yea well im sorry if i havent been blogging regularly like i have always been and should. ...(if you're waiting for an explanation, you can keep on waiting because there ain't any.)

my mind's a whirlpool of emotion. don't know what i'm feeling. so many things that need my attention. but cant attend to them all. im no supergirl you know.

yes of course you do. im anything but supergirl.

ive been doing so many things for other people sometimes i forgot about myself.

this week had been really hectic. but i had my fair share of fun too(: like that tuesday with sriee at macs. we spent two freaking hours there just chilling out.

it was fun because there was no distraction whatsover. away from cranky teachers and surprise tests and wackie friends etc. no need to cry over that tricky differentiation question or how the nervous system works.

just no worries. we just sat and talked and laughed and laughed like there's no tomorrow. i went home full and feeling so.. dare i say contented?

it's really just the small things in life like having fun lunching with your buddy (who knows 1000001 ways to make you laugh) that can make you go, 'life's fucking great'.

call me insane but a bus journey makes me feel that way!! (: like, everything in life is going your way... your way home.

as a matter of fact, life is like a bus journey. never know who's going to board the bus with you, who's going to align.. but wherever the bus brings you, you'll know in the end there's always a place you can go. your home.

and that, is spontaneous and original((: if you've come across a quote like that, its purely coincidential. im just saying what i feel.

wednesday: got back my physics results and i was really crushed. that bad??? the malay workshop thingie after school at bowen secondary didn't helped.

yea it was informative and helpful. but a waste of time. half of the crap the lecturer was saying, cikku m had already told us in class.

i spent most of my time there doodling and stoning. i started sketching hannan who was in front of me but he couldnt keep still. my sketched dicky ended up looking like a girl.

dicky really needs to cut his hair. if not at least spike it up or give it a messy ruffled just got out of bed look. yea.

hahahahhahahah lelaa giving hair tips.

couldn't recall what really happened on thursday.. just that miss vivian tan complimented me((: or was that the day before..? i don't know but she did(: and she was all wide smile and i wide smiled back at her. sriee almost choked. hahha.

assembly was really interesting. but sad that the mic the speaker was using was hopeless.. something about your conscious..

i still dont see how a fork and spoon had anything to do with it.

after assembly, sriee and i had physics remedial with 14 others. i was dreading it at first. but i realized i needed it. and if i didn't change my attitude towards this whole thing, i won't never improve.

nana thought i had ditched her because i suddenly disappeared after assembly. i, who risked dennis goh calling my mother for not attending his remedial on friday just to be with her and ali, ditched her??

that would be the last thing i would do. correction: the first thing i wouldn't do. ditch my friends, i mean. not without a reason.

like today.. sorry i couldnt come over, aliii.. my gmum's not speaking to me for no apparent reasons...probably because of last night. my reaching home almost 9..

recess yesterday. ali told me everythiiing. and she started crying before she could even finish. if only comforting ali could be as easy as demanding tissues from liling, i would have done it.

i thuuuuck..

emaths.. jackass goh pissed me off. as if i wasnt feeling bad enough already. sriee and i was practically the first to run out of his class.

it was obvious he was trying to look for us to remind us to attend his remedial that day after school. but we avoided his eye and turned away, whistling and pretending as if he didn't exist. stephanie was looking and laughing and ruined the whole thing. goh spotted us. dang.

but who cares. we didn't go anyway. i was hoping he wouldn't call my mother like he called hannan's. i was shocked when hannan texted me asking for emaths homework. i was like, dude..why do you care??

even nana skipped her summary test yesterday. so she, ali and i went starbucks or i mean, starbooks at tp. but this time, nana didn't treat us. ahahha. hm.

bloody hell. $5.10 for a mocha frappucino? didn't realize it was that expensive. what, im saying money okie!!

but i don't think i can get a new guitar anytime soon anyway..):

alii opened up and yea.... the last time, they had wanted me to say something because i was silent the whole time. so this time i said somethign and nana told me to shut up.

ohkaye. that hurt a bit.

we met twins(who was late as alwaaays!!!) at lido. watched eye 10. even before the movie started, i was already freaking out. just beside syahira, there was this freeakingly pale looking lady in winter clothes. really, she was really wrapped up.. and she was just staring straight ahead. and no one occupied the 3 seats next to her.

i looked at syahira who looked back at me. and syahida was like beckoning her sister to sit closer to us and as far away from that pale lady as possible.

the beginning of the movie was scary. i hated it. when the ghost stuck out her tongue and started lashing it at those monks' faces and baldie heads, i just screamed and screamed and screamed. thank god for the popcorn box. i had it over my face throughout that whole scene.

then the scene changed. people having fun yada yada. i relaxed a bit and yea. the rest of the story wasn't that bad.. scary but not that. because it had funny bits here and there(:

like when the bookseller sold the 10 encounter book to the actor at 500 bahts, he said, "do not turn to the last page or misfortune to come upon you!!!"

but he did anyway. turned out it was just the real price of the book. which was much cheaper than what he actually paid for. the guy was like, 'that bastard!' haha.

i looove the scene where those friends mistook one of the guy's mother as a ghost. the four of them started screaming and screaming and the guy stood up and sardinely said, "ma, what you doing?"

and the scene where they called for the hungry ghhosts by hitting bowls with chopsticks. it was hilarious. those fellas were funny!! especially the one named ted. he broke his bowl and hit his teeth instead.

he was the same guy who got possessed and started breakdancing.. people started cheering and when he started walking up the ceiling, they freaked out (very bad acting here..) and ran for their lives.

the ghosts were humourously scary though. especially the one that crawled out out of nowhere.. and when the ghosts opened and shut their mouths everytime the bowls broke. and the floating saliva-dripping one.

man, i can go on forever.

the ending was tragic. there. watch it for yourselves. eye sepuloh. aha.

after the movie, got home with the twins. they walked me home(: hahhahahha so sweet. we got up 169..reminded me one of the scenes where the girl saw this ball rolling in between the seats. and the next thign rolled was a head.

i called elena my assholic sister to tell her i was on my way.....
"who's that?" she had asked.
".."
"hellO!?"
"oei! im on my way la." i assumed she recognized my voice.
"i cant hear you! can you speak up?"

ive heard of this before. in fact, daniel ong and grace chua played the same prank on a caller just this morning. april fool remember?

she was going on forever, even though i told her i knew she heard me and that i wasnt born yesterday. "hey, can you speak up? asshole.. ive no time for this. childish.. hello!!!!"

i passed the phone to syahira and she was like lamely saying in creepy voice, "i see dead people. they are everywhere." and syahida let out an evil laughter. i laughed myself insane.

i miss them!

they walked me till i reached my gate but refused to come in because they terrified of cats like im terrified of freaky ghosts with lashy tongue. whether or not are they scared of our breaths or our farts.

there was my friday.

mom is screaming bursting my eardrums.. i knew she knew i got home at 9. yea i got her permission but she didn't like it anyway. at the same time, she knows she cannot and has no control over my life.

i love that shes not even trying to. just that the problem now is my gmum..

*burp*

ahha just had friees and a big mac(((: now im feeling mcfull and a little mccrazy. aha. later.