Saturday, January 10, 2004?
Wad r real frenz?
Are they ppl u simply go out
and watch movie wit?
Are they ppl u simply laugh
and joke arNd wit?
If thts wad frenz r fer,
thn hell yea
i haf lotsa ferm.
But sadly,
real frenz arent just ppl
u hang out wit.
Real frenz r also da ppl
hu lurvs u fer hu u r,
and r there for u unconditionally,
ppl tht nvr qn u
and ppl tht support u
no matter wad.
Real frenz r ppl
worth living for, marns.
U hear me?
They dun go arNd
judging u
and makin u feel horrible abt urself.
Thts exactly how im feelin rite now.
Horrible.
Why?
Why do ppl say starfs they dun mean?
All those 'ill b ther fer u',
'frenz foreva fer life'
all those shits
all those lies
whn theyd rather go to sum dumb mall
and enjoy themselves
while ur rite by urself
practically dying
bcuz ur so cold
so lonely.
haf u ever tot
of all those nasty starfs
u said abt me?
well, i haf.
and just finkin of it
makes me feel lyk,
if these wad frenz r
thn id rather haf none.
sumtimes i dunno
hu my real frenz r.
i dunno wher i stand
among all of u guys.
dun get me wrong,
sum of u guys
just rawck :)
and i wanna thank
cuz uve been ther fer me :)
lyk my dearest mumsy tabby
and dart-fart :)
and many other more.
But da rest?
I can handle all those
nasty remarks u hurl at me.
but thers limits, u noe.
i tot ur my fren.
Uve taught me
tht real frenz
arent necessarily ur bestiez
*rolls eyes*
Im sorry
if i havent been ther fer u.
but haf U ever been ther fer ME?
im sorry
i admit to ya,
i havent been a good fren.
but neither haf u too.
CITYNIGHTLIFE;