nike didn't make it. sighhh. he died this morning, god knows when. we buried him behind ahmad ibrahim mosque. rest in peace, nike (: we all love ya, dead or alive.

im heartbroken that hes gone. i can hear my heart crushed into pieces when i heard the bad news. i didn't cry, though. its like im all ready and prepared for it. maybe because i was too tired to cry.

i really cant believe that hes gone.

visited him last night. man. thinking abt it and his conditons that time, im glad hes dead. im proud of him.. in a way. any other cat wud have died instantly. but he was strong (: Of course. hes *my* demon cat.

anyway, ive still got anggun (: and nike left behind chingy and tigger. which... dun really look much like him.... but thats not really the point. sighh.

nike, ur a fine cat. evil. but fine. sad we cant celebrate our birthdays together. but u will always have a plaace in my heart! ehhe. ur a great companion. and friend (: I still have that scar you made with ur claws on my thigh. hahah. love you loads, kitty. i know you loved me too. anggun, chingy, and tigger and everybody misses ya! mwah.

like as if hed read tat. ehheh. but wth. i will miss that feline.

i wud still feel bullshit if it werent for my friends (((: Vanessa, noratiah, iskandar. and evryone. luv ya loooads!! mwaaah! hahahha. thnx, you guyyys. made me feel better.

initially i was like; really devastated, which i shld b. duh. i was mad at everyone, even myself. i blamed everything. i blamed god. "you took my dad from me. now uve taken away my cat. my companion. my friend. i hope ur happy now. this is the bestest advanced present ever. thanks alot."

but now i realized that was totaly absurd. cuz i know shits happened and shits happened for a reason. whatever the reason is, i know its for my own good. what hurt me, can make me stronger. i dun wanna be sad nike died. i wanna b glad that he even existed in my life. and what fun i had when he was around :')

but it was terrible he had to die that way. ahhhh. wth. hes prollie playing fetch wit my dad right now. hurhur. riiiight that was stupid...

one more time: thank you guyyyys. so glad ive got assholes like you ppl. dunno what id do w/o ya. ehhehe. muuuuwwwaaaaaaachs!