Hiiieee :))) Feeling soooo lost. but its not abt him or anything. its more like... abt me? im lost in me? LoLS tat sounds very weird. hahHAha.. nahh. im just a lil confused. sighh..

not sure wher i stand. not shur wher we stand.

whats going on?

and turned out he's alive.. well. din see him at all in skool. sriee saw him, tho. and i think i pretty much got her pissed off.

HAHhaha!!~ cuz i was like, 'r u sure tat was himm?!!' 'yesss lela. i saw himmm.' 'but it cant be!!! hes supposed to b dead.' 'it was him.' 'thn how come u din tell me? u noe? gimme a sign or something... how was my hair?'

i cudn sleep during emaths just now. cuz was figuring out tis graphical shiet thingie and at the same time, sakura was humming... 'it's so hot. im gonna burn.... so hot. hot oh so hot. im gonna burnn. burn burrrnnn..' over and over and over and over again.....

and she was bugging me wad is something times sumthingg. frustrated, i told her off. thers such thing as calculators. turned out hers was malfunctioning [?] so i lent her mine. and she started humming agaaainn... my calculator is not working.. my calculator. not working. lela's calculator is. my calculator is not. lela's calculator is... sri's calculator? i do not know. but my calculator is not working. lela's calculator is..' and times a million more. over again. like a tape recorder. which i wud haf crushed it wit my wallet if i wasn laughin so badly.

OmG i CaNnOT beLiEVe iM AcTuALLy writIng tAt WHoLE lORd oF cRap hERE and UR reAdiNg iT.. hehs.

im crazyyyy..

haishh. i cried in the shower just now :\ isn tat weird? hAHhAa. just.. cried. and it's not, i repeat, *NOT* abt him [i even put '*' to emphasize to yall..]. cuz i dun cry over/cuz of/for any guy. i got out of the toilet, red eyed and lina was like looking at me like ive grown an extra head. whard? cant a girl cry?

hes alive, positive.. its time for plan b. but ive got other things to agonize abt. like wher is my squash racket!?!! imma let him off for now (: anyway, i still do like him. a teeny bit. but id like him more if hes dead.

ps// oeiii!! anyone knows how to play squash here?!?!!