It was really annoying. All three buses in a row refused to stop. That was because they were full. yehh, man. nabz and i were seriously getting frustrated. so in the end we got to school 7.25 am. weird thing was: not a single double deck bus. uh huh uh huhh.

sakura got hit by a paper plane this morning during reading. at first we saw planes being thrown and all. and sakura was like, 'if that thing ever hit me....' and thn it did. hell yeahh. if you heard someone going, 'sial la!!', that was her.

hahahaa. hehh. kuo en said im cute!! Hahaha. okay laarh. she didn't really say it straight to my face.. as usual, they were teasing me because of my 'incredible' height. and then kuo en was like saying something to yuwen in mandarin. i heard my name being mentioned and the word, 'ke ai'.

ke ai means cute right? "Haha. did you say cute? me? i know.. heheh." and then she said, "Ya lorhh!!! remember sec 2 camp at labrador? we both same group right? yehh. everytime i stood beside you, i had to really look down lorhh! very short short one, very cute lehh!"

i was like... wow. -blushes- whooa wait. sec2 only? now lehh?

we played badminton during pe. so fun! sriee rawcks! all she did was just stand one corner of the court with that lazy look on her face. she refused to budge or move a muscle. "i only hit the cock when its coming my direction. i don't go to the cock, the cock come to me." hehh.

hahaha.. weijie damned cute. hes gooood. ouhh! xingwai was absent today.. shucks. hes got nice legs.

history was not fun at all. it was creppy in fact. the pictures.. gruesome. and at the end of it, sakura was saying, "prepare yourself, lela. you must get used to it." And i was like.. get used to what? "are you saying what i think you're saying?" "ya what, it could happen. hari nak kiamat. cant you tell? nicoll highway collapsed, that was a sign." "okay. shhush it."

>.<

ohh nurool wants me to tell you all: she aint blogging today because she is tired!! yeahh. give her a break!! hehhs.

i spent whole of recess with nana. -sighs- miss her! we talked about... us. where we stand and all. i don't like the subject at all. but i cant run away from the fact that nana is right.

"I don't know what is happening to our friendship, la."
"nothing has happened, okay? our friendship is not gone or anything. it's still here."
"but for how long??"

ouch. but i was safe by the bell and bala's unmistakable voice through the infamous loudspeaker.

miss khai wants us to empty our desks by friday. sharkks. my bag was darn heavy!! i couldn't wait to go home! that was when suddenly sakura reminded me. group study??? ahhhh. might as well cancel it. sakura couldn't come anyway. shes got sc meeting or something. im not studying with hannan alone.

so i went around school looking for him. okay. i didn't really look for him. couldn't be stuffed. then he smsed saying he wasnt going. so yehh cool. phew. i don't like wednesdays.

"where are you anyway?"
"hehe. on the bus."
"you didn't even bother to tell me first?!"
"i did."
"well, must you get on the bus and then tell me?"
"i tried looking for you."
"*fuming*"
"so sorry."
"... okay so what now?"
"how about do it during recess?"
"no. what i meant was, how you wanna die?"

i think i might have freaked him out. because he didn't reply back. hehhe. hannan, uve always said atiqah is scary. well, i can be scarier.

stayed at the canteen with nana, waiting for aspho. nana was so bored, she started playing with her coins. i was too cheesed off; i was plotting a massive evil plan on hannan. yehh. i want to turn him into a scratch post for my demon kats..

next thing i knew, i was heloing nana looked for her 10cent coin. like a total idiot. hahha. we peeped under the benches and tables, between people's legs too and sherri was like, "lela! rosnah!! what are you doing?" nana was hysterical. "my 10cents!!!" and then everyone was like.. okayyyyee. i suggested she just forget about it. "noo!! that's my bus fare!!!!"

she found it, without much of my help anyway. it was nearly 4. we left. we said a silent goodbye to aspho and went j8 to have lunch.

nana ordered combo meal 1. but somehow she ended up with 3 fish. she was like, "ehhh?! wrong order!" but i went, "no nevermindd!!" i was about to help myself when the girl by the counter got up to us and took it away. darn it. should have taken some of the fries first.

hahaha. just this morning i read up about honesty.

yesterday norine taught me how to make a popping sound using straws. i got like six straws, and tried it. i did it like how norine did it, and then got nana to flick it. nahh didn't work. then suddenly we heard a loud pop coming from the table beside us. this buncha guys were tightening the straws at the edges and flicking it. nana was impressed. "like that issit?" I nodded my head vigorously. "yess! like that!!!"

we talked while we ate. mann. she asked me if i thought she had changed. again, i was saved. hannan smsed. his reply: i don't want to die young. i want to feel what its like to make love.

congrats. youve made me lose my appetite.

"well, uve got until tomorrow to do that."
"whhhyyyyy!!"
"do you mind, im having lunch right now. by the mean time, you go prepare a will or a death wish or something..."

i was smirking away. heheh. too bad that didn't last long. "so u think ive changed?" i thought for a while and then, "things happen. they cannot stay the same forever. they change. and people change too." i don't think she likes what i had to sayy....

as i made my way back home, i recalled what nana asked:

how long our friendship will last? well it depends on you. and me. and .. yehh. developing a friendship and keeping it, holding on to it, is never easy. it takes a hell lot of effort. this whole 2 years ive known you guys, are the best years ive ever lived. we've had soooo much fun together! the staying back after school back when we were secondary one, the very first pic we took in secondary two and those funny bits that happened during pe and music last year.... i still laugh just thinking about it.

we all may seem very distant nowadays. but that doesn't mean i've forgotten you guys. that is lame, okay? doesn't mean im never around you guys now means im not your friend. i still am, very proudly. but its really about you. do you still consider me your friend?

i don't want our friendship to end. there's just too much to lose. think about it.

if ive hurt you in any way, im sorry. but please, i beg you, please if you are not happy with me, or hurt because of me, come forward and tell it to my face. tell me what i did was wrong, tell me if there is any way to make it up. it hurts me to see you mad at me. and it hurts a lot more not knowing why.