"all my friends with the name 'han' is all very good looking, you know? and hannan's not that bad himself!"

i was like, gawking at miss khai going, ..you.have.got.to.be.kidding.me..

hahah joke(: i cant say that about a friend, can i.. wahahhahahhapfffthahhahaha. but really, that was what miss khai said to the class about him like as though he wasn't there.

anyways.. he's not the only one who has found himself an eye candy(: (aherm aherm.. hahah shh!!) anyway yehhh. back to me.. i found myself one too! so cool((:

okie laa. i don't like him or anything. i lOve him!

hahahhah joke!!!!

im feeling very cheeky today. cheeky tuesday. kinda have a ring to it, doesn't it?

anyway!! i say i love him because he makes me smile.. but not like those you see on couples faces. no no. hahha. that would be gross because we don't know each other very well. even though we're in the same class.

hahahhahahhaha biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig hint(:

actually no. haahahha. gotcha.

shit dejavu. seemed like ive written those before. haha. no surprise!!!!

they say if you bump into that someone you like, you get all nervousy and no matter what, you can't bring yourself to smile without looking like you're constipated.. but if you bump into someone you love, instantly you'll smile probably without even realizing it.

so yeh i love him.

im not joking this tiime. im not even smiling.

hahah joke. because im smiling now. smiling like crazy. smiling so wide id probably stay this way permanently.

they say.. (okie no. i make this one up but really i think its true..) when you like someone, die die must be a secret. but if you love someone, die die wanna let the whole universe know((((:

i love hiiiiiiiim.

don't cringe or anything. whats wrong with expressing yourself, hm? its not wrong.

its silly. hahahha. it is silly. i mean, it would be really sweet and all if that person actually knows about it and hes reading this and going, hahah i love her tooo! but no hes not!

..at least i don't think so!.. so its silly! a waste of time!!! BUT prefectly awright((: i won't lose a limb or anything, will i? checks-. yup. all intact.

okie. enough of the cheekiness....

you see your friend in tears. or feeling kinda sad and bluue. what would you do?

for me, i would.. i would be like in a totally helpless state. initially la. i stare at friend, and stare some more. just dont know what to do next. i mean, i don't know. anything BUT ask whats wrong..

like that time with nurool where she broke down right in front of me and all i did was just.. stare at her, and going shit shit shit.. then shahina from far ran to us and hugged her tight.

i just cant do that. not the huggy type i guess.

and i do not do sympathy either. i feel its insensitive.. in a way. let friend tell me whats wrong when friend feels like it. maybe friend will never feel like sharing. but ill respect that(:

ive read somewhere.. never ask whats wrong. find out whats wrong. then again, since when you need to know whats wrong to help? what, if its something trivial, you would think twice about helping?

okie i wont completely ignore friend or anything. it seems that way but no.. im more of a listener than an advisor, or.. a talker or whatever. im not good with words. verbally. and i dont mean listen as in, what friend has to say. i listen to what friends dont say.

ill cry with friend. doesnt sound very helpful but thats better than trying to cheer friend up but end up making friend worst.

twins did that once(: twice actually. something terrible happened to me and i was seriously crying and bawling my eyes out. they sat next to me and cried with me. and oh yeh fuck to those staring(:

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oh. i love hiiiim! hahaha.

and i love yall too(: mmmmmmwaah.