im sorry but i didn't mean to peep!!! i was just cleaning up the table and there it was: syak's diary..wide opened..

a barbie notebook had been never so inviting.

the temptation was really strong. i needed strength of an elephant to resist it. ah heck. elephants? weird analogy but you get where im driving at.

i saw the words 'birthday wishes' written on that particular page. it was obvious syak was trying to make it presentable because she had decorations all over it. nuh uh, not very well done.

but still, it didn't stop my itchy fingers from picking it up and actually reading it.

my bad. but in the end, i glad i read it because it totally changed me.... i can never look at my 11-year-old sister in the same light again.

the first few wishes were typical 11-year-old wishes.. i tried to recall my days as a primary 5 kid who had pretty much nothing yet everything. get it? haha i loved those days as a kid. and then i reached 12.

i got to syak's fifth wish and it read these: "for my 1st sister to finally get a cool guitar..orange one or brown but she likes orange like a tiger."

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by the way..1st sister as in me. lelaa. aka evil elder sister.

i read it like a million hundred times before i convinced myself my eyes werent playing tricks on me(wouldn be the first time!)

i was overwhelmed!!!! but first. i checked to see if it was my sister's diary. yes it is and gosh isnt she just the sweetest thing!?!

i love her.

then immediately i felt bad.mean.very bad. i was snooping around my sister's private stuffs!

but im glad i did. from right now onwards, i promise not to boss her around too much. and if she asks how to spell a certain word, refrain from giving her the wrong spelling /throwing the dictionary at her.

kidding about the dictionary part(: im not that cruel.

im wondering why she puts MY ultimate birthday wish in HER birthday wish list.. i can only think of this: because she's guilty of breaking my current guitar.

nooo. that was lina's evil work. syak just suggested it.

and i said *im* the evil sister?

haha weird. i dont get them. wait..i dont get us. i mean, we fight. sometimes pretty bad fights. over pretty lame stuffs like who gets the last scoop of magnolia ice cream......... (lina did..she didnt deserve it!)

but then at the end of the day, the 3 of us are chilling out in the room and singing along with whichever song is on the radio.

wont be long before one of us screws up the lyrics and the other makes fun of it and the other will try to make peace and say, "lets all face it, the both of you caant sing."

and which is true. im not lying. my sisters can't sing!!

at least one of them is smart enough to not even try. but the other one just wouldnt keep her trap shut!!!! hahahahahhahahohmygosh im bitching about my sisters on cyber space.

haha what other better place? wanna know one more thing? they--

okie i should shut up.

sisters can do the funniest thing ssometimes. like, they pay you compliments you least expect it.

like when i was feeling pissed and i was playing my guitar really furiously and my fingers got all numb but i didnt care i just wanted to play my anger away and then lina said, "hey.. keep it down. you're good and we know it already."

and when i was stuck with my cme role model project and i asked her who was hers and she effing said i am. then it got awkward and i showed her my finger and said, "whos your role model now?"

i know i know i know.. imma baaad sister. i just dont react well in such situation where im caught off guard.

syak cleaned the room this morning and a song 1, 2 step by ciara and missy elliot came on air and can you believe that she knows every single word to that song!? she was singing along in that cute(so sriee says) voice and even changed her tone a bit when she got to elliot's part!!

so cute!

sigh.

i love my sisters. id die if they read this. hahaha. but yea(: being the eldest sucks but they make it fun for me.