syahira called. "lelaa. we've got into east spring."

you have noo idea how fucked up upset i was! but that was really selfish of me. i should be happy for them that they got into a school..

i tried sounding cool and calm but i fucked up.

"Whyy!!!" i screamed into the phone. Then i rephrased myself.. "i mean, where?"

"Tampines."
"of course..am i the first to know?"
"second actually."
"whyy!..'s that so?"
"nurool unity was first."
"oh that's rich."
"she's been in our shoes before per."
"right."

and then she asked the million dollar question.. "you're gonna be okay, kan?"

The hell I'm gonna be okay.

"I'm cool, I'm cool," i lied. "I've still got Sriee."

Now thinking about it, I've only got Sriee. Very depressing.

Another reason why I won't be looking forward to 2005.

-deep breath-

twins got into east spring secondary. irgh. hate them, hate them. hate the school too, for accepting them.

):

confession time.

all these while i've taken them for granted. and now they're gone, it's like losing someone from your family. make that two people from your family.

Okie they're not really gone.. but they might as well be.

who's gonna stand up by me, and for me when i'm in need? who's gonna look out for me now?

(even though they're, like 10 years younger than me, they're like my big sisters.. how creepy..)

screw you, twiins! you've been there for me since kindergarten and have been sticking up by me ever since. for crying out loud, at least finish secondary school first~

you guys been there for me. i haven't got the change to be there for you.

actually i have la.. yeh, i have. but it's not enough!

you know? this is probably the what's-his-face vp's fault that got them dying to transfer out of peirce.

jkfsh gkjghksgh dsj agl!

sigh!

Merry christmas, by the way..