cant concentrate
lose focus very easily
mind not thinking straight
wad's gotten into me?

i find myself
pickin up my cell
texting a message...

i hesitate.
what am i?
what the hell?!

i cudn help it.
im goin insane.
the blind can tell.

like he would reply...

does not matter.
just want him to know
im thnking of him
and thers nothing wrong
wit thinking of him (:

what would his gf think?
-rolls eyes.
he *is* attached.

pfffft.
wad she gonna do to me?
huh?
get my head detached?
shhhesssh.
pull out my hair
stick needles in my ears.
see if i care.

its what *he* thinks
tats what bothering me...

what if he thinks
tat i still haf a
*somethinnnng* for him?

but im afraid.
nothings wrong wit tat.
tru.
its just inappropriate.

well.
shldn care wad he thinks as well.
cuz its just a lil msg.
harmless.
no big deal.
doesn mean anythingg.

right?

i miss him.

convince myself
its just a small simply gesture
tat hes not forgotten.
hell, wad haf i gotta lose?

press send.

put my cellphone aside
trying to keep myself occupied.

u see ,
i dun expect u to reply back.
tho itd b reeli nice if u do
but wad the heck.
u haf *her* now.
i understand tat.
[fuck tat bitch (:]

but does it hurt to just...
u noe.. say a lil hi?
let me noe
u still rmb me.

cuz i do.

i miss u.

bEep beEp.
[or wadeva it sounds like]
my cell beeping!!
[or wadeva it sounded like]

my cell beepingg!!!!
omigosh.
omigosh.
omigosh.
up and down im jumpingg
grinning like a mad sheep.
tis is crazy.
im fallin in lust wit u
all over againn.

hold tat thot.

dang
its just nana.
reminding me to save up
for aspho's prezzie..

oh.

yehhh.

ah wells (:

something else to look
forward to (((:



still miss him tho.

CITYNIGHTLIFE;