coming from. i don't care. i ddidn't like it. ahah. i was in a middle of a dream, helluuuuu~

ahah yea.. still got time to dream(: aaahha.

i stayed awake the remaining journey. salmia texted and was bothering me with lots of.. unnecessary stuffs. ehehhehe..

got back to the pier. waited for the buses to take back to school. waited very very very long..

you know when you're bored, you do stupid things.. meya, nana, sriee and i started doing stupid things. ehehehhe. go figure.

and you know you're bored when you laugh at little things.. i happened to see weijie and chengxi trying to stab each other with rolled-up papers and i laughed myself silly.

how childish and damnably cute can boys get?(:

finally the bus arrived. our bus, at least. 4e5 had to wait a couple more minutes for theirs.. as soon as we got out from the sheltered building, it started to rain. hm mm. very appropriate a time.

everyone started rushing for miss korh's umbrella.. ahahahhahahha.. the smart ones headed for the bus stop. the stupid ones, didn't even move a muscle and stood there in the rain.

i dont' have to tell you who(:

the bus that took us back was disgusting. irgh. im talking about dirty.. but the journey was niice(: because it rained all the way. chilly.. i liike.

i have a phobia taking off my shoes anywhere with my classmates around now.. ever since xinfang's got mysteriously stolen that day.............. haha.

got back to school. was still raiining!!! so nana decided we went straight home instead of having lunch at prata house. sriee and i went macs instead. ahahaaahhaha.

summie days may be over. but it should be a sin to forget your friend's birthday. so yea. happy 17th, ernest.

was fun!! (: the beginning and the middle, at least. the end was kindar sucky because we got very tired walking around and pretending to understand the stuffs those guys were saying. hahah.. the campus is like huge. enough said.

the beginning was really exciting.. haha. we got a supa cute GL. hhhahahhahah. but anyway yea. hahha. he introduced to us the diploma of info technology.....

sriee and i were pretty much not paying attention. hahha. excited, you see.. hah yea. and then this girl got up to us and looked at us.. as in Looked. ..i don't think either of us looked any tastier than mouldy bread so what gives?

and the girl went like, "hii!" and sriee went like "hi!" equally enthusiastically. but clearly fakely. ......but that didn't stopped the girl from telling us more about the course she is taking...

i thought IT would be boring.. but it turned out to be kindar cool. especially this course the girl's talking about. "what we do? we create games and we play them." i was wowed.

the class was already moving on and i was still playing.

we got to diploma of applied science.. haha. bor-ring. hahah. no offence(:

then another GL took over.. the class (girls) were like, aww.... hahahahha. but i don't mind the 2nd GL. he's kindar awright if you look at him from a different angle. ahhahahahaha.

shiit, lelaa, what's with youu!?

he took us to diploma of business. about tiiiiiime! hah!!

im so interested in hospitality and tourism(: and the skit those cool guys put up was really awesome. laugh-out-loud.. you should have heard justin cheong. he was lol-ing his balls off.

very bad usage of words, lelaa. very bad.

there was this guy who was mixing drinks and stuff.. mr bartender.. haha. he prepared like 6 glasses of drinks and we had to share it around.. (eldwen went off with two..)

cindy ang was like really sweet lor(: she knows muslims can't share drinks with those from other races. so she let sriee and i took a sip first. she was like going, "malay(she calls sriee and i or any malays, well, malays.. hahah)! malay! you drink first.."

very thoughtful of her(: she was lucky i didn't really like the drink or else i would have run off with it and she would regret doing what she did for me the rest of her life..

what am i saying!?

2nd GL let us roam free and gave us firm intructions to be back in 15 minutes ......what the? 2nd GL was oblivious to whom he was talking to. i could only chuckle silently at one corner.

law and management.. kindar awriight(:

after 20 minutes, 2nd GL approached sriee and i and asked, "where's the rest?" haha do we look like we know.. or care even?

initially there were around 20-25 of us. after 40 minutes, it was just 10 left. including me. 2nd GL was like swearing but formally. haha. if you get what im saying.

while waiting for them, us girls and 2nd GL had a little chitchat. really you know, if you look at him from this particular angle, he almost look likethe shorter version of julian hee.

turned out the rest either lost their way, or other GLs had them 'hostage'. ha ha ha ha ha ha ha. then it was instant pandemonium.

everything got totally boring and draggy after that. especially when the 3rd GL took over and brought us to the school of engineering. and it was a she. haaais.

hahahahha.

norine, novi, liling, ken, yuwen, sriee and i decided to sneak off in a middle of the 'tour'. haha. then we had lunch at tampines mall, and just chilled out there.

we were at this perfume shop..... we went home smelling like marshmellows.

the journey back home from tampines to ang mo kio was a killer.. irgh. i couldn't feel my butt!!!! .......meaning, my butt was all numb for sitting for almost an hour.

i reached home around 7.30. by that time, momma had already gone to work..

very very exhausted......

aight. cant blog anymore.. noratiah's like.. bugging me to cepat-cepat. pfft. heh.

im gay..! -cartwheels-

splitting migraine.. and everywhere everything hurts. how the pharq am i gonna study in such state!?

hate blogging about insecurities and other stuffs that bothers me now. it kindar displays my vulnerability and thats not something id wanna do very often.. at all, for that matter.

pushing everything to the back of my head now.... push and shove, push and shove.

irgh!! mean people suck!!!

right. now that's out of my system... let's move on.

lina is making irritating noises and its driving me crazy. id love to harm her..

mac's drinking off my milo.

took a super long route home.. i arrived home 90 minutes later. wahah. i love buses(: but the bus i took didn't stop at my stop like i thought it would.. it kindar turned the other way and i had to walk quite a distance home.. im not complaining(: i love walking.

when there's no one else, listen to the voice within. what crap.. i almost exploded doing just that. so i turned to my one and only..(: i didn't tell him anything(we talked about other thingies), and he didn't try to squeeze it out of me. i was surprised. how many people actually respect your decision or how you wanna do stuffs?

they keep saying, you gotta accept them for who they are.. well, what if we can't? what's gonna happen then?

if you keep saying, 'that's the way i am.. i cant change that. love me or hate me i don't give a damn', then you're wrong, man.. i believe we got to and we can change ourselves for the better. you may find there's nothing wrong with yourself but others think otherwise.

and yea. let's get real, awright? what others think of you matters.

im just saying, aight?

today was soo tiring. -cries-. not like we did anything that requires such crazy amount of energy.. but it just seemed. tiredness recognizes no boundaries. ..

what the hell were those prefects standing along the pathway like that?? it was freaki.. it was like as if they were gonna pounce on me any second.... id rather have the p. haha right. id rather have meishie going, 'lelaa! morniiing!!' even though i know she knows im running late.

bio was first period and i was dreading it big time. i dread everything that has to do with the thingies in our body.. dude, as long as it works just fine, im happy.. but it didn't turn out that bad. mrs jeya's laptop kindar let her down a wee bit(: heh. i can get used to this, you know?

i managed to complete my malay letter writing during bio!!! which was due almost 2 weeks ago.. but the thing was, ive completed it and im happy with my work and i can't wait to hand it up(regardless to what cikku will say to me..). this is a big thing. i mean, i started it from scratch you know, and i managed to finish it on time! without being caught by jeya! she probably thought i was taking down notes(:

turned out cikku wasn't around.. pfft.. but im glad i finished it(: because like linus once said, gravity in school is not the same as the gravity at home. it's a torture picking up the pen and writing when you're in your room surrounded by your favourite things :p

cikku rahim dropped by during our malay period.. everybody misses him(: especially dicky. hahahahhaha.. you can just see it in his face!! and he was the first to laugh when cikku r cracked his infamous jokes..((: i think he was the only? hahha.

went off for amaths. i was looking forward to seeing mrs. v tan (HAhA). nahh. suddenly i had the amaths-y feeling(: sriee and i got to the class and saw miss korh. and we jumped down. from reaction from hannan and eldwen. make that the whole class?

so many questions going through our head. "korh teaches amaths too?" "miss tan in malaysia?" "uhm i don't think so." "so we having chem now instead!?" "hope not! i want miss tan!!!" "okay that sounds gay." "omigosh, you're right."

turned out miss k's just substituting.. (?) it didn't turn out that bad anyways(: i swear our beloved chem teacher has some sort of a split personality((: hahah. one minute she looked like she wanted to set us on fire. and the next, she was getting along well with us..

it's the same with us actually(: one minute we love her. the next we loathe her. probably this love hate thing doing on because of that moment she told us she aint' teaching us anymore and leaving chem to mrs jeya.

korh compliments on guys' handwritings. how weird is that? she hates alan's. she worships hannan's. she was like leaning against the desk and gazing up at hannan's (when she got him to do a sum on the board) and going like, "very neat. for a boy.." she was all smiles and i was like, "oh hoh. i think she likes you, hannan."

someone is just born smartasses and geniuses in amaths.. unfair? pretty much. hannan got stuck with this tricky question, even korh had trouble solving.. turned out she gave us the wrong questions to practise. we hadn't been taught it yet but hannan handled it pretty coolly and yea. he got the right answer in the end. hang on. i should get a little credit. he wouldn't be able to do it eventually if not for my calculator... (ha ha.)

after recess, went to homeroom for some total defence thngie.... had to draw some sort of a logo. my group started off all wrong. but in the end, our logo rocks. hahhaha. ryan gave me rough ideas, i made it real, alvin and wilson made it real *bad* but i managed to cover it up. for the finale, alvin displayed his drawing abilities during the last 2 minutes and sha-zam. lovely. kindar.

after the presentation in the hall, and the.. eating session thingie.. in the canteen, we had to go off for chem.. supposed to assemble in the parade square first. it was a little chaotic and the weather was just crazy. 4e1 refused to be part of it.

so we sardinely and defiantly walked inwards in front of the office.. in the shade(: while the rest was under the sun. ooh yea. miss noor got pissed off.. haha. way to go, we guys. pfft. talk about selfish pleasure.

jeyaa was late for 15 minutes.. dismissed us 15 minutes laterr.. pitied meya and nana who had to wait for us since 1.30pm. ahwells..

had lunch at ph. ate as little as i could though i was starving.. its awright. its gonna pay off, baby. it is!! haha.

as soon as i got home, i jumped on bed(lina's.. mine's a little tricky to jump on) and slept till like 7.

awriiiighty...

i managed to find my pick which disappeared into the hole of the guitar so freaking long ago.. ahaha. you have noo idea how delirious i was after that.

i was dreading school for some reason i just couldn't put my fingers on. ha ha. who am i kidding?? i can give you a thousand and one!! one of them being its a monday and another because i was so so so tired after yesterday...

i was over my cousin's house, baking cookies. i was there the whole freaken day, watching their cable tv and.. the oven. didn't want my cookies to over cooked, you see. but in the end they did anyway. hurhur.

all thanks to good charlotte!!!! was watching their i just wanna live music video and forgot all about the cookies in the oven.. they came out as hard as a rock.

i called momma to tell her i would be super late. she was like "fine whatever makes you happy" and i knew she meant the otherwise.. "you miss me!" i was screaming. and she was in denial. said she was off to work soon.

then i realized.. it was a sunday. she doesn't work on sundays. but she hung up before i could say anything. added that she was kindar 'late' and i 'should get home now because gmum hates to be alone'.

so i hurried.. and an hour later i called home to check out on my gmum who i thought would be all alone. and guess who answered. my beloved mother.

"what are you doing home!? you're supposed to go work. so you said."
"i am at work. like i said."
"ha ha ha ha. like this is our home number lor."
"i brought along the home phone lorrr."

she is unbelievable, my mother. she tasted my cookies, just micro bits, said it was nice and she tossed the remaining away. yes it sucked. that's why i didn't bring it today and share it with anyone.. except sriee during emaths. hahahaha. because she can't bake for nuts and she makes me feel like im gifted. hahhahahah.

ahhh valentine's day((: happy v day you guys!! tabii gave me a pinkk rose(: and most of my friends gave sweets and chocolates, which i would prefer anytime anyday. you cant eat roses.

after emaths, we were supposed to have chem remedial with jeya.. but she cancelled it because she was confused. im not kidding. she was like totally confused, you know what i mean?? it was so nice(:

i was dying to go home because i need my well-deserved sleep. well deprived more like.. but ended up going hmv with qah and nana. no, i didn't think it was a valentine thing. it was pretty unplanned actually. but i like spontaneity(:

im such a 'two timer'. tsk tsk. don't hate me(: was texting ernest and ethan in the bus on the way to town. sorry not on the way. more like *all* the way.

im kidding about the two timing thing.. haha. ethan is valentine-less and working his ass off as i speak. ernest's probably all psyched up for his date tonight(: aww. hes definitely more than just a gay-ass faygit.

no i wasnt even a teeny weeny jealous or heartbroken. i felt so neutral, baby. i was although, surprised he's got a date.(:

that was the first time i didnt get all excited when i was at hmv. usually i would be like checking out every cool cds and praying i had enough cash by the end of the month to get them. correction: to get the whole hmv store.

all i did there today was walked up and down the aisle, probably the same one.. my mind was preoccupied.. heh. hehe. hehehehhe. i was practically flushing bright red!(: [hm go figure.]

after that, we had lunch at long john's. then nana was like, "exactly one year ago on v day we took neos!" and we got all excited only i didn't show it much because im all cool. right. because im all into saving money and stuff. turned out i didn't have to spare a single bloody cent.

i felt bad. for a while there. but hahahhahahahahaha. (: maybe next time i will contribute a buck or two((:

took the bus home. i love buses(:

i was in this single deck bus and suddenly i was just reminded by that day.. that particular day i vowed to.. 'move on'.

21 april 200
guess who boarded the bus and stood next to me. my mood changed. ud feel the same if ur standing next to the guy u fancy, and knowing very well u can nvr haf him. not tat i wanna. hAha!

did i tell u e driver suck? like he was unhappy so he was driving the bus like crazy and was venting his anger on us, the passengers, who were gripping for dear lives.

the bus stopped and i was swayyed to the right. nooo! swayed too gentle. i was thrown! i was tossed! i din wanna end up on top of him. tempted but no. tatll b too awkward. but my grip was powderful. my arm brushed against his tho. i kindar apologized but wasn sure if he heard it.. i wasn lookin at him and i had b2k blastin in my stereo.

he could claim and he play games
but i bet he couldn't hang (not with me)
ooo hes a tease ooo
hes b acting like he dont
but i know he really wanna (get with me)
ooo hes a tease ooo

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ahh. and now hes back. ethan ethan. hahaha. he's still a tease(:! and a bugggerr..

i like it that he's into michelle branch like i do (its rare for a guy to listen to mb.. its sucha turn-on. laughs uncoolly-.) bet he knows the words to her song by heart. i also like it that he takes such an interest on my (limited) guitar skills. thing is he's been bugging me to sing and play one song for him ever since.

usually i don't entertain such requests. so either i change the subject or i change the subject. haha. im like shy! simple as that! haha. the only people who ever hear me sing are my sisters. and they loathe it. hahaha.

next time, ethan. maybe next time.

i look at our neos and i laugh out loud. err. me, nana and qah, that is. not me and ethan. haha gotcha. anyways yea. it was so long ago since we last took one together just the three of us. it was almost nice. almost. qah just had to spoil it all(:

think maybe i might developed a little interest on mcr(: screamo rocks.

i dont listen to malay songs that much.. okie, i dont listen at all.. ha. ha. but when im hooked to one, i'll make it my anthem and listen to it 24/7.

im talking about this indon band called peterpan.. not disney peterpan no. that was what i thought initially too. was like, "what this world becoming to? what weird names for bands. failed act la.. heartache asylum la.. hahahhaha.. -looks at supraman-."

but whats really important are the songs, right? haha. and the voice of the vocalist. heh. and i thought the sexiest voice then is joel madden's..

suddenly im reminded why i used to want an indonesian boyfriend..

i love the song so much i made an english version of it. and its entitled 'maybe next time'. the chords are damn chicken dodol lor.

maybe just next time
if we will ever meet again
dont come around asking for another chance
my feelings that i left behind
were feelings i once had for you
they died and they aint coming back
no use thinking about it
just keep everything to yourself
the emotions thats inside
and the feelings that you feel
keep you to yourself

anyways. guess what time i slept last night. 4 in the morning, yo! and i woke up at 6.. just 2 hours but it seemed like the longest 2 hours of my life.....

-ponders-.

you wanna know something funny? funny here meaning extraordinary. extraordinary and disturbing.. (hahha familiar phrase..)

okie the funny thing: the later i wake up, the earlier i got to school.. ooh yeh. scream!! hahaha. i was early to school though i woke up half an hour later than usual(: have you ever realize, the closer you are to school, the later you reach. i do, at least.

sriee was absent on tuesday too! wahh! .. riiiiight(:

we gave our letter of absence to miss khai and she gave us this ooh-so-hot look that could help global warming in melting the icebergs in antarctica(yes, been watching that movie too many times).

sriee and i: "oohmigosh. she thinks we planned it! now that is funny." sometimes i think she hates us. hahah. no la. not hate. don't like. hahahha. don't blame her(: we're not typical ideal students teachers wish they can have(:

keep on wishing.

anyway like as if momma would allow me to skip school. big pfft.

oh yeh. i got her to sign this form for cross country.. i ticked the box which stated that 'i won't be participating'. so momma believed. she was like, "you're sucha lazy bum, im so maloo-ed."

i pointed out the form was meant for the parents... "unless you wanna participate and run with us, then why not? be my guest and tick the box right there.. there," i said, so cold. colder than the ice in the--..yeh. you get the picture.

anywaysm. i wasn't the only one early. nabLa and salmia were too. it was scary.. for that moment i thought i late again..

nabLa and i share the same passion for good charlotte!!! i was shocked. not sure how we got to the topic of joel madden but we did. as supraman once said: the flo is an unpredictable thing........(:... but yeh. we were talking very excitedly, we looked weird. haha.

i miss good charlotte already!!

losing hope in emaths.. sighhhh. geograhy too.. ive been focusing too much on sciences, i forgot about my humanitiiies.. i need miss tan lee choo! or just ethan. ehhe. well he said he would tutor! but on 'one condition'.. dont wanna say it here.. shyy. -_-

bleargh whatever. i should know better than to trust guys. tsk. but hes not just any guy lor!

lelaa suckerrr.. haha.

-dazed-

watched day after tomorrow during geography. the reaon why i was all so.. geographically-ish. haha whaadda.. anyways. though ive watched it so many times, it still makes me feel antsy.. and jake g still makes me all jittery inside too(:

okie. you know, i think i bore people.. well certain people, at least. that kind of suck. because it sends the wrong impression of me. and im always having problem with that.

when i don't speak, people say im boring. but when i do speak, they say im irritating. so. what gives? probably that's why i dont really have many friends.

as in Friends friends. who can tolerate me. as in Me. Lela Ismail me. not lelaaa/lelaa/shawty/hot-ass(haha.. joke)/.. what have you.

im having butterflies in my stomach for some reason.. ooh freaki. weird. haha. this my cue! (: laterr.

noratiahh. hope you'll be better soon awriiights. im still your punching bag, remember!? -punch punch-. haha. and erm.. im still waiting for those b-gums.

some holidays. pfft. so many stuffs to do.. and not related to any relaxation of any sort! you know what i mean.

momma wants to watch constantine but i don't. id love to but i can't. i was telling her, "my os, momm, my os!!"

haha yes. im so proud of myself! i was. 3 seconds after those words came flying outtarf my mouth and went smack in her face. and then now im regretting it..

lelaa..keannu reeves, hello!?!?

but what the hell.(: ive been (trying to) do plenty of preparations. i guess..? how do i do it!? how do i pull myself into doing it!? its a beautiful wednesday.. its the hols for crying out loud. what am i doing!?

like me, you gotta have discipline and.. conscience. haha.

hannan: "you have them? how much did you get them for?" me: "its all in me. seriously. wayyy in me." hannan: "but mine's in the closet. its dusty in there. wouldn't wanna go there."

usually im only so hardworking when my relatives are around, especially my aunts. spefically my uncles' wives. haha yehh. with them around im like the perfect little niece/daughter/..thing.

but now i couldn't be stuffed(:

right now im ignoring my conscience and putting myself on the no-such-thing-called-discipline mode. the best time of my life(:

lol darren is flirting on radio!! "im picturing you all sexy slapping on sun tan lotion.." or something equally 'flattering'. i wonder how he looks like..? hahhaha.

my aunt mistook my ignorance for confidence..... i was watching the tv on the sofa and she came and sat next to me.

nosy aunt: "prepared [for o's] already?" annoyed me: "preparing." bloody nosy aunt: "wahh so confident." bloody annoyed me: "ha ha ha. no la. where got confident.. like that only lor."

nosy aunt, obviously chose to think i was just being modest: "my son's probably practising his maths now as we speak. looking at him makes me want to cry.. hes no time to watch tv!"

note the mockery in her voice. okie. imagine the mockery in her voice. and the annoyance bubbling inside me. i wished i could mute her with the remote.

being the morning person that i am, i

woke up at 6 today.. showerr.. and made myself coffee(caffeine is my best friend), spread my books out on the floor, turned on the radio, turned off my phone(no time for distractions!), and then started reading disgustingly-vandalised-bullcrap-infested bio textbook.

actually i don't know when's when. or what's what...... i think its

i woke up at 6..shower .. turned on the radio, spread books out on the floor, stared at the books, i turned off my phone awriight, well, to recharge it... then started reading bio. 2 minutes later, got bored and made myself coffee, toast, and cornflakes (im a small kid with a big appetite).

hey, im not supergirl, you know.

remember how i said discipline and conscience are all in you? just gotta let them out and give them a chance(: i let them do their thing at about 10 in the morning.. and i really did revise.

aerobic respiration is the breakdown of good substances with the release of water and energy..? glucose + oxygen = carbon dioxide + water + energy.

or something. hahhaha. okie so i forgot!!!! bio has never been my forte anyway(: doesn't every sciences, hm!??! hahaha.

happy lunar new year and happy holidays(:


im like, oh yeh valentine's day!! totally forgot. serious! tsk. but then ar. somehow. this year, i dont feel the.. you know.. the Feeling. feeling Feeling.

Feeling's just not there.

im like all mixed up. do i like him for who he is, or just because hes single and available all over again? thats like supa Wrong....

having baad stomachache. must have been the chicken briyani.

salmia was trying to send me her number via infrared. so i stood by and watched her trying to figure out, and after 30 seconds, i was like, 'if you had just given me your number verbally, we would all be home by now.'

saw louis and roy's undies. the hell.. they changed right in the middle of the field, just wheen we were heading out.. ooh no not something i would wanna replay over and over again in my head, no.

someone get them new underwears! even my gdad's are like, so much sexier.

the image of louis' butt will be engraved forever in my head till the day i die. why louis, why!? why youuuuu..

aherm.

im outta here.


b.e.a.u.tiful sunday morning, don't you think? ((: nothing beats listening to mooney suzuki on a cheery crazy day like this..

wokie yeh. so its a little humid and warm.. but, hey, who's complaining??? ... besides everybody?

i am aliive and amplifiied!!!
turn me up and turn me up and turn me up~
i am aliive!
aaahh!!
aaaahhh!!!
aaaahhhhhh!!

hahah i love the screaming part. those people seem like they're having lots of fun. grin!

my uncle wants me to become a doctor.. im like, hahahahhaha--burp excuse me alhamdulillah--hahahahah! (we were having breakfast, you see.. and i kind of burped right in his face..)

but i want to be a writer. well. not necessarily writer author. basically just anyone who writes. a columnist maybe.. a scriptwriter.. a songwriter.. id write a manual even(:

i asked my momma what she wants me to be.. she said 'whatever that makes me happy'. so when i suggested writing, she said unless i 'find myself a rich husband, then i can just forget about it'.

hm very supportive.

momma loves the sixpence none the richer(?) song.. if im not mistaken, its from this jewellery ad.. everytime that shows on tv, she'll try to sing along. "there she goes.. there she goes agaaain.."

there. the song says it all(:


chemistry practical was awriight i guess. boring but awriight. ive already done those frigging experiments with mrs j. and now i was switched to miss khor's, and she wanted us to do that same experiment.. so instead of mixing chemicals and observing the reaction, i was copying weijie's answers on the previous experiment, which i was supposed to be doing with mrs j but because i was switched to miss khor's due to some complications i don't think i should tell you about because like, this is really really going nowhere and i really don't know where or when it's going to stop.

haha it stopped.

thank gawd for weijie.. new chemistry lab partner(:

he's like daamn cute lorh. hahahha. and so farghing innocent..... i already did the experiments, i knew the answers. i told him i did the experiments and mrs jeya even marked them.. but he still chose not to copy from me. not that i asked him if he wanted to, but he should know right? i knew i did! now i had anwers and i didn't even have to touch a single chemical(:

im writing alot today(: the excitement la. new kayboard and.. weekend is near!!!!!!!

wj's handwritting kinda like.. sucked? hahha. there was this word i couldn't read and i went like, "what the hell is this supposed to mean?" and wished i hadn't said that because it wasnt very ladylike of me. but what the heck(: i enjoyed the look on his face as he tried to figure out his own handwriting.

"dropwise until in excess," he said, and laughed a little. aww. shy.. hahha. i like that.

shhh.t.

emaths. then english.. crappa. testimonial for yourself? so you got to boast and brag and open up the ego shit in you. i wrote, 'lela is a pleasant student, a bundle of joy, fun and laughter. courteous and is always the first to lend a helping hand.'

mrs o said modesty won't work, you see so i gave her lies. haha.

joke(: i think.

i bring laughter. i don't know about joy and fun. hahha. my idea of fun is sleeping(: and joy is the last few minutes of the last period on a friday.

the rest of the day was a blur.

talk about blur. ethan and i have the same display pic!! oohmagawd! hahahaha. a blurry picture with the words "masturbation causes blindness." sweet. LOL. right, sweet. funny way of putting it. hahaha.

lina sucks!! irgh. she went off to her camp, leaving the room in a freaken mess! and she had my orange bottle the one umeya gave me, and my orangey reebok cap. without my permissionnnn.. and there is nothing she left behind that is considered useful..... what, she's away in camp, or she's running away from home?

the latter one, i hope(: hehhe. naughty naughty.....

momma's back from macs.. gots to go. byyye.


hahhaahhahaahha new keyboard!!!!! ((: sooo cool. jocelyn cant tease me now. muahahhahha. that idiot.. irghhh.

at first it was the exclamation mark.. that sucks, okie. it makes all my words sound smooth, even though i was like raging mad. but my caps lock was working and jocelyn went like, "wouldnt it be nice if that didn't work too?" and i called her a bastard. and she said, "and vulgarities too. oh wait. that would make the whole keyboard wouldn't it?"

she so damn irritating lorh!! hahahhaa.. and early in school the next day, she was practically the first person i saw.

anyways. haha. whateverrrr!! c(:

first period was malay.. hahah. cikku has a blog. muahaha. actually it's really for us la. to improve our malay language.

oh by the way!! i think i improved mine this year! serious! ive got like the highest for this recent test. i was like super shocked okie. me?? highest? i beat nana, umeya.. i beat akmal! i was like telling cikku, "there must have been a mistake some where." and cikku said, "maybe." she said maybe!!! she too was as surprised as i was! oohmagawd.

that is not a good sign.. hmms.

cikku wanted to know our blog addies. for those who have blogs. ahaha. the hell i was gonna.. its too weird(: i dont mind not knowing who reads my blog. i can live with that..

amaths afterr thaaat. so funn(: i love differentiation. but miss tan was being unreasonable with us. she couldn't move on with her lesson because it took her almost half the period explaining to us one sum and she was pretty pissed off and she kind of.. pushed the blame on us. said we were noisy.

hey, we have been noisy since day one..

forgive us for being 4e1(:

english.. wasted plenty of tiime. haha. computer aint working. lovely.. and i was in a daze during the period.. just stared blankly ahead... stoned..... havent done that for quite a while(:

recess.. accompanied sriee to see miss tan. didn't know it would take the whole recess. stomach growling the whole of geography.. baaaaaad.

two period of physics after that.. i almost cried. so bored!!

usual thing, before lesson started, chan gave us a short break.. i didn't want to leave the lab because i just might find myself grabbing my bag and made the hell out of there.....

and it was like, i was the only one in the lab.. with -hiiiim-!!! i only realized he was actually closer than i thought!!!!

sriee had to spoil it.. she was yelling for me and chan was like, 0_0.. hahahhahha. all the teachers thought sriee's like the quiet type and stuff.. so. yeh. looks can be deceiving.

physics wasnt that boring la. chan started telling stories about this lecturer of his back in uni. it was hilarious lorh. not that i was listening.. heh. was texting nana..((: but yeh. the whole class was roaring with laughter so it should be funny.

poh hong's like.. he has the bestest sense of humour one can ever have.. hahhahaha. every little silly thing chan does, i will always hear him sniggering to himself..(: and he has this pen with Friskies on it. LOL. talk about cute(:

last 20 minutes of phyics was fuun. hahha. chan pretended to be 'good' and poked linus with his long ruler when linus showed his finger at xingwai(: i was like, come on ezzy chan.. like you wouldn't do something like thaaat. bet if he were linus, he would show both fingers(:

fiiiiiinally we were dismisssed(:

-he- so cuute!!!

okie that came out of nowhere.

chilled with nana outside kaino lab for a while.. then with atiqah who was doing her bio test outside the staff room.. sriee went off to do her dreaded chem test already.

hannan was downstairs at the atrium with eldwen. and i was like dyyying to tell him about yesterday. but guess who had to be walking right across the atrium at that tiime.

like, go away dude.. sigh.

and during malay, cikku got me to read this sentence and his name's like in the sentence.... i don't know. coincidence? i dont believe in coincidences. and this new found friend of mine.. he happened to be his ex-primary school classmate.........

smaal world. very small. and never really a good thiing..

ended up vowing to tell hannan about it the next day or something, if i could get him alone that is. in a meanwhile, i was sitting by enjoying the small 'trouble' jocelyn was in.. hehh. kanna lectured by her maths and geography teacher. LOL. very pleasant to see.. and hear(:

your retribution, jocelyn! and i got to be part of it! hahha. life's good.

anyways.. after the whole thing, nana, qah and i went starbucks at tp. ripped my physics front cover on the way. lovely.

nana treated us(: had our muffin(: and we talked. well. i didn't actually. i just listened. remember how i said, im not those whos like damn good with words. so i just shut the fuck up.

nana sent me an sms, telling me to saaay something. and she was like.. right across me..???

sooo sorry)): but just because i didn't say anything means i dont care. concern knew no boundaries, right?

so i almost cried. we almost did. but no. because the next thing was, we were all laughing and back to normal(: it was nice(: it was reaally niiice.

i love my crazy assholic nana and qahh loads((((:

we spent 3 hours at starbucks just talking and doing lots of catching up.... it was almost 7. then went popular to buy a keyboard..(:

walked into popular and i heard nana going like, "aldric's at the counterr.." so i was like, oh ohh.. i turned towards the counter and yeh there he was, smilinnng(: i went like, hiii and then went wham right into this.. this stupid thingie which i don't understand why it had to be there.....

shit how humiliating.. x_x

got my keyboard(: so excited. went home.. nana and qah took a cab..

i got home, fixed the keyboard straightaway. hahha. ooh. then bathed and solat. and here i am.

lina's packing her stuff for her camp tomorrow. she'll be back like.. on monday.. so cooool!!!! (: she seems to be having fun in ncc...... kayaking and doing all sorts of ncc-y stuff. sometimes i envy her. shes so fucking fit.

yayness. 3 days of no lina means 3 days of unlimited privacy. which im sadly deprived off.. sad ar.

-he- soo cute la!!!!!!!!!!!


lelaa says to hannan one day, "i may not like him but the feelings still inside. and which is naturally disappearing as we speak, thank gawd." haha what a lie. there's no 'feelings inside' whatsoever. lelaa's a free girl.

lelaa is me. okie thats stupid. everybody knows that(:

everybody also knows that this is a small world. very very small. literally and figuratively.. wonder if gabe is reading this...?? dont be shy and tag la, kie?

anyways. wanna tell yall my exclamation mark aint working. i don't know why. my keyboard sucks la. so.. yeh. this is so. weird..

jocelyn(exclamation mark) i love you more(ex.mark x54) and your blog's niiiiice. you guys just need to update it more, awright?(: ill help you with the taggies and stuffs, don't worry. i rock, remember?

shitnowmyspacebar'snotworkinng.fuuck.hahah.shit.ass.bastardddd.irgh.lolsss.

sorryyall.gottago.iknow.idontwannaleaveeither):

laterr..


"all my friends with the name 'han' is all very good looking, you know? and hannan's not that bad himself!"

i was like, gawking at miss khai going, ..you.have.got.to.be.kidding.me..

hahah joke(: i cant say that about a friend, can i.. wahahhahahhapfffthahhahaha. but really, that was what miss khai said to the class about him like as though he wasn't there.

anyways.. he's not the only one who has found himself an eye candy(: (aherm aherm.. hahah shh!!) anyway yehhh. back to me.. i found myself one too! so cool((:

okie laa. i don't like him or anything. i lOve him!

hahahhah joke!!!!

im feeling very cheeky today. cheeky tuesday. kinda have a ring to it, doesn't it?

anyway!! i say i love him because he makes me smile.. but not like those you see on couples faces. no no. hahha. that would be gross because we don't know each other very well. even though we're in the same class.

hahahhahahhaha biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig hint(:

actually no. haahahha. gotcha.

shit dejavu. seemed like ive written those before. haha. no surprise!!!!

they say if you bump into that someone you like, you get all nervousy and no matter what, you can't bring yourself to smile without looking like you're constipated.. but if you bump into someone you love, instantly you'll smile probably without even realizing it.

so yeh i love him.

im not joking this tiime. im not even smiling.

hahah joke. because im smiling now. smiling like crazy. smiling so wide id probably stay this way permanently.

they say.. (okie no. i make this one up but really i think its true..) when you like someone, die die must be a secret. but if you love someone, die die wanna let the whole universe know((((:

i love hiiiiiiiim.

don't cringe or anything. whats wrong with expressing yourself, hm? its not wrong.

its silly. hahahha. it is silly. i mean, it would be really sweet and all if that person actually knows about it and hes reading this and going, hahah i love her tooo! but no hes not!

..at least i don't think so!.. so its silly! a waste of time!!! BUT prefectly awright((: i won't lose a limb or anything, will i? checks-. yup. all intact.

okie. enough of the cheekiness....

you see your friend in tears. or feeling kinda sad and bluue. what would you do?

for me, i would.. i would be like in a totally helpless state. initially la. i stare at friend, and stare some more. just dont know what to do next. i mean, i don't know. anything BUT ask whats wrong..

like that time with nurool where she broke down right in front of me and all i did was just.. stare at her, and going shit shit shit.. then shahina from far ran to us and hugged her tight.

i just cant do that. not the huggy type i guess.

and i do not do sympathy either. i feel its insensitive.. in a way. let friend tell me whats wrong when friend feels like it. maybe friend will never feel like sharing. but ill respect that(:

ive read somewhere.. never ask whats wrong. find out whats wrong. then again, since when you need to know whats wrong to help? what, if its something trivial, you would think twice about helping?

okie i wont completely ignore friend or anything. it seems that way but no.. im more of a listener than an advisor, or.. a talker or whatever. im not good with words. verbally. and i dont mean listen as in, what friend has to say. i listen to what friends dont say.

ill cry with friend. doesnt sound very helpful but thats better than trying to cheer friend up but end up making friend worst.

twins did that once(: twice actually. something terrible happened to me and i was seriously crying and bawling my eyes out. they sat next to me and cried with me. and oh yeh fuck to those staring(:

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oh. i love hiiiim! hahaha.

and i love yall too(: mmmmmmwaah.