yea. yesterday. last day of term one(: welcoming the hols with arms wide openn.

bring it on.

initially i wasnt really looking forward to hols. i mean, id rather go school see wedgie!! and study ha ha right. it is my Os and im determined to heed hans' advice to put my heart, mind and soul(: into it.

then again, hannan did kindar bring up a point. to enjoy the hols first and then study like hell. "dont worry. you can do it. youll do better than me," he said.

duude. thats like the last thing im worried about. and no i don't mean it in a rude way. tsk. i meant that im in no competition with him.

yea. its important that you get your point across coherently and clearly. don't want people to start 'assuming' things now, do you?

i told you. i just think too much.

i had 3 cups of coffee. having the fourth now. tend to stay up till morning next day(: or the day after the next. ahahha. you may never know.. i mean, 4 cups a little too much, don't you think!?

i woke up at 3 today anyway(: heh.

had a supa cool dream. i was a vampire slayerr!!! haiiyak dush! arh-bish!! pow!pow!! (: i woke up finding myself punching my delfy.

ahhakiddding.

anyways ar. last nigth right? i did something stupid.. got him all worked up which got me all nervousy. he apologized in the end but i didnt accept his apology.

damn that rhymed(:

i didn't accept it because it wasnt his fault. but i didn't think he get it. his wild assumption was that probably i was offended by him.

you see what i meant when i mentioned earlier: its important to get your point across!!!! im angry with myself.

thanks tabi, for being there for meee. i didn't thought she'd be awake. because it was almost midniight. in the middle of it all, it was me who ended up falling asleep....

that fridayy..had lunch with meyaa after school. dare i say lunch with her was..hahahha, formal??? in a good way though(:

i mean, it was a refreshing change. unlike lunch with sriee, nj or nabila. usually..very rowdy. im not complaining or anything(:

sometimes changes are good, you know?

meya and i chitchat. yeaa.. we talked. there was no 'i talk you listen' kindar thing. or 'you talk cuz i dno wad to say'. which is what im usually am with most people, you see..... shrug shrug.

it was a nice change(:

i learnt that sometimes things are just not meant to be. and i just don't mean relationships between a couple..

you try to change things.. or you want to.. but in the end nothings happened. then you sit and reflect and realize: maybe this is it. maybe im not meant to change it. because this is how its supposed to be.

there's nothing you can do. except to learn to accept it.

then there's the other problem: you just can't.

thats when you gotta put everything behind you and bloody move on.

not easy. tell me about it.. to lose a friend is as tough as to keep one.