the eve of hari raya haji on the year of 2001.. marks the event that has changed my life. it hurts thinking about it still. but at the same time, i feel somewhat grateful that it happened...? may sound cruel but hey, what hurt you makes you stronger. unless you got killed in the process or something. hurhur.

(:

school was .. uh. stuck... you know what? forget it. my vocab is limited. its a thursday night and the long weekend is almost here. give me a break, wokie?

but that won't stop me from blogging. because like good charlotte sang; "today could be the last day of your life.." so. for all you know, i might end up like my dad tonight. haha. touch wood, touch wood. heh.

tsk tsk. lelaa, what's up!?!?!

i'll tell you what's up.. noratiah larry is practically getting ready and on the way here to sunny singapore (okie so it's night but you get what i mean..) as i'm typing this. i think?? haha. i'm sooo excited!!! ahhaa(:

sriee was sweet to me this morning. as she has always been.. -sarcastic tone-. we were walking and the next second, she was wayy ahead of me.

she reckoned if there were ever an earthquake, i would be the first to die. she waited for me to catch up and then said, "lela, promise me you'll run when there's a bomb or earthquake or something."

right. ill try.

come on what's the ruush!?

during malay lesson just now, i accidentally ter-ripped off my textbook back cover(hanif's actually), the one ginny painstakingly scotchtaped for me. and cikku seemed pretty amused.

"it's a friend's," i told her before she might get the wrong impression; that i'm such a klutz. and she was like, "tsk tsk.." and said something about how untidy the friend was, considering how tattered the book is.

wait till i tell her it's hanif's. hah.

the rest of the day was .. uh. right. there i go again.

had 2 solid periods of physics.. first period of it was.. shit. uh. no not that i forgot i just can't find the right words to describe. hah. my bad.

before the 2 periods, chan gave us 10 minutes break before he started his crappy lesson. sriee and i rushed to the loo but it was paaacked, i tell you. by the time we waited, it was almost 10 minutes. so we went back to the lab, legs twisted to fight the urge to pee right along the coridor.

do not imagine.

i rushed through my report, a little jumpy and fidgety. but you should have seen sriee. she was antsy and wouldn't shut up.

and weijie was just soo cute lorh!! he was trying to get his paper but it slipped and started fluttering about in the air. yes. flutter. like leaves in the autumn. haha.

first try: he tried to snatch it off the air, but missed. second time, he missed too. and then the paper landed on my shoe.

i almost lost it. my control that is. my bladder almost burst because i was trying so hard not to laugh.

i don't know. it wasn't even funny actually. but when you're feeling antsy and your bladder is full, evrything and anything is. you'll look at the branches on the trees outside the lab and you'll find yourself laughing. i know i did.

i retrieved his paper for him and handed it to him.. and he was like thanking me and i went like, 'thanks? i almost crush your paper trying not to relax my bladder muscle.'

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my vocabulary is getting weirder..

2.30pm. aaaahh. relieved myself. aahh. i cartwheeled out of the toilet(:

our dates came pick us up from school.

hah right. haha. it was just weijie and alvin and we joked that they were waiting for us..come on, we had been to the toilet, chilled out for a while in the canteen with nabila, salmia and nj and all those while they were just at the gate?

took 163 with asilaa. silly girl.. eh, the next time you want to stay back in school for some occasion or something, come tell me la. ill stay back with you if there's nothing on. ha.hahaha. heh. hinthint.

ahh. hah.a

sigh.

im worried. why ain't he speaking to me? he's been avoiding me it seems. fargh arh. sometimes people just tend to confuse shyness with proudness, and kindness with slyness (?).

people just tend to confuse me la.