hiie :) Tagg's been getting quieter these dayyys. wha dup?! prollie cuz i havent done my usual taggiinn routine myself. not tat i tag u guys' taggies so ud tag miinne :)) tho itll b nice ;) hahhaa.

tmr is a holidayyy! i lurv public holidays on a fri. long weekend ;) Lookin forward to tmr. and the day after tmr. and the day after the day after tmr.. yupp :)) cuz today basically sucked. the morning, actually.

skool started out baaad. got to skool alone. nabila was absent... riiight. she's prollie on her way to KL as i type this ;) She wunt b back till tue. hahh. will miss her. hahhaa. shed better buy me souvenirs!!! XP

hate goin to skool alone. cuz i need to kick start my dayy wit a fren :) dun mind walking home alone tho. cuz tats the time i spend to reflect wad shit happened for the day... call me weird, call me lameass. tats just how i programme.

as soon as i got to the hall, nurrul was like teary eyed. turned out it happened again. poor nurrul!!!! feel for herrr. felt worst cuz i just stood ther, while she told me the whole story. just stared at her watching her fight back her tears. just dinno wad to do, or sayy. worried if itd make things worst.

sri saw me wit nurrul and i dunno.. she was pissed?? yup. so we din exchange nee words. tot she was mad at me. dunno!! sri's unpredictable. and if it werent for norine, i dunno wad id do. was sitting bhind me and whn turned to greet the teachers, norine went like, 'goooood morning, lela!' instead. reeli perked me up rite awayyyy!! thnx norine :)) Shes just so sweet!!!

kanna called out by sngg. kinda expected it. hahhhh. wth. told mom abt it. i practically told everyberdie. cuz everyberdie was ther. mom was cheesed off. and usually id go like, 'how am i supposed to kno?!!' and wud go to shafiq for support. but just now, i said i was sorry, told her it was my fault anyway. dumbass me. *nodds MOm was still cheesed off. but she cooled a lil ;) And elly was like, 'wow. tat took a lot of courage... awww. my cousin is all grown up and mature now!!!' nahhh. bet she was just being nice :) not tat i mind nice.

recess was shiett la. of all the places, why therr?! its like..... and summore i was sitting rte smack .. diagonally him. XD Yeaa. and this fren of him approached him. ouhh it was hans. yeaa. sumfink must had humored him abt hans or wad hans said, so he was like, :))))))) so sweeeeet. got me smiling as well. and it was stupid. cuz i had the spoon in my mouth and i just froze and *smiles*

ginny was quiet today.... 'ginny wads wrong? u okie?' 'yaa. just stressed..' she din even gimme tat infamous grin of hers whn she said tat. blues huh. ouhh she aint the only one.....

had a/e maths tests after skool which i missed tat tue. did it during amaths remedial. hahahaa. and picture this, doing amaths test while teacher is teaching amaths at the background.... hehehs. no fair. roystonn got lolenzo and xingwai to help him :\ ahahaa.

ouHhhh im sooo gonna miss crystal and zhaohannn!! eldds gonna b soooo quiet w/o them after they graduate X(

had fun during el. tho we did... nuffink. had to fill up tis feedback on the workshop. sat wit crystal and bedah zhao ;) They rawwwcqk!! :) they make a cool couple... both sickos. its so nice to see them talk. err i mean, to see crystal talk, and zhao listen.... they were talkin abt bio stuff. i listened. but cudn quite catch up. tried to ignore them at, until they started laughing and i cudn stand it any longer. sumfink tells me it wasn just abt bio....

'aite. u lost me.'
'ayy. shh. dun tell u.' crystal.
'tell!! wad issit abt superficial whaard?'
'dun pollute ur mind.'
'its already polluted.' zhao.
'.... yea. pretty tru. tell meeee!'

so they told me, sumfink abt putting a superficial 'thing' on the girls so they wud haf somethin in common wit the boys.. ehhe. u know wad im talkin abt. yeaa. 'but thn again, its superficial. so it wun make any diff. it cant produce tat 'substance'. and u cant build a superficial 'substance' cuz thers no such thing as a fake 'substance' .. ahhh. its the way she says it tats hilarious :)

melinda/belinda came over and was like inspecting and thn, 'crystal ur handwriting sux.' crystal: 'owhh tats bcuz the pen sux. so cheapskate! look look! i got it free, tats why. frm tis hotel. babble babble rumble rumble..'
me:'crystal, if u wanna borrow a pen, just say it. aight?'
'im too lazy to ask.'
'ur anything but lazy, crystal!'
'lazy is human nature, lela! ppl rather walk short cut thn take the longer route.'
'... i prefer longer route.'
'tats bcuz ur not human. ehhhe. kiddding laa.'
thnz ALOT, zhao.
'okie another example. lela, why u cut ur hair?'
*gawk* whn did i even cut it?
'zhao han why u cut ur hair?'
'cuz so troublesome, must shampoo it.'
*jaw dropped* *stared at his hair, horrified* 'wad's hair gotta do wit laziness?!'
'u cut ur hair cuz ur lazy to comb it. or in zhao han's case, to shampoo it. LAZY..'
'u cant b lazy abt tat!!!'
'zhao han is.'
*blink blink* good point.

thn she started complaining abt the pupil's diary. she was like 'the spaces r so little! blabble babble. the lines r so small! blabble blaaalalable. and wads tis? parents signature?? wads the use?! my parents cant b bothered!' and she tossed the book at zhao lyka grenade. he deserved it. hahah.. its his, anyway. tats for pissing crystal off. hahaha..

zhao was spinning his pen. 'its very simple.' crystal snatched my pen and spun it in slow motion. actually she just moved her pen la. .. 'not helpful, crystal..' zhao saved the day. 'just flick ur index finger. pen wil spin arNd thumb...' i tried. got it. 'fast learner..' 'thankiew zhao!' crystal interrupted, 'no, actually zhaohan and i good teachers..' and i was, 'zhaohan and U?'

last qn on the feedback form: wad r ur dreams and inspirations abt drama work wadeva shiet. c:'dreams? dun haf dreams la.' 'evryone has dreams, wad u sayin?' z:'not abt drama work, i dun. hahhaa.' ' i dun dream big. unlike someone here, who has dreams to bcome as actor..' zhao blushblush. i clapclap. asked wads crystal's dreams r. and she said, 'alot. but mostly nightmares....' cheyy tat kinda dreamm.. zhao asked, 'lela. wads ur dream?' i just smiled :))

norinnne!! on the way outta canteen. saw herrr wit homies. and i jumped in frnt of her and waved. was kinda *huhhh??* cuz she was like slumped against the pillar ther, looking stoned. stood ther for 3, 5 secs. seemed like she hadn noticed me. 'norine? u okie?' she shook her head. i looked at noviani and she gave me a blank look. 'u gonna b okayyy?' but norine just shrugged.

wahhhhhyee? first salmiah. thn nurrul. thn sri. and thn ginny. now norine. like wth? ouff. hope they r feelin better rite now X|

at the bussstop. been ther for half an hr :) stayed till aspho's bus arrived. even after she left, i was still ther. just din feel like goin home :) Norine and homies got ther. she was still stoned X|. she had a cup of ice cream. melted. offered to me. so sweet, even fed me :)) so nice whn she laughed cuz she got ice cream on my nose. hahhaa..

she left... waited wit yuwen :) And was my turn to stone. whn all of a sudden, whamm. hahaa. dunno hoowww. dicky just walked into the thingie thingiieee, the one wher raelie pole-danced ther. hahaha yeaa. he hurt his erm i mean, he hurt himself. yeaa. hes stupid to think no one saw it. i did. and i was, tsktsktsk. he looked at me like it nvr happened and waved bye. i showed him the loser sign. im meann!! he got on the bus, caught his eye and said a proper bye.

stayed a bit longer more :) had company. winnie and songzhi. yuppp. eventually i got up the bus home. and guess who i met inside ther. twinz - -||| Wher did they come frm?!! 'we din see u board the bus pon! ouhh. ur short, i forgot.' urmphh. sadako sux!!! hahhaa..

i knocked against tis mayflower girl in the bus... actually, my bag kinda whacked her. haaard. whOops. and sadako apologized for me and was like sayn out loud, 'sorry sorry. my fren a bit retarded...' i whammed my bag against her.

the 3 of us were walkin home. and ther was til lil small birdie hopping abt on the pavement... lameass sadako chased after it - -||| and ther was tis cyclist guy and he was O_O . and i shouted to him, or i mean practically to evryone present ther; 'sorry sorry!! my fren a bit retarded.' and sakura and i had a good laugh :)

`i kill u. thn i kill myself. i call it suicide by asshole...//