I said stuff that might offend him.
Like when I insulted mel.
but i apologized to him after that..
even though i know he's cool about it.
i mean, it's not him to take jokes seriously.
i haaad to apologize
because its my nature to.
or else i won't sleep that night.

so i said sorry the next day.
he didn't even know i had offended him.
maybe i hadn't.
not that harsh that i thought i might have been.

but this time it was different.
because i didn't apologize.
because he ticked me off.
he didn't know it, maybe.
but hell he did.
so i showed him some attitude.
or maybe i didn't.
by that, i meant i didnt really 'entertain' to his stuff.
must have bored him.
and he logged off without saying 'later..'

this is not like him.
if he happened to get disconnected,
he would text me like he always does,
and apologized,
even though initially i found it silly.

am i a bore?
do i bitch too much?
maybe i don't bitch too much.
which brings back to square one:
am i a bore?

its alright.
ill figure me out.

gonna put up the convo i had with him
the night of the picnic..
i had planned to put it up
that day itself but nahh..
i'm perky and pacy, by the wayy.

promise me you will be there says:
how would you handle with an annoying BOY
perky and pacy says:
you mean you?
promise me you will be there says:
no
promise me you will be there says:
if any
promise me you will be there says:
so how/
promise me you will be there says:
what will you do
promise me you will be there says:
forget it..
promise me you will be there says:
anyways... how's riduan?
promise me you will be there says:
you love him dont you
perky and pacy says:
riduan? i dont love riduan.
perky and pacy says:
you meant ridwan?
perky and pacy says:
not that i love ridwan or anything.
perky and pacy says:
im just saying. anyway.
perky and pacy says:
if i like that annoying boy, or if i know he's more than just an annoying person, id b glad to b friends with him.
promise me you will be there says:
okay
promise me you will be there says:
what about...
promise me you will be there says:
riduan
perky and pacy says:
which riduan..
promise me you will be there says:
tha same one
perky and pacy says:
i dont like any riduans
promise me you will be there says:
okay.. guess next year's all about the O LEVELS
perky and pacy says:
yes it is.
perky and pacy says:
screw everything and everyone else who 'hate' you.
promise me you will be there says:
hahaha
promise me you will be there says:
yea
perky and pacy says:
yehh
promise me you will be there says:
guess next year wont be about being glamourous... or egoistic... or whatever
promise me you will be there says:
it'll just be about the studies
perky and pacy says:
but dont forget to have fun.
perky and pacy says:
all studying and no fun makes one (fill in the blanks.)
promise me you will be there says:
BURN?
perky and pacy says:
cudn think of any word better
promise me you will be there sends:
my_chemical_romance-i'm_not_okay
promise me you will be there says:
listen to this
promise me you will be there says:
you might like it
promise me you will be there says:
okay
promise me you will be there says:
im going off as it finished
promise me you will be there says:
finishes
promise me you will be there says:
later...
you make me fed up this year i won't get you anything ar.. says:
sso soon?

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promise me you will be there says:
i'll be fasting tmr
promise me you will be there says:
hahaha
you make me fed up this year i won't get you anything ar.. says:
hahahahhah
promise me you will be there says:
:)
now that that reminded me,
i haven't really listen to that song he sent.
so.
imma go listen to that song he sent.
later.

but what about that whole riduan thingie?

i go figure.
or not.