..i was having one of those feeling: that i wanna be somewhere, i wanna go anywhere..but home. not that something's wrong with my home. my home's great.

i just dont feel like going back so soon.

hung out with nana at the canteen while waiting for her chem lesson when i should be having geography going home. even she was like, "go home lar, lelaa. go home and play your guitar."

what, i cant be here stoning with my friend!? i miss her loads la.. Crazy and still as vulgar as ever, nanawaty rais.

i envy those people who can just, you know, talk..about whatever under the sun. random shit and stuff. about what they have done, events that happened, gonna happen you get my idea. im talking about spontaneity.

i was just sitting there beside nana, listening to her talk (: and i went like, wow this girl can go on forever.. hahha. of course, i mean it in a good way. actually id take it as a compliment, seeing that im not really much of a talker or a conversationalist and haaating it!

who'd wanna have a conversation with a tombstone? i bet the tombstone's far more interesting than i am..? hahha. ..no, no. im fine, really. im just saaaying. so you could get an idea what type of bullshit i can be..

when nana asked me 'whats been happening', i just.. blanka (as quoted from hannan)! dont get me wrong, things have been happening even im not thaaaaaaaaaat boring. see how much i put an emphasis on that? yea. take note!

talk? i can talk. i feel i talk too much sometimes too. thing is, trying to get me to open up is like trying to open a can without the can-opener. sure, inventions have make it less tricky to open cans now but still.. you need lots of patience and understanding with me.

did i tell you i oversleep yesterday, hence didnt attend school? (: though i could still come for amaths, history and physics, i didnt because..aw man. give me a break. its the hols!!

so i came today, to find out there's no emaths!!!!!! i was like all psyched up but in the end, no maths! so it was just ken, sriee, hannan, valencia and i, and a couple of other kids who didnt know about the change.

miss v. tan intimidates me.. and i hate being intimidated. who does?

she asked me why i was absent the day before. naturally she was a little disturbed about it. so why was she smiling..? hells yea she was smiling. really wide too.

i told her i overslept. lame. pfft.. cliche. whatever. its the truth. ..well, partially. but i know she knows i was too lazy... it was raining yesterday, helluu!!? i know, silly excuse but hey. im just being the 16-year-old teenage girl that i am.

"overslept? so it's your alarm clock's fault la?"

the polite, out-of-this-world-ly responsible part of me wanted to go, "no, ma'am. it was my fault. i kept hitting the snooze button which in the end didnt work quite right, which is my fault. i apologize for my absence and ill make sure it wont happen again."

but remember how i mentioned she was smiling from ear to ear, it drove me insane. i wasnt sure if i should be serious or.. you know, kid around a little. show her a little wit. so in the end i just smiled dumbly at her.

"so what happens now? you missed yeterday's lesson."

"oh. i went through it on my own yesterday," i said boldly, which i thought she should be proud of me for being the independent learner that i am (if im not too lazy). but no!!

"so you dont need me anymore la? dont need a teacher. can read and do on your own?" irgh she was smiling that trademark smile again.

naturally when someone smiles at you, you'll smile back almost automatically. but with miss tan, its a whole different concept altogether. her smile's like this sick smile those mad scientists always have and i feel like im the guinea pig.

dont get me wrong. im not bitching about miss tan. in fact, i think shes a marvellous teacher. (chengz still the best, though.) its just that shes so intimidating......

it's miss angela lim's 46th birthday!!!! hhahahhahaha!!!!!!!!! ..of course shes not 46. hahahha. 20-plus, most likely..? but yea. its her birthday!!! (((:

so yea. after that, hung out with nana, meya, xueling and yea.

1.30pm. nana left for chem and i headed for home. so she thought. i called up lina..i mean, sergeant lina! hahah.. asked what she was up to. wanted to grab lunch with her but shes going off for another camp. in fact, shes already off.. will be back on saturday!!! gonna miss her loads!!!! ):

so i was at the bus stop. totally lost. well. you know, like those situation where suddenly you just go "nerr.. now what?" haha. yea. so there. and then it happened.

i saw him. him as in hiim. ..(: well. he was in the car. backseat of course. grey car. it was the traffic and it slowing down.. and well, he was looking out the window at..somewhere at my direction.. thats how i saw him. he was looking very fly nonetheless. and well yea. it just.. it was so.... i felt so high all of a sudden.

but i told myself.. shit im hallucinating!!!! i need food in my system!!!

i called my mom.. she was more than obliged to have lunch with me (; promised to meet at tp and tp was filled with peirceans. especially kfc. very convenient. didnt want to bump into anybody i know so i hid in yamaha (:

the middle aged malay guy was there (: and i was glad he still remembered me. the crazy girl who looked like she was gonna run off with one of his guitar..... hah kidding.

i picked up the nearest acoustic guitar (with a high tech mic built inside it!! how cool!!!!) and started playing like its the most natural thing on earth.

it is natural, in fact. i feel natural. ....i belong here!!!! hahahha.

he reckoned i can play the guitar!!!! aaahah!H!haha!! i think its one hell of a compliment. i mean, coming from a pro like him and that ive got no lessons whatsoeffing. he asked what im here for since i already have a guitar.

yea i have. but............. i want a new one, not a second hand one like the one i have now..? specifically i want that gorgeous red one thats locked up in that room there. i want to buy it. with own money. not a present from anyone. i want that sort of satisfied feeling of having accomplished something.

sigh.

mom arrived. with little sister, syak. ohkayyy....... mom saw me with the guitar and the guy and she got pretty.. suspicious? later on she admitted that she thought i had dragged her 'for lunch' to 'make her buy me a guitar'.

....maybe i could do that. nyehehehehe.

mom wants to catch the movie ghost train tomorrow.tomorrow ive got so many plaaans! well. kindarf.

"lelaa. going for class outing tomorrow at sentosa?" sweetie norine asked.
"hm. i dont know?"
"go leh. must go."
"haaa.."
"wahlao. antisocial!!!!"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! so im no social butterfly but that dont mean im antisocial. i love people. i love them alot......

"syahirah might be coming," i said.
"good good. we meet at ang mo kio mrt first?"
"hahahha.. making plans already? that is if im going?"

and then tabi came along and was like, "lelaa.. wanna go meiyun's party? it's tomorrow.."

"tomorrow!? hahahahaa!" i glanced at norine and she was like, "..." hahahah!!!

i wanted to ask who is meiyun but that would be rude. but then again, attending someone's party which you're not formally invited to is pretty rude too dont you reckon!? hahaha!!! but tabi says i could be there because there's some 'band stuff' going on and she knows ive been dyyying to see her band perform (:

and my mom wants to catch a movie tomorrow.

:D

hahah i wanna end my post for now. but i just dont know how to...? hahahah. okie how about byebye? but its like.. all those crap and suddenly byebye??? haha.

hate byebyes.