29 april 2004 ' thursday

i was so tired yesterday, i slept at 9 all the way till the next morning. something i havent done for quite a long time. haishh. i miss sleeping... haha like i havent been sleeping. hehhe. yesterday was fun because we had pizza. hehe yupp! but at the same time, i kind of dreading it. because yesterday was the last. im not going to see crystal and zhao againn!!

okay everybody knows that's not true. because i'll still see them around in school. yeahhs. but its going to be different. i cannot sit down, chill out and talk crap with the both of them anymore!! eldds is going to be boring without them. seriously. i'm going to be very bored without them.

ill miss them. i miss them!!! -cries o'wellls. all the best for exams, yall. crystal is eager to get her butt outta school. hehe. i don't know about zhao though. nana and i didn't really get to, you know, talk to him yesterday. he had some maths remedial thingie going on.. and once in a while we had to drop by his class, psst-ing him to come out talk to us, and nearly got into trouble with v.tan aka strawberry. heh.

took lots of pictures! very stressing indeed. tsk tsk tsk. hahaha! hahha miss lim said im the 'sensible one' among dem all. ahahah!!! someone noticed!!! ahaha nahhh kidding. heheh. im goood. ohh nana, crystal, miss lim and i chilled out outside zhao's class, and we just.. talked. so nice -smiles and we poured out all our problems; uncertainty, doubts, confusions.. you know? just talk. and we felt so much better after that. we all did. -smiles

ahhh!! ive been wanting to just go up to hannan and stab him. yeahhh. but didn't quite get the chance. im sitting at one corner in the class, hes at the other end. he was running from me, during recess, on the way to mt all that. sheeshh! hannan's a wimp!! -evil laughter

Even in the canteen after school, i was standing right across him.. he positioned himself in such a way dicky was blocking me. hmmm. i was like, 'u cannot run away from death, dude. ill get you.' but i never really did thought i would see him again that day. but it looks like yesterday was 'meant to be'. because i was at the busstop after eldds, and he was there too. -smirkk

i was grinning away. hehe. but i didn't attack. he had got reinforcements. there was this 3e3 monitor or as ginny called him, the fishball guy. hahhaaa. i waited... i looked at him, but he didn't catch my eye. he refused to. wherever fishball guy went, he stayed right beside him. thats it, man. i called out to him, and told him to come over.

he was fumbling lamely, that irritating look in his face i felt like punching. but theodore, thinking he was being a good friend, was guiding hannan. he looked like he was ready to shield hannan just in case haha. thats good. he was scared. last night, on msn he asked me how my lunch was and i said, "mine was great. hows yours? hope it was good, because that was going to be your last..." and he just went, "oh no. got to go. william hung music video. bye." and logged off. ouhh a punk rock who listens to william hung? wow.

"time is running out, hannan! you want to die?" i asked. mann. is it so hard to just say sorry?! theodore's bus arrived. he yelled bye. hannan going noooo. i went, woohoo!! ahhahaha. no way out. but then his bus was right behind as well. that was when he said, "okayla. erm. we study during recess?"

grrr. no fun. i was about to have some fun tearing his limbs apart. i gave him that fine whatever look. looking like a dog who just found a bone, he was about to go when he stopped, looked at me again and said, "sorry?" now he looked like a dog whose bone suddenly vapourized into thin air.

ahh so sweet. but it wasnt acceptable. >.<

Today

Ermm. today was last day! ai tong thingie thingo i mean. haha yeahh. we ate there, as usual. bwahaha... got there, hongsui wasn't there. i was feeling kind of disappointed? yeahhh. so i 'tutored' ong yuxuan. haha yeahh. aspho's tutee's twinee. hahah. err yeahh.

i gave him the ribbon ketupats i was supposed to give hongsui. he took orange. -cries. but what the heck -smiles. anythng for them. heheh. and then guess who walked through that door. hongsui!!!!!

he saw me with yuxuan and he was like, got his hands on his hips, frowning at me. whoops. ahhaha. nana figured he got jealous. ahahahha!! he got a chair and sat next to me. initiative. -grins. that's my hongsui!!!!

he saw the ketupats but i hadn any left. he looked pretty bumped. hehe. then yuxuan gave up one of his to him. so sweet!!! i love him already. gahahhaa.. but he didnt have any clue what it was. hongsui was like, "this one... you put rice inside right?" smaart. i told him id make him another one. he didn't believe i could make ketupats.. sheeshh. so i untied the ribbons and startd working my fingers..

not easy. nuh uhh. but in the end, i managed.. hehehe. so proud! hongsui was proud too! she was telling this girl behind us, 'ehh. my tutor knows how to make this!" but it looked retarded tho..... kinda flat. haha. hongsui tried blowing it.... hahhaa. i adjusted something so then it was flat. and thin. u noe? hahhaa.

i taught him some mly words. yuxuan was busily during math... so hardworking. lalala. hahahaa. yehh. so i taught hongsui some mly words. he didn't believe half of th defination i told him. "my grandmother knows a little bit of malay. she talks mly to her mly friends at the coffee shop ther you know.." he said.. i was why suddenly about ur grandma? "ohkayyhe. interesting. your point is?"

"so don't you try to cheat me, hah!!"

ahhaha i love him!! ohh and he asked me when id be free... wow. a pri4 yr old kid, asking me out?! lmao!!!! hahh gonna miss him. heh.

after tat, went back to skool because ther was committee meeting. hahaha. arisa rawcks. heh. -winks. we got to the sc room. turned out meishh, xy, theodore and yvonne were playing scrabble?!! and carisa was mugging ther at one corner. wahahaa. and hilary duff come clean blasting frm the radio.. wow.

in the middle of the meeting, this elmo song was playing on the radio. it started off pretty groovy move to the rythme kinda song. i was bobbing my head while writing minutes.. and thn carisa was like, 'uh ohh. this song.. a lil childish. but...' and thn...

la la la la! la la la la!! elmo's soonng!!!

we burst out laughinngg.. a little errr at first. hahaha.. so cute!!!!! meeting over. ehehe. went hme wit arisa and theodore. so funn 'bullying' him. i miss theodore!!! hes a naughty boy now.. hehh.

study during recess?? i tot he was kidding. he wasnt actually. before we got off for recess, he was asking and all. was like err.. next week? but thn studying during reces!??!?! he sure he wanna sacrifice thattT!!? hannan's a dumbass -winks.

nurrul j: heyys. im reeli sorry i wasn ther for u just now whn u reeli needed me... im reeli sorrie!!!! next time, flag me down or something. stuck a knife on my head to get my attention. cuz these days been reeli distracted, yehhs? i wish i cud do something about it. but.... ill try to talk to her yehhs? if she gets mad at me, then thats her problem. i cant believe theyd do tat to ya.. o'wells. u dun need them. u haf me and nurool!!! -smiles. huggies! im here for ya, u can count on tat.

nurool: heyy. they s-u-c-k. biiiig time, behbee. green eyed monsters. c'mon. evryone flirts. human nature, yehhs? tat bitch is just plain jealous. sheeshh. u noe i feel like grr -screams. but then, mayb u both cud sit down and talk it out like mature adults. yes? but if tat darsen work, its plan b. kill her huggies! im here for ya too. -smiles.