i woke up to find lina all dressed up for school. "omigosh..its monday's already!?!!" i jumped down from my bed.."i know time fliies but this is just crazy!!".. and handed on..my sister's camping bag. .."...oh."

lina's always away on ncc camps. how funn ): and she always comes back tanned and toned.. and we will always make fun of her when her face starts peeling.

its just another way of saying that she's been missed(:

it's a saturday. aspho's gifts.... nyehehehehhehehe.

nana and i were really really quiet the whole journey to taka. at the mrt, nothing said. i hate the mrt!! its like, its such a weird place to be. when you're standing, you could feel people staring at you from all angles. and when you're sitting, you're just not sure where you should look at.....

the only time nana spoke to me was when she called my name because i was walking the wrong way.

..my sense of direction sucks. when was the last time i was here?

takashimaya brings back fond and not so fond memories. yea. i got lost here when i was young. it was me and my dad(yea it was usually him who took me to places like these).

i was fascinated by the biig fish tank so i refused to budge from there. just stared up at it at those colourful fishes.

fishes have always mystify me when i was a kid.... maybe because dad took me out fishing at bishan park(yup..that was my dad. how do you spell my dad's name you ask? its f-u-n..(:) and ever since then i loved fishes.

ironic huh.. because i watched my dad rail in fishes struggling to stay alive and there i was squeeeling going, "wheee!! papa got pish!!!!!"

i loved fish so much i got dad to get me a pet fish..and he gave me a whole aquarium~ we had a luohan!!!!!(: and goldfish. and this fish which looked like pirahnas. honest!!!!! we even had mudsuckers... err.. that weird fish which sticks to the side of the glass tanks and sucks and feeds on algaes. yup.

would help dad to clean up the tank every month or so because it could get real dirtyyy. i loved cleaning the tank. dad used this.. thingie which sucked the dirty water from the tank and then we would use this long hose to fill it up with clean water. then dad would add this colouring which gives the water a unique colour..almost bluue and its real pretty when you lit it up(((((:

but the fun bit was catching the fish and placing them into another temporary tank~ especially those big ones which splashed about and made the floor all wet and then gmum would get pissed off because she was afraid she might slip and fall. hahhaha.

ahhh((((: i miss dad sooo much.

you know thomson plaza(was named Yuohan last time, if im not wrong) used to have this small fish tank at the entrance just after the sliding doors and whenever we went there, i would skip to the tank and staaare(((:

and there was one i was having this religious class thingie over at my neighbour's. it was my first day and i was excited. he had this coool aquarium with this heeeeuge fish and i nonchalantly got up in the middle of the lesson and announced, "excuse me. i wanna see pish!" and then now and then i would brag, "my pish at home, biggerr.."

i was, what..5? that was also the last time gmum took me there...

anyway, back to the taka incident.

my dad called me back but i didn't want to go home yet. i wanted to look at those 'pish'. and that particularly funny looking angry fish with eyes sticking out like hammers. ..yea. hammer-head sharks.

i saw it attacking other smaller fish and i got scared. i turned around and my dad was gone. uh-oh. suddenly everyone there looked like hammerhead sharks and i just starting going crazy.

have you ever got lost before? if you had, you'd understand. it was terrifyyying. i couldnt recall what happened after i went crazy. haha. but we rejoiced, me and dad. we went straight home after that and i remembered momma lecturing dad when we told her that i got lost.. hah.

ahhhh.. ((((((((: bittersweet memoriess.

i wish we still had the aquarium. i used to love to stare at it. my other sisters watched tv, but i watched the fishes swim around those fake aquatic plants and fake little caves. we even had a little plastic diver, complete with oxygen tank.. hahha. and i would bring it small stones from outside and decorate the tank with it.

but we had to get rid of the aaquarium because we got tired of it. well. i didn't. but since dad passed away, suddenly the fishes werent interesting to watch anymore. they didnt play like they used to. as if they were mourning like we were. and cleaning it up was not the same without dad so we let go. (mom sucked at catcing the fishes.) we released the fishes into the pond at bishan park(((:

wait how did i get to the topic of fish?

actually its been in my mind the whooole day. nana kept asking why i was quiet and if i were to tell her, its fish, she would think im crazy. so i told her i was just hungry. and she gave me a macs coupon. fillet meal.

hmmm.

i love fish. but i dont eat them. wait. wrong.. i dont eat fish. i love them. ah what am i saying!?

so we got atiqa's gift and its this heeeuge heart with glitters and a pair of wiings. its the bestest. then nana got her a pink daisy. or garbera, so nana said. yea. it was the prettiest(:

she met us and we gave her the present. she was delirious..happy. we were happy she was happy. yet there was something missing.

qah asked for a hug right there at the mrt.

flashback.. the day i got lost and dad and i were at the mrt.. it got crowded as people started alighting from the train. didnt want me to get lost again, dad told me to hug him tight. and i did and i cried all over again.

irgh im getting emotional.. all these crazy memories rushing to me, some id rather not think about.

okie. deep breath.

then nana and i went to ang mo kio library, which i hadn been to ever since it was renovated. its that the word? yea, the library brings more memories........sighhhhh.

well, the old building yea. its all new and different now. it was my first time stepping inside.

i could still remember the old library..... there wasnt machines that time. we had moody looking librarians who stamped the books. haha.

my first library card there.. getting it was like getting a credit card. i was so proud of it i showed it off to my friends. not forgetting my first fine. hahha. then dad purchased the cash card for me and it felt like a real credit card. hahahha.

i loved the old library(: you know my first best friend was a guy???! yea! i was pri2 and his name was fitri. he was just a classmate(we had been since kindergarten) until we bumped into each other at the library. then we became best friends.

well.. pri2 definition of best friend is not as complicated as now, see. (: we used to sit next to each other in class, held hands while going down for recess(you know how primary sch teachers go "hand your partner's hands and walk two-by-twos!" hahha).

then 2 years later, he got transferred. never heard from him ever since.

okie how did i get to this topic now!??!

it was all in my head all along..while nana busied herself with the 'vinci code' book.. ah wth. we had ice cream after that and then i acompanied her to yio chu kang interchange.

ang mo kio library is supa near to my old primary school.. so i wanted to walk home, taking the route i used to take to go home when i studied there. kindar like, memory lane.

but i thought.. nah. enough for today. one girl can only take so much(: